Hi this is rife, Sinclair's boy. Maybe you've read dirty things about me, but that's not the whole story. So what am I up to when not bent over? Well ... I love erotica and porn as much as anyone (honest!), but often when people describe it, we get so hot and heavy talking about the erotic fantasy version of BDSM and the really turned-up power play, and sometimes forget to mention the everyday lived realities and negotiations of it for "24/7" or "live-in" slaves, like me. These real-life submissive moments can be mundane, but also deeply satisfying in ways we might never expect.
So what does that stuff look like? You know, all the boring, in-between times where we try to keep the dynamic hot and tight and present, despite jobs and obligations and sick days and the general upkeep involved with not living in a fantasy world? That's what I'm here to share. (I'll try to get your rocks off another time, promise.)
Disclaimer: The following is a true account of my personal experience with live-in submission versus my fantasy version of it. This is only my experience, and please don't take me too seriously, or assume this is The Way It Is for all slaves or s-types. I'm just speaking for me, here. This is not the right way, just the right way for me.
Submissive Fantasy Morning
7:00 AM Slide out of my spot at the foot of the bed bed before dawn, silently padding out to not disturb the sleeping Dominant.
7:03 AM Shower and shave my cunt with the straight razor, then put on the jock strap that Master left out for me the night before. Wearing only that, I start prepping Master their favorite breakfast, and have it ready on the table when they awake, with ice water with lime, their pills, and morning tea prepared (but not too hot).
8:00 AM Spanking with the wooden spoon over Daddy's knee because I've not cut the onions small enough. Everything else was delicious.
8:15 AM Set up the office for Master's work day; the heat is up, the shades are drawn, music is on. Sit at Master's feet and await further orders.
9:00 AM Time for my daily fitness routine. Make sure Master doesn't need anything, and I go to the little gym equipment in the corner. Master looks up from their work from time to time to watch, singletail in hand in case I should slack off. I make soft, sexy grunting sounds while I pump iron.
10:00 AM Help Master with their website and work tasks, check in on the Submissive Playground forums and emails.
Submissive Reality Morning
7:04 AM First alarm goes off. Wake up warm and cozy in Daddy's arms, curl around tighter and hit snooze.
7:48 AM Three snoozes later, we stir. We tell each other our dreams and dirty stories, and end up fooling around some.
8:15 AM I groggily ask permission to leave the bed.
8:16 AM Why is it always so cold in this house?! Throw on last night's PJs from the floor and a big fluffy robe. I go pee, as directed, so I don't get another UTI.
8:21 AM Daddy finds me staring at the coffee pot and takes over making breakfast. I'm delegated to chopping and fetching duty, out of the way.
8:27 AM I put away last night's dishes and set the table for breakfast. "Can we eat outside, Daddy?" "No, boy. It's still too cold out." "Okay, Sir." Breakfast is delicious. I thank them lots and apologize for being useless in the morning for about the billionth time. I make the bed like Daddy likes it.
9:00 AM The first round of dishes for today; why does Daddy need so many bowls to scramble eggs?
9:15 AM Planning the day, picking the Most Important Tasks from my boy chores list, and reminding myself, what was that new protocol this week...?
9:22 AM "Daddy, may I use the restroom please?"
9:24 AM Sweep the kitchen floor (didn't I just do this yesterday? I'm pretty sure I did) and settle in to work.
9:45 AM Email and other admin tasks for my small business, on a cushion in the living room floor, not at their feet, but where Daddy can see me.
Submissive Fantasy Afternoon
1:15 PM Pleasure Master Orally.
2:15 PM Pleasure Master Orally.
3:15 PM Pleasure Master Orally.
4:15 PM Pleasure Master Orally.
5:15 PM Pleasure Master Orally ... What do submissives do all day in their fantasies? I.. uh, take a nap maybe? Oh, do some personal grooming! Definitely. And... practice my guitar and other pleasing arts.
6:30 PM - Midnight SEXUAL RELATIONS BDSM FUNTIMES EVERY DAY. Whips and chains and shit in our own personal dungeon in the basement (which is totally not creepy and filled with old mattresses and feral cats, in this fantasy universe).
Submissive Reality Afternoon
1:00 PM Second set of dishes for the day, from lunch and the coffeepot, which is regrettably empty.
1:00 PM - 3:45 PM Work at my job, building websites and mobile apps and stuff. This month I have a variety of fun projects (and the normal cadre of boring ones, too).
3:45 PM "May I use the restroom, Sir?" "Yes, go ahead, boy. Give me a kiss first." (I also refill their water while I'm up.)
3:48 PM Back to work. Probably time for a tea and fruit break. I offer Master some but they decline.
3:50 PM- 6:00 PM Work, work, work. Small breaks to pay bills and walk the dog.
6:01 PM Freedom!! "Daddy, can we go for a walk? Please, please?"
6:22 PM Night hike around our favorite little lake, followed by dinner at that Thai place I'm not crazy about by Master is really into. Daddy orders for both of us and I ask before sitting.
8:00 PM Catching up on some Downton Abbey. We are way behind. I'm invited onto the couch!
10:00 PM We play cribbage because we are basically old people. Daddy kicks my ass this time.
11:00 PM Where did the time go? I brush my teeth and pick out a bedtime story, strip down to sleep naked and ask permission to get in bed, as I should, grateful for my real-life Daddy and deep spiritual submission. Even when it means doing the dishes 3 times a day.
Okay, so there you have it. My day-in-the-life of your average, everyday sex slave (results not typical. Your mileage may vary). I notice some big differences between the fantasy realm and the real-life versions, namely: hurray! In the fantasy, I don't have to work because Master supports us both. You know, because writing smut and giving it away for free on the internet is so lucrative (eyeroll).
It hasn't always been this way, though. The first year and a half of our relationship, we could basically keep the fantasy up, fuck and play the vast majority of our time together. The secret? We only saw each other on weekends, at conventions or hotels (where someone else did the laundry and everything else could wait). I highly recommend long-distance D/s if you want to live your fantasies (and who doesn't?), it is super fun.
But eventually, we wanted more. The thing about the boring in-between times, the sick days and hours of bad TV and cuddling and cleaning house, is that that's most of what our lives are made of. And there came a point, at least in my life, where that reality of intimacy with another human became preferable to even my best fantasy. That, my friends, is called winning.
Now, I'm not saying we don't still have marathon fuck sessions or break out the implements o' destruction from time to time (because oh, we do). But when I imagine that kind of intensity every day, I kind of lose my boner for it. I remember before we moved in together I was genuinely scared: What if I could just never sit down again because of all the bruises on top of bruises?
We did it anyway, though it was scary as hell. Finally, that "monstrous want" of Master's calmed down. Don't worry, it's still here, but channeled. We found ways to feed it, even on random Wednesdays when we both had to work, that didn't involve making me purple all over or quitting my job and forsaking all other obligations. We found some kind of... balance.
I'm not going to blather on about my history and congratulate myself on getting here, to "living the dream" of live-in submission. Because honestly, I'm still new at this, and finding my way. But I will tell you this: It doesn't happen by accident. You have to look for it, hard, for years sometimes (ten in my case!). You have to work your ass off to be worthy of it when it does show up. I wish the same for you, sincerely, that you can make the steps to actualize your fantasies and fantasize the reality, until it's hard for you to untangle them, too.
Still, I'll take the reality any day.
PS: Are you another submissive looking for community? I'll be active in the forums and chat and video calls during the Submissive Playground. I love it there! No other place on the internet have I found such an active, supportive community of true peers. I'm honored to know all the players. I'd like to invite you to join me there, but you'd have to act super fast—registration closes tomorrow!