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[Video] Sugar & Spice: Spicy Queer Kink Erotica Showcase

Here’s the replay for the Sugar & Spice Spicy Showcase!

Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading
Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET
hosted by Stina French
featuring: Kiki DeLovely
and:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
Lokchi
Tavia
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett

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Zoom chat during Sugar & Spice
00:20:53 Stina French: welcome everyone!
00:20:55 Sinclair | they/them: hi all!!
00:21:00 Stina French: we’re just getting settled together as everyone arrives!
00:21:08 Sinclair | they/them: the song is morally grey — https://open.spotify.com/track/0OKMe15oWhcOevZ2hggnrG?si=d2f4e6431f064447
00:21:15 Dawn Davis: ummmm…. yummy music
00:21:17 Sinclair | they/them: welcome welcome
00:21:23 Lore Hershey: The music tho
00:21:28 Sinclair | they/them: little bit of music as we get going
00:21:37 Deshawn Dazevedo: Happy Sunday!
00:21:48 Stina French: happy happy day of holy collective eroticism!
00:21:56 Dawn Davis: Is that pussy lapdance, Sinclair?
00:22:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “happy happy day of h…” with 🥵
00:22:02 Stina French: we’ll start soon
00:22:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Is that pussy lapdan…” with 😂
00:22:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Is that pussy lapdan…”

basically
00:22:09 Stina French: is everyone breathing deep? down into the belly?
00:22:13 Lore Hershey: Replying to “happy happy day of h…”

Our favorite place for Sunday worship
00:22:22 Kiki DeLovely: Welcome, everyone! 💋💋
00:22:41 Dawn Davis: Oregon
00:22:43 Alana: NY!
00:22:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: add ❤️
00:22:46 Lucy Rose: PA!
00:22:49 Adriel Wilson: CT
00:22:49 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: NC!!!!
00:22:50 Deshawn Dazevedo: NC!
00:22:52 nik valkov: im in guelph ! (near toronto)
00:22:52 Lore Hershey: Northern VA!
00:22:53 Melody: CA
00:22:55 Jezebel Jett: CA
00:22:56 michelle: ny!
00:22:58 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Bull City
00:22:59 Mac Brydum: Seattle
00:23:01 Sixxten Maelor: Manchester, UK
00:23:02 Sinclair | they/them: pacific time! good morning! duwamish / coast salish land
00:23:03 Alanna S: yorkshire, UK
00:23:07 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “yorkshire, UK” with ❤️
00:23:17 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAA E
00:23:21 Deshawn Dazevedo: Heyy Ivyyy
00:23:21 Phil Richi: Amsterdam
00:23:22 Sinclair | they/them: you love new york, you need new york, you know you need unique new york
00:23:30 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Reacted to “Heyy Ivyyy” with ❤️
00:23:36 Melody: Ohlone Land
00:23:38 Lore Hershey: Calling in from Piscataway land
00:23:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Mountain Time / Treaty 6 Territory! <3
00:23:58 Max Pearl: Kashia Pomo land
00:24:30 Adriel Wilson: Wangunk land
00:24:37 Kiki DeLovely: Occaneechi-Saponi land
00:24:47 E (she/her): Reacted to “YAAAAA E” with 💜
00:25:56 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com has all the info!!
00:25:57 Lucy Rose: It’s the best!! Would recommend 10/10 🙂
00:26:03 Lore Hershey: It’s phenomenal – def take it!
00:26:11 Jezebel Jett: Best workshop ever!
00:26:33 Jezebel Jett: And the mostttt fun and lovely people🌈🔥
00:26:39 TJ Aluminumbrat: 11/10 !!
00:26:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “And the mostttt fun …” with ❤️
00:26:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “11/10 !!” with ❤️
00:26:52 Lore Hershey: WHAAAAAAAAA
00:26:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Best workshop ever!” with ❤️
00:26:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “It’s phenomenal – de…” with ❤️
00:26:58 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “And the mostttt fun …” with ❤️
00:26:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “It’s the best!! Woul…” with ❤️
00:27:06 E (she/her): what, affairs? do we have a newsletter
00:27:11 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “what, affairs? do we…” with 😂
00:27:13 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “what, affairs? do we…” with 😂
00:27:20 Lore Hershey: Replying to “what, affairs? do we…”

I think we need one, apparently
00:27:21 Kim R: I haven’t heard of any of this so hello and I’m all ears!
00:27:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I haven’t heard of a…” with ❤️
00:27:31 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I haven’t heard of a…”

yay welcome!!
00:28:41 Leoh Blooms: Hello from Seattle <3
00:28:42 Lore Hershey: 🥵🥵🥵
00:28:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Hello from Seattle <..." with ❤️
00:28:52 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Hello from Seattle <..." hello from seattle too!
00:28:55 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵” with ❤️
00:29:02 Leoh Blooms: Reacted to “hello from seattle t…” with ❤️
00:29:03 Alana: Reacted to “Hello from Seattle <..." with 🥰
00:29:37 Tirzah Villegas: 🔥
00:29:52 Sinclair | they/them: neurodivergent queers FTW
00:30:09 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:19 Adriel Wilson: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 😍
00:30:19 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “neurodivergent queer…”

Is there any other type??
00:30:25 michelle: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:46 E (she/her): Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🎉
00:30:58 RV: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:31:03 Sinclair | they/them: individual readers will give content warnings for their pieces
00:31:13 Sinclair | they/them: but you can generally expect sex & kinky shenanigans

00:31:19 Tirzah Villegas: yaasssss Eli!
00:31:20 Jezebel Jett: Hell yeah Eli!!! 💕🌈🔥
00:31:27 Lucy Rose: yay eli!!!
00:31:28 Sinclair | they/them: eli (they/he) is a trans*, poly, queer, ace, [s]witchy country boi born and raised in Durham, NC. A child of the ocean and a friend of the plants- they are inspired by the ancient, the eternal, and those things that only last a breath. This friendly hermit and hopeful romantic is often found writing about longing, heartbreak, and the various ways of embracing pleasure in the face of it.

You can follow them on Instagram @mouthfullofflowers
http://www.instagram.com/mouthfullofflowers
00:31:30 Lore Hershey: GO ELIIIIIIIIII!!!!! <3
00:31:32 TJ Aluminumbrat: ELIIIIIIII YOU GOT THISSSSSSSSSSS
00:31:34 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyy Eli!!!! 🔥🔥🔥
00:31:48 E (she/her): go Elii!
00:31:57 Sinclair | they/them: fucking epic bio
00:32:00 Deshawn Dazevedo: Let’s go Eliii🙌🏾
00:32:03 E (she/her): wow gorgeous bio
00:32:10 Alanna S: well this is a beautiful bio! what a set up
00:32:12 TJ Aluminumbrat: <3<3<3
00:32:14 Lore Hershey: “Friendly hermit and hopeful romantic” – kindred spirits, Eli 🙂
00:32:15 Lucy Rose: so excited for your reading eli!!! <3
00:32:22 Sinclair | they/them: blush-off!
00:32:26 Adriel Wilson: 💖
00:32:42 Kim R: 😍
00:32:44 Sinclair | they/them: “just take it” !!!
00:32:50 S They/them: 🔥Eli 🙌🏽
00:32:56 E (she/her): “the ancient, the eternal, and those things that only last a breath”
00:33:04 Stina French: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with ❤️
00:33:10 Sixxten Maelor: Go get it, Eli!!!
00:33:10 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with 🥺
00:33:15 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with 🔥
00:33:17 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““the ancient, the et…”

SO GOOD
00:33:18 Stina French: part 1, water: you had me at the title
00:33:31 Stina French: Reacted to ““just take it” !!!” with ❤️
00:33:41 Sinclair | they/them: taste you on the air!!!
00:33:47 Stina French: Replying to ““just take it” !!!”

we will take it. totally here for it.
00:33:50 Lucy Rose: good lord eli! this is gorg
00:33:55 Stina French: Reacted to “blush-off!” with 😂
00:33:56 Adriel Wilson: 🔥
00:33:59 Tirzah Villegas: 🥵 you do that thing
00:34:07 Sinclair | they/them: 😮😮🥵
00:34:08 E (she/her): rhythm you sound into me!
00:34:15 Alana: Eli your work is always so beautiful and erotic
00:34:19 Dawn Davis: Wow. I didn’t expect to cry
00:34:21 E (she/her): sensory! butt ass naked!
00:34:24 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Wow. I didn’t expect…”

I DID
00:34:30 Stina French: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:34:30 Kim R: Drooling here
00:34:40 E (she/her): the nettles story!!
00:34:43 S They/them: Nettles!!
00:34:44 Sinclair | they/them: yesssss nettles
00:34:46 Lore Hershey: “I knew I loved you before I ever said hello, so why would I rush knowing you?” – so, so beautiful
00:34:48 Alana: Yaaaaaa this piece!
00:35:01 E (she/her): Reacted to “”I knew I loved you …” with ➕
00:35:05 Krystal Rubio: Reacted to “”I knew I loved you …” with ➕
00:35:06 TJ Aluminumbrat: Eli you’re so so SO GOOD
00:35:10 Sinclair | they/them: nettles flogger 🥵🥵
00:35:14 Sixxten Maelor: This piece is everything!!!
00:35:18 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkkk
00:35:25 Stina French: the detail! oof
00:35:30 E (she/her): ooh handkerchief. gloves
00:35:35 Sinclair | they/them: ahhhh such a good intro I’m 💀 already and this is only the first reading
00:35:38 RV: Reacted to “nettles flogger 🥵🥵” with 🍃
00:35:38 E (she/her): leaves description!
00:35:51 Jezebel Jett: 🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair knew by putting you as the opener
00:35:52 Lore Hershey: To irritate in all the best ways 🥰
00:35:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Owieeee 🥰
00:35:58 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…” with 🥵
00:36:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…” with 💯
00:36:09 Lore Hershey: Replying to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…”

+1 – Eli opened all of us
00:36:14 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…”

😈
00:36:16 E (she/her): if i were allowed
00:36:17 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with 😮
00:36:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with 🔥
00:36:22 Alana: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with ❤️‍🔥
00:36:23 Sinclair | they/them: damnnnn
00:36:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “if i were allowed” with 🔥
00:36:30 E (she/her): also nettles details
00:36:31 Sixxten Maelor: Anybody else want to follow eli?!?! :)
00:36:33 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “😈” with 😇
00:36:46 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

they’re just leaving you a HOT STAGE
00:36:57 Lore Hershey: I LOVE THE ECOEROTICISM…. LORDY
00:37:02 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I LOVE THE ECOEROTIC…” with 👏
00:37:06 E (she/her): ooh gentleness reaction
00:37:14 Stina French: too soft for you? unghhh that line hits so HARD
00:37:14 E (she/her): blanketed
00:37:21 Stina French: Reacted to “I LOVE THE ECOEROTIC…” with ❤️
00:37:24 Alanna S: Yesssss to nature prose! Love this all
00:37:28 TJ Aluminumbrat: oooooooooh
00:37:32 Stina French: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

THIS
00:37:36 Tirzah Villegas: ooh lawd!! with the breathing!
00:37:42 Lucy Rose: “having no will other than to surrender” whew!!
00:37:48 E (she/her): no will other than to surrender. they both do
00:37:51 Sixxten Maelor: 🔥🔥🔥
00:38:01 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

@Sinclair | they/them almost like the stage is… covered with nettles 😋
00:38:12 Sixxten Maelor: Really wish it was still nettle season right now!
00:38:15 E (she/her): into infinity
00:38:30 E (she/her): sound effect!
00:38:35 Lore Hershey: THE SOUNDSSSSSSS
00:38:35 Deshawn Dazevedo: We all want more!!
00:38:41 Alana: Love the sound effects dayummmm Eli
00:38:42 Dawn Davis: Yes, please. Sound effects.
00:38:43 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵
00:38:47 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Love the sound effec…” with 🥵
00:38:52 Lucy Rose: the sound effects! a real performance!
00:39:03 Sixxten Maelor: I yield the floor for Eli to continue!
00:39:09 Lore Hershey: “I burn to embrace this knowing” 🤩
00:39:11 E (she/her): belong to both of them
00:39:18 E (she/her): bite into the memory
00:39:33 Alanna S: biting into the memory of nettles – what a line!! <3
00:39:37 E (she/her): oh wow
00:39:45 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: 🥵🔥
00:39:46 Sinclair | they/them: most mornings I grieve for the earth … fuck
00:39:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ahhhh oasis
00:39:49 Sinclair | they/them: <3 <3
00:39:57 S They/them: Reacted to “most mornings I grie…” with ‼️
00:39:58 Sinclair | they/them: ME TOO DAWN
00:40:16 Jezebel Jett: So beautiful 😘💕💕🌈
00:40:20 E (she/her): also the belt idea
00:40:26 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “also the belt idea” with 💯
00:40:59 Lore Hershey: Your lyricism is haunting, Eli
00:41:11 E (she/her): the nettles hung around it
00:41:14 E (she/her): love them!
00:41:17 Sinclair | they/them: tell them you love them!!!
00:41:19 E (she/her): looking to be consumed!
00:41:23 S They/them: Tell them you love them!
00:41:35 Lore Hershey: CRYING
00:41:36 Lucy Rose: ELI!!!!!!!!
00:41:41 Deshawn Dazevedo: AAAHHHHH
00:41:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYAAAAAAA
00:41:46 S They/them: Wowwwwwww Eli 🙌🏽🔥
00:41:50 michelle: wowowowowowwwww
00:41:59 Kiki DeLovely: Painful 🥵
00:42:06 Tirzah Villegas: 🔥 I mean I was blushing too
00:42:11 Sinclair | they/them: DAMNNN
00:42:13 Adriel Wilson: fire!!!
00:42:13 Sinclair | they/them: <3
00:42:14 E (she/her): delivered into my own becoming!
00:42:15 Sinclair | they/them: SO GOOD
00:42:26 Lore Hershey: Forever stung by those nettles, in the best way
00:42:29 Alanna S: that entire reading was stunningly beautiful, thank you!

00:42:30 Sinclair | they/them: Sixxten Maelor (she/they) is a forty-something butch Queer kinky polyamorous punk and self-proclaimed science geek. Sixxten was born and raised in Wales, and now makes their home the North of the UK with her two gorgeously weird kids. Often autobiographical, Sixxten’s work explores themes of gender, sexuality and kink; especially stories centred on power exchange and surrender. When not writing, Sixxten can be found building random things from scrap wood, being overly precious about their garden or learning to bootblack on the UK queer leather scene.Find them at @sixxofthebest or @ADHDevience on insta.
00:42:57 Jezebel Jett: Yayyyy Sixxten!!! So excited to hear you read!!! 🌈🔥
00:43:05 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/sixxofthebest http://instagram.com/ADHDevience
00:43:10 Lucy Rose: get ready for this story y’all it is so good!!
00:43:13 Sinclair | they/them: follow the readers y’all!!
00:43:15 Alana: Yayayayayayyyyy❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
00:43:25 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Sixxten!!! 🌶🌶🌶
00:43:40 Sinclair | they/them: OH also, if the readers have any gift book suggestions, spicy or otherwise, you’d like to DM me or drop into the chat (when you read or after), please do!!
00:43:45 E (she/her): omg amazing handdles
00:43:46 Lore Hershey: GO SIXXTEN!
00:44:07 E (she/her): No, we want to hear yours too!!
00:44:10 Stina French: Reacted to “🔥 I mean I was blus…” with ❤️
00:44:13 Lore Hershey: Here for the whiplash
00:44:14 Sinclair | they/them: plain and utter absolute filth!!
00:44:37 Alana: Nothin like some absolute filth on a Sunday afternoon
00:44:44 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Nothin like some abs…” with 🥰
00:44:54 E (she/her): dangle at the edge of orgasm. Oh wow
00:44:56 RV: Replying to “Sixxten Maelor (she/…”

Yessss to the North!
00:45:03 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Yessss to the North!” with ❤️
00:45:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Denial 😩
00:45:08 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Denial 😩” with 🥵
00:45:12 Lucy Rose: loving the pure and utter filth!!
00:45:14 Alanna S: Reacted to “Yessss to the North!” with ❤️
00:45:23 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “loving the pure and …” with 🥰
00:45:24 E (she/her): omg same number
00:45:40 Stina French: follow the readers, yes!::: @mouthfullofflowers @sixxofthebest @ADHDevience
00:45:43 Sinclair | they/them: yesssss
00:45:46 Sinclair | they/them: here’s to daddies getting fucked
00:45:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:24 Sinclair | they/them: my girlfriend is blushing and giggling from the kitchen :)
00:46:34 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:35 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with 🥰
00:46:37 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with 😏
00:46:38 E (she/her): trembling cock!
stubble on cunt!
00:46:38 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:39 Alanna S: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:40 nik valkov: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:45 Stina French: no boy of mine is going to be bad lay
00:46:46 Lucy Rose: this is so cheeky omg i love it
00:46:47 E (she/her): ooh yay for doms bottoming!
00:46:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “no boy of mine is go…” with 💯
00:46:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “no boy of mine is go…” with ‼️
00:47:02 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh yay for docs bot…” with 💯
00:47:05 Stina French: oh. my. let’s do see what that little cock can do!
00:47:05 Lore Hershey: The condescension…. MMMMMMMYUM
00:47:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh yay for docs bot…” with 🔥
00:47:37 E (she/her): ooh craft of it
00:47:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The condescension……” with ❤️
00:47:39 Stina French: i liked paying attention
00:47:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: oooooooooohhhhhhhhhh
00:47:46 E (she/her): omg
00:47:52 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “omg” with ✅
00:47:56 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i liked paying atten…”

Honestly, same
00:48:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “omg” with ✅
00:48:03 Sinclair | they/them: goddamnit why did that line make me tear up
00:48:05 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkk
00:48:12 E (she/her): oh gosh
00:48:22 Alanna S: Replying to “my girlfriend is blu…”

I’m blushing and giggling from the zoom audience!
00:48:22 Lore Hershey: AN OBSCENE WHIMPER 🥵
00:48:34 TJ Aluminumbrat: Hehehehe yeah make him stumble over his words
00:48:35 Alana: Unfff!!!!!!!
00:48:36 TJ Aluminumbrat: !!!!!
00:48:39 Alana: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:48:43 Lucy Rose: omg this is so fun
00:48:46 Sinclair | they/them: whatttt
00:48:58 Dawn Davis: My heart is RACING
00:49:20 Sinclair | they/them: 😮😭🥵
00:49:45 Adriel Wilson: oh my god 🥵🥵🥵
00:49:51 Lore Hershey: The. Degradation. IS. GORGEOUS.
00:49:56 Sinclair | they/them: oh my god
00:50:17 Alana: Lol Sinclairs face
00:50:32 Alanna S: the absolute filth 😍
00:50:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH
00:50:39 Dawn Davis: I didn’t give him any chance to comment
00:50:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: BINGO
00:50:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😶
00:50:49 E (she/her): ooh similar sensations
00:50:51 Sinclair | they/them: add 💯
00:50:56 E (she/her): omg reasonable job
00:50:57 Alanna S: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😂
00:51:02 Sinclair | they/them: “maybe you could try ….” !!!
00:51:08 Sinclair | they/them: the dialogue!!!!!
00:51:09 Sinclair | they/them: wtf
00:51:25 Leoh Blooms: Good lord
00:51:26 Stina French: all muscle memory and defiance
00:51:27 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😂
00:51:28 MB: All muscle memory and defiance
00:51:29 Sinclair | they/them: all muscle memory and defiance!!!!
00:51:36 MB: A popular line!
00:51:39 Lore Hershey: The pace was ferocious, all muscle memory and defiance – HOTTTTTTTTJESUSFUCKINGCHRIST
00:51:53 Stina French: it’s the dialogue for me… but even more so, the inner dialogue, the getting to know of oneself that the protag is doing… unnnngh
00:51:57 Lucy Rose: sinclair’s face!!
00:52:05 E (she/her): Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 👆
00:52:09 Lucy Rose: good god sixxten
00:52:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW
00:52:17 Alanna S: YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE
00:52:18 Tirzah Villegas: 🥵🔥
00:52:18 nik valkov: Ok hot
00:52:21 Adriel Wilson: DAAAAAAAMN
00:52:24 Sinclair | they/them: my girlfriend from the kitchen: “GODDAMN. WOW.”
00:52:24 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE” with 🥵
00:52:25 Kiki DeLovely: Daaaaaaamn 🥵
00:52:27 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
00:52:27 Lucy Rose: that was so filthy and FUN!!
00:52:29 Lore Hershey: Replying to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE”

DENIAL
00:52:31 E (she/her): nice!!! also having thoughts…
00:52:32 S They/them: 🔥🙌🏽
00:52:32 Sinclair | they/them: THAT WAS POETRY
00:52:39 Dawn Davis: perfect
00:52:43 Sinclair | they/them: wowwwwww
00:52:56 Sinclair | they/them: this is being recorded!!
00:53:00 Sinclair | they/them: & I will post the chat too

00:53:08 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS GO ALANA!!!! GET IT
00:53:11 Lucy Rose: yay alana!!
00:53:21 Adriel Wilson: 😍
00:53:21 Sinclair | they/them: Alana (they/she) is a queer femme-ish social worker and lives with their kiddo and co-parent in NY. She had never written erotica before trying for this class and is so fucking proud of herself for actually doing it. 2023 was a year of tremendous personal growth for her and she knows the Writing Spicy class was the perfect ending for it. Alana’s favorite things about this class have been experiencing empowering embodied feelings as they wrote, writing from a character POV besides that of a femme top, and listening to the incredibly hot, beautiful pieces their classmates shared. She thanks you for coming today and hopes you come again (and again).
00:53:22 Alex Marino: Alanaaaaaaa woohooooooo
00:53:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA Alana!!!1
00:53:24 Jezebel Jett: Yessss ALANA!!! You’re gonna rock this!
00:53:26 Lore Hershey: The iconic pink lipstick stain
00:53:29 Sinclair | they/them: what’s your IG Alana???
00:53:42 Adriel Wilson: 🙌
00:53:48 Ryan Shen: yay alana!
00:53:51 Alana: Replying to “what’s your IG Alana…”

femme.ishh
00:54:14 Lucy Rose: yay alana!!!
00:54:16 E (she/her): ooh putting class reflections in the bio!
00:54:18 Sinclair | they/them: 😆😍
00:54:21 Stina French: Reacted to “ooh putting class re…” with ❤️
00:54:30 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh putting class re…” with ❤️
00:54:44 Kim R: This has been amazing! Loving it!
00:55:06 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Alana!!! 💋
00:55:06 E (she/her): go alana!
00:55:10 E (she/her): ooh the lipstick!
00:55:29 E (she/her): ooh fantasy
00:55:33 Sixxten Maelor: You wore the pink lipstick!!! 🥵
00:55:46 E (she/her): my – breakoff
00:55:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “You wore the pink li…” with 💯
00:55:51 Stina French: eye contact, so hard
00:55:56 Adriel Wilson: ❤️‍🔥💋
00:55:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “my – breakoff” with 🥰
00:55:59 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “my – breakoff” with 🥵
00:56:08 Lucy Rose: i love this piece!! <3
00:56:14 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:56:20 E (she/her): resonates between my legs!
00:56:24 Jezebel Jett: Being spotlit like that nghhhh
00:56:26 Leoh Blooms: 🔥❤️‍🔥
00:56:30 Sinclair | they/them: “too bad my thirst isn’t quenched” !!!
00:56:33 E (she/her): too bad my thirst isn’t quenched! kissing fingers!
00:56:35 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “goddamnit why did th…” with ❤️
00:56:36 Lore Hershey: “Too bad my thirst isn’t quenched” – How I just swallowed
00:56:43 Stina French: cock-twitching smirk
00:56:43 Sinclair | they/them: cock-twitching smirk!!
00:56:44 E (she/her): cock-twitching smirk!
00:56:47 Sinclair | they/them: WHAT
00:56:48 Adriel Wilson: “cock twitching smirk”
00:56:54 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:57:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY A LIE
00:57:03 Sinclair | they/them: #cocktwitchingsmirk is my fave
00:57:06 Stina French: where else would you wanna see it
00:57:09 E (she/her): where else would you want to see it
00:57:10 Sinclair | they/them: or maybe my new fetish on fetlife
00:57:16 E (she/her): still on my mouth!
00:57:17 Alanna S: where else do you wanna see it!! what a line
00:57:19 E (she/her): ooh car
00:57:22 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY…” with ‼️
00:57:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: mood
00:57:46 Adriel Wilson: mmmmmm!
00:57:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “mood” with 😆
00:57:57 E (she/her): confused but a good boy
00:57:59 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “mood”

“I’m confused, but a good boy, so I do as I’m told” ??
00:57:59 Stina French: how bout right here
00:58:00 E (she/her): oh gosh
00:58:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “how bout right here” with ‼️
00:58:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “confused but a good …” with ✅
00:58:07 Dawn Davis: something sweet
00:58:08 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “mood” with 😆
00:58:09 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “my girlfriend is blu…”

@Alanna S How about I read it to you in person next week, and you can show me? 😏🤭
00:58:12 Ryan Shen: oh myyyy
00:58:21 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:58:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 😮
00:58:28 Alanna S: yesss!!
00:58:31 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 😮
00:58:49 Sinclair | they/them: aww poor boy
00:58:55 Stina French: i just don’t know what to do with my hands? ha!
00:58:56 E (she/her): aw I’m sorry I just don’t know what to do with my hands!
00:59:11 Sinclair | they/them: oh she is PREPARED
00:59:18 E (she/her): speaking of hard
00:59:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Whooooa
00:59:25 Sinclair | they/them: speaking of hard!!!
00:59:25 Adriel Wilson: 🔥
00:59:37 Lucy Rose: alana!!
00:59:41 Sinclair | they/them: OH YES SHE IS
00:59:47 Leoh Blooms: 🔥❤️‍🔥🔥
00:59:49 Sixxten Maelor: oh my god!!!!!!! Everything!
00:59:50 Dawn Davis: MMmmmmmm… just how I like it
00:59:56 E (she/her): fingering herself!
01:00:08 E (she/her): friction and wetness and desire!
01:00:13 E (she/her): literally on top of me!
01:00:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “literally on top of …” with ❤️
01:00:20 Alanna S: this is so good
01:00:26 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “friction and wetness…” with 😍
01:00:32 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkkk
01:00:33 Sixxten Maelor: Exhibitionism and denial FTW!
01:00:39 Sinclair | they/them: real
01:00:43 E (she/her): omg car horn. Love these bits
01:00:50 Stina French: shivers
01:00:55 TJ Aluminumbrat: Replying to “mood”

I’m good…SOMETIMES
01:00:55 Stina French: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
01:01:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m good…SOMETIMES” with ‼️
01:01:02 E (she/her): I’ll savor every drop of her
01:01:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m good…SOMETIMES” with 😍
01:01:06 Sixxten Maelor: best reward ever!
01:01:12 Leoh Blooms: Aaahhhhh! That was so good
01:01:14 Lucy Rose: that was so goooooooooood!!!!
01:01:15 Adriel Wilson: ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
01:01:15 Ryan Shen: soooo hot
01:01:16 TJ Aluminumbrat: ALANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
01:01:19 Alanna S: aaaah this was so hot!!!
01:01:19 Sinclair | they/them: HOLY SHIT
01:01:20 Alex Marino: 👏
01:01:21 Sixxten Maelor: 🔥🔥🔥
01:01:23 Kiki DeLovely: Ooooph!! 🔥
01:01:24 S They/them: Wowwww 🔥
01:01:24 Tirzah Villegas: 💋
01:01:34 Sixxten Maelor: Destroyed!
01:01:35 Stina French: as mentioned, in case you’d like to see it, here is a reading Sinclair did a while ago at Listen To Your Skin: https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=309822590877041 i think sometimes that the video section of listen to your skin’s facebook page is the most unknown treasure trove of jill-off material…

01:01:36 Sinclair | they/them: here’s the lineup folks!! four more readers to go:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
FEATURE: Kiki DeLovely
Tavia
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett

01:01:46 Lore Hershey: ALANA, THAT WAS INCREDIBLE!
01:01:58 Stina French: listen2yourskin on insta
01:02:03 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “as mentioned, in cas…”

spicy students, you should definitely read!!!
01:02:04 Alana: Replying to “You wore the pink li…”

Was there ever any doubt ;)
01:02:05 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “as mentioned, in cas…”

or feature!!
01:02:17 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “listen2yourskin on i…” with 🥰

01:02:24 Sinclair | they/them: KIKI DELOVELY is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, nonbinary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world before setting down roots on unceded Occaneechi-Saponi land. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. More about their work at Open Heart Active Healing https://bit.ly/OpenHeartActiveHealing
https://www.instagram.com/kikidelovely/
01:02:33 Alana: Reacted to “IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY…” with ❤️‍🔥
01:02:41 TJ Aluminumbrat: KIKIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3
01:03:01 Alana: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 🥵
01:03:02 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “the absolute filth �…” with ❤️
01:03:12 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki has been INSTRUMENTAL for the development of Writing Spicy <3 <3 so so grateful for all of their feedback and work and support
01:03:21 eli Rue: Whew, I’m finally back yall lol thanks for all the love in the chat and heeeeey to all my friends who joined from the east and west coast I love yall!
01:03:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Kiki has been INSTRU…” with ✅
01:03:25 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Kiki has been INSTRU…” with ❤️
01:03:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Honestly, same” with ❤️
01:03:42 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:03:44 Sinclair | they/them: no audio Kiki
01:04:00 Sinclair | they/them: we heard you before!
01:04:07 S They/them: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:04:34 Sinclair | they/them: it’s ok I need to catch my breath anyway
01:04:54 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Lol Sinclairs face”

I couldn’t see. I’ll be watching the recording back just for this!
01:04:56 eli Rue: Reacted to it’s ok I need to ca… with “❤️”
01:05:08 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I couldn’t see. I’ll…” with ❤️
01:05:16 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “it’s ok I need to ca…” with ❤️
01:05:22 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:05:43 Jezebel Jett: Yay Kiki I cannot wait to hear this! 💕🔥🌈
01:05:47 Lucy Rose: those are literally all my fav CNs
01:05:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: Damn Kiki how’d you get my christmas list
01:05:53 Dawn Davis: Content warning or enticements?
01:05:55 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with ‼️
01:05:57 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 💯
01:06:03 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with 💯
01:06:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with ✅
01:06:07 Krystal Rubio: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with ‼️
01:06:07 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with 💯
01:06:17 Stina French: kiki’s insta is kikidelovely
01:06:22 Stina French: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 😂
01:06:38 Jezebel Jett: Eli and Tavia so sweet rn bawwww
01:06:38 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki has a couple of stories on Sugarbutch if you haven’t read them: https://www.sugarbutch.net/author/kikidelovely/
01:06:41 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “my girlfriend from t…” with 🤭
01:06:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Eli and Tavia so swe…” with ❤️
01:06:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: Fruitless wriggling oh my LORD
01:06:51 E (she/her): lift up my skirt and cup me
01:06:54 Stina French: Reacted to “Kiki has a couple of…” with ❤️
01:06:59 Lore Hershey: Go Kiki!!!!!!!!
01:06:59 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE” with ☺️
01:07:05 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Eli and Tavia so swe…” with ❤️
01:07:08 Alana: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 🤣
01:07:12 E (she/her): yeah doesn’t sound like a very obeyable command!
01:07:18 Dawn Davis: Drip. On. Me
01:07:20 Stina French: pucker up that sweet little hole for me………..
01:07:25 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:07:43 Sinclair | they/them: ☺️☺️
01:07:44 E (she/her): this luxury
01:07:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA
01:07:47 E (she/her): pussy begged
01:07:54 Stina French: my pussy begged harded unnnffffff
01:08:00 Sinclair | they/them: that was almost a spit take
01:08:04 Lucy Rose: this is so goooooood
01:08:12 TJ Aluminumbrat: I think about this story every day
01:08:17 Sinclair | they/them: oh noooo
01:08:19 Jezebel Jett: Yall write these Tops TOO WELL 🥵🥵🥵🥵
01:08:23 Sinclair | they/them: truly bad ones!!!
01:08:24 Lucy Rose: new life motto right there!
01:08:29 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “new life motto right…” with ❤️
01:08:31 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “new life motto right…” with 💯
01:08:41 Dawn Davis: gooooooosebumps
01:08:57 Stina French: relatable
01:09:06 Dawn Davis: ohhhh crawling…
01:09:14 Jezebel Jett: Crawl to me 🥹🫠🫠🫠
01:09:46 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki is definitely showing us why they’re so good at feedback 🥵
01:09:49 E (she/her): break the sound barrier
01:09:58 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Kiki is definitely s…” with 💯
01:10:00 Lucy Rose: i wish i had eloquent words but GOOD LORD
01:10:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i wish i had eloquen…” with 💯
01:10:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i wish i had eloquen…” with 🥵
01:10:15 Lucy Rose: face slapping 🥰
01:10:24 Stina French: Reacted to “face slapping 🥰” with 🥰
01:10:28 E (she/her): lingering threads of space and time
01:10:34 Sixxten Maelor: We all need this!!
01:10:34 Dawn Davis: conflicting spaces…
01:10:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “lingering threads of…” with ❤️
01:10:35 E (she/her): two conflicting spaces
01:10:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “We all need this!!” with 👏
01:10:50 E (she/her): good girl to the fullest!
01:11:06 Dawn Davis: gushing out of her
01:11:20 E (she/her): omg
01:11:25 Lucy Rose: omg
01:11:34 E (she/her): perverted sayings
01:11:34 Dawn Davis: Spicy idioms!!!
01:11:45 Lucy Rose: those were so good they got a real giggle out of me omg
01:11:51 Sixxten Maelor: Best alterative fortune cookie lines!
01:11:53 E (she/her): kinky yes and!
01:11:55 Stina French: GOD DAMN
01:11:58 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Best alterative fort…” with 💯
01:12:15 TJ Aluminumbrat: Not the rules 😩
01:13:00 E (she/her): hee
01:13:02 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Not the rules 😩”

YES THE RULES
01:13:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: Never let them know your next move!!
01:13:17 tim benson: Replying to “Not the rules 😩”

😍
01:13:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “YES THE RULES” with 🤨
01:13:46 E (she/her): crystal shaped curveball
01:13:51 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Never let them know …” with 💯
01:13:56 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “crystal shaped curve…” with 👏
01:13:59 E (she/her): gem and all
01:14:09 Dawn Davis: A HOLE new level
01:14:10 Stina French: sparkly feelings in my panties
01:14:16 tim benson: i admit i didnt read the rules very well
01:14:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “sparkly feelings in …” with ‼️
01:14:20 E (she/her): omg sparkly feelings in my panties
01:14:27 Sinclair | they/them: omg such a witch
01:14:27 Lore Hershey: Witches have so many panties’ treasures 🥰
01:14:33 Kim R: 😀
01:14:37 tim benson: am i still welcome?
01:14:46 E (she/her): rock identification!
01:16:15 E (she/her): nice, inspired reaction
01:16:18 Stina French: answer w/ their fingers
01:16:23 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “omg sparkly feelings…”

elle (gf) literally squealed at that line
01:16:54 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “elle (gf) literally …” with ❤️
01:17:09 E (she/her): fucked by the goddess!
01:17:13 Dawn Davis: Fucked by the earth herself
01:17:24 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “fucked by the goddes…” with ❤️
01:17:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Fucked by the earth …” with ❤️
01:17:29 E (she/her): tuck little bit of magic under my tongue
01:17:44 Dawn Davis: mouth companions!
01:17:48 Sinclair | they/them: I saw that Dawn!!
01:17:55 Lucy Rose: this is so goooood!!!
01:17:58 E (she/her): mouth companions
01:18:03 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵
01:18:08 E (she/her): hee unlikely line
01:18:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: YOOOO KIKIIIII
01:18:13 Lore Hershey: KIKIIIIIII, I am screaming
01:18:14 Lucy Rose: i NEEEEED the whole story!!!
01:18:17 Sarah St John: ❤️
01:18:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: AMAZING KIKI
01:18:23 S They/them: Earth magic! 🔥
01:18:23 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki is that story published somewhere!??
01:18:35 Sixxten Maelor: Such a good reading! 🔥
01:18:52 Sinclair | they/them: 💀💀
01:18:53 Dawn Davis: And everyone’s voices ❤️
01:19:01 Lucy Rose: that story was ahem thought provoking!

01:19:04 Sinclair | they/them: Tavia (all pronouns) is a dreamer and romantic that lives on the edges of existence and births new worlds into being. A neurocomplex, gray-ace, poly, kinky Dominant and creative, walking a path of loving devotion to the sacred and taboo. Their journey as a writer began as a child, as they sought refuge within the pen and paper to understand their inner world, and now continues into adulthood as they etch their story into the skin of the world. You can find them on Instagram, where they rarely post but will chat in the DMs, @blacknherby.
01:19:08 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/blacknherby
01:19:16 Jezebel Jett: Fuck yeah Tav!!! 💕💕💕
01:19:29 Sixxten Maelor: Go smash it, Tavia!!
01:19:33 Lore Hershey: Kiki, you gave us so many great and inspired ideas for how to best charge our crystals 😎
01:19:35 E (she/her): “lives on the edges of existence and births new worlds into being”!
01:19:39 Sinclair | they/them: wooooo Tavia <3 👏👏👏
01:19:43 Deshawn Dazevedo: Lets go Zaddy Taviaaaa
01:19:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Lets go Zaddy Taviaa…” with ❤️
01:20:01 S They/them: Tavia! 🙌🏽💗
01:20:04 Lore Hershey: TAVIAAAAAAAAAA, you go!!!! So excited to hear your beautiful work
01:20:05 Sinclair | they/them: this group has hella good bios damnnn
01:20:06 Alana: Taviaaaaa!!!!
01:20:06 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this Tavia!!
01:20:23 E (she/her): Reacted to “Kiki, you gave us so…” with 😆
01:20:34 Stina French: letters in limerence!!!!
01:20:38 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Tavi!!!! 🔥
01:20:39 Stina French: swoooooooooooooon
01:20:43 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “letters in limerence…” with ❤️
01:20:46 Stina French: so yeah, that dm invitation is looking even nicer now
01:20:48 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “swoooooooooooooon” with ❤️
01:20:57 E (she/her): “etch their story into the skin of the world”
01:21:03 Sixxten Maelor: What a way to open!!
01:21:03 Lucy Rose: you are such a good reader!!
01:21:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““etch their story in…” with ‼️
01:21:15 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““etch their story in…”

wtfffff
01:21:16 Stina French: the smirk in your voice, egads! helps!
01:21:18 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““etch their story in…”

so good
01:21:20 E (she/her): amount of hunger right size!
01:21:24 Lore Hershey: Full body shivers over here
01:21:25 Sinclair | they/them: wow
01:21:27 TJ Aluminumbrat: WHAT
01:21:27 Sinclair | they/them: WOWWW
01:21:32 E (she/her): reflecting! truly myself!
01:21:39 Sixxten Maelor: omg! Yes!
01:21:47 E (she/her): don’t want to be that wise! orgasms riding your face!
01:21:47 Tirzah Villegas: Oohhh drenched and dripping. Plz
01:21:47 Alana: Tavia + Eli please adopt me DAMNNNNN
01:21:52 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 👏
01:21:54 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with ❤️
01:21:54 Krystal Rubio: this is too good !!
01:22:00 Deshawn Dazevedo: ^^^
01:22:06 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 💯
01:22:08 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with ❤️
01:22:13 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

^same
01:22:18 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 💯
01:22:24 Sinclair | they/them: omggggg
01:22:30 Stina French: precepts… for me it’s the rawness + huge vocab
01:22:30 E (she/her): see and hold the parts of you that ache for recognition!
01:22:35 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “see and hold the par…” with ‼️
01:22:37 E (she/her): trained!
01:22:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “see and hold the par…” with 💯
01:22:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “trained!” with 🥵
01:22:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: Is any of it real
01:22:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: AAAAAHHHHHHH
01:22:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Is any of it real” with ‼️
01:23:00 Sixxten Maelor: Existential erotica 🔥
01:23:01 Deshawn Dazevedo: !!!!!!!!!!!
01:23:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Existential erotica …” with 😩
01:23:09 Stina French: Reacted to “Existential erotica …” with ❤️
01:23:15 Sinclair | they/them: ❤️👏❤️👏
01:23:26 Stina French: i love his service
01:23:26 Sinclair | they/them: Eli giggling from the other room :)
01:23:31 E (she/her): I love his service! no really!
01:23:33 Dawn Davis: I love his service.
01:23:33 Sixxten Maelor: Here for service!
01:23:34 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: I’m hungry 🤤
01:23:41 E (she/her): bows!
01:23:47 E (she/her): waiting!
01:23:47 Alanna S: what a first line <3
01:24:00 Alana: That bratty mouth!
01:24:07 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ✅
01:24:10 Sixxten Maelor: Such a good fucking boy
01:24:13 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ‼️
01:24:16 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ✅
01:24:17 Sixxten Maelor: Delectable tears
01:24:20 Sinclair | they/them: omg
01:24:30 Dawn Davis: Beating confidence into him
01:24:32 E (she/her): beating confidence!
01:24:36 Sinclair | they/them: beating confidence into him!!!
01:24:38 Sixxten Maelor: I relish beating confidence into him!!!!
01:24:43 Alana: My wretched desires YES
01:24:47 Sinclair | they/them: ❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏
01:24:59 Stina French: NURSING YES YES YES
01:25:01 Sixxten Maelor: 👏
01:25:04 Lore Hershey: These vignettes are everything
01:25:38 Sinclair | they/them: 💀
01:25:57 E (she/her): being hungry and yearning for other needs!
01:26:01 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “💀”

secret nursing fetish
01:26:01 Tirzah Villegas: *passing out emoji*
01:26:05 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “💀”

https://www.sugarbutch.net/tag/breastfeeding/
01:26:07 Alanna S: have JUST NOW remembered that fun UK/US dialect difference 😂
01:26:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “*passing out emoji*” with ‼️
01:26:11 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “*passing out emoji*” with 💯
01:26:15 Sarah St John: ANR 😋
01:26:15 Stina French: ooooh sparing no detail YES
01:26:19 Alanna S: this reading is so good
01:26:21 E (she/her): scratching a deep itch I didn’t know I had
01:26:22 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “*passing out emoji*”

This!!!!
01:26:23 Stina French: damn, this one has really got me
01:26:23 Alana: Take what you ned
01:26:24 E (she/her): pretty mouth
01:26:30 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “scratching a deep it…” with ❤️
01:26:32 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “damn, this one has r…” with 😏
01:26:37 Sarah St John: Reacted to *passing out emoji* with “💯”
01:26:45 Stina French: i was NOT in the mood to go be “headmistress” at the holiday market we’re doing, but now, thanks to tavia, i really, really am. :hugs:
01:26:47 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “*passing out emoji*”

THIS
01:26:51 Alana: Replying to “Take what you ned”

Need damnit
01:26:52 Dawn Davis: Sounds from the other room!!! Eli
01:26:57 E (she/her): be a good boy and help mommy come!
01:26:59 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “i was NOT in the moo…” with 🥰
01:27:07 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “i was NOT in the moo…”

hahah so glad we can be helpful ::hat tip emoji::
01:27:09 Sarah St John: Ah!!!
01:27:10 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Awwwwww
01:27:11 Kim R: OMG! I love it! The way you read, the passion in your words is amazing!
01:27:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: TAVIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
01:27:15 Sarah St John: So hot!!!!
01:27:16 Lore Hershey: 🥵 TAVIAAAAA, your reading voice is just fire
01:27:17 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Not the cliff hanger
01:27:18 Sarah St John: Thank you!!
01:27:19 Sixxten Maelor: Gahhhhhh!!!!! Holy fuck!
01:27:25 S They/them: 🔥🔥Tavia!!!!!! 🙌🏽
01:27:25 Alanna S: that was so good!!!!
01:27:30 E (she/her): Replying to “have JUST NOW rememb…”

dialect difference?
01:27:37 Ryan Shen: this was a fantastic set of 3 pieces, great build up tavia!!
01:27:40 Lore Hershey: Absolutely stunning!!!
01:27:40 Kiki DeLovely: Mmmmmmf!! 🥵
01:27:44 Sixxten Maelor: I am not OK over here!!!
01:28:05 Sinclair | they/them: EVERYONE IS ALL IN
01:28:11 Sinclair | they/them: we have all ante’d up so hard
01:28:28 Lore Hershey: This event should be renamed from “Sugar and Spice” to “Saucy and Hot”
01:28:30 Sinclair | they/them: next readers:
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett
01:28:32 Jezebel Jett: Yessssss Lucy!!!!
01:28:33 Alana: Lucyyyyyy!!!!
01:28:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 🤣

01:28:46 Sinclair | they/them: Lucy Rose (she/her) is an old-school stone femme who believes strongly in the power of speaking and claiming our desires aloud to dispel loneliness and shame. As a fledgeling writer, she finds a great deal of inspiration through writing and collaborating with writers, whether also new or more experienced, and is always happy to write with others! When offline, you can find her reading, running, adding to her ever-growing candle collection, and living out a real-life love story with the stone butch of her dreams. She grew up in small-town New England and now calls Pennsylvania home. You can follow her at @femmedykeprincess on Instagram.
01:28:47 TJ Aluminumbrat: LUCY!! You got this!!
01:28:49 Sixxten Maelor: Wooohoo, Lucy!!!
01:28:54 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/femmedykeprincess
01:28:59 Lore Hershey: GO LUCY!!!!!!!! You’ve got this!
01:29:04 Sarah St John: Lucy!!
01:29:14 Lore Hershey: #candles
01:29:14 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 💯
01:29:20 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Lucy!! 🌶
01:29:31 Sinclair | they/them: femme dyke princess!!
01:29:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with 🤭
01:29:44 Lore Hershey: Crumbs for collaboration and community! <3
01:29:47 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Crumbs for collabora…” with ❤️
01:30:03 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with ❤️
01:30:08 E (she/her): go Lucy Rose!
01:30:18 Sixxten Maelor: Great lipstick game going on in this group!
01:30:25 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with ❤️
01:30:27 Stina French: i’m so fucking proud of you first timers!!!!! in a pleasure-negative and sex-negative world, it’s a brave act to express desire and articulate eroticism.
01:30:31 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

next time, you + me too
01:30:36 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with 👄
01:30:39 Adriel Wilson: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👆
01:30:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:30:48 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:30:49 Stina French: Reacted to “Crumbs for collabora…” with ❤️
01:30:55 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

+1 to this!
01:31:00 Dawn Davis: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

Exactly
01:31:02 Stina French: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 😂
01:31:08 E (she/her): stares!
01:31:16 Tavia: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

y’all making Eli blush again
01:31:31 Dawn Davis: We won’t sit here for long
01:31:32 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

Too bad, Eli 😋
01:31:34 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

Shucks, thanks!
01:31:40 Stina French: oh my god the sentence structure backing up the heat there
01:31:46 Sinclair | they/them: needy impatience 🥵
01:31:54 E (she/her): drunk on arousal and old fashioneds
01:32:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 💯
01:32:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 😏
01:32:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 🥵
01:32:20 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “needy impatience 🥵” with ✅
01:32:34 E (she/her): can’t takes eyes away from your dick!
01:32:41 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Too bad, Eli 😋” with 😂
01:32:46 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “can’t takes eyes awa…” with ❤️
01:32:50 Sixxten Maelor: Unfff – those needs!
01:32:51 Dawn Davis: BEGGING
01:32:55 Dawn Davis: like communion
01:32:56 Sixxten Maelor: Taking communion
01:33:03 Alanna S: communion!!! yes
01:33:08 E (she/her): like i’m taking communion! more than i need to breathe!
01:33:09 Stina French: ohhhhh the mix of metaphor and slutty verbiage ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
01:33:14 E (she/her): this awareness of appearance
01:33:33 Sixxten Maelor: Let me hear you struggle!!!!!!!!
01:33:35 Sinclair | they/them: let me hear you struggle 🥵
01:33:38 Dawn Davis: Let me hear youstruggle
01:33:43 E (she/her): Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👏
01:33:55 Tavia: Reacted to “i was NOT in the moo…” with 🥰
01:34:00 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Let me hear you stru…” with 🥵
01:34:07 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “let me hear you stru…” with 🥵
01:34:13 Stina French: Reacted to “Let me hear youstrug…” with ❤️
01:34:18 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Let me hear youstrug…” with ❤️
01:34:25 E (she/her): deeper than I thought was possible!
01:34:32 Sinclair | they/them: ooooof Lucy you gotta publish this piece somewhere
01:34:34 E (she/her): mascara tinted tears!
01:34:41 Stina French: just a tool for you now
01:34:42 E (she/her): mouth his is just a tool
01:34:54 E (she/her): just an appetizer
01:34:59 Sinclair | they/them: mouth is just a tool for you now 🥵
01:35:01 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
01:35:08 Sixxten Maelor: Visuals of smudged lipstick and streaked mascara in the bathroom 🔥
01:35:08 E (she/her): thank me!
01:35:13 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “thank me!” with ‼️
01:35:14 E (she/her): as my legs shake
01:35:18 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “thank me!” with 😮
01:35:22 Sinclair | they/them: yessssss
01:35:27 Sinclair | they/them: w/holy undone!!!
01:35:31 Sixxten Maelor: Wholly undone
01:35:34 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ohooooo being thrown
01:35:42 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “w/holy undone!!!” with 💯
01:35:47 Sinclair | they/them: GODDAMN
01:35:52 Stina French: how beautiful i am beneath you
01:35:56 E (she/her): distilled!
01:35:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “how beautiful i am b…” with 💯
01:36:03 E (she/her): love you!
01:36:06 Alana: This is so dirty and beautiful
01:36:12 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This is so dirty and…” with ❤️
01:36:18 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This is so dirty and…” with ❤️
01:36:20 Sixxten Maelor: This is so romantic!
01:36:22 Stina French: and all else melts away
01:36:32 Alana: Crying and sweating NBD
01:36:35 Lore Hershey: SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!! That piece is amazing
01:36:38 Sarah St John: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

Awesome
01:36:38 Sixxten Maelor: Hot damnnnnnnn!!
01:36:44 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with ❤️
01:36:48 Dawn Davis: butch/femme, daddy/girl
01:36:49 James Coats: Replying to “[Full message cannot be displayed on this version]”

God Damn
01:36:49 TJ Aluminumbrat: DANG LUCY
01:36:50 Sarah St John: So good!!!
01:36:51 Alana: Keep the screens on !!!!!!!!!
01:36:51 Dawn Davis: yummmmmmmmm
01:36:52 Kiki DeLovely: Fuckyesss 🥵
01:36:54 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
01:36:54 Alana: ;)
01:36:55 Alanna S: this legacy we stand in is such a gorgeous line and something i think about a lot the more i explore queer history <3 <3 such a great story, thank you!!
01:37:04 Tavia: Goddamn Lucy

01:37:07 Lore Hershey: JEZEBEL!!!!!!! You’re incredible!!! Go go go
01:37:07 Sinclair | they/them: Jezebel Jett is a white, queer, poly, kinky, femme, disabled writer. Writing since second grade as escapism from a stringently religious childhood, her focus on erotica for the last decade has been transformative — and she has boundless space at her table for whimsical, poly, kinky, queerdos. She lives to embrace both “the beauty and the terror,” as Rilke says. Residing in California, you can find her singing off-key to 80s music at bonfires, painting, and making playlists as a love language. She is currently editing her first short story Erotica book, and also working on a book of Erotic poetry. Find her @ jezebeljett.com or JezebelJett on IG
01:37:08 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👆
01:37:09 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:37:10 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👏
01:37:11 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/JezebelJett
01:37:14 Tavia: LEHGOOOOO JEZEBEL
01:37:14 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “this legacy we stand…” with ❤️
01:37:14 E (she/her): whoo Jezebel Jett!
01:37:28 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Sinclair | they/them only if someone promises to smear it! 😏
01:37:38 Tavia: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with ❤️
01:37:39 Tavia: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with 👄
01:37:40 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

deal!
01:37:41 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

oh wait
01:37:44 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

you’re too far
01:37:51 E (she/her): both the beauty and the terror!
01:37:58 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyy Jez!!! ❤️‍🔥
01:37:59 Lore Hershey: I love fellow poly, kinky, queerdos <3
01:38:06 Sixxten Maelor: Go Jezabel!!!!!!
01:38:12 Sinclair | they/them: and HOW MANY WORDS have you written in the last 8 weeks JJ!???
01:38:13 Lucy Rose: LETS GOOOO JEZEBEL!!!
01:38:17 Tavia: Replying to “I love fellow poly, …”

Yaaaaasss live for this shit
01:38:18 E (she/her): Reacted to “w/holy undone!!!” with 👆
01:38:21 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “and HOW MANY WORDS h…” with 🥰
01:38:22 Lucy Rose: y’all are in for SUCH a treat w this story
01:38:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: JEZEBEL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
01:38:27 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “and HOW MANY WORDS h…” with 💯
01:38:28 Alana: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Sixxten Maelor @Sinclair | they/them I volunteer as smearer
01:38:28 Sinclair | they/them: omgggg
01:38:36 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

that would be sooooo helpful ;)
01:38:39 Lore Hershey: This story is *chef’s kiss*
01:38:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Omg my OTHER christmas list
01:38:42 Dawn Davis: Crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
01:38:44 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

NY seems about halfway between us
01:38:45 E (she/her): naked island of your bed!
01:38:49 Stina French: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

i’m here for whoever needs help smearing things.
01:38:59 Alana: Reacted to “NY seems about halfw…” with 💀
01:39:00 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 🥵
01:39:00 E (she/her): sting of my fragility!
01:39:05 Stina French: Reacted to “Keep the screens on …” with 👍
01:39:07 E (she/her): hold me like a prayer!
01:39:07 Sixxten Maelor: This CW list is basically my letter to Santa …
01:39:13 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with ✅
01:39:13 Alana: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 🥵
01:39:18 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 🥰
01:39:19 Lucy Rose: Replying to “ooooof Lucy you gott…”

i mean… let a girl know 😆
01:39:25 Stina French: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 😂
01:39:30 Lucy Rose: BOOKENDING BRUTALITY WITH TENDERNESS
01:39:31 Tavia: Reacted to “BOOKENDING BRUTALITY…” with 💯
01:39:33 Lucy Rose: i love this story
01:39:34 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “NY seems about halfw…” with 🔥
01:39:38 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with ✅
01:39:38 Tavia: Reacted to “ooooof Lucy you gott…” with 💯
01:39:38 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 🥰
01:39:47 Alana: Replying to “BOOKENDING BRUTALITY…”

Is there any better way?!
01:39:49 E (she/her): bookending brutality! levels what was left of my standing empire!
01:39:53 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “deal!” with 💀
01:39:55 Stina French: like mercy, like it better be enough
01:39:57 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i love this story”

+1
01:40:06 Kim R: Reacted to ooooof Lucy you gott… with “💯”
01:40:09 Dawn Davis: shove it back into me
01:40:19 E (she/her): my own iron and salt! liquor!
01:40:23 Tavia: its the word play and metaphor for me
01:40:27 E (she/her): deep as my hunger!
01:40:32 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with ✋
01:40:32 Alana: Jezebellllll damn
01:40:38 Lucy Rose: your writing and reading is just so goddamn gorgeous <3
01:40:54 E (she/her): sting of not seeing you
01:41:03 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Alana April?? 😉
01:41:10 Dawn Davis: poetry…
01:41:28 Sixxten Maelor: A sendoff to sea
01:41:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Like a send off to sea
01:41:30 Tavia: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

I volunteer as tribute
01:41:32 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “A sendoff to sea” with ❤️
01:41:45 E (she/her): drizzle whispers
01:41:46 Tavia: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 💯
01:41:54 E (she/her): feel both sides
01:41:57 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “I volunteer as tribu…” with 🔥
01:42:05 Lucy Rose: a body of trembles!
01:42:08 E (she/her): morse code
01:42:16 James Coats: I am a body of tremors
01:42:30 Lucy Rose: whew!!
01:42:33 Dawn Davis: show me how it hurts
01:42:38 Lucy Rose: “show my how it hurts, im proud of you”
01:42:42 Sixxten Maelor: Show me how it hurts!!!
01:42:43 E (she/her): lighthouse for my fear
01:42:51 Lore Hershey: The soft praise dear lord
01:42:56 E (she/her): peeking through the curtain!
01:42:58 E (she/her): firm!
01:43:06 Stina French: curl fingers like a riptide…. ungh
01:43:06 E (she/her): kiss my catharsis
01:43:17 Dawn Davis: something unholy happened
01:43:22 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “something unholy hap…” with 🔥
01:43:22 E (she/her): feel like what i think of
01:43:27 Alana: A hurricane whewwww
01:43:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Jezebel
01:43:38 Stina French: i can’t even quote you at this point, bc they just keep rolling….. line after line
01:43:38 Sinclair | they/them: whatttt
01:43:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: This feels like a sermon
01:43:44 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with ❤️
01:43:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 💯
01:43:48 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:48 E (she/her): Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 👆
01:43:51 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 💯
01:43:53 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with ❤️
01:44:03 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with ❤️
01:44:07 Stina French: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 🙌
01:44:14 E (she/her): anchor me with your eyes! constellation god forgot to make!
01:44:14 Lucy Rose: THAT ENDING!!!
01:44:15 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW
01:44:16 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
01:44:17 Lucy Rose: jeeeeez
01:44:17 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “This feels like a se…”

Finally, a church I can get behind!
01:44:19 E (she/her): just to watch us rise!
01:44:20 Stina French: just to watch us rise
01:44:21 Lucy Rose: omg jezebel
01:44:21 Lore Hershey: <3 <3 <3 <3 JEZEBELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
01:44:22 Kim R: Holy shit!
01:44:25 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Wooowwwwwww
01:44:36 Sixxten Maelor: Heck!
01:44:36 Lore Hershey: TOOK US TO CHURCH
01:44:40 Lucy Rose: jezebel is also SUCH a kind soul and to be such a talented writer on top of it? unfair
01:44:43 Lucy Rose: good job all!!!
01:44:43 Sixxten Maelor: AMEN!!!
01:44:45 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: 🔥🔥🔥💙💙💙
01:44:47 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
01:44:55 Sinclair | they/them: all the readers + hosts today:
Stina: https://www.sexploratoriumdenver.com/ https://sisterrainbowscream.com/open-mic-series/
here is a reading Sinclair did a while ago at Listen To Your Skin: https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=309822590877041

Writing Spicy: http://writingspicy.com
Sinclair: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
Jezebel Jett: http://instagram.com/JezebelJett http://jezebeljett.com
Lucy Rose: http://instagram.com/femmedykeprincess
Tavia: http://instagram.com/blacknherby

Kiki: https://bit.ly/OpenHeartActiveHealing
https://www.instagram.com/kikidelovely/
https://www.sugarbutch.net/author/kikidelovely/

01:44:57 James Coats: You did not even have to do us like that 🥵
01:44:58 Deshawn Dazevedo: This was so amazing and inspiring!
01:45:03 Kiki DeLovely: I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵
01:45:04 Tavia: Reacted to “I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵” with 💖
01:45:05 Dawn Davis: No! We don’t have to stop
01:45:07 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSSSSSSS Be the storm
01:45:08 Stina French: in case you’re even in Denver, or want me to re-post your kink content: @sexploratoriumdenver on insta. and the literary event i mentioned is @listen2yourskin on insta.
01:45:09 Tavia: Reacted to “This was so amazing …” with 💖
01:45:10 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵” with 💖
01:45:11 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “all the readers + ho…”

eli: http://www.instagram.com/mouthfullofflowers

Sixxten: http://instagram.comsixxofthebest & http://instagram.comADHDevience

01:45:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This was so amazing …” with ✅
01:45:24 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “in case you’re even …” with 🥰
01:45:29 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “in case you’re even …” with ❤️
01:45:35 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “all the readers + ho…”

http://instagram.com/listen2yourskin http://instagram.com/sexploratoriumdenver
01:45:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you for reading everyone!!! <3 <3 <3
01:45:36 Stina French: in case you’re even in Denver, or want me to re-post your kink content: @sexploratoriumdenver on insta. and the literary event i mentioned is @listen2yourskin on insta.
01:45:38 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “You did not even hav…” with ❤️
01:45:42 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “You did not even hav…”

YES SHE DID
01:45:43 Lore Hershey: You all are phenomenal
01:45:43 Lucy Rose: pls shoot me a DM and do a writing spring (or 2 or 3 or 4) with me! i love sprinting with y’all and need some writing motivation 🙂
01:45:50 Dawn Davis: @dawndaviscoaching Please follow. I love you all!!!!!
01:45:51 Lucy Rose: Replying to “pls shoot me a DM an…”

@femmedykeprincess on IG
01:45:52 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “pls shoot me a DM an…” with 🥰
01:46:12 Kiki DeLovely: Thanks for the love, y’all, and all your breathtaking offerings ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
01:46:13 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:18 Tavia: Reacted to “pls shoot me a DM an…” with 🥰
01:46:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:20 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:21 Lore Hershey: Who. Is. Sprinting. After. This?!
01:46:21 Tavia: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:23 Adriel Wilson: Thank you for sharing your work everyone! It was all so amazing!! ❤️‍🔥
01:46:33 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com
01:46:42 Kiki DeLovely: So incredibly proud of every damn one of you 😍😭😍
01:46:48 Stina French: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:53 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:56 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:58 Dawn Davis: I am so glad I came. Thank you all!!!!
01:47:09 Lore Hershey: Stina, do you have a sign up link??
01:47:11 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:47:28 Sarah St John: Great readings everyone!
01:47:29 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

https://sisterrainbowscream.com/open-mic-series/ ?
01:47:33 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

not sure?
01:47:36 Tavia: Soooo much love
01:47:40 Sixxten Maelor: I would not have been able to be here without your kind sliding scale, @Sinclair | they/them – so thank you so, so much for that ❤️
01:47:51 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

The Google link doesn’t work for signing up
01:47:53 Lucy Rose: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

ditto, it was such a blessing
01:48:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

https://zoom.us/meeting/register/tJwtdeygqDssG9zymefi4MCT3C2OIzX0kwSj#/registration RSVP here
01:48:35 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

I think the Google link just isn’t updated
01:48:37 Lore Hershey: That is so exciting, Stina! Congrats 🙂
01:48:40 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I would not have bee…” with ❤️
01:48:42 Sixxten Maelor: I cannot recommend the Writing Spicy group highly enough. Great teaching, amazing feedback, numerous opportunities and a wonderful group of folx ❤️
01:48:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ditto, it was such a…” with ❤️
01:48:49 Stina French: listentoyourskin@gmail.com
01:48:49 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with 💯
01:48:49 Tavia: Reacted to “listentoyourskin@gma…” with 💖
01:48:51 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

SO GLAD you could both join <3
01:48:53 Tavia: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with 💯
01:48:54 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:48:56 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:48:57 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “listentoyourskin@gma…” with 💖
01:48:59 Tavia: Reacted to “I would not have bee…” with ❤️
01:49:07 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

what amazing fucking writers + words
01:49:08 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:49:12 E (she/her): omg
01:49:30 Lucy Rose: feels a little dramatic to say but writing spicy is life changing! the space is so safe and comfortable and everyone should join!!
01:49:30 Dawn Davis: fucked on the art!!!
01:49:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “feels a little drama…” with ❤️
01:49:41 Tavia: Reacted to “feels a little drama…” with ❤️
01:49:42 Jezebel Jett: The loudest volumes in my heart for Sinclair
01:49:45 Tavia: agreeeeed
01:49:47 Jezebel Jett: And this workshop
01:49:56 Lore Hershey: Deeply agree!!!
01:50:03 Lore Hershey: So beautiful and connecting
01:50:11 TJ Aluminumbrat: 1000%
01:50:41 E (she/her): thank you everyone!
01:50:43 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The loudest volumes …” with ❤️
01:50:56 Sixxten Maelor: Thanks for the amazing hosting @Stina French!!!
01:51:56 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you!!!
01:51:59 Adriel Wilson: thank you!
01:52:04 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com

erotica writing, event

[Video] Spicy Showcase at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Here’s the replay for the Spicy Showcase at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Queer Kink Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!
Thursday, December 14, 2023, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET
hosted by Kathleen Warnock
featuring: Sinclair Sexsmith
and:
Lore Hershey
LM
TJ
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan

Featured image by TJ

Want to follow along with the chat? Click the + below

Zoom chat during DCW
00:25:26 Sinclair | they/them: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
00:27:14 Sinclair | they/them: http://native-land.ca
00:27:14 Kathleen Warnock: I am on unceded Lenni-Lenape land.
00:29:24 Sinclair | they/them: lineup!
Lore Hershey
LM
Mr Loving Words
TJ
Sinclair
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan
00:29:28 Christian Pan: I am on the unceded land of the Lanape, also known as Manhattan. I use he/him pronouns. Very grateful to be here, and sharing some of my writing with you all.
00:29:34 Laurel Salvo: Yay loreeeee
00:29:57 Sassywheelz (she/her): From Sacramento, CA, heard about Spicy Showcase via email. I’m excited to be here and do enjoy hearing MrLovingWords read his 🔥 work.
00:30:30 Guest: LORE!!!!!!!YAMAHA AAA AAA
00:30:48 Alana: YAY LORE!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤️‍🔥

00:31:14 Sinclair | they/them: Lore Hershey (she/they) is a queer, neurodivergent, kinky and nerdy word witch; trauma-informed and trained conflict resolution practitioner; and astrologer who founded The Unconventional Plutonian (UP), a platform dedicated to inner transformation and rewilding work. They are a writer of erotica, speculative fiction, and poetry, and lover of all things whimsical and inquisitive. Their major kinks include supporting individuals and communities seeking to reimagine and change deeply held narratives with courage and empathy; a healthy dose of psychological play, brat taming, forced praise, and general mischief; and challenging power paradigms through radical liberatory self-expression. You can find them on http://Instagram.theunconventionalplutonian
00:31:23 eli Rue: Lore!!!!
00:31:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Calling in from unceded Treaty 6 Territory! Yaaaa Lore!!! <3 <3
00:31:54 Katie Bowen: yayyy
00:32:06 Sinclair | they/them: It Came From the Closet: https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9781952177798
00:32:52 Alana: Yaaaaaas give it up Lore❤️‍🔥
00:33:37 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🔥🔥
00:33:44 Sinclair | they/them: “gasoline to her …” what was that line!!! oooof
00:33:51 Laurel Salvo: 😰😰😰😰
00:33:55 Alana: Love a good circling prowl!
00:34:21 Sassywheelz (she/her): A victorious grin
00:34:22 Alana: UUUUUUUUFFFFFFF!!!!!
00:34:27 TJ Aluminumbrat: Every inchhhhhh
00:34:33 Aspen D: Every inch!
00:35:03 Sinclair | they/them: “she refuses to break eye contact” 😶
00:35:04 Alana: Love how she uses him as she keeps eye contact with the narrator!!!!
00:35:05 Faith Arrowsmith: “Demands more be given”
00:35:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Demands more be giv…” with 🔥
00:35:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Mmm I’m here for the claiming
00:35:31 Aspen D: Cosmic clash
00:35:49 Sinclair | they/them: starlight ⭐🌟✨💖
00:35:57 Sinclair | they/them: 🥺
00:35:58 Aspen D: Oooh love slick lacquer
00:36:12 Sinclair | they/them: “flaws, jagged and spent” fuckkkk
00:36:12 Alana: Ooooofff the love
00:36:13 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Claim her! … Please. … Powdering all my cracks.
00:36:31 Kathleen Warnock: “We are ephemeral and free…always have been”
00:36:49 Faith Arrowsmith: Oooh
00:36:52 Aspen D: Hotttttt
00:36:53 Alana: YAYAAAAAAAAHHHH Damn that was hot!
00:37:26 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Lore’s words rock my world.
00:37:54 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “YAYAAAAAAAAHHHH Damn…” with 😍
00:40:05 Alana: HOT HOT HOT
00:40:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAAAA
00:40:21 Christian Pan: Great work, @Lore Hershey !
00:40:57 Sinclair | they/them: LM (she/her) is a fierce, fabulous, 40-something Puerto Rican mama of three children, and an ethically non-monogamous kinkster. By the end of third grade, LM hand published her first three books (Patchy the Pumpkin, Twin Stars, and Toyland), and wrote dark, twisted poetry through college. After she turned 40, she wrote her first erotica short story and was hooked. LM’s many passions include crocheting, loom knitting, pole dancing, all things kink, hiking, the beach, and the art of mixology. She is a voracious reader and usually reads more than 150 books a year. She lives in the San Francisco Bay Area.
00:41:45 Laurel Salvo: Yay LM!!! So excited!
00:42:07 Lore Hershey: GO LM!!!!
00:42:31 Alana: Not like they can compete with the hotness in these stories!!!!!
00:42:37 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Not like they can co…” with 👍
00:42:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: You’re gonna crush it LM!! <3
00:42:43 Sinclair | they/them: LM’s instagram http://instagram.com/bayareablindmom
00:44:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWZA what an opening !
00:44:43 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵🥵🥵
00:44:54 Alana: Knots of pleasure and pain WHATTTT
00:45:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Knots of pleasure an…” with ⭐
00:46:20 Sinclair | they/them: oooffff I love a countdown
00:46:30 Alana: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:46:55 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with 😬
00:46:56 Sinclair | they/them: “my perfect little slut” 🥺
00:47:08 Sinclair | they/them: “indeed”!!!!
00:47:23 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:47:36 Sinclair | they/them: “in pain, in lust in yearning, in desire” !!!
00:47:37 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Knots of pleasure an…” YUMYUMYUM
00:48:06 Alana: Not wanting to let go of it………..
00:48:10 Lore Hershey: Thanks for all the chat love, everyone!!! Just read it 🥰
00:48:21 Sarah St John: May i?
00:48:30 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Thanks for all the c…” with 👍
00:48:44 Lore Hershey: AND YOU DID
00:48:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Thanks for all the c…” with 💖
00:48:50 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “AND YOU DID” with 🔥
00:48:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “AND YOU DID” with ‼️
00:49:34 Lore Hershey: “Coaxed another wave of pleasure” need to turn the fan on
00:49:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Coaxed another wave…” with ‼️
00:49:49 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Coaxed another wave…” with 🥵
00:49:58 Sinclair | they/them: “what a fantastic little slut you are” !!!
00:50:06 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵🔥
00:50:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LM !!!
00:50:30 Lore Hershey: #ascended
00:50:34 Alana: WHEWWWWWWW
00:50:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “#ascended” with 😂
00:50:35 Kathleen Warnock: Well done!!!
00:50:36 elsbeth (she/her): Sooo good
00:50:38 Sarah St John: So hot
00:50:40 Lore Hershey: IT’S MAGNUM!!!!
00:50:44 Christian Pan: Great work, @LM D’Lishes (She/Her)
00:50:48 eli Rue: 🥵🥵🥵
00:51:05 Sinclair | they/them: The Ethical Slut – https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9780399579660

00:52:17 Sinclair | they/them: Mr Loving Words (he/him) is a poet, performer, and educator born in Los Angeles and raised in the Inland Empire. He believes that poetry has the ability to bring diverse groups together, offering a way to connect through shared challenges, achievements and experiences. He is the winner of the 2021 San Gabriel Poetry Slam. You can find him attending poetry readings throughout California or follow his poetry via http://instagram.com/MrLovingWords
00:52:48 Sinclair | they/them: mmmm prettyyyyyy
00:53:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: And a whole lot of hope <3
00:53:48 Sinclair | they/them: “so too would my legs crumble before you” 🥵
00:53:50 Lore Hershey: “Crumble before you like Jericho’s walls” – I am just… brain offline
00:53:51 Faith Arrowsmith: This poem makes me want to bite shoulders.
00:53:54 Sinclair | they/them: render worship!!!!
00:53:56 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
00:53:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with ❤️
00:54:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with ‼️
00:54:02 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with 🔥
00:54:04 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “fuck” with ❤️
00:54:11 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with 🥵
00:54:31 Faith Arrowsmith: Written intention along your spine!
00:54:34 Lore Hershey: “Written intention along your spine” – I am weak
00:54:57 Kathleen Warnock: “not the wine you’ve sipped from the glass…”
00:54:58 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to #ascended with “👆”
00:54:59 Sinclair | they/them: “written intention along your spine” fuckkkkk
00:55:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““not the wine you’ve…” with 🥵
00:55:07 Lore Hershey: 🥵
00:55:08 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““not the wine you’ve…” with ⭐
00:55:19 Sinclair | they/them: “fuse our fabric and skin into one entity” !!!!
00:55:22 Sinclair | they/them: goddamn
00:55:22 Alana: ❤️‍🔥
00:55:28 Sinclair | they/them: your weakest spot!!!
00:55:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Neck and shoulder meet, your weakest spot. That’s certainly a hot spot.
00:55:46 Faith Arrowsmith: 💀
00:55:49 elsbeth (she/her): Damn!
00:55:51 Sinclair | they/them: WOW
00:55:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I … am … yours …
00:55:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I … am … yours ….” with 🥵
00:56:04 Christian Pan: Beautiful poem, @Mr Loving Words
00:56:13 eli Rue: Reacted to I … am … yours …. with “🥵”
00:56:23 Sinclair | they/them: love how the content warnings are like … a mini preview that makes me start to squirm 😄
00:56:32 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “love how the content…” with ❤️
00:56:35 Sinclair | they/them: “don’t open it … we’ll play with it tonight” !!!
00:56:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “love how the content…”
Yeeeeees!
00:56:51 Sinclair | they/them: (oh that rose vibrator is gooooood)
00:56:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Yeeeeees!” with 💖
00:56:58 Christian Pan: Reacted to ““don’t open it … we’…” with 👍
00:56:59 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “love how the content…” with ❤️
00:57:04 Erika Pérez: Reacted to “(oh that rose vibrat…” with 👍
00:57:14 Sinclair | they/them: “sir likes me distracted by my thoughts” hehehe
00:57:22 Sinclair | they/them: 😈
00:57:38 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “(oh that rose vibrat…” with 🥵
00:57:43 Sinclair | they/them: I love how “prep for the evenings activity” translates in my brain to “probably an enema”
00:57:57 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 😂
00:58:00 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 👆
00:58:00 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I love how “prep for…” OMFG
00:58:01 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 😃
00:58:08 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to I love how “prep for… with “👆”
00:58:09 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I love how “prep for…” I mean, are you wrong?
00:58:10 Sinclair | they/them: yesss flared base! crystal red jewel in the shape of a heart!!!
00:58:18 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🥵
00:58:35 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to love how the content… with “💯”
00:58:46 Sinclair | they/them: arousal simmering to the surface of my skin … 🥵
00:58:49 Faith Arrowsmith: You can and you will
00:58:51 Sinclair | they/them: you can and you will!!!!!
00:58:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “I love how “prep for…”
Right…
00:58:55 Sinclair | they/them: damnnn
00:58:58 Faith Arrowsmith: Well then
00:59:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Well then” with ‼️
00:59:03 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Well then” with ⭐
00:59:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Well then” IN THAT CASE
00:59:37 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): PUt it in your ass. … Sooooooo hot!
00:59:39 Sinclair | they/them: “I was just playing” … awww
00:59:45 Lore Hershey: “I wanted to see how primal you would get” #honestlysame gorgeous
00:59:49 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”I wanted to see how…” with ⭐
00:59:52 Alana: Reacted to “”I wanted to see how…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:59:56 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “”I wanted to see how…”
#honestlysame
01:00:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “#honestlysame” with 🥰
01:00:13 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): slit … clit … hot hot hot. Yes, taste my sweetness. … Lip gloss.
01:00:21 Puff the Magic System (he/him): jfc
01:00:22 Lore Hershey: YOU WILL
01:00:26 Alana: Ooooofff I love that. someone being betrayed by their own body. Giving away all the excitement
01:00:33 Sinclair | they/them: ooh I did not realize that the narrator was a person with a clit kind of person!!
01:00:44 Puff the Magic System (he/him): 🥵
01:00:45 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Ooooofff I love that…” with 💯
01:00:46 Lore Hershey: Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…” Me neither
01:00:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Ooooofff I love that…” with ‼️
01:01:28 Sinclair | they/them: “doesn’t feel that bad” !!! 🥺😮
01:01:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…”
Me niether. Makes it even hotter in some ways. Ah, pet.
01:01:52 Lore Hershey: The “how does it feel” check-in is so gorgeous
01:01:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The “how does it fee…” with 💯
01:01:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The “how does it fee…” with 🥺
01:02:01 Sinclair | they/them: so gooooood
01:02:20 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Rub yourself for me.
01:02:32 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Rub yourself for me.” with 🥵
01:02:48 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…”love the gender fuckery of this Mr Loving Words reading the narrator’s perspective 😵‍💫
01:02:55 Sinclair | they/them: “may I please come sir” !!!
01:02:58 Lore Hershey: I hope “I Fan My Clit” becomes the name of a hit song
01:03:03 Christian Pan: Reacted to “love the gender fuck…” with ❤️
01:03:10 Alana: Reacted to “I hope “I Fan My Cli…” with 🎵
01:03:20 Sinclair | they/them: 💀
01:03:22 Sinclair | they/them: omgggg
01:03:34 Lore Hershey: 🙃🙃🙃
01:04:31 Lore Hershey: Anyone else drooling?
01:04:37 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Anyone else drooling…” with ✅
01:04:46 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I hope “I Fan My Cli…” with 😂
01:04:51 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYAAAAAA
01:04:59 Christian Pan: Great work, @Mr Loving Words !
01:04:59 Sarah St John: So good!!!!
01:04:59 Sassywheelz (she/her): Giving me gentle kisses on my cheek, forehead…
01:05:02 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you for reading Mr Loving Words!!!
01:05:04 Sarah St John: 👏
01:05:04 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): soooo fucking good.
01:05:04 Sassywheelz (she/her): wooooo
01:05:06 Lore Hershey: WOWOWOOWOWOWOOOWW, thank you
01:05:09 Kathleen Warnock: Wonderful work!
01:05:26 Faith Arrowsmith: Gahhhhh so friggin good
01:05:29 eli Rue: so intoxicating !!!
01:05:35 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “so intoxicating !!!” with 🥰
01:05:43 Lore Hershey: Yeahhhhh go TJ!!!!

01:05:45 Sinclair | they/them: TJ (they/them) @aluminumbrat is a biracial illustrator regularly causing problems in the Northern Hemisphere. Their comics and paintings explore humour, queer intimacy & sexuality, and are inspired by their ancestral Egyptian pictorial traditions.
01:05:47 Faith Arrowsmith: Goooo TJ!!!
01:05:48 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Causing problems is good stuff.
01:05:53 Laurel Salvo: Yayyy tj!!!
01:05:55 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/aluminumbrat
01:05:58 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Causing problems is …”
A MENACE, affectionate
01:06:11 Sarah St John: TJ!!!
01:06:36 Sinclair | they/them: NO RULES
01:07:42 Sinclair | they/them: yayyyy
01:07:45 Sinclair | they/them: great intro!! <3 <3
01:08:00 Faith Arrowsmith: They’re the cutest lil comic couple.
01:08:11 Sinclair | they/them: 😍
01:08:38 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with 💯
01:08:48 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with ❤️
01:09:00 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Dangous words, I can do whatever I want.
01:09:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Dangous words, I can…” with 💯
01:09:16 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “They’re the cutest l…” with 😍
01:09:40 Kathleen Warnock: I love this!
01:09:41 Sinclair | they/them: OH NOOOO
01:09:45 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I love this!” with 😍
01:10:06 Sinclair | they/them: 😂😅
01:10:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): Haha, so fun and cute.
01:10:37 Faith Arrowsmith: TJ fan club
01:10:38 Alana: I love love this!!
01:10:39 Sarah St John: ❤️❤️❤️
01:10:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): friggin’ awesome!
01:10:46 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/aluminumbrat
01:10:50 Christian Pan: Great work, @TJ Aluminumbrat
01:10:51 eli Rue: Love it so much!
01:11:29 Sinclair | they/them: YAY LOCAL ARTISTS
01:12:06 Faith Arrowsmith: Sometimes Facebook marketplace has a lot of local artists, surprisingly!

01:12:23 Sinclair | they/them: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
01:12:33 Lore Hershey: Amazing work, TJ!! <3
01:12:35 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com
01:12:53 Lore Hershey: Do Writing Spicy! You won’t regret it
01:12:54 Faith Arrowsmith: Everyone. Join. Writing. Spicy.
01:13:00 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Everyone. Join. Writ…” with 👍
01:13:05 Kathleen Warnock: Thank you for all you do, Sinclair!
01:13:07 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Do Writing Spicy! Yo…” with 👍
01:13:14 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with 🥰
01:13:42 Lore Hershey: I love that Sinclair’s CW list is like collectively longer than all of ours. #goals
01:13:50 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to Thank you for all yo… with “💯”
01:13:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Causing problems is …” with 😏
01:14:03 eli Rue: Reacted to I love that Sinclair… with “🔥”
01:14:08 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with 😂
01:14:14 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to I love that Sinclair… with “😆”
01:14:24 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Over my lap … best first three words ever!
01:14:43 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I love that Sinclair…” with 😂
01:15:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “great intro!! <3 <3” with ❤️
01:15:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Dangous words, I can…” with 😎
01:15:41 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Over my lap … best…” with 👍
01:15:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I love this!” with ❤️
01:16:07 Sassywheelz (she/her): Shut it, take it
01:16:11 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Shut it, take it” with 🥵
01:16:20 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Shut it, take it” with 🥵
01:16:36 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Shut it, take it” The room is a little spinny
01:16:43 Sarah St John: Holding so you can feel me
01:16:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I love that Sinclair…” with 😂
01:17:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYAAAAAAAAAA
01:17:22 Lore Hershey: The cadence of reading that piece was incredible!
01:17:22 Alana: Raise your hand if you identify with the flustered, unable-t-speak lil toy right now
01:17:26 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Keep doing that. Just like that. And I do. … Hot!
01:17:30 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:17:32 Kathleen Warnock: It’s because of spring…
01:17:32 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:17:33 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with 👏🏼
01:17:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:18:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “The cadence of readi…” with ❤️
01:18:36 Alana: lolllllz
01:18:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Lilacs <3 <3
01:19:03 Lore Hershey: Gorgeous
01:19:24 Kara Plaxa: Please carve your name!
01:19:36 Alana: I volunteer as tribute!
01:20:04 Lore Hershey: it’s so vulnerable and *chef’s kiss*
01:21:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: loooooooooove this one
01:21:24 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): OMG yes. … Sometimes I want so much I can’t even tell what I want. … So true.
01:21:25 Lore Hershey: SIX WAS THICK
01:21:37 Faith Arrowsmith: 🔥🔥🔥🔥
01:21:44 Alana: Reacted to “SIX WAS THICK” with ❤️‍🔥
01:22:04 Sassywheelz (she/her): I savor the bruising
01:22:17 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “I savor the bruising” with ❤️
01:22:19 Lore Hershey: A new meaning of lock jaw damn
01:22:42 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I love the way sinclair reads. My writing has to sound good too, but damn. Sinclair takes it to a whole new level.
01:23:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “A new meaning of loc…” with 😂
01:23:20 Lore Hershey: Bring on the brat taming!!!! *fight round bell rings*
01:23:36 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Bring on the brat ta…” with 🤨
01:23:41 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Bring on the brat ta…” with ❤️
01:23:45 Sarah St John: Squishy shit 😅
01:23:47 Puff the Magic System (he/him): ‘we live for this squishy shit’ #relatable
01:23:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): …this squishy shit …!
01:23:58 Lore Hershey: Replying to “…this squishy shit…” samesamesame
01:24:22 Erika Pérez: “Just let me use you”….holy fuck
01:24:31 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “…this squishy shit…”
I mean, it’s awesome stuff.
01:24:51 TJ Aluminumbrat: Minimize the squirming holy FUCK
01:24:59 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “”Just let me use you…” with ❤️
01:25:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “”Just let me use you…” with 💕
01:25:27 Sarah St John: Rough body play 🥵
01:26:25 Sassywheelz (she/her): WOWWWWWWWWWWWWW
01:26:37 Kara Plaxa: Leave me in the dark…. Ugh, dead!
01:26:48 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Rough body play 🥵” with 👍
01:27:00 Sassywheelz (she/her): You taste like I belong on my knees
01:27:29 Lore Hershey: “You bring out the worship in me” #honestlysame #anyone
01:27:35 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “You taste like I bel…” with 💋
01:27:44 Lore Hershey: that was supposed to be #anyone?else?
01:28:11 Lore Hershey: Darby is into this one
01:28:17 Alana: Reacted to “Darby is into this o…” with 🤣
01:28:21 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Darby is into this o…” (the cat)
01:28:41 Christian Pan: Great work, @Sinclair | they/them
01:29:43 Lore Hershey: I love this one
01:30:30 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Do we know if these are published pieces?
01:30:42 Alana: Darby is killing it rn
01:30:48 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Darby is killing it …” with 😂
01:31:00 Lore Hershey: fuckkkkkkkkkkk
01:31:30 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I’m dying.
01:31:46 Lore Hershey: Crying
01:31:51 Lore Hershey: , respectfully
01:32:00 Alana: Reacted to “, respectfully” with ❤️
01:32:16 Lore Hershey: “Letting it in is just as much work as dishing it out” – so true
01:32:34 Kara Plaxa: SO HOT
01:32:34 Lore Hershey: DESTROYED
01:32:40 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Am ded
01:32:43 elsbeth (she/her): swoooooon
01:32:44 Christian Pan: So good, @Sinclair | they/them !
01:32:49 Alana: That was incredible Sinclair!!!!
01:32:54 Lore Hershey: asklfjaslkfjalskjga;sjga;lsk;alka
01:33:00 Laurel Salvo: I wasn’t breathing until now basically
01:33:00 Faith Arrowsmith: So friggin good
01:33:06 Laurel Salvo: Jfc
01:33:10 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I wasn’t breathing u…” with 😂
01:33:11 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAA Thank you for reading Sinclair <3 <3 <3
01:33:21 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I wasn’t breathing u…” Unintentional breathplay

01:33:32 Sinclair | they/them: Yu-Long Boba Baba (they/othem) is a trans man who grew up and still resides in New York City (unceded territory of the Lenape) with immigrant parents from Taiwan. They participated in GAPA’s “This is 2020,” an interdisciplinary writing workshop series that embraced the importance of representation and encouraged writing in multiple formats. They are dedicated to unlearning colonized ideas of how to relate to humans and ideas of intimacy, as informed by Kim TallBear’s “more than monogamy” practices. They write to process emotions in the formats of poetry/prose, plays, storytelling and personal narratives.
01:33:39 eli Rue: Damn that was absolutely amazing
01:33:42 Faith Arrowsmith: Also hi Darby!
01:33:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
01:33:49 Lore Hershey: Darby is a babe
01:33:55 Faith Arrowsmith: Yay Yu-Long!!
01:34:05 Lore Hershey: Go Yu-Long!!!!!!!
01:34:26 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSS you get it
01:35:18 Alana: I have to go now but y’all are amazing and hot damn I won’t focus for the rest of the night!
01:35:24 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I have to go now but…” with ❤️
01:35:26 Christian Pan: Reacted to “I have to go now but…” with 👍
01:35:28 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I have to go now but…”
thanks for coming!!
01:35:34 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I have to go now but…”
will post the recording in the next few weeks
01:36:01 Sinclair | they/them: darby has stolen my water
01:36:20 Sinclair | they/them: yummm ube in a waffle!
01:36:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: Replying to “darby has stolen my …”
Her water*
01:36:28 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to You taste like I bel… with “👆”
01:36:42 Faith Arrowsmith: Replying to “darby has stolen my …”
Everything belongs t…
01:36:43 Lore Hershey: My brain: “Waffle is a euphemism”
01:36:50 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “My brain: “Waffle is…” with ❤️
01:36:51 Christian Pan: Reacted to “My brain: “Waffle is…” with 😃
01:37:12 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Do we know if these …”
some of them are on my instagram

the last poem I read is here: https://www.sugarbutch.net/2022/03/the-right-one/

and also on my spoken word album: https://mrsexsmith.bandcamp.com/track/the-right-one-live

01:37:57 Lore Hershey: Waffles ARE a church service 😇
01:38:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Waffles ARE a church…” with ✅

01:38:33 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Waffles ARE a church…” with 😍
01:38:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): My baby deserves the rest. Aw. So sweet.
01:39:01 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “My baby deserves the…” with ❤️
01:39:06 Lore Hershey: A catering service 🥵
01:39:16 Lore Hershey: Replying to “A catering service �…”
#foodandwhims
01:39:25 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with ❤️
01:39:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Everything belongs t…” with 😂
01:40:02 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with 💯
01:40:05 Sinclair | they/them: “different kind of worship” killlllled me
01:40:15 Lore Hershey: Reacted to ““different kind of w…” with 😇
01:40:35 Sinclair | they/them: thanks so much for all the comments <3 I will read later
01:40:37 Lore Hershey: “oh no”
01:40:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”oh no”” with 😂
01:40:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”oh no”” with ❤️
01:41:19 TJ Aluminumbrat: Love the special drawer LOL
01:41:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Love the special dra…” with 👆
01:41:39 Faith Arrowsmith: SPECIAL DRAWER AW YEAH
01:41:50 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with 😂
01:41:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with ❤️
01:41:54 Lore Hershey: If there is a special drawer in a kitchen, is it called a whisky drawer?
01:42:02 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with ❤️
01:42:07 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “If there is a specia…” with ✅
01:42:45 Sinclair | they/them: awwwwww 🥺
01:43:05 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “If there is a specia…”
LOL. My special drawer in the kitchen is one use appliances like a banana slicer, strawberry slicer, egg slicer. I am a sucker for one use tools like that. I love myy cherry pitter.
01:43:08 Lore Hershey: I love the number of meals in this piece *wipes mouth*
01:43:16 Lore Hershey: WOOOOOOO!
01:43:17 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Ah. Read soooooo well.
01:43:18 Sassywheelz (she/her): Yayyyyy
01:43:23 Christian Pan: Good job, @Yu-Long Boba Baba
01:43:42 Regine Reyes: 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
01:43:53 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA YU-LONG <3 <3 <3
01:44:27 Kathleen Warnock: Tobi Hill-Myer has appeared in BLE!
01:44:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): What a hot night!
01:44:46 Christian Pan: Reacted to “What a hot night!” with 👍
01:44:59 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this Puff !!!
01:45:10 Lore Hershey: GO Puff!!!!
01:45:17 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to If there is a specia… with “✅”
01:45:25 Puff the Magic System (he/him): @puff_themagic_system
01:45:29 Sinclair | they/them: https://www.spdbooks.org/Products/9780990452874/nerve-endings-the-new-trans-erotic.aspx – Nerve Endings, Tobi Hill-Meyer
01:45:34 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to My brain: “Waffle is… with “😃”

01:45:34 Sinclair | they/them: Puff the Magic System (he/him)
Is a queer, kinky, polyamorous, and trans artist and community organizer based in “Olympia, WA” (traditional land of the Squaxin Island Tribes). They are a system (plural) as well as autistic, and disabled. They use traditional and digital media for their visual art. A longtime lover of performing arts, they are a drag performer and producer of an all trans variety show. They have recently started writing again after a long break and explore the intersections of kink, trauma healing, and gender in their erotica.
01:45:43 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/puff_themagic_system
01:46:09 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Okay, just throwing my love out there for disability pride. Lots of us representing the disability community–which is often under represented.
01:46:18 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:20 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:24 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with 👏
01:46:26 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Okay, just throwing …”
+1
01:46:35 Sassywheelz (she/her): Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:36 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Full of fire I don’t know what to do with … this is something I can totally resonate with.
01:47:17 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Full of fire I don’t…” with ❤️
01:47:53 Sinclair | they/them: Yu-Long’s OF: https://onlyfans.com/yulong88
01:48:10 Sinclair | they/them: oof your reading voice Puff … SO GOOD
01:48:28 Sinclair | they/them: “fight the urge to tear you apart” … 🥵
01:48:38 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Every second of you making me mine? I may have mixed up words.
01:48:50 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “oof your reading voi…” with ❤️
01:49:23 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Blue electricity … I can totally see that zapping through the air.
01:49:58 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🥵
01:51:06 Sinclair | they/them: damnnnn
01:51:34 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Your only purpose is for my release. … Fuck that’s hot!
01:51:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Your only purpose is…” with ❤️
01:52:42 Faith Arrowsmith: I pretend that I don’t know that you know❤️
01:52:44 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): All melted in my bed. … Just saying, this is usually me. I can resonate with these words. LOL
01:52:53 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I pretend that I don…” with ✅
01:52:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I pretend that I don…” with ❤️
01:53:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: WWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOWWWWWW
01:53:28 TJ Aluminumbrat: PUFF
01:53:29 Faith Arrowsmith: Ooooof
01:53:31 Christian Pan: Great work, @Puff the Magic System (he/him)
01:53:32 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I love you but I won’t tell you yet. … Oh my heart!!!
01:53:38 Lore Hershey: Beautiful!!!!
01:53:48 eli Rue: Reacted to I love you but I won… with “💯”

01:53:50 Sinclair | they/them: Christian Pan (christianpanerotica.com) is a bisexual writer who has published nearly 100 erotic short stories in English, Spanish, and French since 2021. Of his 8 previous books, At the End of the World won the 2023 Star Recommendation from All The Filthy Details, and was a Finalist for the 2022 Golden Pigtails Smut Award for Dark/Taboo Erotica. In addition to writing book reviews for his blog Dirty Words, he contributes to Dish Stanley’s weekly Crush Letter, hosts the Pulse Session for the monthly podcast All the Filthy Details, and organizes the Queer Erotic Content Creators Club through Patreon. He lives in New York City.
01:54:17 Faith Arrowsmith: Get outta here, feelings!! 😹
01:54:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: DANG Christian!!
01:54:26 Christian Pan: Reacted to “DANG Christian!!” with 😃
01:54:31 eli Rue: Reacted to DANG Christian!! with “😃”
01:54:46 Sinclair | they/them: http://christianpanerotica.com
01:54:49 Faith Arrowsmith: Christian when do you sleep?!
01:54:50 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to Good job, @Yu-Long B… with “❤️”
01:54:58 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to YAAAAAA YU-LONG <3 <... with "❤️"
01:55:05 Sinclair | they/them: Desire Lines – https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9798985034103
01:55:37 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “Christian when do yo…”
Right? and where are these stories? I think I need to practice my Spanish and reading some smut by be a great way to do that. :)
01:55:56 Sinclair | they/them: Wasted Nun – https://amzn.to/3v0ha90
01:56:11 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Ooooh, hot beginning …
01:56:21 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Christian when do yo…”

http://christianpanerotica.com
01:56:28 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Great work, @Puff th…” with ❤️
01:56:56 Lore Hershey: Shannon def goes Commando
01:57:28 Sinclair | they/them: all Christian’s books are at https://www.christianpanerotica.com/ !!
01:58:38 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Shannon def goes Com…” with 👍
01:58:53 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): OH my god. @Christian Pan I adore that you addressed the yummy tummy subject. So many women, okay, me, feel so awkward with mom belly. So I love your little salute to Shannon’s yummy tummy. I suspect many women feel a bit embarrassed about their “tummies.”
01:59:01 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Shannon def goes Com…” with 👍
01:59:13 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ahh yes the tartan skirt <3
01:59:32 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “OH my god. @Christia…” with 🔥
01:59:34 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “OH my god. @Christia…” with ❤️
01:59:44 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥 hottttt
01:59:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Animal breaaths…
01:59:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Animal breaaths…” with 👏
02:00:34 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): EEK! Let’s see what our boys are up to.
02:00:54 Sinclair | they/them: ahhhhh
02:01:00 Sinclair | they/them: “cotton underwear to fist”
02:01:08 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “”cotton underwear to…” with ❤️
02:01:49 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Hot!!!
02:03:09 Sinclair | they/them: all Christian’s books are at https://www.christianpanerotica.com/ !!
02:03:14 Lore Hershey: CHRISTIAN! Great job!
02:03:14 Christian Pan: Thanks!
02:03:15 Faith Arrowsmith: NOOOO CLIFFHANGER!!!
02:03:15 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): O … M … G …!
02:03:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: Eeeeeeeeee Christian !!!
02:03:29 Lore Hershey: WE BE SPRINTING
02:03:31 Faith Arrowsmith: Cruel, Christian!! 😹
02:03:36 Christian Pan: Thanks for all of the love & positive comments, everyone!
02:03:46 eli Rue: love hearing you read christian!!!
02:03:48 Christian Pan: Reacted to “CHRISTIAN! Great job…” with 👍
02:03:55 Christian Pan: Reacted to “love hearing you rea…” with 👍
02:03:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Yes, thank you all for the kind, kind words.
02:04:01 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “love hearing you rea…” with 👍
02:04:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you everyone <3 <3
02:04:08 elsbeth (she/her): Thank you!!! So hot.
02:04:09 Sinclair | they/them: next up: Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading, Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET 

02:04:09 Lore Hershey: Everyone did such a beautiful, beautiful job!
02:04:13 Erika Pérez: discord link please
02:04:14 Kathleen Warnock: What an amazing reading!
02:04:14 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with 👍
02:04:19 Lore Hershey: SO STOKED
02:04:19 eli Rue: Reacted to Everyone did such a … with “👍”
02:04:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): All the readings tonight were so great!!!! I am so happy to listen to everyone and have mind dripping.
02:04:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with ❤️
02:04:25 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with 👍
02:04:28 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “All the readings ton…” with 🥵
02:04:33 Erika Pérez: Thank you, everyone!
02:04:35 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with ❤️
02:04:37 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “All the readings ton…” with 🥵
02:04:37 eli Rue: Reacted to What an amazing read… with “💯”
02:04:51 Lore Hershey: Thank you, Sinclair and Kathleen!!! <3
02:05:13 Christian Pan: Thank you, Sinclair & Kathleen! Such a pleasure and a joy being here, sharing space with you all
02:05:14 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Thank you Drunken! Careening! Writers!
02:05:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): Thank you Sinclair and Kathleen
02:05:26 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Thank you Drunken! C…” with ❤️
02:05:32 elsbeth (she/her): Thank you!
02:05:44 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com

Special thanks to Jezebel Jett, who edited the video for public sharing!

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[Video] Spicy Showcase at Smut Peddlers

Here’s the replay for the Spicy Showcase at Smut Peddlers!

Smut Peddlers: An evening of LGBTQ erotica
Wednesday, December 6, 2023, 4pm PT / 7pm ET
Hosted by Glad Day Books in Toronto and Kel Hardy
featuring: Tobi Hill-Meyer
and:
MK
Lily
Sarah St John
SJ
Faith Arrowsmith

TOBI HILL-MEYER is an Indigenous Chicana trans woman. She believes creating stories is a critical part of making change, they can give us strength, model paths to success, provide encouragement, and create greater empathy. She is dedicated to community support and fighting for positive change at a local level. Tobi’s work has been in Best Lesbian Erotica, Ask: Building Consent Culture, Trans Bodies Trans Selves, Take Me There, Beyond Binary, Coming Out Like a Porn Star, and Girl Sex 101. She is editor of the Lambda Literary Finalist anthology Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic, author of children’s books A Princess of Great Daring and Super Power Baby Shower, and director of the award winning erotic documentary series Doing it Online. tobihillmeyer.com

(I don’t have the saved chat from this one; I’ve asked Kel to send it to me, but I’m not sure it was saved. If anyone who was there saved it, please let me know!)

Special thanks to Jezebel Jett, who edited the video for public sharing!

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Sinclair’s 2024 Calendar

Here’s where I’ll be and what I’ll be teaching — online & in person — in 2024!

This page will be updated as things are added.

Updated: January 29, 2024

February

February 13, 2024 | 4pm PT | online | Queer V-day Smut Reading through A Room of One’s Own
February 17, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
February 24, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books
February 27, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Your Year In Kink through Wicked Grounds

March

March 3-9, 2024 | online | Smashwords “Read an eBook” sale
March 13, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Sweet & Rough through the Big Queer Book Club with Auntie Vice
March 26, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Writing Spicy through Wicked Grounds
March 30, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Erotica Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books

April

April 11-14, 2024 | in person | International Ms. Leather & Bootblack
April 20, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Poetry Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books
April 21, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
April 26, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Sexual Politics of Kink through Wicked Grounds

May

May 23, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | The Art of Ownership through Wicked Grounds

June

May 31 – June 3, 2024 | in person | Desire: Leather Women Conference
June 16, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)

July

August

August 18, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
August 29 – September 2, 2024 | in person | Dark Odyssey: Summer Camp

September

October

October 20, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)

November

December

December 15, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)

More events TBD!


Google Calendar of Upcoming Events:

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Previously in 2024

January

January 5, 2025 | 7pm PT | in person in San Francisco | Queer Leather Happy Hour
January 23, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Daddy 101 through Wicked Grounds

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Spicy Showcases: Come Join Me For Writing Spicy Queer Kinky Erotica Readings

You’re Invited!

To the Spicy Showcases from the 2023 Writing Spicy erotica writing group’s online readings, on December 6, December 14, and December 17

Here’s the details:

Smut Peddlers: December 6, 2023

Smut Peddlers: An evening of LGBTQ erotica
Wednesday, December 6, 2023, 4pm PT / 7pm ET
Hosted by Glad Day Books in Toronto and Kel Hardy
featuring: Tobi Hill-Meyer
and:
MK
Lily
Sarah St John
SJ
Faith Arrowsmith

TOBI HILL-MEYER is an Indigenous Chicana trans woman. She believes creating stories is a critical part of making change, they can give us strength, model paths to success, provide encouragement, and create greater empathy. She is dedicated to community support and fighting for positive change at a local level. Tobi’s work has been in Best Lesbian Erotica, Ask: Building Consent Culture, Trans Bodies Trans Selves, Take Me There, Beyond Binary, Coming Out Like a Porn Star, and Girl Sex 101. She is editor of the Lambda Literary Finalist anthology Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic, author of children’s books A Princess of Great Daring and Super Power Baby Shower, and director of the award winning erotic documentary series Doing it Onlinetobihillmeyer.com

Drunken! Careening! Writers!: December 14, 2023

Queer Kink Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!
Thursday, December 14, 2023, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET
hosted by Kathleen Warnock
featuring: Sinclair Sexsmith
and:
Lore Hershey
LM
TJ
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is an award-winning queer trans masc writer focusing on queer culture, trauma, dominance, submission, spiritual kink, and transgender and nonbinary issues. Sinclair’s creative nonfiction and queer erotica writings are widely published online and in more than thirty anthologies, including eight volumes of Best Lesbian Erotica series. They are the editor of Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 4, Volume 5, Volume 6, Volume 7, Best Lesbian Erotica 2012, Erotix: Literary Journal of Somatics, and Say Please: Lesbian BDSM Erotica. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2015 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award. Sinclair writes at sugarbutch.net since 2006, recognized numerous places as one of the top sex blogs. They have been teaching about erotic writing, the power of queer narratives, somatic arts, and many sex and kink techniques since 2002. Sinclair is an international leather titleholder and an avid creative journaler, and lives on unceded Duwamish land. Find them all the places online at sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair.

Sugar & Spice: December 17, 2023

Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading
Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET 
hosted by Stina French
featuring: Kiki DeLovely
and:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
Lokchi
Tavia
Cate
Sage Elder
Jezebel Jett

hosted by Stina French, Headmistress of The Sexploratorium & host of Listen To Your Skin Reading Series

KIKI DELOVELY is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, nonbinary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world before setting down roots on unceded Occaneechi-Saponi land. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. More about their work at Open Heart Active Healing.

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“If you’re gonna write spicy, you need spicy ink!” Some Writing Spicy Art by @aluminumbrat

In one of the previous Writing Spicy groups, aluminumbrat illustrated this gorgeous lil piece of me adding peppers & eggplants to a blender and making fountain pen ink out of it.

aluminumbrat adds: “If you’re gonna write spicy, you need spicy ink! And you write *really* spicy so I thought jalapeño pepper ink would be the best for penning erotica. 🌶️🖊️💥”

So this time around, I reached out to them to see if I could commission them to make something quite similar, but maybe with different things going into the blender, like kink toys, or books — still with the peppers, of course.

They were game!

aluminumbrat adds: “You were very clear with the vision – an illustrator’s dream, honestly! 🙌 We knew books had to be there…the first sketches I did were of stacks of books and peppers! 📚”

We chatted a bit back & forth, and eventually they sent me this rough sketch / mockup:

Then I sent them some reference photos of fountain pen ink bottles, and books, and the Sugarbutch brand palette.

aluminumbrat: “It was very cool to see your fountain pen inks and fave kink books! 🩸 🖊️ The Sugarbutch brand palette is very timeless, kinda fancy/classy. So I added amber details in as a reference to whiskey 🥃”

They sent me back this sketch, to approve of the colors:

And then they got to work on the final pieces! They even posted a little video of painting the portrait of me

aluminumbrat: “The original illustration didn’t have your face in it, so it felt right to finally paint your portrait. 🎨”

I love them! Thanks so much!!

Aluminumbrat is available for commissions if you find yourself in need of some skillful art! Thank you!

aluminumbrat: “Thank you for working with me! I had a total blast and can’t wait for Writing Spicy to start. 👀 Also, regarding commissions: yes, I’ll draw almost anything for money. 🤧”

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The Bradley Shower Pole

Content: bathhouse, anonymous sex, cis and trans men, blow jobs, (self) objectification, brief mentions of body dysphoria, glory hole, shower, tdick, anonymous sex, penetration

Jaime found the darkest little cubby, where he could barely see, and dropped carefully to his knees in front of the open hole. He adjusted the towel around his waist and waited.

He waited until his knees started to hurt. He fidgeted with the edge of the towel. He itched for the familiar distraction of scrolling through Instagram on his phone. He adjusted the pinch of the elastic band around his upper arm, the one the bearded, tattooed man at the front desk had given him with his locker key and a little plastic tag that said “392” on it.

The house music drowned out most sounds. He was trying to remember how to meditate when he felt, more than heard, a gentle bang on the wall. Then a dick appeared through the hole. Factory-installed. The flashing laser lights bounced off of the black walls and occasionally found him for long enough to kind of see the hole cut into plywood wallboard, and the shape, the general size. Light skinned, but he couldn’t really tell in the shadows.

He started with his hand, stroking, then quickly took it into his mouth. Half-hard. The smell of sweat, the tickle of hair on his nostrils when he sucked it deeper into his mouth. That smell of men was comforting to him, and dropped down into his pelvis like a firecracker. He could feel his dick starting to clench and swell, and he started to get that itch of desire, that craving to rub himself.

He had scoped out the glory holes the last time he was here, and decided that next time, he was going to try it.

He adjusted his knees so his heel pressed against his own dick, and gently rocked against it. He moaned a little, but it was muffled by the dick in his mouth. Not very big, but big enough to give that satisfactory feeling of his mouth being filled. Still mostly soft. Maybe a little softer than when he started. He probably wasn’t going to come. But that was just fine with Jaime.

In and out, some pressure with his hand at the base, his wrist pressed into the wall. He missed having someone’s hands in his hair, pushing on his head. After a few minutes, the dick withdrew. He saw a flash of the white towel through the hole in the wall as the person readjusted, then walked out of view.

His heel was wet from his own juices. He changed positions again to give his knees a break. And waited.

It didn’t take as long this time. Another dick. Thicker, but still pretty short. Jaime liked them short; he could swallow them deep and barely gag, but still get that deep breath of sweat and a tickle of fur. He was starting to get a sense of what he liked. This was his third time at Steamworks, and it was almost feeling comfortable, like he belonged here. Or like, maybe someday, he could.

He focused on this new dick, licking the shaft, flicking his tongue over the frenulum, sucking the head all the way into the back of his mouth. He lost himself in the rhythmic pleasure of it, pulsing to the beat of the heavy house music. His front hole was gushing now, and he could feel the wet drip from him to the floor, open and exposed. He wondered if he pressed his ass against the hole if the other man would fuck him. If he offered two holes, instead of one, which would the man choose?

The dick he diligently sucked, practically worshiped, was stiffening again in a way that Jaime thought meant the man might come, but he pulled out instead with a few grunts. Jaime was a little disappointed. He would have taken the man’s come, would have loved to have that thick, sticky taste of it hit the back of his throat, and never known which man it was when he went back out to the big room. A secret thrill. One so many of the men here surely knew, if they ever wanted to.

It was a test, really. Even though everyone was explicitly allowed in on Gender Fuck party nights, he still wanted to feel what it would be like to be in a men’s space, to be fucked by men as a man. He still wanted to feel what it would be like to cruise, to choose, to give the slightest nod, to be groped in a hallway without even a hello. He wanted to be a hole to fuck, to be used. Well, he’d be using them, too. Look at the glory hole — he wasn’t even seeing their faces. He just wanted their dicks, mostly. Though a hand on his head really would be nice. And maybe just a little eye contact.

He waited for another dick to come through his hole, the glory hole he was now thinking of as his. Certainly his favorite glory hole. His dick was swollen and throbbing, aching for touch. He clenched and released his internal muscles and felt it flex, felt the walls of his hole tighten and release. He wanted to get fucked.

Slowly, he rose from his knees and bent at an awkward angle trying to get his cunt and ass to line up with the hole. His belly was a little in the way to bend at this angle, but he managed, and could feel the slightly different flow of air over the wet folds of him as he pressed into the wall. The paint was probably sticky. Was this even safe, offering himself up like this? It could be anyone. This was risky behavior. He had calculated. He had thought this through. It could be anyone, and that’s what he liked about it. Right now, he was just a hole for the taking. Surely, some of these men knew their way around a cunt.

He waited, knees burning, in a partial squat against the wall, braced with one hand on either side wall. The glory hole spaces were made for just one body at a time.

Minutes passed. He tried to count his breaths, one through eight, then back to two, up to eight again, then start at three, all the way to eight. He kept losing track and starting over, but that’s what meditation is, isn’t it. Starting over. Again and again. Beginning fresh, without the weight of failure or shame or negative self-talk. He started thinking about his groceries, the laundry he hadn’t finished. His mind meandered to the computer programming book he was reading for his job, to what restaurants were between him and his apartment on 15th and which one he’d stop at on the way home. Then, he’d come back to himself, to his dark little corner with his hole exposed on the other side of the wall, and breathe again, and try to focus.

His hips and knees were starting to burn.

All I am right now is a hole, he told himself, over and over, like a prayer. Just a hole for the taking. Just a warm, wet thing, a sheath, a place to get stuffed. Please, please. He wanted it. He was probably still dripping. What a sight he would be from the other side of the wall.

“Fuck me,” he whispered, feeling desperate and even a little pathetic. What more could he offer? “Please, fuck me.”

That was when he felt fingers, rough and dry and thick, shoving deep into his front hole. He almost fell over, but had his hand in front of him on the other wall, braced. He cried out immediately and pressed back into the wall, into the other man’s hand.

The fingers weren’t all that good at what they were doing. Just poking, exploring. Then they withdrew. He heard grunts, or he thought he did, it was hard to tell over the loud house music. Then, something softer against his opening.

Please let it be a cock, please, he pleaded in his mind, though found himself mouthing the words. “Please, I want your cock,” he whispered.

It wasn’t that big. A few years of fucking dykes with their choose-your-own-adventure straps, and he got used to the big monsters, the ones thicker than a fist. It’s different to go back to the factory-installed variety after some time away. Softer. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like anything more than a tickle, a little pressure. But still, he prefers it. It feels right. There’s something more satisfying.

He tried to ease back on it, to take it deeper, but he couldn’t really go anywhere pressed up against the wall. He pressed anyway. He couldn’t really open any wider, his ass spread apart, but he reached back with his hands and counterbalanced his weight, leaning forward, and spread open his holes with his fingers. He’s so slick. He can feel it going in and out.

All I am right now is a hole.

All I am is a hole.

All I am —

All —

All —

His mind calmed, quieted, in that way that it only does when there is a cock deep inside. Something in his chest unwound, spiraling outward, through his shoulders and hips, through his fingers and toes. He had no words. He was nothing but a hole, nothing but made for this, nothing but open, open, open.

“All I am is a hole.” The words skated across his mind, the idea of the words, the idea behind the idea, and he didn’t have any words, didn’t have any thoughts. Blank boy. No thinking. Just a hole.

He was lost, not even in his body anymore, except that he could feel everything, every whisper of air current changeing against his skin. Where is his towel? On the floor. He didn’t notice when that fell. Probably filthy now, but he wasn’t thinking about that. What can he do? Nothing. Nothing, he’s just a hole. Just a hole for the taking. That’s it, take me. Take everything. Leave me empty. Leave me filled.

He felt shuddering against his ass, more pressure, a throbbing inside of him. Then the cock, the man attached to the cock, withdrew. No fanfare, no grunting (not that Jaime could hear, anyway). No announcement of orgasm or coming or jizz or being a good little hole for the man’s pleasure. Just air, where there was warmth. Just the house music suddenly flooding back into Jaime’s ears. Just the laser light dance in front of his eyes. Just the towel on the floor, and Jaime’s sticky hole.

His mind wasn’t working. No thoughts, only hole. What does he need? Warmer. Wash off. He headed to the shower. The men he passed in the hall checked him out visibly, obviously. One of them was holding his towel over his dick, not around his waist. He had a sexy chest, beefy with a good amount of hair. One of them stared at the scars on his chest. He doesn’t say anything. The smile and sparkle in his eye contact told Jaime he was intrigued.

There were other men in the shower, three of them at one of the shower towers, one at the other. They watched him as he approached. Side eye; quick glances, then looking away — or long hard stares. Jaime shivered a little, though it was warmer in here, and the mist was making it humid.

He took an empty shower head between two men. Is this what high school gym locker rooms were like? Is this what I would’ve felt in high school, had I been a guy in the locker room with the other guys? Guys older than me, more developed? Hairier, bigger, voices already dropped? His thoughts came slowly, through a fog, more of a flash of a high school scene and a question, almost a deja vu. As if he’s remembering what would have happened, in his other childhood, in his other life.

The first time he accidentally brushed the man next to him, he recoiled quickly, with a sheepish look in the man’s direction. He didn’t seem to notice. Maybe the water is stimulating enough that the touch didn’t register. Maybe he didn’t even actually touch him.

But then, the next time — a hand at his hip. Gentle pressure, fingertips pulled him back. His butt made contact first, and the man’s other hand rubbed it under the hot water, squeezing a little, tentatively, like a question. Jaime arched and pressed back further, bracing one hand on the shower pole, spreading his legs. He could feel the man’s cock, hard and jutting out, pressing against his crack, but not in the right spot. Jaime squirmed, on his tiptoes, switching his hips forward and back to try to get the right angle. The man wrapped his arms around Jaime, touching his chest and stomach, making his breath catch when he brought his hand down to the hair between his legs.

The man on the other side of Jaime was watching them. He started off rubbing soap through his chest hair and along his belly, but now he’s rubbing his dick, his eyes hungry and eating them up. He locked eyes with Jaime and didn’t look away. The man behind Jaime is dragging his finger between Jaime’s legs, but doesn’t seem to know what else to do. He smacked Jaime’s dick a little, which is more surprising than painful — water sprayed and Jaime yelped, almost slipping, but regained his footing.

The other man smiled. Jaime smiled back, feeling bold and like a hot piece of ass that everyone wants. He bent at the waist, reaching. He didn’t think he could, but he’s always had a long torso, and when he bent, he reached the other man and slid one hand along his thick thigh. He’s squat, thick, dense, and so was his dick. Jaime opened his mouth, and it took no work for the other man to slip it in.

The man behind him shifts his hands behind Jaime and starts guiding his dick into him. He tried Jaime’s asshole, but finds it tight, unlubed, and keeps going. Maybe his dick is too soft. Maybe he didn’t mean to slide right into Jaime’s front hole, but it was right there, open and slick, still full of the come from the glory hole, and it happened so easily. He had trouble getting a good angle where he can keep moving his mouth, but he kept trying, lapping with his tongue, holding on to the man’s hip and thigh, sometimes circling his fingers around his cock. Sucking, when he could, before it popped out. Desperate for it to get back in.

He realized he was fussing, trying so hard to do what would feel good for these men, and he tried to relax a little. That helped. The man behind him had him by the hips and was thrusting mercilessly. They fit together, something matched in his hipbones and Jaime’s, in the size and shape of the man’s cock with the size and shape of Jaime’s hole. It’s the click Jaime had been craving, the satisfying union, the white noise of his empty head and full hole.

Two full holes.

His arms went limp for a moment. Impaled. Only a body, only this beautiful body, this home he sometimes hates but mostly loves, the smooth chest and furry belly, the ears too big and the hands too busy, the cock small, but ideal. Just enough. Just right. It fit, somehow. It matched. And someday, it’ll fit perfectly right in someone’s mouth, the way other cocks fit into his holes, the way it feels when the sheath is just right.

A smack on his cheek. He realized he was being held up. The man in front of him tilted his face up, hand under his chest, holding some of his weight. Jaime finds the muscles of his legs, looks up at the man, blinking.

“Just checking,” he said. His hair is dark because of the water, but he’d be blond or redhead if he was dry.

Jaime’s mouth was open in an O, and he lowered it back down to the man’s dick. The man gives it to him eagerly, keeping one hand on Jaime’s shoulder. He sucked again, losing himself in it, eager and hungry. Starving. Oh please, oh please give me your come, please let me suck it, he thought. He tried to think it so loud, begging, pleading with his mouth, so that the man would hear his thoughts and understand. Please, I want to swallow it, I’m good at this, show me you like it, give it to me, please.

He didn’t know if the man behind him was going to come or not. He was still getting fucked, slower now, but thoroughly. The water was not the best lube, but it was enough that he wasn’t chafing, only occasionally feeling a tug when it wasn’t quite slick enough.

I’ll take your come, too, he thought. I’ll take it, if you give it to me. I want it. Fill me up, oh, fill up my holes with your come, please.

The steam of the shower made all the images blurry, coming in and out of focus. The red tiles, the white towels as men walk by, skinny legs and fat legs and somebody brought their own Adidas rubber sandals to wear. Men stopped, watched, looked. At him.

He brought one hand down to his dick. He tried out a few swipes but can barely touch it directly, too sensitive, too swollen. He would love to wrap something around it, like that little squishy silicone toy at home. Instead, he made his fingers into a v and pinched it a little at the base, using the folds around it to make friction, movement, sensation. Up and down. He’s so hard. He likes when it feels this swollen, this big. He can feel it contract as the man behind him kept slamming his dick inside, and he pushed on it from the outside while it’s being pushed from the inside.

It didn’t take long. He came, finally, gagging on the fat cock as it spurts at the same time, and squeezing the man behind him so hard that he can’t stay in. He yelled, but only once, before he got a hold of his reaction and keeled forward, letting himself be lowered all the way to the shower floor by the man in front of him.

He’s gone. He’s nothing. He’s a puddle under this water, rain over him, pressed against this hard tile, warm but still cooler than the water temperature.

He’s humming a little, trying to get his breath back, still seeing stars. “I’m okay,” he said, as he saw the man trying to catch his eye again. He started getting up. “I’m good. Uh,” he cleared his throat, trying to consciously lower his voice. “Thanks.”

He turned to the other man. Gave him a nod. What’s the etiquette here? A high five? “Thanks.”

“Thank you,” he said, his voice gruff, a big, dumb smile hiding under a dark beard. Jaime didn’t remember ever looking at his face before backing into him, but his chest was familiar, something comforting about the curve of his pecs, his strong arms. The man held his eye a few beats longer than he was comfortable, but as soon as he breathed, Jaime felt hypnotized, light on his feet.

He felt the other man at his back, a hand on his shoulder. “Hey now, don’t fall or nothin’.”

“No, I-I’m good,” Jaime replied. He wiped his eyes. He should get out of the steam. “Thanks. Thanks.”

With water dripping into his eyes from his hair, he found his way to a dry spot nearby and toweled off as best as he could with this thin, scratchy gym towel. If he was noticed, if his small dick or scars were stared at, he didn’t see it. He was floating, clear.

And he was starving.

He wound his way through the dark hallways, peeking into the open doors, mostly finding men sprawled naked and touching their dicks on the beds. He moved out of the way for another man to pass, dark skin in the dark light, white towel bright. He found his locker, took the band off his arm, and slid the key that said “392” into the lock.

At some unknown point after he put his gray jeans back on, and before he slid his worn in Phish tour shirt over his head, he started grinning. Like a fool; like a freshly fucked boy toy. He shivered all the way to the backs of his knees, starting from his neck, and made his way downstairs.

As he turned onto the glistening sidewalk, wet from today’s rains, the house music faded and his eyes adjusted to the absence of lasers. His body buzzed. Every pore was alive, sensate. The city glittered in front of him. He breathed deep. What didn’t smell like garbage had that distinct petrichor smell of concrete and rain, desire and satiation. He could tell his cunt would be sore tomorrow. His dick was still throbbing, humming. Pleased with himself. That was what he wanted, and he did it.

He did it.

Now, he thought, as he started the short walk home. Now, I want some spicy noodles. And he knew just the place to stop on the way.

erotica writing

10 Days of Writing Spicy Prompts

10 Days of Writing Spicy Prompts starts tomorrow, Friday, September 15th!

10 days of spicy erotica prompts is underway!

I’ll be posting one prompt every (week)day on Instagram, Twitter, and to via email untill October 4th. I’ll give you a few different options for the prompts, changing the pronouns or slightly tweaking the language — hopefully that gives you an idea of what you can do to *any* prompt, mine or not.

I’d love to see what these prompts inspire in you … please tag me @mrsexsmith, and use the hashtag #writingspicy when you share your work on Twitter, or in Instagram posts or stories, so I can see them (and share & repost!).

I’ll be sharing some of my responses to these prompts, too. Can’t wait to read what y’all come up with!

Add your email in below to receive the prompts by email

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Check out the new queer porn site, QueerCrush

Have you seen QueerCrush yet?

QueerCrush is “a celebration of authentic lesbian passion and fun brought to you by director Electra Rayne and videograoher Dahlia Von Knight. … No fake orgasms or uncomfortable positions “for the camera”, just real, unscripted, authentic queer connection.”

I’ve been meandering around the (many!!) videos that are already live on the site. I recognize a few queer porn stars (heyyyy), some porn stars I’ve mostly seen in mainstream porn, and many folks who are brand new. There are a lot of folks with bigger bodies, quite a few people of color, and quite a few trans women. I am of course biased, and would love to hear more dirty talk, and more kink, and more D/s, and more strap-on sex, but there is some of that.

I’m still finding my personal favorites, but here’s a few that have caught my eye so far.

(Also, they have a pride month sale that is extending into Wrath Month (July), so you can get 20% off your membership for life if you sign up now!)

Asking For It – Sinn Sage and Teeny Steele

Love the spanking, slapping, and rough body play in the beginning of this one. It’s clear how much they were really in it with each other and delighting in each other’s bodies. I got distracted by the amazing lingerie — the garter and thigh straps — that Teeny was wearing, they’re so hot! I have often wished for a “lingerie / sex toys / decor featured in this video” list.

Grind – Alison Rey and Casey Calvert

I’ve seen Alison in (many) other mainstream porn, and often really enjoy her (keep an eye out for an upcoming post about daddy/girl porn, if that is a thing that you might like). I was quickly fascinated by the grinder that they’re using and went searching for it! When I asked Electra Rayne, she said she didn’t know, that Alison found it on Tiktok — which quickly led me to Uncover Creations Tentacle Grinder II (you’re welcome). I am not usually into grinder toys, but this scene made me want one. (Any recommendations? Leave ’em in the comments!)

Good Job – CeCe LaRue and Madam Morgan

I saw a gif of this scene — the nipple sucking part specifically — over on QueerCrush’s Twitter and immediately went to watch it. Love seeing all kinds of trans bodies in porn, and their pleasure and excitement about each other was smashing.

Dominate Me (Bonus Scene) — Electra Rayne and Alex de la Flor

I only planned to include three videos in this round up, but since this is a bonus video, consider this your bonus feature. Electra Rayne is summoned by Alex de la Flor, and then tops her magnificently. What really caught my eye, though, was the dildo Electra has — it’s probably the Carter from New York Toy Collective (don’t you think?), and it’s an ampallang piercing, horizontally through the glans. (Psst, use the code SUGARBUTCH to buy things at NYTC and get $5 off!) I had a piercing in one of my cocks once, but it got damaged (not because of the piercing) and I miss it, this made me want to run out and get another one. Maybe that should be on my kink bucket list for the second half of 2023.

I’ve barely scratched the surface of the dozens of videos on QueerCrush.

But I’m excited to see more! I’ve already got my eye on a few different scenes that I’m going to watch next. I don’t usually watch this kind of porn (I tend toward lots of dirty talk, lots of kink, lots of brutality, personally), but I have really enjoyed seeing people who look like me.

They are also interested in more masc performers on the site (Billy Lore, I’m looking at you!), so if you’ve got any requests or recommendations, or if you have wanted to play in some queer porn, you can reach out to QueerCrush and apply.

Don’t forget the Pride sale on QueerCrush is 20% off your lifetime membership!

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Best of 2022 on Sugarbutch

2022 was a huge transition year for me.

In April, I changed the Patreon from per-thing to per-month, which significantly helped me work on longer form projects, and offer longer online groups/courses (3!). That changed how I was writing online significantly, and meant I published far less in 2022 than I have in the past. But it also meant that I had more time to work on longer writings and bigger projects.

The biggest thing, though, was that my 11-year 24/7 TPE Owner/property Daddy/boy relationship (and legal marriage) with rife ended in August. We’re still working out the details of the legal separation, but we’ve been living apart since October, and I moved into my own apartment (my first time living alone in my life!) in January. October through April were incredibly rough for me, and I’ve been in and out of emotional crashes that have me barely above water. My finances have completely changed, and I’m unsure if I will be able to keep writing here, or how. (I want to — I just have to also figure out how to afford Seattle rent and restart my entire life.) I would like to write more about this, but honestly, so far, it’s just been too hard to share.

But, some great things happened in 2022, too. Aside from the general Sugarbutch world, I have a few other ongoing projects, like:

Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 7, which I edited, came out in December! (I have no news about the BLE series from Cleis going forward, though — unsure if there’s a new editor or if they’ve paused the series.)

The erotic energy / somatics group I’m part of, EroSomatics, made some great leaps forward, and we’re planning to offer some workshops online (and maybe in person!?) in 2023.

But, even though I published way less than usual in 2022, and I

Without Further Ado: Here are the best posts of 2022 on Sugarbutch (& beyond)

Note about the password protected posts: The password is given to all the folks who support me on Patreon. Thank you, thank you, to all of you who have been supporting my work, either for a month or years, in all the ways you do it, whether with money or otherwise. It has been hugely supportive during this transition. If you love my work, please sign up to support me here, so I can keep writing, publishing, & sharing things with all of you.

On Writing Erotica

“Any tips for developing the time/habit/discipline to write regularly?” … This is an age-old question for not only writers, but everyone seeking a creative life. There are dozens of books about famous writer’s daily routines, and this is a frequent question asked of writers in interviews. And for good reason — modern daily life is absolutely not set up to prioritize creative play or the spaciousness needed to create. So how do we do it? … Maybe most importantly, how do you do it? Here’s my best ideas and resources about this. — On Developing a Writing Habit

Reading and writing erotica can be an act of rebellion. … We were not taught about sex as a pleasurable act. We were not taught about being in our bodies as something exciting, personal, pleasurable, fun. We were not taught about masturbation, kink, queer sex, or any of the thousands of ways that bodies go together and explore. When we read (and write!) erotica, we take a little bit of that shame away. We claim our birthright of pleasure, as a being in this corporeal body. We stake our right to desire freely, to fantasize, to ponder what would feel amazing to us (or to our characters). — Write the Erotica You Want To See In the World

In the Writing Spicy class in spring 2022, I invited people to honor the names of the people who came before them, people who wrote or created content around queer kink, reclaiming sexuality, and more. It became a powerful list — no, more than a list: a powerful digital altar. It acknowledges our collective lineage, and how much work people have done in order to get us to a place where we can write and publish as freely as we can. — The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica

Erotica

CN: masturbation, zoom dates, some dirty talk including slurs (bitch, cunt, whore), D/s and power dynamics. All characters are over 18 and consenting adults. … I tried to forget you were there. Watching me. Or, you could be, any time you looked over from your work meeting to our Zoom window. I tried to just fuck myself and get off how I would if no one was watching. I flung my arm over my eyes, I let myself bite my upper arm. … I couldn’t entirely forget, ever, of course. I wanted you to see me, wanted to distract you, wanted your attention on me. (Fuck, how I crave that gaze of yours, that way you look at me as if I am the only thing that matters.) The sound was muted, but you know my noises well enough by now. You could fill in the moans and growls, the gasps and heavy breathing. — Switch (protected)

For International Ms Leather/Bootblack 2022, I organized some erotica reading recordings by some incredible talented kinky erotica readers. Here’s the video I put together, of my two stories. — Best Lesbian Erotica – Queer Kink Erotica Reading Video

D/s & Kink Theory

Have y’all come across the phrase “wholesome kink” lately, or at all? … I’ve noticed a rise in it, personally. And I’ve been thinking a lot about whether it’s the right phrase to describe some of the things I/we do, or want to do, or whether “wholesome” is just the wrong word, and that it is inherently an oxymoron to call any kind of kink “wholesome.” — Is Kink Ever “Wholesome”?

I have been in dynamics as a daddy with both a girl and a boy, and these are my thoughts about the fundamental differences of them. … Honestly, my main opinion and point is that they are not that different. They are different primarily because they are two dynamics with two different people, and each Daddy dynamic — each D/s dynamic in general — manifests differently, based on the D and s that are in that dynamic. — How Are Daddy/boy and Daddy/girl Different? (protected)

So you’re a nonbinary person — and you’re kinky! Fantastic. The kinky world of pleasure, sensation, trust, intimacy, and intensity is open to you. Often, there are a lot of expectations for what kind of kink men are into, and what kind of kink women are into (these are stereotypes, and often incorrect). In my experience, nonbinary people have an easier time deconstructing the expectations of the binary gender roles and diving in to really discover what it is they particularly like. You don’t have to subscribe to any of the gender role expectations of what kind of kink men and women “should” enjoy — and this gives you a leg up. You get to make your own treasure map. You get to make your own path. — 9 Tips for Nonbinary Folks Navigating BDSM Community on Zipper Magazine

Smutty Things by Amazing Writers (Guest Posts)

CN: daddy/girl, age play, spanking, fingering, good girl. “I understand it was an accident,” she says, her eyes dancing with mock seriousness, “but you know you’re meant to be careful when you’re colouring in. What do you think will make you remember to be more careful next time?”

“I…” I bite my lip and look down at the pattern on my ankle socks, scuffing one foot over the other, my toes curling as I hesitantly finish my sentence. “I think I need to have my bottom spanked.” — Golden Hour, by Anna Sansom

CN: marriage proposal, transmasc/femme, top surgery, daddy/girl, age play, blow job, fingering, strap-on, fucking, crying, D/s, possession.

When they meet my eyes their expression has changed into something I have only ever seen once or twice in our relationship. It is a fierce desire that paints their face; a desire so strong that I know they have gone there in order to keep the overwhelming emotions at bay. When Cam gets that look, I know they need to go somewhere darker, somewhere kinkier, and my breath catches in my throat at the prospect. … I meet their eye and nod. Telling them whatever it is they need right now, I will give it to them. — All Of This, Guest Erotica by A. L. Brooks

CN: slut, slapping, consensual non-consent, degradation, crying after sex, unhealthy relationship, force, sadism. “Tell me you’re sorry,” I say. They could be apologizing for anything. For being a slut. For being a brat. For making me violent. For dragging me out here on a rainy weekday night, though really they never ask me to come, I bring myself here. Their sin is irrelevant because we are both just here for the punishment. … They don’t say it, and the omission is permission. I thrust again, harder, and their voice breaks as they cry out. — All Villain, All Bully, Guest Post by Kel Hardy

CN: sex, explicit daddy/boy language and roles, and sexual foot play. I am at your feet, of course. I’m not allowed a vibe, not yet, so I’m stroking with my fingers and I have a toy inside, filling me. I am watching dutifully but key sneaking glances up at you. … You are filling the couch with your bulk, big thighs spread powerfully. You palm the dick you are wearing while the full size vibrator underneath rumbles the dick you are not wearing. You push it tighter against your skin and then pull it up and away rhythmically. You lick your lips and settle back in to the leather cushions. … I feel the weight of your calf as you drape your bare foot across my strong bare shoulder. I turn my head to the side and give a tentative lick. You moan deeply and press your toes between my soft sweet lips. I let you in. — At Daddy’s Feet, Guest Post by rife (protected)

Personal Things

When I was 23, I wrote a poem called “The Right One,” and I performed it (a lot) for the next 8 years or so. I haven’t done it much lately, but I dusted it off for a few performances in 2022. Here’s a video of it, and the words. — The Right One

when we lived in the big brown house
with the sun-baked deck
too hot to walk out there barefoot
though I did it anyway

I thought I was miserable
but when I look back
I think I was happy

— Sun-Baked Deck (protected)

“There’s a common story that when relationships end, they have failed. But I strongly believe that isn’t the case.” This is the post where I talk about the end of my 11 year Owner/property, Daddy/boy, D/s relationship with rife. — Graduation (protected)

Workshops & Teaching

I ran a lot of online workshops in 2022! Most significantly, I ran Writing Spicy, the online erotica writing group, twice — and, holy shit, some incredible writing came out of that. I also ran D/s Playground, the online course rife and I began in 2014. It’s always such deep, incredible conversations about D/s and power exchange, about the realities of surrender and power, and about how to navigate all the external forces that knock us around. Writing Spicy continues to inspire me so much — each time I read through everyone’s final works, I feel like I really should step up my own erotica writing. They’re so good! (I have dreams of a Writing Spicy anthology, but that’s in the future.)

Thanks to everyone who read my work (& continues to), to all of you who have been working with me 1:1 or in writing groups or D/s groups. Special thanks to everyone who supports me on Patreon, too. Thank you.

Can’t wait to see what 2023 will bring!

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Sinclair’s 2023 Calendar

Here’s where I’ll be and what I’ll be teaching — online & in person — in 2023!

This page will be updated as things are added.

Last updated: September 23, 2023

September

September 14, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy (2h) through Bloom
September 18, 2023 | online | guest lecture for Writing the Erotic, online course by Sara Youngblood Gregory
September 24, 2023 | online | Solo Polyamory Day (my talk is at 12:30pm PT)
September 26, 2023 | online | The Vulnerable Dominant through Wicked Grounds

October

October 6, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy: Erotica Writing Group starts! & runs through November 15
October 12, 2023 | online | Sexual Politics of Kink through Bloom
October 18, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through SADE
October 26, 2023 | online | Protocol Game through Wicked Grounds

November

November 9, 2023 | online | Cock Confidence through Bloom
November 10-12, 2023 | in person | Leather Reign
November 18, 2023 | online | TBA
November 28, 2023 | online | Your Year In Kink through Wicked Grounds

December

More events TBD!

Calendar of Upcoming Events

March 2024

Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat Sun
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  • Sweet & Rough Book Group
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  • Writing Workshop in Seattle
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Previously in 2023

January

January 30, 2023 | online | Daddy4Daddy Erotica Reading

February

February 4-5, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Strap-On Embodiment with Dickfest (recorded)
February 17, 2023 | online | High Protocol with 7 Days of Domination (recorded)
February 28, 2023 | online | Daddy4Daddy Erotica Reading (private)

March

March 10, 2023 | in person | Queer Love: Listen To Your Skin erotic reading in Seattle through AWP
March 11, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange with Marcia B
March 22, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Strap-On Embodiment with the Exiles
March 26, 2023 | online | Best Lesbian Erotica at Listen To Your Skin
March 29, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

April

April 20-23, 2023 | in person | International Ms Leather / International Ms Bootblack Conference
April 26, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

May

May 23, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy (2 hour version) through Wicked Grounds | tickets | FL | FB | MU
May 31, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

June

June 27, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Embodying Your Strap On through Wicked Grounds
June 28, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

July

July 5, 2023 | online | The Desire Body through EroSomatics
July 8, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through Black Thorn
July 8, 2023 | online | High Protocol for D/s through MAsT: Auckland
July 25, 2023 | online | The Sexual Politics of Kink through Wicked Grounds
July 26, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

August

August 3-6, 2023 | in person | Northwest Leather Celebration
August 10-13, 2023 | in person | Boundless
August 16-22, 2023 | online | The Kink Bundle!
August 17, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through Bloom
August 21, 2023 | online | Conversation with Arielle Greenberg about Superfreaks (free)
August 22, 2023 | online | The Art of Ownership through Wicked Grounds
August 23, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

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Upcoming (Online) Erotica Readings: Best Lesbian Erotica, Writing Spicy, & Daddy4Daddy

Smut Peddlers presents: Writing Spicy

Sunday, December 11, 2022, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET

hosted by Kel Hardy
through Glad Day Books, Toronto
online, free

featuring:
Leo Wilder
Miriam Ruby
L.A. Murphy
Orlando Silver
E
Murúch Fír
Miro Bird
J. Bryce
and
Sinclair Sexsmith

To tune in on GDTV:
Just add us on ZOOM: https://zoom.us/my/gladday
Meeting ID: 619-763-5308
Password is: 1970
(you can also phone in and listen: 647 558 0588)

Fornicatio cum laude: iconic butch erotica writer and editor Sinclair Sexsmith is partnering with Smut Peddlers to present an evening of readings by students, the culmination of the queer kinkster author’s Writing Spicy workshop.

Writing Spicy is a five week class on constructing erotic stories. Part classroom, part writing group, writers explore the craft of short erotic stories, focusing on the craft of storytelling and how erotica is different than stories without erotic content.

This event is presented by the Smut Peddlers, Glad Day’s own wildly successful evening of erotica and sexy writing from young queer, trans and non-binary writers at the world’s oldest surviving LGBTQ bookstore.

Co-organizer and course leader Sinclair Sexsmith is joined by Smut Peddler co-producer (spicy writer supreme) and the evening’s host, Kel Hardy. Smut Peddlers couldn’t be more excited… maybe a little TOO excited… to partner with Sinclair for an evening of spicy readings.


Best Lesbian Erotica panel at Charis Books

Wednesday, December 14, 2022, 7:30-8:30pm ET / 4:30-5:30pm PT

Details on Charis’s website here.

This event takes place on Crowdcast. Register here!

Charis celebrates Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 7, edited by Sinclair Sexsmith. In addition to the editor, other panelists include: Asha Leong, Lilith Young, Fiona Zedde, and La Toya Hankins. Dive into these 19 varied stories and experience a first time after a gender confirming surgery, transport to another time for a sexy heist with a forbidden lover, or even have one last hoorah with some swingers on the night before everything changes. Keep reading—you may just discover something new about yourself, or see yourself reflected in these provocative stories.

About the panelists:

Sinclair Sexsmith (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at sugarbutch.net.

Asha Leong is healer, coach and trainer focused on helping queer, trans, people of color thrive. Asha has a deep passion for helping people heal, understand, create, and manifest their personal vision of sexual liberation. Asha is an ordained earth based healer with Awareness Insight Ministries, Inc., with over a decade of training in her craft. Asha specializes in horoscope readings, spiritual coaching, shamanic energy healing and teaching about sexual liberation. Asha founded the Sexual Liberation Collective which is an intentional collective of people who are passionate about healing and sexual liberation in 2012. Through her practice Dreaming Desires Asha help’s queer, trans, people of color heal from trauma, create relationships, life plan, name their desires, build queer family and manifest their personal vision of sexual liberation into the world. Asha is an erotic writer and is excited to be published in Best Lesiban Erotica 2023.

Jamaican-born Fiona Zedde currently lives and writes in Madrid, Spain. She is the author of several novellas and novels of lesBiQueer love and desire, including the Lambda Literary Award finalists, Bliss and Every Dark Desire. Her novel, Dangerous Pleasures, was the winner of an About.com Readers’ Choice Award for Best Lesbian Novel or Memoir. Find out more at www.FionaZedde.com.

Lilith Young is a queer autistic writer. She spends her days baking, writing, and wishing she could adopt every dog she meets. Growing up in the American deep south she hopes to write the stories she wished she could have read when she was coming out in college.

La Toya Hankins is the author of SBF Seeking and K-Rho: The Sweet Taste of Sisterhood as well as short stories including “Married to the Struggle,” “Heat Wave-Southport,” and “Ghosted.” Her work has been featured in anthologies Black From the Future and Lez Talk: A Collection of Black Lesbian Short Stories, published by BLF Press and she is a regular book reviewer for the Black Lesbian Literary Collective. She has written for two blogs, “Hot Tea and Ice” featured at www.wyettevans.com and “Pate and Caviar” featured on her website, www.latoyahankins.com. Hankins is a native of North Carolina and currently resides in Durham, NC.

More info:

This event is free and open to all people, especially to those who have no income or low income right now, but we encourage and appreciate a solidarity donation in support of the work of Charis Circle, our programming non-profit. Charis Circle’s mission is to foster sustainable feminist communities, work for social justice, and encourage the expression of diverse and marginalized voices.

Please contact us at info@chariscircle.org or 404-524-0304 if you would like ASL interpretation at this event. If you would like to watch the event with live AI captions, you may do so by watching it in Google Chrome and enabling captions: Instructions here. If you have other accessibility needs or if you are someone who has skills in making digital events more accessible please don’t hesitate to reach out to info@chariscircle.org. We are actively learning the best practices for this technology and we welcome your feedback as we begin this new way of connecting across distances.

By attending our virtual event you agree to our Code of Conduct: Our event seeks to provide a harassment-free experience for everyone, regardless of gender, gender identity and expression, age, sexual orientation, disability, physical appearance, body size, race, ethnicity, religion (or lack thereof), class, or technology choices. We do not tolerate harassment in any form. Sexual language and imagery are not appropriate. Anyone violating these rules will be expelled from this event and all future events at the discretion of the organizers. Please report all harassment to info@chariscircle.org immediately.


Best Lesbian Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Thursday, December 15, 7pm ET

Online reading celebrating the release of Best Lesbian Erotica volume 7
Register here: https://bit.ly/BLEatDCW

We won’t be together in person this month, but we will be meeting online for our annual holiday tradition: a reading from BLE! DCW has featured readers from the BLE series for its release since 2004.

Featuring:
Cameron Night
SJ
Sonni de Soto
Stephani Maari Booker
Sinclair Sexsmith

About the readers:

CAMERON NIGHT is a queer butch writer based in New York City, where she works as an editor. She spends her free time writing queer love stories and playing softball.

SONNI de SOTO is an Asian geek of color who loves that cosplay and conventions allow you to step into a completely new world and explore new sides of yourself. de Soto has had the privilege of publishing romantic erotica novels and stories with The Sexy Librarian, Cleis Press, Sexy Little Pages, and many others. Find more from her at patreon.com/sonnidesotoallaccess and follow her at instagram.com/sonni_de_soto.

STEPHANI MAARI BOOKER dedicates her published erotica to the memory of her pen pal friend, the late writer Xan West. She has stories in Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 6, Owning It: Embracing Our Bodies, Sexuality, and Power (Rhiannon Rhys-Jones, Sienna Saint-Cyr & S.B. Roark, editors; SinCyr Publishing, 2018), Coming Together: Girl on Girl (Leigh Ellwood, editor; EroticAnthology.org, 2013), and Longing, Lust and Love: Black Lesbian Stories (Shonia L. Brown, editor; Nghosi Books, 2007). For more information about her work, go to athenapersephoni.com.

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at sugarbutch.net.


Spicy Showcase: Queer, Trans, & Nonbinary Erotica Reading

Sunday, December 18, 2022, 10am-12pm PT / 1-3pm ET

hosted by Sinclair Sexsmith
online through Zoom, free
Register here: https://bit.ly/spicyshowcase
Facebook event: https://fb.me/e/3ff0rOEOP

Featuring:
Titus Androgynous
Hannah Rose
Lilith Young
Faith Arrowsmith
z
Arden Sofia
Ursa A. Viridian
Grace
Lux Steinberg
and
Kiki DeLovely

About the feature:

Kiki DeLovely (http://kikidelovely.wordpress.com) is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, non-binary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world. She now makes her home on Occaneechi-Saponi land.


Daddy4Daddy Erotica Readings with Orlando Silver & Sinclair Sexsmith

30 December, 2022 & 30 January, 2023, 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

Come hear Orlando Silver and Sinclair Sexsmith read erotica!

We’ll be reading rough drafts, unpublished, and so far unheard works about daddy4daddy romance, sex, kink, and big feelings. Ask us questions ahead of time and we’ll choose some of our favorites to answer. Come see them both try to make each other blush.

This is in part a place to share our work, and in part a fundraiser to help us cover travel costs to see each other (and generate more material to share with YOU). Tickets are $20 ($50 if you come to all 3!), or by a sliding scale donation of any amount ($5? $100? $3,000? Fantastic).

Can’t wait to see you there.

In North America:

  • 30 November, 2022
  • 30 December, 2022
  • 30 January, 2023
  • 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

In Australia:

  • 1 December, 2022
  • 31 December, 2022
  • 31 January, 2023
  • 12-1pm AEDT

 

About the readers:

ORLANDO SILVER (they/he) is a queer enby hiding out in Sydney, Australia. They have published stories in Big Book of Orgasms 2 and Best Lesbian Erotica 6, and are the author of Soft Fruit. The key to their heart is to buy them good fiction or possibly coffee. You can find them on Instagram as http://www.instagram.com/say_please_baby

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at http://sugarbutch.net.

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Daddy4Daddy Erotica Readings with Orlando Silver & Sinclair Sexsmith

Come hear Orlando Silver and Sinclair Sexsmith read erotica!

We’ll be reading rough drafts, unpublished, and so far unheard works about daddy4daddy romance, sex, kink, and big feelings. Ask us questions ahead of time and we’ll choose some of our favorites to answer. Come see them both try to make each other blush.

This is in part a place to share our work, and in part a fundraiser to help us cover travel costs to see each other (and generate more material to share with YOU). Tickets are $20 ($50 if you come to all 3!), or by a sliding scale donation of any amount ($5? $100? $3,000? Fantastic).

Can’t wait to see you there.

In North America:

  • 30 November, 2022
  • 30 December, 2022
  • 30 January, 2023
  • 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

In Australia:

  • 1 December, 2022
  • 31 December, 2022
  • 31 January, 2023
  • 12-1pm AEDT

 

About the readers:

ORLANDO SILVER (they/he) is a queer enby hiding out in Sydney, Australia. They have published stories in Big Book of Orgasms 2 and Best Lesbian Erotica 6, and are the author of Soft Fruit. The key to their heart is to buy them good fiction or possibly coffee. You can find them on Instagram as http://www.instagram.com/say_please_baby

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at http://sugarbutch.net.

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Elust #155 includes My Story “Switch”

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month.

Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

Want to be included in Elust #156? Send in a post anytime and I’ll add it to the next edition.

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Oz

Erotic Fiction

Going to the Ball

Bedroom Eyes 14

Sizzling Nibbles: Devilry and Debauchery

Switch

Quickies: I Jerked Off To My Mom’s Best Friend Masturbating

All the Mistress Money – Part 4

Events

Exxxotica Wrap-Up Part One

Product Reviews

Review of Je Joue Mimi Clitoral and External Vibrator – Lilac

The Slubb

Stardust by Kreature Adult Toys

Erotic Non Fiction

His Bitch

Tinsel In The Letterbox

Writing about Writing

Moon Feather Has Been Published!

Writing About the Smells and Sounds of Sex

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Cock Cage THESE 3 Types of Kinky Submissives!

Learning to Handle My Hand Fetish

Bathroom Pass

Sadists Twister: The Party Game For Pain Sluts

Sex Work

Fetish Porn shoot at Blue Door Dungeon

Bonny Glasgow Sissy Feminisation

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Bring a Friend to D/s Playground

D/s Playground rides again!

I started this online course in 2014 with rife, and since then it has evolved and been polished up many different ways. Very excited to run it LIVE again this summer, starting in July, and to dive deep into chatting about power dynamics with a community.

Some folks have asked if there’s a discount for couples, or triads.

The short answer is no, not exactly — but there is a discount code to bring a friend for $100 off!

The course is $400, and when one person signs up, they’ll get a discount code for $100 off that they can use for up to two more people. That means two people signing up will be $700 instead of $800, and three people signing up will be $1000, instead of $1200.

Here are some ways you could use this bring a friend discount code:

  • Talk a friend into attending with you, and be accountability buddies for the course together
  • Send it to your partner and do the course together
  • Share that you have a $100 off discount code to your kinky friends list on Facebook, and see if anybody wants to join in
  • Take the course with two of the people in your polycule
  • Reach out and post in some of the kink groups you’re in and see if anybody else wants to take the course — and perhaps you’ll even become friends through the experience!
  • Post about it on Lex and see if it gets you any interesting responses
  • Offer it to that hottie that you want to play with!

… I’m sure you can think of other people and other ways you could use this discount, too!

Registration for D/s Playground closes July 16th — make sure you sign up before then! Come join us for 8 weeks of sexy, fun, customizable experiments to take your D/s deeper.

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Elust #149 includes “Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?”

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month.

Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

Want to be included in Elust #150? Send in a post anytime and I’ll add it to the next edition.

Please subcribe to email updates to receive two emails per month from Elust. A reminder once a month on the 1st to send in submissions and a copy of the latest edition of Elust on the 15th of every month.

Featured Post by the Winner of Elust Contest for April, The Barefoot Sub.

Turning The Tables

Erotic Fiction

Safe Chapter 5

Moon Feather: Part 38: A Little Scandal

Mistress Widow

Riding Natasha

Strict Legislation

Sex Work

Voulez Vous Coucher Avec Moi, Ce Soir?

In Poland With Mr W and a Suitcase Full of Dildos

Erotic Non Fiction

Having Her Way with Me

Worship

The First Time I Had My Pussy Eaten

Interviews

Podopheleus interviews Oz Bigdownunder

On The Whorizon Interviews Hunny Daniels

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

Sex and Polyamory

This…

Permission to come!

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?

Product Reviews

A Witch And Their Wands: Favorite Wand Vibrators

Bubblefunny Bubble Flower Beauty

Types of Dildo Bases ⁠— and 6 things you could do with them

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Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?

Have y’all come across the phrase “wholesome kink” lately, or at all?

I’ve noticed a rise in it, personally. And I’ve been thinking a lot about whether it’s the right phrase to describe some of the things I/we do, or want to do, or whether “wholesome” is just the wrong word, and that it is inherently an oxymoron to call any kind of kink “wholesome.”

Let’s start with the dictionary.

Part of the problem is in the definition of “wholesome.” Most folks — in my circles, anyway — associate it with a 1950s cisheteronormativity that enforces white supremacy culture and racial capitalism. And, often with some flavor of Christianity, and top-down power structures that dictate what is “good” and “moral” and right, and what isn’t.

The actual dictionary definition of wholesome is “conducive to or suggestive of good health and physical well-being.”

This definition I can work with. The stereotypes around it, or the particular groups who mostly use the word “wholesome” and the connotations that it therefore picks up along the way, are harder to get around. And perhaps my question to you all is, can we do it? Can we reclaim “wholesome” from the suburban, Christian, nuclear family conservatives as kinksters, as queers, as trans and nonbinary folks? Can we, too, use wholesome, and intend it to mean something that goes along with our radical values of liberation and freedom and care for each other?

I don’t know, really. I mean — I think we can. I really like the idea of “wholesome kink” in general. But when I use this phrase with folks, sometimes I have seen big resistance to it.

What I mean by “wholesome kink” specifically

There are so many different kinds of kink — and I don’t necessarily mean the actual physical acts, like flogging, bondage, wax play. I mean, the feeling and tone behind the activities. Flogging could be done in a completely menacing way, or tender and playful, or boring and so neutral it feels devoid of any feeling. (I often think of Mollena Williams-Haas’s video Impact when I think about this — watch it if you haven’t already, it’s pretty short, a little more than 6 minutes.) Some kinds of kink are more tender and sweet, with a tone of nourishment, play, and kindness. Those are the ones that I’m thinking of when I think of “wholesome kink.”

Of course, there are mean, “dark,” even violent kinks, too, and there’s nothing wrong with liking those. Those are legit and fantastic in all kinds of ways. Personally, I tend to play there more than I play in wholesome kink, in my private life, but I also value the wholesome connections that I cultivate, the ones that are just very clearly about being “conducive to or suggestive of good health and physical well-being.” Maybe it’s a cathartic, sensual beating or sweet, slow, connected sex. I need those, just as much as I need the riskier scenes where I push edges, humiliate, devalue, or guide someone through a struggle.

When I think of “wholesome,” I also think of TV shows like The Good Place and Ted Lasso and Pushing Daisies. I don’t know if there’s a particular name for this genre now, but they strike me as somehow child-like (not child-ish), with their bold, bright colors, saturation, costumes, and sometimes over-the-top optimism, and yet they are balanced with very real, very deep human experiences of pain, loss, confusion, death.

I’m sure there are many other examples of media like this, but it doesn’t tend to be my genre really, so there is probably much that I’ve missed.

I’m very curious about what y’all think of using “wholesome” for something like kink, particularly when it seems like kink has been stereotyped as the most unwholesome thing, as a practice, by those outside of our communities. But, for those of us within kink, doesn’t it make sense to think about the areas of this community that really are wholesome? And separating that from the areas that are a little more intentionally about playing with the shadow side of the psyche, “dark” emotions, or dangerous experiences.

I’m open to using other words, if this word is just the wrong fit. But what are those options? Nothing quite captures things the way “wholesome” does, for me.

What about you?

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All Villain, All Bully, Guest Post by Kel Hardy

Content: slut, slapping, consensual non-consent, degradation, crying after sex, unhealthy relationship, force, sadism

If they knew what they wanted, it would make this so much easier. But then again, maybe the only reason I am buzzing their buzzer at 3:15am on a Wednesday is because this isn’t easy. When they let me in and I stumble up the stairs, I have no way of knowing which way this night will go. Maybe they’ll sit me on the couch and feed me snacks and talk my ear off until I’m sober enough to understand this is a bad idea. Maybe they’ll be sullen tonight, quiet, put a movie on or a record until I fall asleep and they nudge me awake with their foot, telling me it’s time to get out. Maybe they’ll have someone else there, and they let me up just so I can hear them through the door. It’s never happened, but I could see them doing something just like that.

Or maybe it will be one of those nights they answer in a silky robe, cigarette held in hand because they know the cherry pucker of their lips on the end drives me mad, that the taste of tobacco and tar on their tongue is the closest I have ever come to addiction. Maybe it’s a night they preen and pose, strutting around so their robe gapes open over their pretty boy flat chest and their brand-new body hair, daring me to stare, daring me to be ogle, until they finally lean forward to spit in my face.

“What, I thought you liked sluts?”

And that makes me all villain, all bully, all mean, grabbing them by their hair and dragging them down, down. They gasp and whine their way onto the floor, on to their knees. I make them kneel on bathroom tile right where the lines of grout cross, and when they wince I slap them, hard, making their cheek bloom red. They just look up at me again, eyes defiant, and whine even louder, their bright red mouth gaping filthily, so far from the cherry pucker they seduced me with. I unclasp my belt, undo my fly, and shove my cock into their taunting mouth. The sound of them choking, their arms flailing, their eyes watering – I smile down at them with immense satisfaction.

I do like sluts, very much so, but only like this.

Only bent over the bed with their robe stripped away, facing the full length mirror across the room. They’re a pervert, they like to watch, and I like to make it hard for them to. I wear my biggest cock, the one that stretches them too tight, the one that makes them bleed if I don’t lube it right. And they tell me no but I ignore it, because they don’t mean it and they’ve told me so. I grab their skinny boy hips and their pretty round ass and I shove it in all the way to the base so they scream in a way that could concern the neighbours.

“Tell me you’re sorry,” I say.

They could be apologizing for anything. For being a slut. For being a brat. For making me violent. For dragging me out here on a rainy weekday night, though really they never ask me to come, I bring myself here. Their sin is irrelevant because we are both just here for the punishment.

They don’t say it, and the omission is permission. I thrust again, harder, and their voice breaks as they cry out.

“No, stop,” they say.

“Say you’re sorry,” I reply.

They don’t, so I sink my nails into their hips.

“Aren’t you going to say you’re fucking sorry?” I demand, thrusting as I do. I pause on the last thrust, dick pulled almost all the way out, watching their face in the mirror. They open their eyes briefly, look at me, and shake their head no.

Every time I think they’ve found the darkest part of me, they reach in deeper.

Over and over I slam into them, relentlessly. I watch tears stream down their face as my dick pounds their hole, I am certain they’ll feel this all day tomorrow. I grab a fistful of their pretty black curls, make them arch back towards me.

“You deserve this,” I tell them. “Do you understand? You fucking deserve this.”

They’re sobbing with their whole body now, howls of ecstatic pain.

“Tell me what you are,” I say, testing if they can talk.

“Yours,” they gasp. “I’m your pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m your pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m a pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m—” their voice breaks, and then it all comes out in a rush. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

The apologies continue in a never ending stream as I pull out and release my grip on their hips. This is when they finally break, this is when they stop their defiance, their poses, their disregard. This is when they finally want me, need me, curling in my arms sobbing, apologizing, and it might not be for anything outside of this room, but I can pretend it is. I can take them in my arms and stroke their pretty messed up curls and kiss the tears from their cheeks. I can pretend the salt water on my lips is more than just catharsis, I can pretend this means something. Maybe these dark parts of yourself can only belong in the bedrooms of people you do not love. Or maybe this is love and we are both too scared to name it, too broken to hold it.

poetry

The Right One

When I was 23, I wrote a poem called “The Right One,” and I performed it (a lot) for the next 8 years or so. I haven’t done it much lately, but I dusted it off for a couple of the Writing Spicier class showcases — and I’m so glad I did!

Some folks said they had no idea I used to do performance poetry, and had never heard this piece, so it’s clearly time to revive it. Here’s a few ways to listen / watch / read it yourself, if you’d like to.

The Right One

so I know ya’ll aren’t just here for the poetry
That certainly isn’t the only thing that happens on this stage
And I’ve seen you out there
gauging us poets
auditioning us for our oral skills:
how fast I can tongue my staccato
how long I can keep the poem rhythm up
and hard
and driving,
pounding,
persistent
how much languid lapping detail
I can alternate with tight lipped teeth
and tricky consonants.

What?

You don’t care much for poetry?
Never really did it for you?
Well, maybe you just haven’t had the right
poet
yet:
one that distills truth down to such simple depths
that your heart softens and liquefies
your life on the outside falls away
and all you feel is the poem
the line
the phrase
the word
the syllable
the ta ta ta of the tongue against the teeth
or the pooling of the tongue
at the bottom of the mouth
in an mmmmmm.
Poets, we know about mouths
like that
And we know about hands
where to put them and when
when to press and when to cradle
and when to punch it.

And that audience, you’re tough –
you know how to read the signs
the rhythm, the grind
the accentuation of certain key phrases
and crescendos
if I’m not cradling the space
as I’m picking up the pace
if I’m not planted firm and stead
when I’m getting you all ready
you’re gonna know it
you’re gonna feel it
my lips, my breath
my words taking you up
and to the edge of your seat –
because I’ve got the writer’s way of looking at the world,
it won’t be boring or redundant,
impersonal
or unsatisfying
no.
I’ve got minute details to activate variation
on the patterns and the rhythms
I know you like.

you see, I’ve been on top
of this stage
a lot. and I know
what gets you hot.
I know what gets this place bursting,
what gets you leaning forward,
mouth watering,
watching my lips
my chest with my every breath
my hands when I lift and float
and I know you’ve seen my fingers –
writing gives us all that extra dexterity,
but you already knew that.
you’ve seen what writer’s hands can do,
where they can go,
what syntax they can bring,
what it’s like to have the ring
of a dismount in your head,
clinging and blazing,
like the denouement after climax
when your body tingles and frays for days.

and me?
it just takes some simple little phrase,
and I’m gone.
I’m yours.
I’m standing up here
under all these bright lights,
my every fault showing through,
my character an unwilling flaw in everything I do,
I’m opening to you
so you may catch
a shimmering glimpse of what happens inside,
in that moment of terror,
when I’m cracked open and seeping
from all my tender places
so that you might just see
what’s inside of me
is inside of you, too.

so bring
it
on.
watch me up here,
watching you on display,
I’m doing all the work
while you can just sit back and take it.
but I’m sure you know taking it in
takes just as much as dishing it out.
and me, I’m doing this just for you,
cause I know how much you want it, secretly,
to be rocked by some sweet piece up here,
just for you,
with my tongue against my teeth
my throat wet
my wrists strong and pulsing
just for you,
my feet planted firm
this mic as my simple instrument
just for you,
my body, my tone
my placement, my poem,
I’m putting it out there,
and you can decide
if you came here tonight
and found
the right one.

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All Of This, Guest Erotica by A. L. Brooks

Content: marriage proposal, transmasc/femme, top surgery, daddy/girl, age play, blow job, fingering, strap-on, fucking, crying, D/s, possession. Characters are consenting adults.

Cam proposes to me in bright sunshine on a crisp spring day, down on one knee in our favorite nature reserve. When they suddenly kneel in front of me, I fear I will burst into tears before they get a word out.

“Baby, please make me the happiest person on the planet and agree to be my wife?”

My ‘yes’ is probably heard from a mile away. I didn’t know such happiness was possible.

As soon as I say ‘yes’ Cam is up on their feet, sweeping me into their arms, our tears mingling as we switch between kissing deeply and simply pressing our bodies together in as close a hug as we can manage.

“Let’s go back,” I whisper, emotion swamping me. “I need you on me. In me.”

Cam nods, their breathing ragged.

We jump into the car and Cam drives us quickly back to our hotel. Within the limitations of the front seat and Cam’s need to concentrate on the road, our hands are everywhere on each other, ramping up the tension as we drive.

It’s always like this. Hot, intense, making me ache for everything Cam can give me. Our physical relationship had originally taken time to get off the ground—my doing, mostly, after troubles in a previous relationship. Cam had been incredibly patient and understanding, but it also meant that when I was finally ready, it was the 4th of July and Christmas all rolled into one.

We had started off slow, nicely vanilla, then suddenly one weekend, when things got a little more forceful, it was as if a curtain lifted. Cam’s dominance and my submissiveness came to the fore, and we settled into our roles as if born to play them. Sometimes they are Cam, sometimes Sir, and sometimes just babe. All parts of Cam, however, are parts I desire, no matter how kinky or not.

When we arrive at the door to our hotel room Cam unlocks it with the keycard, but then steps aside to let me enter first. As I do, I stop dead in my tracks. The room is lit with only two small lamps but it’s more than enough illumination to see that there are red and white rose petals strewn everywhere. On the polished wood of the floor, on the bed, on the chaise that angles into the room from beneath the large picture window.

“When … when did you do this?” I gaze at Cam in wonder.

They quirk a smile. “Phoned the hotel just after we arrived at the reserve, while you were checking out that crappy gift shop.”

I laugh. “You were pretty sure I’d say yes, huh?”

“Just incredibly hopeful.” They blush.

“Oh my God,” I murmur, reaching for them. “You are amazing.”

We scramble to undress, throwing clothes into random corners, taking moments to touch skin that is revealed. A squeeze here, a kiss there, a caress that lingers.

Once we’re naked, Cam waits for a moment, watching me.

“What?” I ask, gently, for once not quite sure how to read their expression.

They sigh. “You will never know just how happy you have made me today.” Their voice cracks with emotion. “There literally aren’t words to explain it.”

A few tears escape their eyes. Cam likes to pretend they’re the non-emotional one in this relationship, but they definitely have their moments.

“Are you okay, baby?” I ask, stroking the side of their face.

They say nothing, and I hold them close while they continue to cry. The scars from their top surgery a few months back press into me, but they’ve already told me so many times they don’t hurt and that I shouldn’t hold back. So I don’t; I keep them close, my arms tight around them.

After a while they pull back. When they meet my eyes their expression has changed into something I have only ever seen once or twice in our relationship. It is a fierce desire that paints their face; a desire so strong that I know they have gone there in order to keep the overwhelming emotions at bay.

When Cam gets that look, I know they need to go somewhere darker, somewhere kinkier, and my breath catches in my throat at the prospect.

I meet their eye and nod. Telling them whatever it is they need right now, I will give it to them.

Cam exhales slowly. “I’m going to get you something to change into. You need to get changed while I am in the bathroom.”

They walk across the room to their deep, leather overnight bag. When they turn back to me, and I see what’s in their hands, I can’t help the quick inhale that sounds like a gasp.

I meet their eyes.

Cam is imploring me with their gaze, and I can’t say no, even as a part of me wonders just what it is about this particular kink we both can’t resist.

They walk quickly over to me and hand me the item before reaching back for their bag and striding off into the bathroom.

I am left in the middle of the room clutching the white fabric in my hand.

We have only done this once before. When it first happened, we had talked about it, agreed to it, even though both of us were uncomfortable about it.

But also unbelievably turned on by it.

It was my fault. I had read a couple of erotic short stories in a butch/femme anthology, and although I had struggled with how much I had reacted to them—never so wet in my life—I had bookmarked the pages for future masturbatory reference.

Cam had discovered my marked pages one day, and had sat themselves down to read both stories. I had retreated to another room while they did so, scared witless as to what their reaction would be.

When Cam found me, twenty minutes later, they said nothing. Instead, they reached for my hand and, after undoing the zip of their jeans, pushed my fingers into their shorts and into their extremely wet pussy.

I had looked up at them in a mixture of awe and relief, and they had smiled.

“It’s okay,” Cam had whispered, then given me a wry smile. “Well, it’s probably not okay, on a few levels, but it is okay, because we both think so. Yes?”

And I had nodded, so grateful that they understood.

Then Cam had turned up at my place the next weekend with the white article I currently hold in my hands, and we had enacted our own version of those short stories, and we had both come so hugely we had seen stars. We had both felt a modicum of shame afterwards, but a shared shame seemed less of a burden than one carried alone.

And now, clearly Cam wants a repeat. Has planned a repeat, and I don’t know how that makes me feel. Other than completely turned on again, and so I must go with my baser instinct, whatever this desire is, whatever its foundation.

The white cotton T-shirt is long enough to reach only just beneath my bare buttocks. On the front is a picture of a cartoon character, something someone considerably younger than I would find amusing. This is all part of the role.

I glance once at myself in the mirror above the desk. I look so much younger, and I shudder with something I don’t want to name or face up to.

I turn away from the mirror.

Part of me can’t quite believe this is how we are choosing to celebrate our engagement. The kinkiest, dirtiest thing we will probably ever share. And yet, there is a kind of poetry about that. This is by far the most emotional day we have shared, and it has clearly affected Cam in a monumental way. What better way to counteract that, to avoid it swamping them, than to flip to the complete opposite? Something so base, so naughty, so wrong, to offset everything that is so right about us?

And yet even this is right. We both want it; we will never deny that to each other.

Cam walks confidently back into the room. They’re wearing a plain white t-shirt over a pair of plaid pajama bottoms, the type with the open front slit for easy access.

I don’t look too closely, but the bulge of what awaits me is obvious. I shiver with the anticipation.

“You look very lovely, my sweet girl,” Cam says, as they stand a few feet away from me.

I slip so easily into my role, plastering an adoring look on my face while I make my posture as demure as possible.

“Thank you, Daddy,” I say, blushing.

“Oh, sweet girl.” Cam reaches out to stroke my jawline with one finger. “Daddy is so happy to be here with you right now. How about you come and sit with me awhile before you go to bed?”

Oh God, they’re playing this so well.

I swallow before responding. “Yes, Daddy, I’d like that.”

Cam walks to the chaise and eases down on to it. They perch languidly, surrounded by rose petals.

I can’t help my gaze being drawn to the bulge in their pajamas and my pussy gets wetter.

As I walk toward Cam, hesitantly, they smile encouragingly.

“Your hair looks lovely, my special girl,” they whisper. “Come and sit on Daddy’s lap and tell me all about how you made it look so pretty.”

I’m actually finding it hard to walk, my pussy is so swollen. I step towards them as gracefully as I can, then sit down across their lap. I wrap my arms around their shoulders, and wriggle my hips until my buttocks are sitting between their open thighs, just below the bulge of their cock.

“Oh, that feels lovely, doesn’t it, sweet girl?” Cam’s throaty voice is so convincing it makes me quiver.

I nod, pressing my face into their neck. “I like it a lot, Daddy.”

“Good girl,” Cam says, stroking my hair with one hand while the other rests on my hip. “I do like cuddling my special girl.”

“Mm,” I mumble into their neck, genuinely enjoying this cuddle, all kinkiness aside.

“So,” Cam continues, just as strongly in character. “Why did you make your hair so pretty?”

I raise my head to look at them. “For you, Daddy.” I hear the slight catch in my voice, but I’m also aware that this has an instant, gratifying effect on them.

They squeeze me a little tighter and bring me nearer, and I feel their cock press into the side of my thigh.

My pussy is gushing.

“Oh, sweet girl. Aren’t you just perfect for your Daddy.” Cam strokes my hair some more, and suddenly I am aware that their other hand is down on my thigh.

Their fingertips start stroking, ever so gently. My skin burns where they touch and my clit throbs.

“I want to be,” I say. “I want to be perfect for you, Daddy.”

Cam chuckles. “And you are, my good girl. You are perfect. Daddy loves you very much.”

“And I love you, Daddy.”

Their fingers are stroking a wider pattern now, causing the edge of the T-shirt to ride up.

I’m aching for them to get between my legs, but I know that this is their show and I must play to their timetable.

“Do you remember the last time you sat on my lap, sweet girl?”

I look at Cam and blush, like a good girl should. “I remember, Daddy.”

“Do you remember how you made Daddy very happy that day?”

“I do, Daddy.” I pause. “Do you want me to make you happy again, Daddy? Do you want to put your fingers…down there?”

Cam smiles. “Ah, sweet girl. You are always Daddy’s best girl, aren’t you?”

Their fingers have made their way between my thighs, but only halfway up, stroking the soft flesh there in small circles.

I am already squirming, aching for those fingers to finish their journey.

“But today, Daddy would like you to do something different to make him happy, okay?”

I stare at Cam, biting my bottom lip. “Okay, Daddy. I love making you happy. Tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it.” I hesitate, then plunge on. “I like it when your cock gets all big and you get happy.”

It’s the boldest thing I’ve said in the two times we’ve played this scenario. I hope I haven’t pushed too far too soon.

Cam groans and squeezes my thigh sharply, almost involuntarily. “Yes, I like it too when you make Daddy’s cock get big. I have a special way you can do that today, if you like?”

I nod enthusiastically.

“Good girl.” Cam motions me off their lap and throws a cushion on the floor at my feet. Suddenly I know what they want me to do and I’m in danger of coming before they’ve even touched me.

“This is for you, my sweet girl. You can kneel on it in front of me, and it will make sure your knees don’t get too sore as you make Daddy happy.”

I am almost panting with want. Oh God, how long is Cam going to string this out? They could fuck me right now and I would come instantly. But I know that isn’t what it’s about for them. It’s about the role, the patience, the drawing out of the pleasure.

Cam shuffles forward on the chaise, pulling me down to kneel in front of them.

I sit back on my haunches. “What do I do, Daddy?” I ask coyly, my voice only just above a whisper. “How do I make you happy this time?”

They smile and reach for one of my hands from where they sit clasped gently in my own lap. They tug and I move my hand hesitantly, trying not to be too eager, trying to be the demure good girl I am supposed to be.

“First,” Cam says, pulling my hand nearer to their crotch. “First you need to take Daddy’s cock out of his pajamas.”

I nod and reach forward, slipping my relatively small hand into the gap that’s opened in their pajama pants. The dildo is warm from Cam’s body heat and, from the feel of it, is one of our larger ones. I grasp it lightly with my fingers and tug.

“Yes, that’s it. Gentle now.” They lean back a little, breathing heavily. “Pull Daddy’s cock out now.”

I use my other hand to ease the pajama opening wider and slowly pull their cock free of its confines. It is indeed one of our larger ones. Black, smooth, over seven inches long and nearly two inches in girth at the base. Oh God, just the thought of that filling me…

“Like this, Daddy?” My voice is so husky it’s unrecognizable.

“Oh yes.” Cam’s eyes are half-lidded. “That’s perfect, my good girl.”

I pull it completely clear.

“Now, sweet girl. Daddy’s best girl.” Cam’s voice is even lower. “Can you lean forward and lick Daddy’s cock? Lick it like an ice cream?”

Oh fuck.

Oh fuck.

Cam saying those words, in that dirty tone, has me squeezing my thighs together to stop my orgasm. I may actually have to let myself come straight away to be able to get through this, but I know that would disappoint them, and that’s one thing I never want to do.

I bend at the waist, still grasping their cock in one hand. I can smell Cam once I’m closer. Their scent is intoxicating.

I slowly run my tongue up from the base of their cock to the tip.

They let out a tortured moan.

I lift my head and meet their eyes. “Like that, Daddy?”

Cam nods, their breathing uneven, and they place one hand gently on the back of my head.

“That’s perfect. Good girl.” They press their hand firmly into the back of my head, bringing my lips back to the tip of their cock. “Now, to make Daddy really happy, can you open your mouth, please? Open it as wide as you can?”

I nod, trying to control my breathing, steady the pulsing of my clit. I let them push my head down as I open my mouth wide, let them push their cock slowly into my mouth, almost to my throat.

“Close your mouth, sweet girl.” Cam stares down at me. “Close your mouth so my cock is inside.”

I comply, and they groan loudly. I love what this is doing to them.

To both of us.

Cam slowly starts fucking my mouth, using their hand to bring my head closer, to force their cock deeper into me, but always managing to steer clear of gagging me.

I’ve sucked them off on a number of occasions, usually kneeling submissively while Sir stands above me, and I have been adamant about not being deep-throated. Cam remembers that now, even in the throes of a play that has clearly consumed them, and I love them even more for that consideration.

“Oh yes.” Cam works their cock faster in and out of my mouth. “You like Daddy’s cock in your mouth, don’t you, sweet girl? You like making Daddy happy, don’t you?” Their voice is strained and breaking with their arousal.

I try to nod, but it’s not possible with the force of them fucking my mouth. It probably doesn’t matter though. Cam is lost, gone into their own world where I am merely their sweet plaything and it doesn’t matter one iota what I say, as long as I keep sucking their cock like the good girl that I am.

And so I do, reaching out with both hands to grab their hips, pulling them deeper into me, letting them fuck me so fast it’s actually hurting my jaw. But I’ll take it, because I will always take what they do to me. This is how much I love them, will always love them.

“Oh yes,” Cam growls, pumping hard. “Daddy loves fucking his sweet girl’s mouth. Daddy loves it when he comes in—” They break off with a strangled cry, their orgasm slamming into them, thrusting their hips upwards so that this time I do have to back off in case they choke me.

They relax their hold on the back of my head, giving me the room, still wonderfully aware of my needs amongst the thrashings of their own climax.

As it calms, they loosen their hold on my head completely and gently nudge my chin with the back of one hand, telling me I can sit back.

The dildo releases from my mouth with a wet pop.

Cam’s breathing is slowing and their eyes are closed.

In comparison, my breathing is getting heavier. I desperately want them fucking me. I want to be impaled on their big cock, but I don’t know if we are still in role, so I don’t want to screw this up by blurting out what I want and ruining it for them.

Cam opens their eyes after taking one last deep breath. They look at me and I see the shame start to appear, and I don’t want them to feel that. Not now. This was consensual. We both wanted it. Even if we never do this again, I won’t have them feeling shame for it today.

They open their mouth to speak and I am sure the first word will be ‘sorry’, so before they can form it with their lips I place my hand carefully across their mouth.

“Don’t be sad, Daddy,” I say, and Cam heaves in a ragged breath. “I liked it, Daddy. I liked it a lot,” I whisper, all demure again.

“Did you, sweet girl?” They almost sob. “Did you?”

And I know behind their broken words Cam is speaking, not Daddy, and they are so grateful for what I am saying, for removing their shame.

I nod vigorously. “I always like making you happy, Daddy. Always.”

“Oh, my sweet girl.” Cam pulls me close, up on my knees, pressing me against their chest as they wrap their arms around me and kiss all around my hairline. They rub their fingertips along my jawline, pushing one fingertip against my lips, which are swollen from sucking their cock so hard. I tremble at the touch. “And are you happy, sweet girl? Are you feeling okay?”

I offer a small shake of my head. “I…I don’t think so, Daddy,” I say, almost petulantly. “It’s wet down there, Daddy, and…and I want to do that nice thing we did last time, Daddy.”

Cam shudders. “What nice thing would you like to do, sweet girl?” Their voice is a jagged whisper full of longing and need.

“I want Daddy to put his cock in me. I want Daddy to fuck me.”

Their groan fills the room, and suddenly they’re hauling me up. “On your hands and knees, sweet girl. Let Daddy fill that sweet pussy of yours.”

I’m literally shaking with need as I climb onto the chaise and get into position, my knees wide, wet cunt thrust up in the air for their viewing pleasure.

“Oh, you are so ready, aren’t you?”

“Please, Daddy! Please put it in me!” God, who am I? Where does all this come from?

The next moment I don’t care about the origins of this dirty play because Cam is right behind me, their cock nudging at my cunt.

Then they push roughly forward, ramming their cock deep inside me.

I cry out, the pleasure-pain so fulfilling it’s enough to bring me to tears of pure joy.

“Okay, sweet girl? Does Daddy’s cock feel good inside you like this?” Cam thrusts, pumping in and out.

“Yes, Daddy. Oh God, Daddy, don’t stop!”

It is all I have been waiting for the past twenty minutes or so. I can’t get enough of that cock inside me. God knows I am open enough to take it all now, however fast and hard Cam wants to fuck me.

“Oh yes, good girl. That’s it, let Daddy fuck your wet pussy with his big cock.”

I thrust back as Cam shoves forward and the combined action sinks their cock so deeply into my cunt the harness presses tight against the skin of my ass.

“Oh yes!” Cam cries. “Oh yes, Daddy’s girl is so good. Fuck Daddy’s cock, sweet girl. Fuck Daddy’s big cock.”

They grab hold of my hips and we begin a brutal fucking, me working with them to keep their thrusts going as deep as possible. I am dripping with sweat, my arms and thighs burning from the energy I am expending but I am loving, absolutely loving every moment of this fuck. I’m zoning into a place where it is purely my cunt and their cock, and the exquisite sensations that are ripping through me.

When I come, I howl like an animal.

Cam cries out something indecipherable, then drapes their body over mine, pushing my head into the pillows, thrusting deep for one last time and then staying there buried deep inside me.

I feel the tears start, and I can’t stop them once they come.

Cam kisses all the parts of my skin they can reach before easing out of me. They gently push me down onto the chaise, then roll me over. I am boneless; they have to do all the work.

Then their mouth is on mine, kissing me so sweetly. “I love you,” they say. “Oh God, I fucking love you so much.”

I look up into their eyes and I see all of them.

Cam; Daddy; Sir; babe. They are all of this.

And I am theirs.

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Online (Free!) Erotica Readings Featuring Writing Spicy Students

Save the dates! Hope we can all attend and cheer each other on!

Smut Peddlers: Thursday, March 3, 2022, 5:30pm PT / 8:30pm ET

RSVP for the Facebook event here
Join on ZOOM: https://zoom.us/my/gladday
PW: 1970

Everyone remembers their first time, when they feel a sensual, intrigued gaze, that sense of vulnerability, the desire to please… Yeah, everyone remembers their first time reading at Smut Peddlers. The return of Glad Day’s own wildly successful evening of erotica and sexy writing from young queer, trans and non-binary writers at the world’s oldest surviving LGBTQ bookstore… but online once again because of Ms. Rona. This month the Smut Peddlers are doing something special; fan favourite Kel Hardy will be hosting students from Sinclair Sexsmith’s writing course who will be reading from their work. But we’ll have a few foxy, familiar faces as well!

Hosted by Kel Hardy
laura q
Rose Weaver
seeley quest
Clara Kiely
Rebecca Rose Vassy
Faith
Lux Steinberg
Leo Wilder
Seán Carson Kinsella

Readers for these next two will be announced ASAP! Meanwhile, please save the dates!

Spicy Showcase, Sunday, March 20, 2022, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET

Hosted by Sinclair Sexsmith
Featuring Kiki DeLovely
And students from Writing Spicier
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Register here to attend the Spicy Showcase! After registering, you will receive a confirmation email containing information about joining the Zoom.

About our feature:
Kiki DeLovely (http://kikidelovely.wordpress.com) is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, non-binary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world. She now makes her home on Occaneechi-Saponi land.

And also featuring:
Amanda Nowalk
Sarah St John
Lichen
Bell
Sunni Jacocks
Candice Brown
Shaya MacDonald
Sophia Kleist
Leo Nyne
Valluna Blue

Make sure you register for the Zoom here!

Listen to Your Skin, Sunday, March 27, 2022, 4pm PT / 7pm ET

Hosted by Stina French
Featuring Ash Orlando
And students from Writing Spicier
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This month’s Listen To Your Skin event on March 27th at 5p MST will feature Ash Orlando. We will also have short performances by the following writers from Sugarbutch/Sinclair Sexsmith’s “Writing Spicier,” a queer-centered, kink-positive, five-week erotic stories workshop: Titus Androgynous, O. Tilia, Shannon Page, Aiden Rondón, Kae, Fritz Kutchko, R. Magdalen, Geneviève, and Lyzz Stewart

We’ll begin with a brief (very spicy!) writing exercise. No open mic this month to make room for all our featurettes and the writing exercise! We will meet via Zoom.

About the featured writer:

Ash Orlando lives and works on Dharug and Gundungarra land in Western Sydney, Australia. They are a playwright, performer, poet and general troublemaker. They are most recently featured in Best Lesbian Erotica 6, Big Book of Orgasms 2, and Heckin’ Lewd: Trans and Non-binary Erotica. Ash’s anthology “Soft Fruit” will be in most online bookshops in March 2022, and you can see them flex their writing muscles at @say_please_baby on Instagram.

And also featuring:

Titus Androgynous
O. Tilia
Shannon Page
Aiden Rondón
Kae
Fritz Kutchko
R. Magdalen
Geneviève
Lyzz Stewart
Sonia Funkenbusch
Jennii Drew

BEFORE JOINING: Read our very important event guidelines. Our intent is to create a safe space to be open for all participants, and toward that aim, there are some themes/approaches we just aren’t interested in hearing. You may be booted from the Zoom meeting if you violate the guidelines of the event.

WANNA FEATURE? Please see this page. We commit to centering work by BIPOC and LGBTQIAP+ writers and performers. If you know of a writer/performer who has sexual themes in their work and who is in one of these categories, please contact sisterrainbowscream@gmail.com to nominate them/yourself as a future feature.

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The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica

In the Writing Spicy class this spring, I invited people to honor the names of the people who came before them, people who wrote or created content around queer kink, reclaiming sexuality, and more. I’d never done this before, but it became a powerful list — no, more than a list: a powerful digital altar. It acknowledges our collective lineage, and how much work people have done in order to get us to a place where we can write and publish as freely as we can.

This was the invitaiton:

Invitation to acknowledge all the radicals who came before us — queer, kinky, neurodivergent, people of color, disabled, fat, and other historically marginalized folks.

Almost none of the things I’m sharing in this course are completely made up by me — I come to the knowledge I have because I’ve read books, went to workshops, listened to elders, learned history, and studied about sexual, gender, and kink liberation.

Feel free to add the names of folks you have learned from, who have been inspiring to you, on this thread.

I started with a list of more than a dozen erotica authors whose work influenced me, some of my writing teachers, and other queer folks whose work made a difference.

People wrote all kinds of things, including things like “The small group of neurodivergent queer kin I loved, survived, and sheltered with while growing up.” and “Every nameless/anonymous/forgotten queer whose work I read on literotica late at night over a 56.6.k dial-up connection.” and “A handful of queer zines I could find back in the mid-1990’s that probably saved my life several times over.”

And of course, we generated an incredible list of names. (This isn’t the entire list, but a lot of it.) Not all these folks are explicitly queer, or kinky, but they have been an influence on us as we’ve created our kinky queer lives.

It feels like a prayer, when I read these names out loud.

I invite you not only to read through this list, but to think about who is on your own list of influences. Who has been your lineage, your ancestry? Maybe not the ones you’re related to through blood, but the ones you claim culturally, the ones who have helped you make sense of who you are and how you fit in the world.

Blessed are the in betweeners, the boundary pushers, those who make the paths.
Blessed are the porn makers, the erotic writers, the liberationists.
Blessed are our ancestors, by blood and by choice.

    Adrienne Marie Brown
    Alison Bechdel
    Amber Hollibough
    Annie Lennox
    Audre Lorde
    BD Swain
    bell hooks
    Beth Ditto
    Carol Queen
    Carrie Brownstein
    Casey Plett
    Cecilia Tan
    Davey Davis
    Diana Cage
    DL King
    Donna Dresch
    Dorothy Allison
    Fiona Zedde
    Daemonum X (FIST zine)
    Gayle Rubin
    Guy New York
    Hanne Blank
    Imogen Binnie
    Ivan Coyote
    Jack Stratton
    Jen Cross
    Jiz Lee
    Joan Nestle
    Karlyn Lotney
    Kathleen Warnock
    Kelli Dunham
    Kill Rock Stars
    Laura Antoniou
    Leah Lakshmi Piepszna-Samarasinha
    Lee Harrington
    Leslie Feinberg
    Louise Erdrich
    Marcia B
    Mark Doty
    Mary Oliver
    Midori
    Minnie Bruce Pratt
    Nancy Friday
    Octavia E. Butler
    Patrick Califia
    Princess Kali
    Rachel Kramer Bussel
    Raven Kaldera & Joshua Tenpenny
    Rita Mae Brown
    S. Bear Bergman
    Sacchi Green
    Shar Rednour
    Shine Houston
    Shirley Manson
    Simon Sheppard
    Sins Invalid
    Starhawk
    Susie Bright
    Tara Hardy
    Tobi Hill-Meyer
    Toni Amato
    Tristan Taormino
    Xan West

Add your own in the comments, if you wish.

If some of your influences are people who are relatively private, and might not want their name on a “sex blog,” feel free to abbreviate it, or just share a first name or initial.

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Erotica Writing Joy, Protocol Game, D/s, & Other Recent Media

Lots o’ stuff going on over here! Grateful for all the amazing folks who have had me on their podcast lately, who have written about my work, and who have tried out the Protocol Game! Love hearing about your adventures with all of it.

Here’s a small roundup of some of the recent happenings!

Kink Quest Podcast, Episode 13: The Protocol Game

We have been trying to play Sinclair Sexsmith’s Protocol Game for years now, and have just started to really make it work for us lately. In this episode, we talk about some of the experiments that went well, others that went… less well, and what it all means to us!

Listen to Episode 13 of the podcast here

You can purchase the Protocol Game cards in my shop!

How a story about spanking helped me find myself: For queer and trans readers, erotica can provide a roadmap for realizing our truest selves, By Andy Bandyopadhyay on Xtra

I’ve followed Sinclair Sexsmith’s blog, Sugarbutch, for many years. I love the combination of true stories, erotica and reflections on queer kink. So when they announced an erotica writing workshop, Writing Spicy, centring queer, trans and kink writing, I signed the fuck up.

I wish I’d done that sooner. […] Sharing that piece in class also helped me feel less alone. Transmasculine classmates reacted with instant recognition: the way you can belong somewhere but not belong, the isolation of feeling just outside the door, the need to see our own kink journeys in kink media.

Read Andy’s account of the Writing Spicy class on Xtra Magazine here

American Sex Podcast Episode 183 — Dominant & Submissive D/s Dynamics with Sinclair Sexsmith

On Ep 183 of American Sex Podcast, we talk with Sinclair Sexsmith about dominance & submission. While most are aware that Dom/sub play is common in kink, we also have a very narrow view of what it entails. D/s isn’t always cruel & authoritarian. We talk about the many ways people engage in D/s & how they find strength by surrendering to powerlessness, including:

  • The different types of D/s & selecting areas of control
  • Building healthy dynamics
  • “Subs hold all the power”
  • Balancing fantasy & reality
  • “Giving up” safe words
  • D/s as an “intimacy fetish”
  • Deconstructing power

Listen to Episode 183 here, or with your favorite podcast app

Review: Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 6, from the Itinerant Librarian

I can say after reading this book that the editor succeeds in presenting a diverse, enticing, at times moving collection of experiences and erotic adventures. This is an anthology that pushes the boundaries of what erotica can be and can do, and it is reflective of the times we live in. Rather than being escapist, the stories take us away on various journeys while working within the current reality. Just because the times are hard now it does not mean we forget pleasure. On the contrary, the stories strongly show and hold on to pleasure, and they bring us readers pleasure as well plus a way to connect their experiences and ours in the act of reading.

Read the review over on the Itinerant Librarian blog

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Elust #146 includes “Write the Erotica You Want to See In the World”

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Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

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Erotic Fiction

The Baker’s Wife

Droit de Seigneur 27

Strangers on a Commute

Precious Juice

Erotic Non Fiction

CUCKADOODLEDO!

My New Strap On

Cuckold Husband in Chastity Buys His Wife a Pearl Necklace

Hands

My Bukkake Events are Back!

New Slave into Ballbusting and Small Dick Humiliation

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

6 Sustainable Tips For an Eco-friendly Sex Life

What Type of Vibrator is Right For You?

The Power of a Kiss

Bookmarking: a strategy for prioritizing intimacy

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

A Goddess to Tease You Into Her Trap

Body Talk

H is for Hair Down There and Everywhere, Still Don’t Care

The Clitoral ‘Erection’

Writing about writing

Episodic

Write the Erotica You Want to See In the World

Sex-Work

Advice For When Booking an Independent Escort

How To Be Anonymous in the Adult Industry 2022

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On Developing A Writing Habit

“Any tips for developing the time/habit/discipline to write regularly?”

This is an age-old question for not only writers, but everyone seeking a creative life. There are dozens of books about famous writer’s daily routines, and this is a frequent question asked of writers in interviews. And for good reason — modern daily life is absolutely not set up to prioritize creative play or the spaciousness needed to create. So how do we do it?

Maybe most importantly, how do you do it?

Here’s my best ideas and resources about this.

Protect Your Writing Time Fiercely

Add writing time to your schedule. Maybe it’s at the same time every day, maybe it’s once a week, maybe it changes each day or each week — doesn’t matter; figure out what works for you and your schedule.

But this part is important: Put barbed wire around the writing time on your schedule.

There will always be dishes to do, chores to finish, errands to run, people to tend to, things to shop for online. You will never be done with those things. Do not let those things infringe on your writing time, for even a minute.

Putting writing time on your calendar is a promise to yourself. How are you with promises to yourself? Do you break them? How much do you trust yourself to hold the promises you make to yourself? You might have to change your relationship with your own self-trust, depending on how it has been so far, in order to make and keep a regular writing time.

Do the Things that Surround Writing

Read. Read things you think you should know about, read things different than what you write, read books in your genre. Listening to audiobooks counts as reading.

Go out into the world (without your phone!) and observe. Spend time alone with your thoughts, where your brain has space to breathe and isn’t taking in more input.

When was the last time you were bored? When was the last time you felt like your mind actually emptied all the overloaded information it carries, and was able to think deeper?

It takes a lot of intention to have that kind of spaciousness. It is much easier to be in the information overload, and much harder to carefully, cautiously curate the information that goes into your mind (more on that later). It is worth it to make the effort of that intention so that you can more easily write and create.

I think of the writing process in three parts: 1. Enough time and space to think, form ideas, make connections, and be inspired. 2. The actual writing-words-down part. 3. Editing.

Then, of course, there’s the submitting, publishing, etc., but that is more of the admin and business of writing than the creative generation process. Those, to me, take different parts of my brain, and different kinds of effort.

Point is, the quiet before writing is an essential part of my own writing process, and it helped to learn that, and to keep barbed wire around that quiet part, too.

Your mileage may vary here, and you should investigate your own tendencies and how your writing process works (ideally and in practice). Maybe you need a significant amount of quiet time before you ever put your pen down. Maybe you need trigger moments, Pavlovian things that you do exclusively when you sit down to write, so that you can start building that trick to yourself that it’s time to focus — like the same playlist, or a candle you always light, or a particular scent you always add to your essential oil diffuser. Experiment! Take note of your successes. Try things, and adapt.

Look Into the Behavioral Science of Habits & Discipline

I’ve long been influenced by the website Tiny Habits, which was built by a behavioral scientist and explores how we change our behavior, which is what builds new habits.

He says: “only 3 things will change your behavior in the long term. Option A: Have an epiphany; Option B: Change your environment; Option C: Take baby steps.” Unfortunately, you can’t really force yourself to have an epiphany, but you can absolutely change your environment and take baby steps. He’s got a lot of great tips for how to do that, whether the habit you want to add is flossing, writing, or finishing a novel.

The book Atomic Habits by James Clear is very similar to me — “atomic” meaning “at the atom level,” he really focuses on the teeny tiny changes that can make a big difference over time. I really liked this powerful interview with him & Brene Brown on her Dare to Lead podcast, which has many of the core concepts in his book.

One key thing I’ve learned, and try to remember, is to always start small when building new habits. Make it ridiculously easy, way too easy, because then you will do it, and you will be more inspired to do more. It proves to yourself that you will do the things you say you’ll do, which is another important step. You start becoming the person who keeps promises to yourself, even the really small ones.

Surround Yourself with Inspiration

What kind of media are you consuming every day? Who do you follow on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook?

The information and media you consume is part of your “diet,” part of what you input into your body every day.

How deliberate are you about what you take in?

Start curating your feeds, algorithms, and media more deliberately to move you toward a writer’s life. Unfollow accounts that make you feel bad (this is good for everything, regardless of building a writing habit). Follow other writers, writing life accounts, writing quotes, inspiration, things in your genre. Watch documentaries about writer’s lives. Listen to podcasts that interview writers.

You can encourage yourself to hold to your goals, show up for your routines, and keep writing on your mind by changing the kind of media you’re consuming.

Accountability Buddies

In If the Buddha Got Stuck by Charlotte Kasl, she writes about trying to finish some very particular task, but that she just couldn’t do it. So, she says, “When you’re acting like a baby, get a babysitter.” She invited somebody over to help her with the task, and was able to get it completed.

Sometimes we need accountability. I’ve seen a lot about this under the idea of “body doubling,” not in a sci-fi kind of way, but in a “I need a body next to mine in order to focus” kind of way.

If this would be helpful, consider hosting or joining a co-working session or co-writing session. I’ve seen folks hosting this kind of thing in some of the Facebook groups about writing I’m in, and in various Discord channels. So you might have to go back a step and join and interact with some writing community in order to get access to these kinds of events.

If nobody you know is available for this, you can search “write with me” on Youtube and find folks who have recorded their co-writing times, and you can body double a recording. Is it the same? No. But it still might work!

Write Every Day, or Don’t

All the advice everywhere says “write every day.” Yeah, sure, in an ideal world, maybe someone would write every day — getting into a daily rhythm can be really helpful. But some people’s rhythms work in 2- or 3-day cycles, not just one 24 hour period.

The advice to write every day also presupposes a lot of things. You need an abundance of free time — and not everybody has that. Plenty of people have an exhausting full-time job (or two or three), children or aging family to take care of, or crises to manage regularly.

You also need relatively stable mental and physical health. If you have a mental health crash, a psychiatric episode, or if your physical wellness tanks, you will not be actually capable of showing up at your desk and doing your work. Maybe it’s possible 5 days our of 10, or even for months at a time, but there can and will be interruptions with our health and wellness that will change influence our routines. And for people with chronic physical or mental illnesses, or who live with people with chronic illnesses to whom we are a significant caregiver, a daily writing routine just isn’t realistic.

Parenting also influences the daily writing routine. The poet Lucille Clifton wrote dozens of books and produced some of my favorite poetry that I’ve ever read. She has an entire book of haiku, and I was taught (though I can’t find the source now) that she wrote haiku because she was parenting small children for a while, and just did not have more than a few minutes at a time for her writing. So, her writing got shorter.

My friend Minna Dubin created her public art project Mom Lists similarly, as she was writing herself into her new writing voice and explorations after having kids.

So maybe you write every day, maybe you don’t. Maybe your “routine” isn’t a consistent schedule, but carving out a few hours here or there when you can. That’s okay. Do what you can. Lean in to the habits and parts that work for you. Keep moving.

Time Goals vs Word Count Goals

Often, when you read about the routines of the great thinkers and writers and philosophers, they talk about using the container of time to get their work done. “I’m at my desk from 11am until 4pm,” or “I always write pre-sunrise from 4-8am.”

I find pomodoro-style “sprints” are also really useful. I set a timer for twenty minutes, focus on ONE THING and one thing only in that twenty minutes, and go for as long as I can. When the timer goes off, I take a short break, goof off, and do another 20 minute sprint. There are great apps and timers for things like this, like this Pomodoro timer. A timer can help me focus quite a lot.

Because look, let’s be honest. Twitter is right there. Email is right there. Netflix and Youtube and texting the love of my life are all on my computer, right next to my writing app.

Sometimes I have the will power and motivation to just not look at it, but sometimes I don’t.

I’ve had to be realistic about that as I get more serious about writing productively and paying attention to my routines and habits. So I often use focus apps, like Freedom, which I can set up for a certain amount of time and it will block everything except what I give it access to, or it will block specific things. Maybe it’d be better if I could just have the willpower myself, but sometimes that’s just not realistic. It has helped.

There’s a lot of new science available about how people just aren’t built to do more than 4 hours of deep work every day. As you’re setting up time goals for yourself, take a look at those studies and articles — and then, decide for yourself what works best for you, regardless of the studies.

So, making a writing goal of a specific time is one way to do it. But you can also set yourself word count goals.

There are some great sites and apps you can use to track your word count, like 750 Words, which takes Julia Cameron’s core concept of “morning pages” from The Artist’s Way and app-ifies it, aiming for three pages (250 words per page) each day.

Nanowrimo, the site that hosts National Novel Writing Month each November, has some great tools, and they’re actually available year round, so you can set up your own version of Nanowrimo and word count goals.

Don’t Forget About Your Body

It’s easy to get caught up in intellectual, emotional, brainy work of creating, thinking, and philosophizing — but don’t forget to tend to your body, in whatever ways work for you.

Keeping your body limber and strong will help you write longer, sit at your desk more comfortably, and to keep moving your own experience through your physical body.

But it’s not just tending to your body so you will have as much health as you can — it’s also the honoring of your body as a source of creativity, as fuel, and as an essential part of the creative process.

The science of creativity has been paying more attention to the role the body plays recently. In an article from Psychology Today, Jeffery Davis writes: “We know now, I hope, that being creative consistently—from ideation to block-busting to execution to launch & ship—involves much more than sitting and thinking. The body is not merely a shell. … “The artist takes the body with her,” Maurice Merleau-Ponty noted a few decades ago. The rest of the body—movement, gesture, musculature, autonomic functions—shapes how thought happens.”

If you want even more on this, the book Writing From the Body has great inspiration and activities to try to get further in touch with the wisdom of the body.

Look to Other Author’s Routines

It can help to read about other’s routines. Of course, the routines that are widely available are usually from the very famous, classic, white cis hetero writers of the 19th and 20th centuries, and these folks also usually had plenty of money and time to write.

Some had wives (or servants!) available to them — you’ve probably heard that thing about how Henry David Thoreau, famous for taking up a small home at Walden Pond and lamenting on nature, was regularly visited by his mother who did his laundry and brought him food. This is debatable, but continues to make the point: writers often had help to run the admin of their lives, and their daily writing routines may or may not be accessible to those of us who are now, in 2022, in late-stage capitalism, with inflation on the rise and wages remaining the same.

Nonetheless, I continue to be inspired by writer’s routines and reflections on how they create. Here’s some good ones.

Most Importantly: Find What Works For You

That means experimenting with routines, goals, habits, techniques, tools, and everything you can think of — and then reflecting on what is working and what isn’t. Do more of what’s working; do less of what isn’t.


From Decenter the Teacher on Instagram

Eventually, you might write your own Commandments on how it works best for you.

Books & Resources

A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf gives us this essential concept: “A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction.”

The Creative Habit by Twyla Tharp — great summary here.

The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron — if you’ve never worked through this 13-week program, it is absolutely worth doing at least once. There are virtual groups and (at least, in pre-pandemic times) in person groups forming frequently. The book has everything you need to create a group yourself — maybe a few friends would like to join you.

Daily Rituals: How Artists Work, by Mason Currey

Flow: The Psychology Of Optimal Experience by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi

Atomic Habits: An Easy & Proven Way to Build Good Habits & Break Bad Ones by James Clear

Tiny Habits by BJ Fogg

Daily Routines archive on Marginalian (formerly Brain Pickings)

And even more book recommendations from Amazon, from my personal list of suggestions.

Please note: I’m linking extensively to Amazon here, primarily because they have an amazing database of book information. Amazon is a dangerous, has too much control over the publishing industry, and enables police surveillance, among many other things. I know Amazon makes things accessible to many people who might not have resources locally, who are disabled, or who are just unable to find alternatives. Totally get that, and no judgement — order from Amazon if you need to. (Read a How to Stop Shopping at Amazon article here.) If you can take the extra time to get these books from your local independent bookstores, or from places like bookshop.org, please do.

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Some Core Writing Spicy Philosophies

As I’ve been inviting folks to attend the online erotica writing group, I’m hearing a lot of this:

“Ack, I can’t go to an erotica class, what if someone found out?”

“I’m not ready! I’m so behind on my reading, and I haven’t written erotica in years!”

“What if someone tells me my writing is not good?”

“What if someone tells me that the kink thing I write about is bad & wrong for reasons I’d never thought about?”

Let me tell you a little bit more about the philosophies behind the Writing Spicy groups.

1. Absolutely NO Kink or Sex Shaming

In Writing Spicy, you can write about any kink or sex that you want to write about. (We do have a list of guidelines for topics that we give content warnings for; more on that in a bit.)

This thought, though, has comforted me immensely throughout my erotica writing attempts: No matter how kinky, dirty, nasty, or “immoral” you might think your fantasies (or your character’s fantasies) are, there is always someone who wants something “more perverted” than you do. (This is very easy to prove with just a few clicks of the internet.)

People who have joined these writing groups so far have been so generous and supportive when it comes to sex, kink, and expressions of desire and erotics that are unconventional.

2. Separate the Writer from the Narrator

Because many erotica stories are written in first person, it’s easy to talk about a piece of erotic writing by somebody as something the author themself wants to experience or that they desire. But in Writing Spicy, we separate our writer selves from the writing just a little bit, and discuss the narrator as a character (even if the narrator is the author).

For example:
Instead of saying, “I liked how you were talking dirty throughout all of the sex.”
I say, “I liked how the narrator was talking dirty throughout all of the sex.”

This helps to depersonalize the feedback and separate the content from the writer themself. It also helps to get a little distance, so that if there is confusion, or strong emotional reactions, they don’t get pushed onto the writer, but rather stay with the narrator.

3. Feedback Focuses on What’s Working Well

Based in Pat Schneider’s Amherst Writing Workshop method, and Tara Hardy’s method at the Bent Queer Writing Institute, we focus on the following things in our feedback as a default:

  • What is working in the piece
  • What stays with you
  • Any questions you might have

I find that when we focus on what we’re doing well, we often crowd out parts that aren’t working quite as well. It also helps us build up our identities as writers and have more confidence in our abilities.

If writers in the course want feedback beyond those three main points, they are welcome to ask for the kind of feedback they want. But generally, we’ll stick to these as a guideline for our feedback.

4. We Cultivate Care

There’s a particular list of content that is required to have a warning at the beginning of it, and that includes: non-consent, force, rape, or other assaults; consensual non-consent; Master/slave language; Daddy/Mommy, other familial language, incest; self harm; drugs & alcohol; eating disorders; blood; knives; breath play; pedophelia; beastiality; throwing up; and face slapping. (This is also subject to change for each individual cohort, if anyone in the group needs to be warned before certain kinds of content.)

Ever read stories on AO3? They use tags extensively. Content warnings can kind of work like tags, where the major actions and occurrences in the story are tagged and shown in the heading of the story. I see more and more writers who are heavily influenced by the work on AO3 — and why not? There is some amazing work on there — and I think content warnings and tags are becoming much more normalized than they have been in the past.

By including content warnings, we are letting everyone in the class choose whether to read something that could throw off their mental state for a long time. Sometimes, we just have to choose to not take in information about a particular thing, because we know it will do some damage. I’m encouraging us all to be discerning and go easy on ourselves.

The past few years have been really hard, y’all. There’s so much suffering out there. So I just want to do my part to make things more easeful, where I can.

(Don’t worry — plenty of the writers like the dirty, dark, edgy stuff, including myself and Ash, who will be assisting with feedback.)

5. Come See Me In Office Hours

In addition to the workshop each week, I’ll also be hosting office hours on Zoom, and anybody who wants to can join me. I’ll answer questions, look at writing, talk craft theory, or do some writing sprints — whatever the folks who show up want. So if you need a little extra support, pep-talk, or if something specific comes up for you during the class, you can reach me to talk about it even further.

Got any more questions? Go ahead and email me, sinclair@sugarbutch.net, to ask.

I hope you’ll join me and everybody else for another round of this supportive writing group.

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Write the Erotica You Want to Read In the World

Reading and writing erotica can be an act of rebellion.

Even though erotica is pretty mainstream, in a lot of ways, it still has a reputation as a bit “naughty,” and there are plenty of people who wouldn’t share the kind of spicy books that they frequently consume with their coworkers or their family.

There’s a reason sales of erotica grew significantly when ebook readers became more accessible! People could much more easily hide the book they were reading and still read it in public — on the bus, on the subway, on the airplane, on their commute. The privacy helped introduce the genre to many people who had never read it before.

Why are erotica books seen as naughty? Well, at its basic breakdown, it’s because of erotic shame. Most of us were raised in a culture with fairly extreme erotic shame.

We were not taught about sex as a pleasurable act.

We were not taught about being in our bodies as something exciting, personal, pleasurable, fun.

We were not taught about masturbation, kink, queer sex, or any of the thousands of ways that bodies go together and explore.

When we read (and write!) erotica, we take a little bit of that shame away. We claim our birthright of pleasure, as a being in this corporeal body. We stake our right to desire freely, to fantasize, to ponder what would feel amazing to us (or to our characters).

Yes, sure, look — it can be just pure escapist drivel, too. All good art is allowed to have its escapist, check-out, dissociative, frivolous forms. It can reinforce gender norms and compulsive heterosexuality, it can reproduce all kinds of societal hierarchies and eroticize things like money (ever heard of “bil-dom” erotica? Thing 50 Shades, and you’ll understand that it’s a sub-genre within the erotica/romance world). There are plenty of critiques of the genre, and of any given book. So of course, it’s not perfect. Don’t get me wrong.

But it can also be radical.

The erotica I love is gender affirming. It includes trans characters, nonbinary characters. And it doesn’t just include the skinny white masc versions of those identities, either — it includes complex, multifaceted characters who are celebrating their own sexual desires, wants, surrenders, and powers. Sometimes it includes struggles, like body dysmorphia and body dysphoria. Sometimes it includes kink and sex acts that really show how that character is seen, really seen, by other characters.

Sometimes, it can even show a reader what it’s like to be inside of a gender identity that is comfortable, that fits, that makes them shine. Maybe a story opens up a possibility that the reader hadn’t considered before. The reader is invited to have that kind of relationship with their gender, too.

The erotica I love shows Black and brown people with cultural context and authentic desires. The erotica I love shows disabled people, neurodiverse people, and all the ways that sex and eroticism lives and plays and appears in our lives. The erotica I love is experimental language, poetic, sometimes not making any literal sense except in the emotional realm. The erotica I love is women-focused, pleasure-focused, but not orgasm-focused (well, unless maybe it’s a forced orgasm scene, or an orgasm denial scene …). The erotica I love shows the inner workings of sadists and the mean, nasty desires that pass through our minds.

The erotica I love normalizes the mess that is human bodies, that is genitals, that is our fragile, resilient hearts.

Writing down our (and our characters’) erotic desires and sharing it with others to witness in a small group has been one of the most powerful things I’ve done to heal my own erotic shame. To hear people respond to my erotic scenes with affirming, positive feedback changed my life.

(Yes, you all who are reading this, you had a part in that, just by reading this site and my work here over the years. Thank you.)

Writing about sex, bodies, gender, desires, kinks is absolutely not the only way to heal shame — there are so many. But for me, it’s been an incredibly powerful tool. As someone who is historically marginalized in multiple ways, there is still not enough representation of my own particular proclivities — not in the same way that cis (affluent, white) lesbians, or hetero relationships, or vanilla folks are represented.

Our communities — BIPOC, trans, nonbinary, queer, neurodiverse, disabled, asexual, anorgasmic — are still underrepresented in pretty much everything, let alone erotica. We just need more voices, more expressions, more examples of what it’s like to be living erotic, fulfilling sexual lives in all of these kinds of bodies and life experiences.

When we go into community and do some of the shame work around sexuality, gender, and bodies, we have the possibility of transforming that work not only for ourselves, but for our communities, too.

That’s why I keep saying, “Write the erotica you want to read in the world.” It can be transformative — not just for you, but for your relationships, for your communities, for the world.

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The Golden Hour, by Anna Sansom

Content: daddy/girl, age play, spanking, fingering, good girl. All characters are consenting adults.

We work different shifts: I’m on the early train and at my desk before her alarm has even gone off; she gets home a few hours after me, eyes gritty and tired from a day spent driving her limo, and eager to relax. It’s not what either of us would have chosen (if jobs were easier to come by) but we’ve made it work for us. There’s only a small window when we’re both awake and feeling sociable, so that has become our special hour. It’s an unconventional partnership in many ways, but it works for us.

When I come home from work, the first thing I do is get changed out of my corporate attire. Taking off my bra feels like freedom. I wipe off my make-up. I put away my jacket and shoes and open up my other closet. From there, I get to choose something soft and comfortable. I pick out my favourite outfit, select some fresh underwear and a pair of socks, and then I take a shower.

A rub down with a fluffy towel and then a sprinkle of powder soothes me from any remaining frazzles of the day. Once dressed, I feel buoyant and re-energised and ready to play. I have the house to myself to do whatever I want, but I have to wait until she gets home for the real fun to begin.

When my Daddy comes home from work, the first thing she does is loosen off her tie. Then she hangs her jacket over the back of the dining room chair and empties out her trouser pockets into the little dish on the sideboard. Coins jangle and chink as she gathers them into her palm and pours them into the wooden bowl shaped like a leaf. Sometimes I like to play with the coins, sorting and stacking them into matching towers, or making flower shapes from the different size circles. Sometimes there are other things that get emptied into the bowl too: crumpled strips of paper or plastic cards with raised letters that tickle my fingertips if I stroke them. Daddy says not to play with those in case I break them. I’m allowed to play with the money, though, as long as I put it all back in the dish again.

She goes upstairs to the bathroom to refresh herself, returning shiny faced, hair still wet and slicked back, and wearing clean shirt and trousers. Then she goes to get a glass of water from the kitchen and stands in the doorway drinking it. She watches me from that position, also drinking in the mess of my toys scattered about the living room. If I’m in the middle of a game, she usually lets me carry on. But sometimes she wants me to tidy everything away so she can sit on the sofa without stepping over crayons and Legos and Barbie dolls.

Once I’ve put everything away into the big coloured crates, and pushed them underneath the window where they live, Daddy pats the seat of the sofa next to her and smiles. “Come and sit with me, little one.”

I hop onto the seat and lean into her; her arm goes around my shoulders and she pulls me in tight. I feel her mouth press a kiss into the top of my head and I close my eyes. I breathe her scent deep into my lungs and let her infiltrate me from the inside out. We stay like this for a while, reabsorbing each other and reacquainting ourselves with our shapes and edges – our real shapes, not the ones we’ve been moulded into by the outside world. My edges soften when I’m with her. At work, and on my commute, I am like hardened plastic: non-porous, rigid, brittle. But at home, with her, I become soft and fluid, and osmosis draws me to her.

Sometimes Daddy asks me what games I’ve got up to that day, whether I went to the park, whether I had my afternoon nap. And sometimes we just sit quietly for a while and I hear her big beaty heart going boom-a-boom as my ear presses up against her chest.

Sometimes Daddy has another question for me. “Have you been good today?” she asks. I’m not allowed to lie. I have to tell her the truth even though doing so makes me squirm and pull away from her. I’m not always a good girl. Sometimes I get crayon on the carpet and, even though I try to rub it away, the waxy streaks are clearly visible. Sometimes I don’t go for my nap: I carry on playing even though I know I’ll be a tired little girl later. And sometimes I forget to say ‘please’ or ‘thank you’ and that’s not good manners and little girls should always have good manners.

Today was a crayon day. I was kneeling on the floor with my colouring-in book but it’s hard to stay on the paper and while I was colouring in some sky, my arm took my hand too far and now there’s a big blue line right by my Daddy’s feet. She must have seen it when she sat down. I can’t pretend it’s not there and I’m not allowed to tell fibs to my Daddy.

“I’m sorry Daddy,” I start, “it was an accident.”

“I understand it was an accident,” she says, her eyes dancing with mock seriousness, “but you know you’re meant to be careful when you’re colouring in. What do you think will make you remember to be more careful next time?”

“I…” I bite my lip and look down at the pattern on my ankle socks, scuffing one foot over the other, my toes curling as I hesitantly finish my sentence. “I think I need to have my bottom spanked.”

She exhales, audibly grateful that we both want to play this game. “I think so too. How many spanks do you think I should give you?”

It’s a question that’s not really a question; I already know what the answer is meant to be. I feel my pulse quicken in anticipation and take a deep breath, “T-ten?”

“Ten? Do you think that will be enough?”

We both know that’s only the starting point. “Yes, Daddy.”

“Well, let’s see how sorry you are first.” Daddy gestures to me to lie across her knees. Her hands shift my skirt up around my waist and she places her warm palm on top of my bum. This bit feels nice. Comfortable even. I’m draped over her wide lap and her fingers gently knead my cotton-clad cheeks.

“Let’s see how your counting is coming along,” Daddy says. Her hand leaves me for a moment and I hold my breath. This is the bit that hurts.

“One!” I squeak. “Thank you, Daddy.”

She smooths her palm over my cheek in a gentle circle and then raises it again to deliver number two. She quickens the tempo and incrementally increases the force of her spanks as I continue to count, and we quickly get to ten. We are both huffing and puffing with the focused effort of it.

“Good girl,” she tells me. “So good, I think you can have some more. Proper ones this time.” Her thumbs hook around the waistband of my knickers and she tugs them sharply down. I lift my hips at the same time and the knickers slide down to my ankles. I kick them off. I know this is how Daddy likes it best. “Now,” her hand feels hot and slightly rough against my naked and sensitised cheeks, “ten proper spanks: five for being naughty and five for being good.”

I hold my breath again in preparation – these ones always sting. But behind the sting there is a sweetness. It begins to feel good and my thank you, Daddy’s become more and more heartfelt. By the time we get to ten again, I’m openly asking for more.

“More? More spanks? Or something else?”

Daddy knows me well. She gives me some more spanks and I forget to count. I think she’s stopped counting too – she will keep going until her palm begins to smart or the throb in her trousers becomes too uncomfortable. I can feel her underneath me: hard.

My face and bottom are both flushed by the time Daddy stops. She lifts me off long enough to adjust the strap-on she selected earlier when she was getting changed, and then manoeuvres me back onto her lap again. This time I am sitting astride her. Her hands are around my waist and her cock sticks up between us. We both look at it. We are each choosing what we want to believe in this moment. Is it her strap-on or is it her cock? Is it made of silicone or formed from flesh and blood? I can smell our joint arousal and combined desire and I want to climb straight on. But my Daddy has a different idea.

“Kneel on the sofa,” she says, standing up as I scramble to do so.

Now Daddy is behind me, pushing my body forward to better angle me to her liking. I brace myself with my arms on the back of the sofa, spreading my knees wider.

“Good girl,” she mutters as her finger slides between my folds, assessing my slickness. There’s a place that feels really good when her finger brushes over it. She touches it again and I whisper, “Please, Daddy.”

She tests me with her thumb: pushing it deep inside me, slowly twisting her hand in a semi-circle so I feel her against my walls. There’s room for more and Daddy is keen to fill me up. She pauses to take a small tube out of her pocket, squeezes the wet and sticky contents into her palm, and works it over her hand. “Wetter is better,” she reminds me. Then she replaces her thumb with two fingers, longer and wider and deeper than before. They slowly beckon inside of me and my knees begin to tremble a little. Her considerate gentleness will only last so long.

A third finger is added and now I am feeling strained and stretched. I want to lie down on my back so I can spread myself wider and take her inside me more comfortably, but my Daddy hasn’t said I can move yet.

Her fingers pick up speed and I squeal loudly as my body is pushed and pulled on the sofa. It hurts. But it’s a good hurt. It makes me cry out: a long, juddering “ahhhh” in time with the thrusts. Daddy chuckles. “Good girl,” she reassures me, “you’re such a good girl.”

I want her to go back to the place that feels nice on the outside, but she’s hooked her fingers inside me like she’s playing the ‘hook a fish’ game at the funfair and doesn’t want to let me drop.

“Please, Daddy,” I beg.

Her hand slows and then she pulls her fingers out of me. She wipes the juices between my cheeks and squeezes some more of the sticky stuff over me. Then she presses a fingertip against my bottom hole. “Just one,” she promises. Daddy’s finger is big and I am so small, but she pushes determinedly and I know how to let go and let it happen. My reward is a finger from her other hand on the nice place again. She moves both fingers: in and out; up and down.

“Daddy!” I gasp.

She keeps going until my whole body starts to shake. Then she places her lips close to my ear and whispers, “Come for Daddy.”

It’s my favourite game. Better than make-believe tea parties, and better than a new doll’s house.

When I’ve finished shaking, Daddy lies me down on the sofa and climbs on top of me. She hovers over me for a moment, her strong arms making her body into a tent that I can disappear into. Then she sinks her hips down and slides into me, making me gasp again as her cock fills me up.

She rocks her body and I am moved inch by inch further along the sofa cushions with each thrust. I hold onto her arms to try and stay with her, my legs wrapping around the backs of her thighs.

Daddy loves me and shows her love with each touch, with every “good girl”, and with the concentration on her face as she begins to grunt and groan. I join in the sounds: mewling that turns to howling as I feel her stiffen and give one last, impossibly deep, thrust.

When she’s finished, she gathers me into her arms and strokes my hair. “Daddy’s got you,” she tells me, and I let out a long, happy sigh. I want to stay in her arms for the rest of the night but she’s strict about my bedtime. She comes upstairs to tuck me under the covers and kiss me goodnight before going back down to continue the rest of her evening. When she goes to the refrigerator, she’ll find the meal I cooked for her that she can quickly reheat in the microwave. Beside it, I left a note written in blue crayon: I love you Daddy.

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Three Ways to Improve Your Erotic Stories

1: Add More Sensory Detail

Adding sensory detail — more sight, sound, taste, smell, and feel — heightens the impact of the descriptions, especially in sex scenes. Search for places where you could describe in detail what a material feels like, what an action sounds like, or what the environment tastes like.

And don’t forget, there are way more than the ‘big five’ senses — humans have more than 20. There is also balance, temperature, proprioception (body awareness), and pain, to name just a few other examples. The more body awareness you can add in to an erotic scene, the better — it connects me, as the reader, and my body, to the bodies of the people in the story and starts activating my own sensory system as I’m reading about it activating the characters’.

Notice how much is happening with the senses in this scene:

“Sit,” I said, because what else was I supposed to do? But it’s late now and she’s sitting at my kitchen table, smelling of gardenia, and I’m regretting it.

It’s hot. The air is thick as pudding. Shine’s black pumps look foolish at the ends of her legs. Her legs really do go on forever. She dallies a fingertip in the bowl of blueberries. “So I hear you’re grey-ace now.”

My ears buzz and buzz, and the skin of my mouth goes tight. I drop the knife onto the cutting board and turn to her.

— “The Estranged,” G.B. Lindsey, from Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 5

Scent, feel, sight, sound — and even a little bit of taste, if you imagine the taste of blueberries when someone mentions blueberries. What a luscious couple of lines!

2: Add More Emotional Landscape

It can be easy to get caught up in what’s happening during an erotica story, but connecting with the character’s inner world can help escalate the erotic charge in the reader, and create greater identification with your characters.

Really getting inside of someone’s mind, depicting how they see, feel, and experience this erotic encounter, is one of the benefits of writing as an artform — it is much harder to show the interior world of someone in video or audio, for example. So why not lean in to the intimacy that this feature of this particular creative expression?

Show me what’s behind the shiny exterior of a sultry character by sharing their doubts, fears, desires, nervousness that they are noticing internally. Show me the lust, the dirty things that are running through their mind, the concerns, the feelings of care and protection and vulnerability and love that are happening between them. Show me the poetic, experimental language, the prose-poems that almost don’t make sense except they make you feel something, that is trying to be a more authentic expression of how we experience our minds.

Consider this excerpt:

Your hands are sure. You know what you want and forget to ask sometimes.

You slipped your hand beneath my dress and roughly held my breast, pinching my nipple until you felt the shape and volume you wanted. It happened so fast I could not protest.

And I did not want to. I felt abandon, your lust mixed in with mine. There is no taking because it is already given.

You said you felt appreciated by my effort. My Sunday best hat and my dress. They express my invitation to come closer, my transparency in letting you know and letting you in.

Everything has been happening so quickly. I regret not remembering all the moments, the light caresses, meaningful looks, and alluring words spoken in between kisses. At home, feeling flustered and full, I jot down my little stories of the night. Perhaps I add some embellishments but I am certain I am also missing essential parts I wish I had retained.

— “Documenting Desire,” by Luisa Margo Park, published in Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 6

I love the moments of showing us how the narrator is feeling, and how they are reacting to the situation.

3: Find Places to Upgrade your Language

Make a note of any places in your story where you use a common description, metaphor, or image — any phrase that you’ve heard before. Brainstorm, pull out the thesaurus, and play around to find a new, unique way to write that description.

You could go through it one line at a time, perhaps read it out loud slowly, and just make a note on the page wherever you run into a phrase that sounds like an idiom, an aphorism, a very common description, places where you have written “really,” places where you’ve used too-common descriptor words that are bland.

Consider these examples:

“When she got to Changes, her favorite queer bar, she bee-lined for her favorite table near the back and was ready to wet her whistle.”

(CW: mention of a knife and cutting in an erotic context)

“I press just a little harder on her thigh before I get to her knee. This knife really isn’t very sharp. It probably wouldn’t slice through her skin without some serious effort, and while I desperately want to find out precisely how much effort it would take, I am not ready for that. Not yet.”

What happens when we change the common phrases in the first example? Something like: “When she got to Changes, her favorite queer bar, she sauntered to her favorite table near the back so everyone at the bar could see her.”

Much more evocative!

Consider the knife example, in particular, the line “This knife really isn’t very sharp.” The “really” and the “very” there aren’t doing any service to the sentence. If I want to convey that it’s relatively dull, I can choose all kinds of other words to describe it without using a word that has so little flavor. What about, “The knife is not sharp.” Or, “The knife has not been sharpened in at least two years.” Or, “I am used to using this knife, and it can barely cut through stockings.” There are many ways to use more evocative words that paint more of the feeling-tone of the scene that I want.

Hope that is helpful!

Not everyone is a fan of the editing process, but just by asking a few more questions like these, an erotica piece can go from being pretty good to being great.

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Poll: Which one of these erotica stories would you most want to read?

Just purely based on their first sentences, which is the most appealing to you?

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For the record, these are all examples of first lines that shine — none of them are examples of what not to do.

Why was that one your favorite? Ask yourself some of these questions:

  • What do you already know about the characters?
  • What would you guess about where the story is going, based on what you know of the characters?
  • What do you already know about the setting?
  • Which lines gave you a physical reaction? What kind of reactions did you feel in your body?
  • What was intriguing, and made you want to read more?
  • What was sexy, and made you want to read more?

There’s no right or wrong answer — part of it is just about what you personally like and resonate with. Maybe there’s a character, or a certain dynamic, that reminds you of yourself and your partner (or a crush), and you feel some sweetness. Fantastic. Totally legit reason to like a story and want to read more.

All of these beginnings above establish different things: setting, character, action, at what point in the erotic encounter are the characters, a summary or fable, kink, voice, and more.

In the opening sentences of an erotica story, often one or more of these things are set up: who (one or more of) the characters are, where the characters are, the dynamic between the characters, the environment in which the characters are navigating. It often draws the reader in to start with a ka-pow — some sort of scene, dialogue, or description that reminds the reader immediately that this is a sexy story (if it is! Though not all erotica aims to titillate) and starts to situate the reader inside of that erotic, sultry, sensuous world.

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Glad Day Bookshop + Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 6 Reading

Come join us tomorrow to hear some delicious queer smut read out loud, and celebrate the release of Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year volume 6!

Online reading with Glad Day Bookshop
Thursday, February 3rd, 2022
7pm ET / 4pm PT
Featuring Titus Androgynous, Kel Hardy, Meka James, and Quenby
with Sinclair Sexsmith
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About the Readers

TITUS ANDROGYNOUS is a writer, multi-disciplinary performer and drag king from Toronto, Canada. Their writing has appeared on stage, in Xtra and Queeries magazines, and online at DapperQ.com.

KEL HARDY is a white, gender-indifferent lesbian from Toronto. She co-produces Smut Peddlers, a recurring erotica reading with Glad Day Bookshop, the world’s oldest LGBTQ+ bookstore. She writes erotica in hopes that sex can be reinstated as an essential part of story-telling, as well as to turn people on.

MEKA JAMES is a writer of adult contemporary and erotic romance. A born and raised Georgia Peach, she still resides in the southern state with her hubby of 16 years and counting. Mom to four kids of the two legged variety, she also has four fur-babies of the canine variety. Leo the turtle and Spade the snake rounds out her wacky household. When not writing or reading, Meka can be found playing The Sims 3, sometimes Sims 4, and making up fun stories to go with the pixelated people whose world she controls.

QUENBY is a queer performer, activist, and writer based in Leeds. Their eclectic work uses a range of different artforms to explore themes of gender identity, kink, and queer history. You can find them everywhere at quenbycreatives.

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Announcing: Writing Spicier: Online Erotica Writing Group

Write the erotica you want to read in the world.

Part two of the erotica class that began as Pen Play!

Writing Spicier builds on what we did in Writing Spicy (and Pen Play) — but this time, instead of focusing on the publishing process, we will be focusing more exclusively on the craft of how to write an erotic story. We’ll start with the opening paragraphs, fast forward to the first consent moment, move on to the climax (orgasmic or not), and end with the ending.

We’ll be reading plenty of examples to emulate and learn from along the way, and we’ll be bravely sharing our work to encourage constructive feedback, support, and encouragement.

Come join me and dive into writing erotica. Bring your desires, your kinks, your pleasures to the page and play around.

About Writing Spicy:

This is a four week class on constructing erotic stories. Part classroom, part writing group, we will explore the craft of short erotic stories, focusing on the craft of storytelling and how erotica is different than stories without erotic content. You will have something short to read and a writing assignment each week to turn in. Participants will have the opportunity to share their work with each other and give constructive feedback on it. We will meet weekly on Zoom to discuss the readings, workshop selected participant pieces, and answer your questions.

In the class, we will cover in depth craft for the different components of an erotic story. At the end of the class, you will have a revised story from writing prompts and homework ready to polish and submit.

This class is made for folks who are beginners to intermediate writers and who want to hone their craft and publish more work. You do not have to have published anything. All genders, all sexual orientations, all experience levels welcome — no specifics required. Queer characters and kinky acts not required, but this will be a queer-focused and kink-positive space. It will also be kink-positive and trauma informed.

Sliding scale available, click here for more details and to sign up.

Webinars will be recorded and available to download; you do not have to attend live.


Who is behind this?

This series will be led by me, Sinclair, with assistance (and feedback for you!) from erotica writer Ash Orlando, whose work you may already be familiar with at @say_please_baby.

About Ash:

ASH ORLANDO is a playwright, poet and short story writer from Sydney, Australia. They have performed in The Butch Monologues, the Butch/Stud annual performance night and various spoken word events. Ash is also a co-director of Gender Creatives, a collaborative group showcasing work by non-binary artists and writers. They don’t know much, but they know they love you, and that may be all you need to know.

About Sinclair:

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is an award-winning queer trans masc writer focusing on queer culture, trauma, dominance, submission, spiritual kink, and transgender and nonbinary issues. Sinclair’s creative nonfiction and queer erotica writings are widely published online and in more than thirty anthologies, including eight volumes of Best Lesbian Erotica series. They are the editor of Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 4, Volume 5, Volume 6, Best Lesbian Erotica 2012, Erotix: Literary Journal of Somatics, and Say Please: Lesbian BDSM Erotica. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2015 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award. Sinclair writes at sugarbutch.net since 2006, recognized numerous places as one of the top sex blogs. They have been teaching about erotic writing, the power of queer narratives, somatic arts, and many sex and kink techniques since 2002. Sinclair is an international leather titleholder, a pretty good cook, and an avid creative journaler. Follow all their work at patreon.com/mrsexsmith.


Dates:

Sundays
February 13 – March 13, 2022
4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET
$250

How to sign up:

Last day to register is February 6, 2022.

1. Click here and sign up via the Sugarbutch shop!

2. Once you sign up and pay, I will send you an email with next steps, which include signing up for the Google Classroom and an intake survey in your email. Please fill it out to give us a better sense of who will be attending.

3. Your first assignments will drop on Sunday, February

I believe stories matter. Telling our stories matter. Sharing how we as queer, kinky, gender radical people live, love, lust, and desire, helps to support others like us, to feel less alone. We still don’t have enough depictions of our truths out there in the world! And I believe we all have stories to tell. Writing isn’t the only way to share them, but it is the craft I know best, and I am excited to share what I know with you all.

Questions?

Do I have to write erotica?
Nope. You can be working on any kind of writing — poetry, plays, short stories, a novel. It could include erotic content, but it doesn’t have to. We will be talking about the things that are different about writing things with explicit sex in them, but what you turn in as your writing assignments is up to you.

Will the webinars be recorded?
Yes! Webinars will be recorded and available to you to download after they are live.

Will you have an ASL interpreter for the webinars?
Yes; please get in touch at sinclair@sugarbutch.net. I will do my best to accommodate different access needs.

Do I have to publish my work?
No. There’s no requirement to publish, but this class is intended for folks who are pursuing writing with some seriousness and are interested in sharing their work more broadly. We will spend some time going over tips and procedures for publishing.

What kind of feedback will I get?
We focus on giving feedback in the Amherst Writer’s Method, which enhances what is working in the piece and gives the author feedback to encourage them to play to their strengths. The feedback will focus on what’s working, what we love about it, and what stays with us.

Do I have to share my work with the class?
No, it’s optional to share your work. Participants will be encouraged to share their reactions to each other’s work in a particular framework, using primarily positive feedback, and all participants will be able to ask for the kind of feedback that they would like to receive, which could be things like some critique, positive feedback, or just to witness with no feedback at all.

Will there be content warnings? Is this trauma-informed?
Yes, we will use content warnings in this workshop, to let everyone decide what they are equipped to read and make decisions with agency. More details about how to use content warnings will be in the class guidelines. I have studied trauma, restorative justice, and community safety in various form, and I will do my best to keep the needs of survivors forefront in the structure of the workshop.

I can’t afford $250. Is there a sliding scale?
Yep, click here for more details and to sign up.

More questions?
Email me, sinclair@sugarbutch.net.

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Best of 2021 on Sugarbutch

Unsurprisingly, the dirty Daddy kinky queer smut continues to be the posts with the highest traffic this year — including a variety of guest posts. Thank you to all the authors who let me publish their work! There are a few password protected posts on here, too, which is kind of surprising. Special thanks to everyone who supports me on Patreon (where you get access to the password protected posts, webinars, and more).

This year, Sugarbutch was also named the #1 LGBTQ sex blog! That is so thrilling, and I really appreciate all of you who read and engage with this work.

So here we go!

Here are the top 12 posts from 2021 here on Sugarbutch.

Let’s Watch a Porno, Guest Post by Louise Kane

Content: D/s dynamics, control, orders between Sir/girl dynamic; voyeurism, strap-on sex, objectification, alcohol.

I stood in the doorway, entranced by the glow of the television highlighting C’s seated form—and the hand wrapped around their cock. The ache in my cunt grew as I watched them watching the screen, the drink in my hand forgotten as quickly as they’d forgotten me. I was surprised at how much I liked seeing them so lost in finding their pleasure through someone else.

“I’m pretty sure I told you to get me a drink, not stand in the doorway,” murmured C, eyes not leaving the screen as they languidly stroked themself.

Read it here →

Could I Get A Ride, Guest Post by Betty Shade

Content: this story contains Daddy/girl dynamics and talk, jealousy, break-up sex, emotional sex and BDSM, and name calling.

I lean toward you like I did to that customer, oozing impersonal, subservient charm. “Why? Don’t you want to take me home?” I lean in closer, and you tilt your face toward mine. To kiss me now, after I cheated you and left you and teased you, would be the ultimate submission.

You cup the back of my head softly, so softly that I sigh without a sound, before grabbing a fistful of my hair at the root.

I gasp. Then I giggle. “Ooh, Daddy, that hurt. Do you feel better now, Daddy?”

You yank my head back, making me whimper mid-speech. “I’m not your Daddy anymore,” you hiss.

Read it here →

Milk, Part One (Password protected)


Content warning: this story contains mama/boy dynamic, breast milk, and nursing.

It’s creamier than I thought it would be, and tangier. It fills the back of my mouth and I let it pool and gather before I swallow, thick, running down my throat, heating me from inside. I feel it. I take it in. I take her in, part of her into me, part of her down deep.

Milk.

Her milk. Mama’s milk. I get shivers when I think those two words together in this context, with this meaning. I feel the back of my tongue drop and my throat open. I suck her nipple deeper, pull the entirety of her big areola into my mouth, and part of her breast, scrape it with my teeth because I need it, need it, and she lets me be hungry, the hungry boy I am.

Get the password by joining the Patreon at any level, then read it here →

Climax, Guest Post by rife

She moaned a deep breath and let it out sharply between her teeth.

She could feel every muscle tense, trusty tawny fibers flexing under her soft belly’s padding. Her fingers gripped the shaft resting in her palm almost delicately, then smashed in for another impact. She could feel the shockwaves from every thrust jolt up her body. She was strong, she could take it. It was thrilling.

She could feel her peak coming close, but she wanted to make it last. She paused for a moment, taking stock of her body. Her heart was pounding in her chest and sweat dripped down in rivers from her tits and thickly thatched armpits. It felt good. Alive. She waited just long enough for her ragged breath to steady before pressing on, eager for that sensation she could feel looming just out of reach.

Read it here →

Cinnamon Breakfast, Guest Post by Callie Gibson

Content: Daddy/girl language, Dominance/submission, teasing, verbal humiliation, possession, genital stimulation with a child’s toy

“C’mon, I don’t have all day, Girl. Crawl if you have too.”

I’m on all fours. She straddles me. Feeling the strap on me, I quiver. Eventually, I get to the bed.

“Put your arse up. Take a deep breath in. Good Girl. Now, I’m going to slide this in your cunt. It will go deep. I’ll reward you for making Daddy happy. With each inch of my cock I will feed you one strawberry. I want you to eat all 4. Once that’s done, you pat your cunt like a little kitten and come like a fucking train. Is that understood?”

Read it here →

Listen To Your Skin: Erotica Reading [Recording]

In March 2021, I read some erotica for the reading series Listen To Your Skin, which has some featured readers and then an open mic where anyone can read. This is a video recording of my part.

I read some from Best Lesbian Erotica Volume 5, including my piece “Whatever I Want, Whatever I Say”. One of my favorite things to do when reading from a book is to have the audience call out page numbers, and I read that page — my goal for Sweet & Rough was for there to be something dirty on every page. It doesn’t always work, but it’s exciting to just drop in for a few paragraphs and see what it’s like.

After that, I read from Penetalia: Collegiate Erotica, which was published by a group of students at my university in 2004, and was one of my first erotica publications.

Watch it here →

Ten Erotic Films Better Than 50 Shades of Grey

This is not at all intended to be a comprehensive list — there are hundreds of erotic films and novels out there, many of which are really good. These are, in my opinion, some of the best that I’ve ever seen. And because I’m queer as a three dollar bill, my suggestions tend to be pretty queer, too. If there’s a hetero-oriented book or film on here, it’s because it’s particularly good.

Read it here →

Titrate My Urges


Chapter 1 from an untitled, unpublished novel.

Content warning: sex scene, spanking, brat, dirty talk.

Her bottom is blushing pink under my palms, despite her dark skin; she is warming up quite nicely. She’s starting to move her hips in that undulating, pulsing desirous way that makes me ache to rip open the buttons of my fly and shove hard into her, bury myself up to the hilt. She’s still a little delicate for that. She wants romance, coaxing.

I’m getting a little tired of having to titrate my urges.

Read it here →

Cock Confidence: The RodeoH Slyder (Review)


I’m obsessed. Look, the dildo market for the past twenty years has been a wild ride.

You probably know RodeoH — they make the strap-on harness briefs that made a huge splash ~15 years ago. Well, they’re making dildos now, and some of them are not only hyper-realistic, but have some incredible features I rarely see anywhere else.

Like for example: movable foreskin, and floating balls. Y’all. The skin slides! The balls feel so right and realistic. It quickly rose to my top favorite dicks ever. I haven’t even had it for very long — usually I like to test things out in a variety of conditions before I review them, but I just can’t wait to tell you about this one.

Read it here →

This Isn’t New (Password protected)


Content warning: Daddy/boy dirty talk, D/s, discussions of dysphoria (particularly bottom dysphoria), lots of musings about strap-ons and butch trans dick, sex. Overall, this is very personal.

It started with some dysphoria. That feeling I often have early in the day when I’m still coming back to my body, still welcoming myself whole again, and noticing the lack. Craving some weight between my legs, craving the tug and pull, craving his mouth around me. So I pumped it, and we kept talking. It makes sense, when I think about it — how many years have I been writing about how cock-centric I am? How many years have I talked about wanting strap-on sex vs non-strap-on sex at a ratio of 10:1? This isn’t new.

Get the password by joining the Patreon at any level, then read it here →

Kink 101: Books, Websites, and Other Resources for Someone New to Kink


“Do you have specific resources that you would recommend for me to share with someone who is new to the kink scene? Books, and also digital resources. Mainly tips and introduction writing that you trust.”
Sure do!

There are a lot of sub-categories within kink, BDSM, and fetish. Are you looking for books about bondage? There are dozens! Or books about the intersection of sex and spirituality? Quite a few there too. How about books on power dynamic relationships? That’s a whole other list! Generally, people tend to include all kinds of how-to sex books in beginning guides, too — particular topics like anal sex, threesomes, and strap-ons that are sometimes considered kinky, but sometimes not, depending. Then, all of that opens the doors for topics like open relationships, healing sexual trauma or trauma in general, porn, the ethics of desire and fantasy, embodiment, sexual orientation, gender identity, and more.

So I’m narrowing it down and focusing on more general kink community, culture, concepts, and getting started with kink play.

Read it here →

The Aftermath (Password protected)


We’re all bracing for the unknown aftermath.

We’re in the disaster; we’ve been it for thirteen months. But we’re starting to feel it stir. The newspapers say we can meet inside without masks; Facebook is full of informatics in carries shades of green, yellow, red, for what is safer and what is not. More and more of us are vaccinated. Things are opening up again.

And it’s spring. There is a burst of energy, a collective emergence, when the light starts coming back at the cross-quarter, and then a quickening at the spring equinox. The spring is a transition, like the fall, now happening in the Southern Hemisphere — unlike summer and winter, which are stabilizers. Waystations. Blossoms are here, planting, fistfuls of damp dark earth, the leaves uncurling from that baby-green color of chartreuse to the slightly more certain moss.

Get the password by joining the Patreon at any level, then read it here →

Thank you to everyone who has been reading — this year, and since 2006. It is my privilege & honor to share my thoughts, dirty queer smut, and carefully curated guest posts with you.

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Come Celebrate Best Lesbian Erotica! Online Erotica Readings in January

January 6, Wednesday, 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET at The Ripped Bodice (online)

Featuring Sonni de Soto, Ash Orlando, Tobi Hill-Meyer, & Meg Elison

Tune in to our Best Lesbian Erotica Live Stream Virtual Event with authors Sonni de Soto, Ash Orlando, Tobi Hill-Meyer, and Meg Elison. Moderated by editor Sinclair Sexsmith, they will celebrate the release of the Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 6 anthology from Cleis Press.

To watch, go to our Facebook page at www.facebook.com/therippedbodiceLA on Thursday, January 6th from 5:00-6:00 PM PT (you do not need a Facebook account in order to watch).

During the event, you will receive a 24 hour 15% off code to use on any purchase from our website!

We encourage you to ask questions for the authors in the comments section.

SONNI de SOTO is an Asian kinkster of color who knows that, while kink isn’t therapy, play can often be therapeutic. It can often be the place where we explore our deepest fears within a safe context. de Soto has had the privilege of publishing romantic erotica novels and stories with The Sexy Librarian, Cleis Press, Sexy Little Pages, and many others. Find more from her at patreon.com/sonnidesoto and follow her at facebook.com/sonnidesotostories.

ASH ORLANDO is a playwright, poet and short story writer from Sydney, Australia. They have performed in The Butch Monologues, the Butch/Stud annual performance night and various spoken word events. Ash is also a co-director of Gender Creatives, a collaborative group showcasing work by non-binary artists and writers. They don’t know much, but they know they love you, and that may be all you need to know.

TOBI HILL-MEYER is an indigenous chicana trans woman with 15 years experience working in the LGBTQ movement. She is editor of the Lambda Literary Finalist anthology Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic, author of children’s books A Princess of Great Daring and Super Power Baby Shower, and director of the award winning erotic documentary series Doing it Online. Currently, she serves as Co-Executive Director for Gender Justice League.

MEG ELISON is a science fiction author and feminist essayist. Her series, The Road to Nowhere, won the 2014 Philip K. Dick award. She was a James A. Tiptree Award Honoree in 2018. In 2020, she published her first collection, called Big Girl with PM Press and her first young adult novel, Find Layla with Skyscape. Meg has been published in McSweeney’s, Fantasy & Science Fiction, Fangoria, Uncanny, Lightspeed, Nightmare, and many other places. Elison is a high school dropout and a graduate of UC Berkeley. Find her online, where she writes like she’s running out of time, at megelison.com & @megelison.

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is “the best-known butch erotica writer whose kinky, groundbreaking stories have turned on countless queers” (AfterEllen), who “is in all the books, wins all the awards, speaks at all the panels and readings, knows all the stuff, and writes for all the places” (Autostraddle). Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at sugarbutch.net.

January 20, 4pm PT / 7pm ET, at Glad Day Books (Online)

Kel Hardy, Titus Androgynous, Meka James, & Quenby

Details TBA!

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Best Lesbian Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Kathleen Warnock was the editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series for quite a few years, and is an amazing playwright and erotica writer, too. She runs the Drunken! Careening! Writers! reading series in New York City, and annually in December she hosted a Best Lesbian Erotica release party! The first one I went to was in 2008 (maybe??), and it was where I met authors like DL King, Rachel Kramer Bussel, Tristan Taormino, and queers like Lea Delaria (who was the guest editor one year).

It’s become a bit of a tradition! And then we get to say things like, “it’s the perfect holiday gift! Get one for all the stockings you need to stuff! Pick one up for Grandma!” etc :)

This year, we’re online! Come join us!

Drunken! Careening! Writers! presents “Happy BLE!”

Featuring
Sarah Burghauser
BD Swain
Jacqueline St-Urbain
with your special guest host, Sinclair Sexsmith
and hostess, Kathleen Warnock

Thursday, December 16, 7pm ET
In a special ONLINE event!
RSVP here: https://www.crowdcast.io/e/ble-dcw
facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/492250745443585/

About the Authors

SARAH B. BURGHAUSER is a New Mexico-based writer and teacher. She holds an MFA from Calarts, where she has also taught. Sarah has been awarded fellowships with the MacDowell Colony, Lambda Literary Foundation, and Vermont Studio Center. Her first book, Infringe, is a lyric coming-of-age tale about being a queer Jew, and the places where sex and spiritual well being meet.

BD SWAIN (bdswain.com) is a butch dyke who writes queer smut. You’ll find BD’s stories on her site and in anthologies like Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 4, Best Lesbian Erotica 2015, Best Lesbian Erotica 2013, and Unspeakably Erotic: Lesbian Kink. BD lives in Oakland and is currently working on a long form narrative and a collection of her dirty stories.

JACQUELINE ST-URBAIN has been a shit-disturber on the Canadian leather scene for almost two decades. The founder of the Unholy Army of the Night and co-founder of Unholy Harvest, Canada’s long-running weekend for leatherdykes and other queerdos, Jacqueline writes for a living, but loves writing smut so much more than her day job.

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Elust #144 includes “Titrate My Urges (Chapter One, Part Two)”

Welcome to Elust 144.

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month. Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust. Want to be included in Elust #145? Start with the rules, come back January 1st to submit something and subscribe to the RSS feed for updates!

Erotic Fiction

Piss Perfume

Dominant Dermatologist

Titrate My Urges, Chapter 1 (continued)

Droit de Seigneur 21

Erotic Non Fiction

Double Vaginal Penetration

TIE me UP! TIE me DOWN! NEVER LET me GO!

Making Fantasies A Reality

Pecan Orchards and Alligators: Part I

A night on the town with Charlotte (Part 1)

The Job Interview

Encouraged Bi With a View of Winter Wonderland

2 Nights of Bliss and Debauchery

Books and Movies

Fifty Shades of Black (2016): The Celluloid Dungeon

12 Days of Girly Juice 2021: 8 Brilliant Books

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Announcing: The Dom Sessions

I’m doing a new thing!

I’ve been talking about this for years and I’m excited to be actually making it happen. In 2022, through the Patreon, I will be running live conversations with other dominants and folks into D/s specifically about dominance, sadism, leadership, consent, choice, and all those things — hard and wonderful — that come with being on the D-side of the slash.

The conversations will be once a month, on the second Wednesdays at 6pm PT/9pm ET for an hour. They will be recorded and folks who are signed up through the Patreon will get the recordings.

I’ll be asking questions like:

  • How do you relate to and find home (or not) in kink communities?
  • Do you think there’s a shortage of doms & tops?
  • How did you come to understanding your dominance or dominant identity?
  • What’s it like to be a dominant with your particular intersectional identities?
  • Do you have a sense of spirituality in your dominance?
  • Who are your D/s mentors? Who did you learn from when you were coming into dominance, and who are your favorite people to learn from now?
  • What are your favorite D/s resources (books, websites, etc)?

… and many more, too — these are just a few to start. Maybe you’ve got some good questions to ask of some very smart D-type folks? Please share them and leave them in the comments!

I’m still lining up the whole year, but I have many amazing educators already planned, and I can’t wait to share them with you! If you don’t already know their work, you definitely should check out what they’re doing with their podcasts, education, videos, community organizing, and more.

Sign up over on Patreon.com for the $5/webinar level or above and you’ll have access to these every month in 2022.


Here’s a little bit more about why I’m making this series …

I don’t know about you, but in the 20+ months of the COVID pandemic so far, in 2020 and 2021, I have had a very hard time staying in touch with my dominance. I used to lean on my community — events, play parties, conferences, retreats, double dates, cotopping dates — to keep me inspired, to keep me in my dominance headspace, to keep my relationship structure in a community context, and to keep me grounded.

I miss all of those ways we used to connect in person intensely.

I hope the Dom Sessions series can do some of those things: provide inspiration, encourage my D/s headspace, supporting the authority exchange in my relationship. And hopefully, they can do some of that for you, too.


Psst: submissives & switches & other folks who do not identify as dominants are welcome! Though the conversations will be dominant-focused, anyone can attend.

So who will be part of this?

So far, some amazing folks! I will announce the others and update them here as I have them confirmed.

Miss Lola Sunshine

Wednesday, January 12, 6pm PT

Miss Lola Sunshine is a kinky queer high femme who believes in glitter, excellent manners, and cooking with real butter. She loves Disney, Barbie, and Hello Kitty. When she is not at Disneyland, or traveling to Disney parks all over the world, she is a sex and kink educator who has helped host and facilitate play parties and gatherings for adult littles, queer and trans people, and people of color in the Bay Area, which is where she lives, works, and plays with her dog Cupcake, over two dozen mouse ears, and over 50 pairs of shoes.

Marcia B

Wednesday, February 9, 6pm PT

Marcia Baczynski is an internationally recognized expert on sexuality, communication and personal empowerment who works to provide people with practical tools to create extraordinary relationships. Her primary mission is to help people overcome shame and get in touch with what they truly want — romantically, sexually and relationally — even if it’s off the beaten path.

As co-founder of Cuddle Party, Marcia has helped tens of thousands of people to speak up for the kind of touch they want, say No unapologetically, and foster more honest, connected relationships. She is a sought-after coach and presenter who has made hundreds of media appearances across the globe, including Rolling Stone, GQ, People, and Newsweek.

Marcia brings wisdom, humor, and creativity to all aspects of her work, and offers a fresh perspective on love, sex and relationships. When she’s not writing, teaching or traveling, you can find her hiking or camping in the woods, spending time with her family, or on a boat.

Midori

Wednesday, March 9, 6pm PT

Trailblazing educator, sexologist, artist, and irritant to banality, Midori founded Rope Dojo and ForteFemme: Women’s Dominance Intensive. She penned the first English instruction book on Shibari titled, “Seductive Art of Japanese Bondage” in 2001, paving the way to the popularity of rope. Dan Savage calls her the “Super Nova of Kink,” while others affectionately call her Auntie Midori for her cool, tell-it-like-it-is, funny, reality-based teaching. 

She is also the author of “Wild Side Sex,” “Master Han’s Daughter,” and “Silk Threads.”
During this pandemic, learn, laugh and enjoy her special online classes, events and art at www.patreon.com/PlanetMidori. Creative Living Coaching and Private Sexological Consultations: ask@planetmidori.com. Links: Instagram: PlanetMidori | Facebook: MidoriReallyMidori | FetLife: Midori | Twitter: @PlanetMidori

Daemonum X

Wednesday, April 13, 6pm PT

Daemonum X is a femme leatherdyke and lifestyle Dominant. She is a polyamory and BDSM coach offering strategies for successful relationships. She is the founder and Editrix of FIST, an anthology zine for leatherdykes, as well as Linked, A Polyamory Zine. More of her words on BDSM and power exchange can be found in Them, Autostraddle, and Wussy Mag. Daemonum X lives in Brooklyn with her two dogs.

You can follow her on social media @daemonumX, subscribe to her newsletter, and buy zines at fistzine.com.

Teagan The Bootblack

Wednesday, May 11, 6pm PT

Teagan fell in love with bootblacking at a young age, doing her shoes before church. Although these days her skills are being put to more salacious uses, she still identifies as a spiritual bootblack. For her, bootblacking harkens back to the foot-washing ritual. Teagan is International Ms Bootblack 2018, and the 20th person to hold that title. She is based in Oakland, CA. During her title year she invited our community to “Take Refuge” in the capable hands of our bootblacks. She’s the executive producer of the San Francisco Bootblack Contest.

Sir Damien

Wednesday, June 8, 6pm PT

Sir Damien is a queer, trans, Dominant, who has been a part of the leather community since 2012. He is the co-Head of House of Maison de Meson with Mademoiselle Ceci. He is passionate about bringing leather and kink education to the BIPOC community as well as creating intentional space for BIPOC in the leather community. To this end, Sir Damien has hosted hospitality suites, sat on panels and taught classes around the country. Since 2019, he has taken pride in making it his part-time job to aid and support IMsLBB as the Technical Producer.

Sir Damien is the Sergeant at Arms for ONYX NW, sits on the Board of Directors for the NCSF and for POCKLE, and is the co-founder of the Seattle Annex of the Carter Johnson Leather Library. He finds the time to further serve the leather and kink community as a mentor, educator and advocate for BIPOC and transgender kinksters. In addition to his leather journey, Sir Damien has a Masters degree in Computer Science, is an avid reader and has earned multiple patents for his engineering work in aviation.

Liquid Onyx

Wednesday, July 10, 6pm PT

Liquid (She/They/Them/That Bitch) is a Black Femme Presenting Gender Fluid, Queer, Social Worker, Educator, Published Model, and Sex Worker who has been a fixture in the BDSM/Leather community for 25 years. An accomplished competitor in her field, Liquid is no stranger to the stage. She has competed in and won Ms. Henrietta Hudson Fetish 2008 & 2009 and went on to become the only Woman & Black/POC to compete in the first Mr/Ms New York City Leather contest. She has modeled and volunteered in the community at events like Leather Pride Night, GMSMA, and Folsom Street East. She has presented for TES’ DW/sm group, was a panelist on LSM Presents Woman’s Herstory, and has raised money for various charities in and outside of NYC. Liquid was the first person and first woman of color to grace the cover of TESFest’s Prometheus Magazine two years in a row. Liquid held the title of the Northeast Leather Person 2020 & 2021. Liquid was also named one of GO Magazine’s 2021 “100 Women We Love.” Currently Liquid is a member of the Seattle Pacific North West Onyx Pearls, and member of the Lesbian Sex Mafia (LSM). Liquid continues to use her platform and many positions to educate, empower, and amplify voices of other Sex Workers, BIPOC LGBTQIA+ GNC/NB folx in and outside of the BDSM/Leather community.

Anton Fulmen

Wednesday, August 10, 6pm PT

Anton is the author of The Heart of Dominance and The Dominance Playbook, a kink and sexuality educator, and has had a lifelong passion for intimate authority and control. Find all his kink education work at www.ConsensualDominance.com.

Jill Carter

Wednesday, September 14, 4pm PT / 7pm ET

PLEASE NOTE: 4pm Pacific / 7pm Eastern start time!
Jill Carter, IMsL 1996, has been active in the leather lifestyle for over 40 years. In 1996, she became the tenth International Ms Leather and the first African American woman to win the title. Her platform during her title year was “Saving our Leather History” and she mobilized the community with her “Each One Teach One” slogan. Everywhere she traveled she asked, and communities responded, donating both money and memorabilia to the Leather Archives. Her “Just Give Me One Dollar” speeches around the country raised awareness and funds for the then very young organization. At International Mr. Leather 1998, her speech raised enough money to pay the deposit for the building that now houses the LA&M.

Jill was the driving force behind the formation and development of the Ms. and Mr. World Leather Event, which introduced many unique contest elements that are incorporated in leather contests today. She has served on the Production Board of ABW and International Mr. Drummer and was the first woman of color to serve as an IML judge. She was the visionary behind the Unsung Heroes Award, recognizing individual who serves the community relentlessly, quietly from behind the scenes and are seldom noticed, but are integral to the community. She was the visionary behind A Leather Day of Caring, when leather community from around the world came together to display acts of kindness and caring to any and all. Vi and her have maintained their commitment to their Leather Daddies who instructed them in 1975 to carry on in their absence to carry on the “Each One; Teach One”, that still echoes throughout our community today.

She has been an officer or founding member of various organizations across the United States, and a speaker or workshop presenter for leather organizations and colleges and her book, “So You Wanna Be a Title Holder.” is considered a contestant *must read*. Jill is the recipient of the Pantheon of Leather Woman of the Year Award 1998 and 2001; Reader’s Choice Woman of the Year 1998; one-third of the Couple of the Year Award and the Mr. Marcus Hernandez Lifetime Achievement Award; The National Leather Association International Order of Merit and Lifetime Achievement Awards; the Emerald Award from the state of Washington and numerous other awards.

The Carter-Johnson Leather Library is the largest privately owned repository of the BDSM, Kink, Leather and Sexual Histories dating as far back as the 1700’s that they have collected and preserved for generations to come and they have no qualms about sharing their collection with the community.

Caritia

Wednesday, October 26, 10am PT

Please note: different day & time!
Caritia’s fascination with the root/the body stems from a longing to deeply ‘listen’ to the (her) body holistically, from the inside out. Self-identifying and living in a queer, gender-fluid, BiPoC (afab) body, connecting with the LGBTQIA+ spectrum, as a sex worker and dominant, who is nd with dyslexia, whose art, education and consulting pursuits stem from a desire to advocate and support others to explore intentionally and intersectionally the boundaries around their bodies, sexuality and self-expression, using the key practices and language of kink alongside the 20+ years of lived personal & professional experiences. Caritia is a forever student of nuanced layers of being human.

The Black Queer Dominant

Wednesday, November 9, 6pm PT

A #sensualdominant exploring the edges of desire, intimacy & freedom for Black Queer Folx. instagram.com/blackqueerdom

Mademoiselle Ceci

Wednesday, December 14, 6pm PT

Mademoiselle Ceci (she/her) is a Sadistic Afro-Indigenous Dominant Alpha Femme chasing life, philosophy, and adventure. She has been on various portions of her Leather journey for the past 17+ years, doing so more publicly since she began coming to the US in 2008. Education, history, hedonism and serving her various communities are her passions. When not caring for, and indulging in, her Family, Ceci spends her time serving as a griot at the Carter-Johnson Library and Collection, Vice President of POCKLE, Founder and Sergeant-at-Arms of the Seattle/PNW chapter of the Onyx Pearls and Executive Producer of IMsLBB. A playful Sadist at heart, Mademoiselle Ceci revels in the pain of others while maintaining a wicked giggle and an evil grin. A matriarch by nature, Mademoiselle Ceci takes great pride in loving and caring for those in her charge as co-Head-of-Household with Sir Damien at the Maison de Meson.

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Titrate My Urges, Chapter 1 (continued)

This is a continuation of chapter 1 of the unpublished, unedited, untitled novel. Read the first part of chapter 1 here.

Content warning: breakup, sex scene, spanking, brat, dirty talk.

Chapter 1 (continued)

I try to focus. I will my hands to be present, will my mind to stay and be with Tally, with this body, with her skin and her naked vulnerability. She is vulnerable here, she is still naked here, despite my desire for more, this is as much as she can give me in this moment and I want to take it willingly, gratefully. I want to earn it, deserve it. My negative thoughts are certainly not helping my own focus or presence. I breathe, run my hands gently over her ass and thighs, soft, soft touches where she’s pink and swollen and a few little finger imprints are starting to darken.

Electricity runs through me as soon as I focus, as soon as I gather my energy back to me and direct it to her. Her body softens and I can feel her focus, too. In response to me, or just out of coincidence, I don’t know, but I like it. I feel attuned. I feel more connected. Maybe it’s me, maybe I’m the disconnect. Maybe I’m asking for too much. Maybe I have unrealistic expectations. Who really wants to give over like that? Honestly, wouldn’t they all rather be submissives when it suited their own needs? Who wants a strict Dominant, barking orders, demanding perfection? Perhaps someone. But what if I never find her? There must be someone. It is my belief that our desires are not that unique, that we all fall within the range of human desire and expectation and experience, so thus there must be our equal and opposite out there somewhere. “Just make sure your scars line up, equal and opposite,” that’s what X says.

The Magic Wand buzzes in my hand, I can feel it vibrating my shoulder and the bones of my arm, even the right side of my chest and neck and face. There’s less buzz in the handle than there is in the head, that soft plastic bulb the size of a tennis ball. I suppose it’s good for working kinks out of the body, too—the big muscles, the thighs, the back, the bottoms of the feet. X even told me that he got a little addicted to pressing it against the side of his temple or on his ear, and it felt just so so good, but it started to feel like he was rattling his brain. He probably was.

I press it against the backs of Tally’s knees, first. Just barely touching, a whisper. Just a little zzzt and then gone, just to surprise her, just to get her ready and remind her of the feeling. She yelps, jumping and jerking her body, her thighs jiggling. Oh I want to grab them, grip them hard, claw into their softness. I press it again into the backs of her thighs, harder this time, for longer, but then taking it away, moving up the back of her legs, alternating between the left and the right. She wants it on that sweet spot between her legs, she’s rubbing them together and I can see how it’s rubbing her pussy lips, too. She’s so wet.

“Good girl,” I whisper, more to myself than to her. I’m not sure she can hear me. Her head is down, hair falling over her shoulders and past her ears. It’s so thick I think it probably blocks the noise fairly effectively. She’s breathing heavy. Her skin is flushing, her cinnamon color is a little pink.

“Please, Harrison, please give it to me, I’ve been good, I promise I’ve been good, I need it, please … please, sir!” She remembers the “sir” at the last moment. I do like it when she begs. She hasn’t been good, but hearing her promise like that makes me want to coo to her how good she’s been, even if it isn’t true. The game of it, the play, is sometimes more powerful than the truth.

I position the toy right over her cunt, bouncing it gently off of her ass cheeks and that sensitive spot where her thigh meets her ass, just so she can feel how close it is. She gasps, begging some more.
“This what you want?” I growl in her ear, leaning over her body. I get a whiff of her shampoo, something floral and clean that reminds me of the girls in the early-morning classes I used to take in college. Intoxicating, for some reason. What is it about that girl shampoo that is always distinctive, always inciting desire?

“You have been very good, Tally. I’m proud of you, baby girl.” I don’t call her that often, or lightly. She mewls a little and softens, relaxing into the leather horse and rubbing her skin of her arms against mine where they overlap. “I want you to know how much I appreciate you. You know I do, right?” I touch the toy softly, as softly as I can manage, to her vulva directly, letting its bounce and vibration shift the sensation. I try to hold it still as she writhes and tries to get it in the right spot. She tries to nod and say yes but it comes out hmmmm, but I get the message. “You’re gorgeous, girl. Glorious. Your body is so fucking sexy.” I’m growling in her ear, starting to undulate my body on top of hers, she’s getting a rhythm down against the leather and against the vibrator, I can feel her thighs against my jeans, we’re getting a rhythm together and it’s working, it’s working. “I like the noises you make. You’re so incredibly hot. You know it’s hard for me to keep these jeans zipped, don’t you?” She nods, says mmmm in agreement. (This is what she wants to hear.) “You want my dick, girl? I know you do. You’ve asked for it before. You’re not going to get it tonight, but I know you want it. This is what you get, Tally, this right here, this vibrator and this orgasm, this is what you get. Go ahead and come girl, I know you want to. Can you do it yet? Can you do it for me?” She moans and thrusts harder, she’s getting the right spot finally and I can tell she’s so close by the way her whole body tightens and clenches. I don’t know if what I’m saying is going to help, but it probably won’t hurt. Probably. Though who knows what will set her off, sometimes it is the smallest thing I say.

We’re not a good match.

I try not to dwell on it while she’s coming. It might be the last time I get to watch her go through this tightening and releasing, this quake, le petite morte. That thought makes me immensely sad. She’s so lovely to watch. She should really do porn, I would watch her come all day. Maybe I should’ve had some orgasm endurance scenes with her before … before it became so obvious that we weren’t going to work. The way she cries out with her throat, pursing her lips and growling through her teeth, jaw clenched, hands gripping and tearing, she’s so gorgeous, collapsing everything down onto the horse when she comes.

I hold her and stroke her skin, getting lost in the magic of connection as my fingertips marvel against the curves of her and my head swims with the endorphins of endurance, of coaching someone through an ordeal scene that might be pushing just a little harder than they would like me to, but ultimately they are grateful for the encouragement. I can’t help it. I want to push, want her to take it for me, want her to want to please me with her body and her service and to take it just because I want her to. I suppose it’s lucky that our desires line up—that I want to spank her, and she wants to be spanked. That works, even if the games we’re playing underneath it or on top of those interactions don’t quite line up accurately. It feels dishonest. I can’t keep doing this. But her body … her beautiful lips, her smile, the way she kisses, the way she nestles into me and hums, content … I can’t get enough of it. I crave her when she isn’t around.

I crave something. I’m not certain it’s her.

Tally smiles up at me and peels herself off of the leather. “I’m ravenous!” she exclaims. “What have you got in your fridge?”

*

She putters around my kitchen wearing my button-down shirt. I didn’t know girls actually did that. When she raises her arms above her head, the shirt comes up just enough to show off her round, plump ass, and I find myself rubbing my lips with my thumb and watching intently. She has the sleeves rolled up to her elbows and only the bottom buttons buttoned. The crisp white of it contrasts against her skin.

After a few minutes she has a grilled cheese sandwich on the stove, smelling heavenly. She finds mustard and roasted red peppers, and adds those to the sandwich, pouring us both water and giving me quick kisses as she flutters around. I sit at the breakfast bar, my eyes following her every move. Am I staring? Is that rude? No, I’m paying attention, listening to her stories, connecting. This kitchen isn’t exactly the best place for that, but I’ll take it. The cabinets are cheap veneer, a light wood color that I’m certain isn’t real, and while I do feel lucky to enjoy many luxuries in this apartment, the kitchen isn’t really one of them. It’s cramped and not well laid out, with the stove against the refrigerator on one side and the sink on the other, with barely any counter space aside from this breakfast bar, which serves as my only table. But I love that I get to have my own dungeon, and I can’t afford most two-bedroom apartments. I’ve been here long enough to have rent control, so I won’t be leaving anytime soon.

“What was your favorite part?” Tally asks, pausing and resting her elbows on the counter across from me, swaying her ass side to side just a little.

“Of tonight?”

She nods.

“You know I like how you come. The way you thrash and cry out.”

She smiles shyly, reaching for my hand across the table and tracing one finger down one of mine. “I liked when you called me good.”

“When I said ‘good girl’?” I say softly, feeling that growl in my throat rising.

She nods again, steals a glance up at me from under her long lashes. “You don’t call me that very often.”

I nod a little in acknowledgment. “It seems like you want a daddy,” I say slowly. I don’t really want to open this up again, but it always seems to come up.

“I know. And you aren’t that.”

“More like, I don’t want to be. I can be, I have been. I want … more than that, now.” I want a 24/7 submissive, I want to tell her—but I swallow the words back down into my chest and hope they get planted there to grow something stronger tomorrow. I don’t know how to tell her what I want, and that she isn’t that. It doesn’t seem fair. She is so lovely, sexy, willing. I want that to be enough. But it isn’t.

She looks away and goes back to the stove, flipping the grilled cheese and moving it with the spatula, staring at it intently as if it’s going to do something brilliant any moment. “Why isn’t that me?” She asks in a small voice, still staring at the stove.

“I … really like you, Tally. You’re amazing. Plus, you make a mean grilled cheese,” I grin, trying to lighten things, but I can see it’s not going to blow over so quickly. Tally’s face doesn’t change, she has a whisper of devastation and a stripe of deep pain and rejection that I can’t overlook. I move over toward her and wrap my arms around her from behind, kissing her head. She’s almost as tall as me—probably at least 5’6” to my 5’8”—but I have a lot more bulk, and when I fold around her she seems so small. She leans her head back against my shoulder and nuzzles a little, but I can feel her upset.

She sighs and pulls away from me. “Yeah, well.” She flips the two grilled cheeses onto plates and sets them down on the breakfast bar, leaving me standing there, arms empty.

I guess there’s nothing else to say.

Tally takes a long drink from the water glass and picks up her grilled cheese, contemplating it as she takes a bite. The toasty bread crunches between her teeth and her eyes close a little, mouth turning up at the corners in a happy grin. I take a seat on the swivel bar stool next to her and try to focus on my sandwich.

We had fun. We’re not a match.

What else is there to say, really.

Tally and I finish our sandwiches mostly in silence, with the occasional polite post-sex conversation of lovers that are probably not going to see each other again. I second guess myself, and then make up my mind again. My dick is still hard and it doesn’t seem to be lessening anytime soon—I’m eager to take care of it. Maybe I’ll get some decent sleep tonight.

I wash the few dishes we’d used as she goes back into the dungeon to get dressed and get her things. Two small round blue plexiglass plates, the flat griddle from the stove, a quick rinse of the water glasses. I’m getting a little chilly, as midnight sets in and I’m still shirtless in jeans, but the warm water feels nice on my hands.

Walking back down the hall toward the dungeon, I snag my robe off of the back of the bathroom door where it’s hanging and slide my arms into it, wrapping it around me. It’s short, coming down just past my butt, and a dark blue terrycloth that feels like a big bath towel or a hug. It’s comforting. I don’t often wear it around other people, but then again, Tally isn’t just “people.” She’s always felt special.

See, there I go again. Ambivalent, wavering, weak. I need to make a choice and stick with it. There is part of me that is afraid of losing her, that I won’t find anyone better. I could enjoy her, I do enjoy her—I just have this craving for more. Is that unreasonable? Maybe I’m way out of my league here, maybe I shouldn’t be expecting so much. I don’t want to demand more than I deserve. And yet, in another way I kind of do. I want to be able to be so demanding and have someone else take it, figure it out, despite it being unreasonable or too much. Aren’t we all afraid of being “too much?” And aren’t we all, at some point, actually too much for someone else to handle? Maybe it’s wrong to turn that into a fetish, but I also can’t help what I like. X would say, “You are what you are. The trick is to figure it out, and be it, one hundred percent.”

I guess I’m just still figuring myself out, so no wonder it’s so hard to be it.

Tally is standing in the doorway at the dungeon, taking a long, forlorn look at the room like she knows she isn’t coming back here. She’s fine, I tell myself. I don’t have to protect her. I don’t have to make this anything other than what it is. She has her short red pencil skirt back on, her low T-strap heels, her white blouse and her black bomber jacket. She looks like a thousand bucks. Her purse is a patchwork of different colored leathers, sewn haphazardly together with a short strap. She gathers and flips her hair.

“Okay,” she says. “Time to go.”

I walk her to the front door. She turns in the doorway and looks at me, a crooked smile playing on her mouth, as if she isn’t sure what to say. I catch myself fidgeting with my robe and try to be a little more solid, a little more stoic. Come on, Harrison, you can do this. I step toward her and slide my hands around her waist, up under her shoulder blades, holding her close for a moment before pulling away to kiss her, tenderly, my lips on hers.

“Well, Tally …” I start.

“Yeah. It’s been real, Harrison. I’ll see you.” Her eyes are a little shadowy as she pulls away and slips out the door. I hear her shoes on the stairs down to the first floor and watch her cross the apartment building’s small lot to her car, a little two-door white 1980s BMW. The city has calmed down since the busy din of the day, but I can still hear the rush of cars from the nearby freeway, the hum of the streetlights, some people yelling drunkenly down the block. Tally gets into her car and pulls out of the lot, and I turn back into my apartment, locking the door behind me, and head into my bedroom to jerk off.

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Writing Erotica Is Activism: An Interview With Me on Erotica Writing

Rachel Kramer Bussel is writing a book on how to write erotica, titled How to Write Erotica, and it should be published either in late 2022 or early 2023 from Cleis Press. She interviewed me recently for the book and is going to use excerpts from it within the book — so here it is, in full. Can’t wait for the book!

What drew you to erotica as a reader? 

I’ve always been fascinated by everything erotic, since I was a pre-teen. I started reading it because I would pursue the bookshelves of the houses where I babysat, after the kids would go to bed, and try to find anything salacious. At one house I found Nancy Friday’s book My Secret Garden — I devoured it, and I was hooked. I went on to buy all her other books that I could find, and then some of the books that were shelved next to hers in the library and bookstore too. It was really good to read that when I was young, I was probably 14; it’s a compilation of “women’s sexual fantasies,” some were written and some were audio interviews by Friday. It covered every fantasy I could think of and dozens more that I never would have thought of, and there was a whole section with women describing ways they masturbated (bathtubs, candles, screwdrivers, pillows), so I promptly tried all of them. 

When I came out as queer later, when I was about 19, I devoured all the lesbian erotica I could find, trying to ask and answer the question of what women do together and what queer sex was like. I found the Best Lesbian Erotica series in 1999 and was again hooked, and have followed the series and read every one ever since.

When and why did you get started writing erotica? Where were you first published? 

I started writing erotica during college, when I lived in Seattle and was studying at the Bent writing institute for queers as well as going to University of Washington. I would read explicitly erotic things at queer open mics, and share them with my writing groups, and it was key to my coming out process to explore these kinds of queer erotic desires not just by myself, but within community. While I had poems published other places, the first erotica I published in my university’s short-lived erotic literary journal called Penetalia: Collegate Erotica. A few years later, I had a short story accepted to Best Lesbian Erotica 2006, which was absolutely thrilling and the first book my work was ever published in.

Why have you continued to write erotica on an ongoing basis? Has writing erotica affected your personal/non-writing life in any way?

Writing erotica is many things for me: it’s activism, as making queer, trans, nonbinary, and kink identities visible is a big deal and continually important to share what queer people do as ideas, roadmaps, options for folks who are coming in to these identities. It’s also a personal inquiry for me, very full of introspection and omphaloskepsis, and it is a way that I both process the world around me and push myself forward into my own evolutions. I use erotic writing as a tool to become more myself, explore myself, and write myself toward what I want and who I want to be.

How did you decide on your pseudonym?

When I started Sugarbutch in 2006 anonymous blogs were much more common and popular than they are now, so it made a lot of sense to use some anonymity and a pseudonym. Claire is one of my favorite names, so I started there, and adding “Sin” as an erotic pseudonym made a lot of sense — I was looking for a way to make it more masculine. The “Sexsmith” part came later, it was just Sinclair for a long time, until I started being asked to do things and it became more apparent that I needed a last name. I was asked to be part of a documentary about sex blogs in New York City and started hunting for a last name, and I saw an interview with Ron Sexsmith in a magazine and it clicked. 

How do you define erotica?

Just about any writing that is sensual, arousing, kinky, or sexual — sometimes all of those, sometimes one and not others. I believe many, many things can be erotic and sensual, not just sex and kink. 

What do you think sets your erotica apart/makes it unique?

My work is explicitly queer and kinky, and usually contains butch/femme dynamics, butch/boy dynamics, nonbinary and trans characters, dominance and submission, consent, aftercare, and a rich internal emotional world. I see my work in a lineage of writers like Patrick Califia, Xan West, Carol Queen, and many other leather and kinky writers who have come before me.

How do you get ideas for your erotica?

Mostly from my own life — either from scenes I have actually had, from fantasizing, or from community and friends’ inspirations and ideas. Sometimes I’m challenged to write something a certain way, sometimes I challenge myself and sometimes that comes from writing friends or mentors.

Which pieces of your erotica have been most popular and what kinds of erotica have been most popular on your site Sugarbutch (however you want to quantify that), and why do you think that is?

The most popular stories have been butch/femme kinky erotica stories, and stories with daddy dynamics (both daddy/girl and daddy/boy). These stories have pretty high search rankings, and get quite a lot of traffic from organic search — because the internet is for porn, after all, and erotica with daddy dynamics in it is in high demand. I think people continue to be curious about the erotic and power dynamics within family configurations. 

Which methods have you found to be the best ways to promote your work as an erotica author and/or editor, and why have they been successful for you?

Patreon, my own personal mailing list, and Twitter are my major focuses to promote my work. Twitter seems to be the best of all of the social medias for allowing explicitly sexual content. It has been an ongoing challenge to share sexually explicit content on social media, and because my website is sexually explicit I am not allowed to promote it on channels like Facebook and Twitter, so I don’t even have the option to pay for ads. I focus much more on my own channels that I can control, like my mailing list and Patreon, and on Twitter, which helps me build relationships and listen to people who are reading.

As an erotica anthology editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year series and other titles, what do you look for from story submissions? 

I look for strong interior landscapes, emotionality, fleshed-out characters, unique and realistic situations, and stories rooted in queer experiences and community. Ideally, I want a wide range of gender expression, sexual expression, kink expression, race, neurodiversity, and ability, so I’m always looking for those too. I don’t always get those, but they stand out when I do.

What advice would you give aspiring authors? 

Find and create a writing group — that is the best way I’ve found to keep challenging myself, get feedback, and learn to love the editing process. Also, the age-old advice of collecting 100 rejections is also a very worthy pursuit, as it really helps build up that muscle for submitting pieces and not being as disappointed by rejections.

Is there anything that you see in submissions that puts a story in the immediate no category?

Nonconsent and cheating would immediately be nos, unless I can see a way to edit it out simply. Because this particular series (Best Lesbian Erotica) is intended for a very general audience, 

Who are 1-2 of your favorite erotica authors and why are you fans of their work?

Patrick Califia and Xan West are two of my favorites of all time. They inspire me personally, with their depictions of kink, responsibility, ethics, and trans content, and they inspire me professionally to write the dark, dirty stuff, to go for the jugular, and to include the messy, human aspects of sex, kink, and relationships. 

Have you ever faced any negative repercussions from writing erotica and if so, did that change how you approach the genre?

Not really. The only negative repercussions I can think of are from writing memoir explicitly about people that I slept with or dated, without their permission — and that is more about me not getting consent than it is about writing erotica in general. That was years ago, and I don’t do that anymore; if I write about people explicitly (which is rare) I always get permission from them and let them see the work first before I publish it.