king of disks

it is enough to have gone through this ordeal
it is enough to have sought the diamond
hard and bright within
it is enough to have sat still and let the pain wash,
wash, wash, and drain away
it is enough to have been so giving, so for
giving that creation was made

raw creativity sprang forth
and with it, raw power
the ability to make
to survive
to quiet
to live

the rules come from the deep
they come from the pressure needed to aim
to fire, to be a ball shot from a cannon
the focus it takes to go this way instead of that
means denying, means confining

it’s not practice anymore
the earth lends all its power through the root
filling everything inside
the inner world rich and bright
the outer world finally catching up
finally reflecting
finally abundant
finally alive

family is manifest
rituals are ancient
authority is earned
protocols are purposeful
aim is strong and true
striving is over

find the peace that comes with surviving
relax in the trust of the heart of the master

I’ve been posting more of my recent tarot practice on instagram, go over there if you want to follow.

Published by Sinclair Sexsmith

Sinclair Sexsmith (they/them) is "the best-known butch erotica writer whose kinky, groundbreaking stories have turned on countless queers" (AfterEllen), who "is in all the books, wins all the awards, speaks at all the panels and readings, knows all the stuff, and writes for all the places" (Autostraddle). ​Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. They identify as a white non-binary butch dominant, a survivor, and an introvert, and they live outside Seattle as an uninvited settler on traditional, ancestral, & unceded Snoqualmie land.

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