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Did I Say You Could Touch Me?

Content: spit, strap ons/prosthetics, desperation, neediness, fucking, D/s

“Stay there,” she says, and she shifts her knees on the bed so she’s straddling my chest. The silky black robe, the only thing she’s wearing, is tied loosely at her waist and falls from her shoulders. She pulls at the tie, pushes it off of her body behind her until it disappears from my view and all I see is her skin and her pussy, pink and swollen already. She whispers her fingers over it just inches from my mouth.

I lick my lips. My mouth is too, too dry.

“Please, may I …” I start.

She pauses. “Yes?”

“Please spit in my mouth,” I say. The lights are low in here but I’m probably blushing, and I already hate that I’m asking and wanting and hard, my dick pulsing.

She smiles, and she does. Slides her body back down toward my hips and grabs my jaw, saying open, then spits, letting it drip onto my waiting tongue. I let it coat the inside of my mouth as well as I can; I don’t swallow. She spits again. My dick twitches and I love the way it feels sliding on my tongue.

I’m needy; I’m too needy. While there’s something delicious about that needy, desperate place, it also makes me want to hide.

“Better?” she asks. I nod and say thank you and don’t swallow and wait. Try to be patient. She moves her body again until her thighs are brushing my cheeks, and I offer my tongue. Wide and flat for her to rub against, until she stays still and I offer long, thick thrusts, into her opening, in between her folds, along the length of her slit. She tastes like salt with a little bit of tang, and a sweetness like something ripe. I want to bite into her like an overripe plum, but I don’t dare use my teeth.

She’s moaning and I’m doing something right. She’s so pretty, gorgeous, and my hips are starting to pump into the air with the need to thrust, and she smells so good. I love the way her hair falls in her face, neck going soft and eyes closing as she concentrates on the pleasure between her legs. Her hips rock a little, forward and back against my mouth, and while I tip my chin up and head back, she still occasionally smothers me with her cunt, covering my nose while my mouth is open, tongue moving. I bend my elbows and bring my hands up to the tops of her thighs, hoping to just get a little more room for my nose, a little more breath.

“Did I say you could touch me?” she smiles as she says it. I try not to whimper. She grabs my right hand and moves it, and I readjust my neck again. I reach with my tongue as deep into her entrance as I can get it and she whispers yes yes yes and gods I love it when she does that, when it’s so clear that’s what she wants, so I stay right there, the muscle of my tongue straining to get deeper as she grinds against me.

She comes while she slides her pussy against my mouth. She uses my cock. She tells me to get up to get a bigger one.

I am so turned on, that as soon as I slide inside her and feel her clench around me, I nearly blow. I hold her ankles and her calves against my chest, suck her toes into my mouth, and when she moans, it sends me over and I spill inside her. She grins and laughs, teasing me. “Did my pretty toes in your mouth make you come? Were you so turned on you couldn’t help it?”

“Yes, Princess.” Still thrusting. Mouth wet and dick throbbing.

“Oh god, just like that, yes, like that,” she moans. “You still have more cum in those balls? Hmm? I need it; you have to empty it into me. Give it all to me. Stuff me full of it.” Again and again; I can’t tell where one orgasm stops and another begins.

Later, she’s on her stomach and I’m sliding into her beautiful pussy again, one finger in her ass, my dick spent and still throbbing, still coming despite being crushed against the base of the cock I’m wearing and desperate for the rumble of a wand vibrator or a mouth or even her fingers. “Your pussy is so beautiful,” I whisper. “I missed this perfect pussy.”

“Say that again,” she says, back arching, thrusting against me and against her own vibrator, trapped between her and the bed.

“I needed this,” I whisper, I moan, I ramble. “I missed your pussy. Your pussy is so perfect. So beautiful. Thank you. Thank you for letting me fuck you. It’s so perfect. I love being inside you.”

She comes on my cock, and I come again from her contractions and pulsing around me. I feel every inch, every squeeze. I hate being this desperate, but I need it, need the release she offers, need the way we fit together.

Technically, this is the 3rd prompt in last year’s Writing Spicy countdown prompts. I’m hoping to finish all of them before we start again in September.

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Dee’s Big Daddies Really Are Big: New High Quality XXXL Silicone Toys

Dee’s Big Daddies is a new venture from the folks at Uberrime, which is a favorite silicone maker of mine. Uberrime, in case you don’t already know, makes some of the only triple-density silicone that is available, including Bella (my fave) and Amante, among many other exciting things. They have so many colors of silicone, and you can request custom colors if you have a particular color scheme you’re into. Uberrime also make tentacles and fantasy toys, as well as grinders and front-hole/vaginal plugs, and both Uberrime and Dee’s Big Daddies make beautiful, high quality silicone toys.

Dee’s, as you might suspect from the name, specializes in extra large silicone dildos.

And, yes indeed, they are very, very large.

I like a big toy, but they are kind of for particular situations, at least in my personal sex life. As many of you I’m sure know, if you have ever wandered around a gay boy sex toy shop, butts can generally take WAY more girth and length than vaginas or mouths can — and while I have definitely played with size queens, there’s a particular girth and length where the feminist, sex-positive, queer-positive (or queer-made) silicone creators kinda top out. (Usually it’s around 2” in diameter and ~10” insertable, if I was pushed to quote a size.)

So taking on the Big Daddies was something I didn’t want to do alone! Extra thanks to my friends, E & DB, who tried these out with me and who shared lots of their thoughts so I could write this review. Plus, they are queers who are absolute connoisseurs of XXXL silicone, so they have comparisons and feedback that never would have crossed my mind.

We were all really impressed by the quality of silicone and the particular models that Dee’s sent us to review.

DB says: “I really really like big dicks. I’ve probably had over two dozen dicks that are bigger than 2.5” in diameter, and I’ve probably given away more than half of the big dicks I’ve acquired over time, because they just didn’t do it for me. Dee’s Big Daddies is the first place I would go to buy more big toys.”

In general, E & DB say: “We liked all of them! All the shapes are all more ovoid or triangular than round; they have a ridge on them. Which is unlike Hankey’s Toys XXXL cocks, which has a very round cross section — almost a perfect circle. But in reality, people have pelvic bones! And perfect circles don’t necessarily fit into our holes comfortably. With toys of this size, bone structure is a big deal; sometimes you have to change the orientation of a toy in order to get it to fit right.”

E says: “When you’re on your hands & knees, and I’m fucking you, this ridge is not just helpful to fit in between bones, it is stimulating. The pronounced ridge is firm enough to deliver sensation, but not so firm that it’s a struggle to get in, or tremendously overwhelming in use. And all of Dee’s toys have enough of a taper toward the tip that they’re easier to get started.”

Let’s talk about the toys!

Dee’s Big Daddies sent me four — FOUR — big daddies to review: Diedrich, Duke, Dante, and Duncan. (Thanks!)

I don’t want to give it away or anything, but here’s the most important thing: Duncan has stood out as the clear front runner among those four, and I’m obsessed. I am definitely getting another one in a different color and possibly a different silicone density. (More on Duncan down below.)

Speaking of: Dee’s has many options for colors and silicone density! Including Balls Deep Black, Booty Call Blue, Packing Purple, and five shades of ‘flesh tones’. You can also add on a second AND THIRD color, if you want to, because they do incredible swirls and hombres with their toys that is incredible silicone artistry. You can choose from two densities of platinum silicone:
“Very Soft Shore Density 0030 – similar to a warm gummy”, and “Soft Short Density 0050 – similar to a cool gummy.” All of the toys they sent are 0050, and they’re very nicely squishy while still being plenty firm.

DANTE XL

Specs: 7.5” insertable length, 6.625” max circumference at the base.

Dante is skinny and curved, with thick balls. Even though Dee’s sent us their smallest version of the Dante, the XL (and it goes up to XXXL with an insertable length of 9.625″) this one is still so large. Mostly it’s the thick balls at the base that makes it heavy and chunky!

DB says: “I’m not a big fan of balls on dildos; they can be logistically challenging, and they don’t add anything for me. They make it more complex for positioning, weight distribution, and will it stand up or not. But, these are my opinions very much born of a lifetime of solo play in (hotel) bathrooms. Generally, it is nicer to receive when someone is strapped on, because of the angle. I’d love to see more angles on toys, with balls or without!”


DIEDRICH XXXL

Specs: 10” insertable, 8.75” max circumference, 2.75-3” diameter

Diedrich is long with a big head. This is one of the longest that Dee’s sent for us to review.

DB says: “The shape is triangular, like Duke, but more comfortably so. It narrows about a third of the way down and then widens again a bit. Those kinds of differences in diameter, shape, and texture actually feel good to a body. This has a pronounced head, but not aggressively so.”

E says: “Diedrich was the longest one, and really didn’t fit in a cunt. But it’s still great to fuck DB with, and is a great shape.”


DUKE XXL

Specs: 8.75” insertable, 9.75” max circ, 3” diameter

Duke is stubby and thick, and a little bit triangular in its shaping. It goes up to XXXL, which has an insertable length of 9.75″.

After reviewing, DB said: “There’s nothing wrong with it; it’s just a pole of silicone, and lacks anything interesting. The combination of the size and the cross-section is too aggressively triangular, and it was at the edge of what’s comfortable for me. The taper is very fast, and then it doesn’t drop significantly; it’s the same shape of cylinder the whole way. It’d be much nicer without the corpus cavernosum. Duke is my least favorite of these toys, but I would enjoy this more after I used other big toys. Because of the triangular shape it needs warm-up.”


DUNCAN XL

Specs: 8” insertable length, 7.5” circumference at the widest

Duncan is wide with a popping head, a little bit curved, and is thicker at the top of the shaft than at the bottom.

Of all the Dee’s toys that E, DB, and I reviewed, Duncan has been the one that stands out the most. The thickness at the top of the shaft is so pleasurable to receive. Personally, my only complaint is that I am particularly fond of cocks with balls, so I wish it had those (but there are some bonus balls from companies like New York Toy Collective that I can sling around it, which I love to do). But plenty of folks prefer cocks not to have balls, so you’re in luck with this one.

E says: “I really like this one. In the descriptions of Duncan, they’re very particular about having this curve, but I don’t really notice the curve at all. Maybe for front holes there is less sensitivity to the curvature?”

DB says: “I really like toys that get wide and then taper toward the middle, or the base, so there’s a stretch feeling coming in and going out. It’s quickly become one of my favorites of all my toys. By my standards, it’s small, and often when I use smaller toys they aren’t very interesting. As someone who usually prefers size over any other factor, I’m surprised that the Duncan is my favorite. But the shape is just fantastic.”

Some Final Thoughts

You might be familiar with Hankey’s Toys — they have been, for years, one of the gold standards in XXXL silicone toys, with lots of different options for shapes, textures, and densities (and lots of toys modeled after porn stars). Hankey’s cocks have a lot of nooks and crannies; sharper divots in and out, which can be a challenge to clean.

While Dee’s silicone quality collects just as much dust and hair as any other silicone, they are generally very smooth — smoother than Hankey’s Toys. This, according to DB & E anyway, means they require less lube to stay slick.

DB says: “I prefer Dee’s Big Daddies to Hankey’s toys on almost every spectrum.”

Extra thank you to Dee’s Big Daddies for sending us four toys to review and check out!

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Power and Pleasure: Announcing Monthly D/s & Erotica Writing Workshops for 2025

I’m so excited to invite you to this monthly series of live, interactive workshops designed to support two key areas of your life: your D/s relationships and your erotic writing practice. We alternate each month between two ongoing tracks—one focused on Dominance/submission dynamics, the other on writing bold, explicit, and authentic erotic fiction.

You’ve likely been to a workshop with me in the past, so you know that my workshops are casual, creative, and community-centered. They’re held in a queer-, kink-, and trans-focused space that’s trauma-informed and committed to decentering white supremacy in how we learn and create (and how I facilitate). All experience levels are welcome—whether you’re new, nervous, or experienced and looking for new depth.

(If you haven’t been to a workshop with me, watch for an announcement about the Sugarbutch VIP webinar archive, opening soon exclusively for Patreon subscribers.)

2025 Upcoming Workshop Schedule:
JULY – Enhancing Long Distance D/s
AUG – Fierce Submission: Spicy Publishing 101
SEPT – Daddy 101: Build the Foundation
OCT – How Do I Write the Sex Part Tho?!
NOV – Frameworks for D/s Training
DEC – Get Yourself Off: Spicy Self Publishing 101

Here are details about the two tracks:

🔥 Erotica Writing Track

These sessions are for closet writers, seasoned authors, and anyone reclaiming their sexy voice on the page. You’ll get:

  • Writing prompts and technique tips
  • Encouragement to get messy and explicit
  • Practical info about publishing and sharing your work
  • A growing community of fellow smut-loving writers

And, in addition to workshops, you could join us for:

  • Regular writing sprints
  • Spicy publishing resources
  • Marketing support for your published work

🖤 D/s Relationship Track

These workshops are for anyone curious about or already practicing D/s—whether long distance, 24/7, casual, or committed. You’ll walk away with:

  • Frameworks and tools to support intentional power exchange
  • Strategies for building trust, connection, and roles
  • Supportive, shame-free space to ask questions and explore

Coming soon:

  • A monthly dominant discussion group (stay tuned!)

To attend: You must be subscribed at the webinar level or higher on Patreon.

Can’t join Patreon? Email me or DM me – sinclair@sugarbutch.net – to talk about alternatives.
I’m so excited to gather with y’all more often, and dive deeper into both erotica writing and D/s topics.

PS: Did you notice that I announced dates for the 2025 Writing Spicy group already? Save the date! The next Writing Spicy: 6 Week Online Erotica Writing Workshop will happen October 5 – November 16, 2025. More information or get on the list to be notified when registration opens at www.writingspicy.com

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What I Will Call You, Guest Post by Macsen K. Rhaff

Content: Daddy/boy, boot sucking/licking, boot play, kicking, desperation, humiliation play, crawling, cock play, caning, impact, making daddy proud

Boy. That is what I will call you. When you’re on your knees. Mouth full. Spit slippery on silicone. Hands behind your back. Where I told you to keep them. Looking up at me, so I can see how much you want to please me.

Don’t think I can’t see the question in your eyes. You want to know how well you’re doing, don’t you? You’re waiting for me to say it.

Don’t be so cheeky! You need to earn that, boy. Just keep going.

Who knows what else you might earn tonight.

That’s it. Don’t stop.

Grab me with your hand now too, get a good grip there on the base.

Now take me into your throat. That’s it.

I’ll see you getting greedy, that hungry way you start to suck. I will know then how hard your boycock will be getting. I’ll want to keep fucking your face. But I won’t want to spoil you.

That’s enough, boy.

Don’t pout or you won’t be getting anymore, do you understand?

I’ll give you a little kick with my boots, push you away from me, so you fall backwards and have to steady yourself. My boot will push down on your thigh, dig in until your face contorts slightly. You’ll try not to let it show. You’re too proud for that. For wincing. But I’ll see it, in your eyes. I’ll press harder. Test you. Watch you try to hold your face still.

You want to be a good boy? Well, that’s a title you have to earn. Don’t think you can earn it just by sucking Daddy’s cock.

No, you have to work for it.

Look here, at my boot. Take your tongue and lick it, boy. Until it’s clean.

You will do just as I ask. You will take that boy tongue of yours and start licking, shining that leather with your spit, polishing it. You’ll look pathetic, down there on the ground, groveling at Daddy’s boots. Desperate for the chance to earn your place. To earn the chance to be mine.

You missed a spot. Just there. You better clean up your act, boy.

Focus on the task at hand and stop being distracted by your cock getting hard.

Daddy isn’t going to fuck you wearing dirty boots.

You’ll be down on all fours, almost flat on the ground, to reach that little tongue of yours to where it needs to be. I will be tall, towering above you.

When my boots are clean I will let you sit up. Your eyes will be in line with my cock then. I’ll see the greed in you. But don’t think I am going to let that boot-licking tongue on my nice clean cock.

You need to clean your mouth out, boy. Come here, follow me.

You will crawl across the floor behind me. I haven’t given you permission to stand up and walk, and I’ll be pleased that you understand this. In the bathroom, I’ll fill your mouth with soap, while you make little choking sounds.

Oh, don’t be so childish, boy. Stop that complaining. I thought you wanted to prove something to me. Prove how much you can take. Now you’re acting as though you can’t handle a little thing like soap. You better toughen up, if you hope to be my boy.

When your mouth is clean I won’t waste any time. I’ll take the back of your head in my hands, press my dick into your throat, until you’re making those cute little choking sounds again.

This is what you wanted, isn’t it, boy? Yes, I saw you looking at Daddy’s cock. I knew just what you were thinking.

I’ll be getting wet and slick between my thighs. Just watching those lips slide along my silicone shaft, the way you devour it. I’ll be getting hungry myself. Wanting more of you.

Take that dick out of your mouth now, boy.

You will follow me to the bed. Watch me slip that cock out of my harness and choose another one. I will choose a big one this time. A big Daddy dick. Secure it there, clipped in place, straps pulled tight. Order you onto the bed. I will see the look in your eyes then. The way you try to hide your apprehension.

This cock too big for you, boy?

It’s okay to be scared. You don’t need to be ashamed of that. I like your fear. Because I know it’s not going to stop you, is it boy?

You want to make me proud, don’t you?

You’ll gasp of course, as it slides inside you.

Relax, boy. Don’t tense up. Just breathe.

I will push deeper. Let you catch your breath. Push again. I’ll like the way you gasp. I want to hear you make those sounds, so I know how much it hurts. You’ll breathe deep. Push through the pain. Your gasps will become moans. Just like I knew they would. And your hole will be as hungry as your greedy mouth had been.

I’ll be so wet then. And hard.

The words “good boy” will almost form on the tip of my tongue. But no, I won’t spoil you. Besides, I’ll be starting to think you enjoy this too much. Getting lost in your own pleasure, not just doing it for Daddy anymore. I’ll hear your ‘oh fucks’ as I thrust into you.

You’ll beg me of course. You’ll be so hot and ready, your breath too quick and your pulse too loud and you’ll beg me. I won’t say yes. Not straight away.

You’ll start to get greedy, won’t you, if I always say yes?

You need to learn some patience.

Remember whose pleasure you are here to serve.

I’ll feel powerful and strong, with my dick pushing into your whimpering body. Your desperate, groveling body. You will be panting. Gripping the sheets with your fists. Trying to hold back your cries.

I will order you to touch yourself. Make you rub that hard, slippery clit of yours. Your body won’t give you any time for shyness. It will lurch towards your fingers. Voracious. Needy. Involuntary movements, clit against fingers, fingers against clit. Hard. Fast. Matching the quickening pace of your breath.

I love the way you know what you need. The way your body finds its familiar dance in those deft fingers. There will be an intimacy in that well-known story, between you and your body. And I will be the voyeur. Soaking up the sight and smell and skill of you.

I will share my own intimacy, my own story. Filling you with it. With me. With this cock. The one I have fashioned into something real. Dreamt up. Reimagined. Pulsing as though with my own blood and feeling the depths of you through every nerve, every cell, every inch of its hard shaft.

We will both be fighting. To stay afloat. In the relentlessness of movement. Our bodies in battle. One against the other. Me hurling into you. Claiming you, needing more of you. All of you.

I will know what I want and when I want it.

Now. Boy. Now.

You will come for me.

You will give me so much of yourself that I will utter the words you have waited so long to hear.

Good boy.

Oh and how you will open to me then, how you will take me then. Those words will shudder through your body like they can fuck you harder than this big dick I’m thrusting into you. Those words will tip you over the edge. Into someplace you have never been.

I will love the way you let go of all your stoicism, of all that trying to be a big brave boy. Give in to your own body. Let it be whatever it is. And take whatever it needs

Total surrender.

I will have you completely then.

The rawness of you.

After I fuck you, I will hold you. I will let myself be soft for you in that moment. And feel the softness of you. As your body curls into mine. Just a small boy in a Daddy’s arms.

You did so well. You did just what Daddy wanted.

I will stroke you tenderly.

Good boy.

Your body will reach for those words and let them soak into you. Let them fill you up.

I will watch you float back into yourself. Come home.

You will look up at me and I will fall for you in that moment, in the way your eyes give away your pride at pleasing me. I will love how eager you are to make me proud.

Though I will not have forgotten how hard I am. How wet. And how much more I want.

You were a good boy. But I know you have more to prove. So Daddy’s going to give you a chance to show how much you’re willing to take.

This is your chance to earn your place, do you understand?

I will let you choose. You won’t like that, you’ll want Daddy to decide for you. But this is part of the test and you’ll know it. That is why, despite seeming to hesitate, you will already know your choice.

You’ll get to choose from any tool in the room. Floggers, crops, bats, belts. I knew all along that you would choose the cane. It is the one you enjoy the least. So, you know it will please me the most.

I’ll start lightly. My wrist flicking the rattan in quick succession. Tap tap tap. Your skin getting rosy. You will like this part. The sensation. And the anticipation. Tap tap tap, until your ass is the color I want it to be. I’ll run my hand over it, feeling the warmth.

When I’m ready I’ll make you choose again. I will tell you how hard I’ll hit you. You’ll tell me how many you will take. You won’t like me asking you, but you will give me your answer.

Eighteen.

There’s a brave boy.

The first set of six will be fast. I won’t let you recover from the sting of each hit before bringing down the next. The rattan will make the air whistle. You will try and breathe through each one, but they will fall too fast, one after the other. Leaving you breathless.

A quiet reprieve. I will run my fingers along the red welting lines on your ass.

The next six will be as quick as the first, but they will be harder. I will put more of a swing into them. Like I want to break you, just a little.

When you catch your breath again I will speak to you.

Now boy, this last six. They will be slow and steady. I want you to feel each one. Let the pain sink in.

You are going to count them for me. Nice loud voice. No mumbling, it won’t count as a hit if I can’t hear you.

And let me be clear about this, boy. You are only to count the hits that are hard enough. Do you understand?

I’ll make the first strike heavy enough to see you winch with the shock of it. But you won’t make a sound. No number. Cheeky, I will mock. But I will be pleased. Understanding what your silence means.

I gave you an opportunity to prove yourself, to tell me how hard you will take it.

Now I will accept your invitation.

I will let the strength of my arm carry the cane into flesh. One. It will please me, the way you breathe to take the pain. Two. Each flinch of your body making my cock grow harder. Three.

I will leave my mark on you.

If you want to be my boy, first I must claim you. The bite of the cane will take your flesh and make it mine.

Four.

The sweet crimson red of your blood will break the surface of your fragile skin.

I will feel the thrill of it run through my body. Through my cock. And I will know what I want. What I need.

Five.

Last one, boy. I hope you are ready.

Six.

Your body will slump involuntarily as you let out a sigh.

I will walk away. Sit in my armchair and order you to me. Watch you crawl across the floor, ass raw and bleeding, to kneel before me.

You were a brave boy.

I will pat your head as you lean into the praise.

Because you were so good for me, I am going to give you a special treat.

Oh, what’s that skeptical look for? Are you afraid? I’m not going to hurt you, boy.

It’s a special treat, just for you. One that I don’t give to all the boys, so you should know how lucky you are.

I will reach out and take something from the table beside my armchair. It will be a harness. With a special cock, just for you. I’ll see the surprise in your eyes.

Now, I don’t want you getting all cocky, boy, just because Daddy lets you wear a cock, you understand?

Don’t you forget who’s in charge now.

I’ll grip my fist around your throat for effect, make sure you know how much I mean it. Then I’ll pass your new dick to you and order you to put it on. You will look so cute with it.

Go lay on the bed.

You’ll be beneath me, as l lean down and rub that cock of yours up and down, pressing the base into you. Lubing it up. I’ll let you watch. A special treat. Let you see how hard it gets. Let you see Daddy above you. Lowering himself onto you.

I will take you into me. Slowly. Little by little. Feeling every part of that dick of yours making its way deeper and deeper. Until I am full. Pressed against you. I’ll feel you rise a little to push up into me.

Stay still boy.

I’ll force your wrists down into the bed. Stop you moving. Make sure you know who’s in control. My grip will be so hard that your wrists hurt as I rock myself on your cock and moan. You will moan too, but I will tell you to shut up. Be quiet.

You like that boy? You like it when Daddy fucks your little cock like this?

I will tell you when to stay still and when to move. I will tell you when to push your hips up, so that I can feel your cock driving into me. When to thrust long and slow. When to thrust short and fast.

Good boy.

I will want this so much, to be full of you. So that when the wave of dysphoria rises up, as it does, I will let it wash over me and let it pass. But I will not stop fucking myself on your hard little boycock. I will just keep on riding you. Push down harder against your wrists. Growl into your ear.

I’m going to fuck your little cock until it hurts you, boy.

Oh. Fuck.

And then another wave will rise in me. The one I want to give myself over to. I will let it take me. My body will be lost in that moment, turning into nothing but this urge. Nothing but flesh and muscles and sweat and breath. Grinding, pushing, pulling, against your body.

Fuck me. Come on, boy. This is your chance to make me proud. Fuck me, as hard as you can.

You’ll forget, then, about the sting of open wounds, bloody ass thrashing against the mattress.

Oh. Fuck. That’s. It. That’s. It. Boy.

And I will have no vision then, so I won’t see the way you watch me. But you will, won’t you? You’ll watch the way Daddy comes on your cock. Listen to my cries while you keep on thrusting.

Fuck.

Until I collapse onto you. Let you take the weight of my spent body.

You will know then. How you have pleased me.

I will stroke your sweaty hair. Tell you what a sweet boy you are. What a good boy you are.

You will be grateful for the special treat.

Afterwards you will clean up my toys and pack them away, just the way I like. Everything has its place and you will have taken care to remember. When the job is done, I will order you to me. You will crawl to where I sit, waiting, in my armchair.

Come closer. Turn around. Sit here.

I will point to the floor. To that place right beside my boots.

You will do as I say. Trying not to let me see the glow of pride. You will know that it’s not just any boy who gets this place.

You did so well. Cleaning Daddy’s boots, taking his big dick, and his nasty cane on that bare little ass, fucking him just right, doing everything you were told to do. Didn’t you?

Sit up straight. You’re going to be my boy now, do you understand? So, you need to act like it. Hold your head up.

So everyone can see how proud you are to belong to your Daddy.

My boy. That’s what I call you. When you are sitting on the floor, where you have earnt your right to be.

Earnt your place.

Here.

Right by Daddy’s feet.

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Sinclair’s 2025 Calendar

Here’s where I’ll be and what I’ll be teaching — online & in person — in 2025!

This page will be updated as things are added.

Updated: June 18, 2025

July

Tuesday, July 15th | 6-7:30pm PT | Enhancing Long Distance D/s online through Patreon

Tuesday, July 22 | 6-8pm PT | High Protocol For D/s online through Wicked Grounds

August

Tuesday, August 19th | 6-7:30pm PT | Fierce Submission: Spicy Publishing 101 online through Patreon

Tuesday, August 26 | 6-8pm PT | Cock Confidence online through Wicked Grounds

September

Saturday, September 6 | 11:30-4pm | Building Blocks of D/s Intensive | In person in Seattle through Pan Eros | Fetlife

Tuesday, September 16th | 6-7:30pm PT | Daddy 101: Building the Foundation online through Patreon

Tuesday, September 23 + 30 | 6-8pm PT | Writing Spicy 2-part workshop online through Wicked Grounds

October

Save the date: The next Writing Spicy: 6 Week Online Erotica Writing Workshop will happen October 5 – November 16, 2025

Sunday, October 5 | WRITING SPICY 2025 begins! online

Tuesday, October 21 | 6-7:30pm PT | But How Do I Write the Sex Part Tho!?, online through Patreon

Saturday, October 25 | 2-4pm | Enhancing Long Distance D/s | in person in Seattle through Pan Eros | Fetlife

Tuesday, October 28 | 6-8pm PT | Beyond Spicy: Writing the Taboo online through Wicked Grounds

November

Saturday, November 1 | 12-2pm | The Protocol Game | In person in Seattle through Pan Eros | Fetlife

November, 2025 | Leather Reign conference | in person in Seattle

Tuesday, November 18th | 6-7:30pm PT | Frameworks for D/s Training, online through Patreon

December

Tuesday, December 16th | 6-7:30pm PT | Get Yourself Off: Spicy Self Publishing 101, online through Patreon


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January

January 11, 18, 25 | 4-6pm | Writing Spicy at Charlie’s Bookstore, in person in Seattle

January, 2025 | date TBA | Daddy 101 through Wicked Grounds

February

February 6 + 13, 2025 | 6-8pm PT | Writing Spicy through Wicked Grounds

March

March 20, 2025 | 7-9pm | The Art of Ownership through Wicked Grounds

April

Sunday, April 13, 2025 | 1:30-4pm | online | Murmurations: An Echobird Press Spoken Word Event | pre-recorded & available for 48 hours | tickets

Monday, April 22, 2025 | 6-8pm | Daddy 101 through Wicked Grounds

Tuesday, April 29, 2025 | 7pm | in person | Conversation with Sam Cat on their book Polyamory Advice You Won’t Get From Your Monogamous Friends & a book release party at Charlie’s Queer Books in Seattle, WA

May

May 1-4, 2025 | in person | Northwest Leather Celebration in Sacramento, CA

May 10, 2025 | 7pm PT | in person | Conversation with Sam Cat, author of “Polyamorous Advice You Won’t Get From Your Monogamous Friends,” at Charlie’s Queer Books in Seattle, WA

May 27, 2025 | 7-9pm | Cock Confidence through Wicked Grounds

June

Tuesday, June 16 & June 27, 2025 | 7-9pm PT | Writing Spicy 1 & 2 through Wicked Grounds

Wednesday, June 18th | 6-7:30pm PT | How Do I Write the Sex Part Tho? online through Patreon

June 24-30, 2025 | Dark Odyssey: Fusion near Baltimore, MD

fiction

You’ll Get What’s Coming

I wrench her other arm behind her back and hold her wrists together. “It only hurts because you’re struggling,” I growl.

“Fuck you,” she snaps, thrashing her head and nearly knocking my nose with the back of her skull. “You … you monster!”

I shake my head. “It could just be so much easier for you,” I say, as I buckle the cuffs on her wrists.

She chuckles. “What makes you think I want it easy?” She’s so self-satisfied with that comment. I can hear the grin in her voice.

Fucken brat. Fine; we’ll play it that way then.

She stands in her fancy high heels and the shortest jean shorts, the ones that show her ass. Her legs look so long and strong and the muscles in her thighs flex as she balances while she pulls against the cuffs, trying to test if she can get out of them. The blindfold has her long hair tangled and messy.

I flick open the knife right next to her ear, and she jumps.

I fist her thin tee shirt and slide the blade through it enough to start the rip, and then use both hands to tear it the rest of the way. She gasps. I pull it down her arms and wrap it around her elbows, an additional piece of bondage.

“Ow, ow,” she whines, twisting. I can see that the cuffs are getting caught at awkward angles.

I grip her hair. “You’re doing that to yourself,” I say, low, my mouth next to her ear. “You could just relax. Let it happen.”

She melts a little at that, and then stiffens. “Fuck you!” she says again. I circle her, predatory, letting her feel my breath on her neck, letting her feel the warmth of my body near hers but not touching. She keeps wriggling in the cuffs, but a little less dramatically.

In a swift move, I grip the back of her neck, bend her over the bed, and shove my hips against her ass, letting her feel the ten inches I’d packed in her honor, because she is such a size queen. She curves her spine and presses back into me. I grip her hip bones and pull her back into me, grinding against her as I unbutton her jean shorts and push them down her thighs, along with her tight pink colored femme-athlete style thong. I leave them both on her thighs, and push her feet apart with my boots, so far that her legs pull her clothes taut. Another bit of bondage, at least for now — as long as it doesn’t get in the way of what I want.

She is cheek-down on the bed, almost slurring, as she says, “What are you going to do?”

I grin. “Whatever I want, I think.” I unbutton my jeans, unzip.

“Fuck,” she says, arching her hips again, and then seems to remember herself and starts trying to roll over, close her legs, get away from my hands.

I grin, almost chuckling. My thick thighs are between hers and with one hand soft on her back, she can’t go anywhere. She knows it. “I don’t think so.”

She goes still and quiet as she tries to assess where I am and what I’m doing. I slide my hand over her pussy, my fingertips brushing the fine hairs and delicate skin. 

Teasing. Petting. Sweetly, sweetly, sweetly. 

She’s still, like she’s forgotten that she was struggling and is now leaning in to the barest of touches that I’m offering.

Turns out, she wants it. I figured she did — or would, after I played with her for a minute. 

“See that?” I ask, low and soft in her ear. “See what happens when you behave yourself? Isn’t that better?” 

I push her shorts and panties both further down her thighs, leaving them tangled at her knees. She tries to move them further down, pushing her legs together even as she arches her back and offers her pussy to me even more. I stop her. “Leave them,” I say.

She throws me a sneer over her shoulder that combined “you can’t make me” and “I’ll do whatever *I* want,” but I slide a finger over the slick that is gathering at her entrance and her eyes roll back, just a little, and she shivers, then moans.

I shift my hips and fist my cock so that the head is up against her pussy, getting silky with her wetness, rubbing against her swollen lips and clit. She’s so open and wet that it slides in, just a little, when I get lined up right against her opening. I pause before going any deeper and breathe, just feel it, that pause moment, almost like the eye of the hurricane: she’s going to thrash around again before she gives in, I know she will. But for right now, I’m on the precipice of thrusting, and she’s arched and taut and holding her breath, and I want this moment to last and last.

“Oh god,” she moans into the dark blue blanket, letting her weight settle, rising up on her tiptoes. I can feel her pulsing around the head of my cock.

I grip both her hips and start pressing in, slow.

I feel her grip tight and pull away. “Don’t you fucking dare,” she spits over her shoulder, her pupils dilated with lust, grinning and eager to play. Trying to hold on to some sense of … what? Brattiness? Autonomy? Choice? I know she wants this; she knows she wants this. We both know this is a game we play to get even more of what we both crave, of what we both think about late at night in our beds alone.

I chuckle. That low laugh that is part amusement and part cruel sadism. “Oh, sweet little toy,” I say, wrapping my hands in her hair and pulling. “I dare.” And I push in — I have to push, really push, against the resistance in her muscles, and she’s strong, tight, and forcing my way in takes more potency than I expect, but it works, and when the head slides past the first ring of tight muscles it effortlessly glissades in. Faster than I’d planned to, one hand gripping her hips, the other in her hair, all the way until there is just no way to get any deeper.

She starts thrashing, twisting. “Ow, fuck! That fucken hurts.”

“Like I told you,” I say, my mouth close to her ear as I pull my hips back and start slowly, slowly, thrusting back in. “It only hurts because you’re struggling, poor little toy. If you just relax and open up for me, it’d feel a lot better.” And I pull out, and thrust in again. I’m trying to make this slow and torturous for her, but really I’m just torturing myself at this point.

She almost laughs. “What if I like it more when it hurts?” Her voice is dripping with lust and her cunt is so open, her lips are swollen and she’s pushing back against me, grinding her hips and ass even deeper into my cock.

“Then, I suppose,” I say, still thrusting, picking up speed, the orgasm building in my dick, a growl deep in my chest coming out. “You’d be a filthy slut who’s going to get what’s coming to her.”

“Fuck,” she says. And then, “fuck” again, and her breathing is getting ragged, and her cunt clenches so tight around me, and I can tell she’s going to come soon.

“Go ahead,” I say. “Come on my cock. Tell me how much you like it when it hurts. Struggle for me. Do your best.”

miscellany

Elust 178 includes my story “Don’t Swallow”

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Oz

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

Musings of a Switch, Porn thoughts

Tantric Sexual Healing, Sacred Sex: A Path to Deep Connection and Spiritual Awakening

The Disorderly House, How to Fuck Yourself, An Ultimate Sexual Self Intimacy Guide

Betty’s Toy Box, Experience Your Ultimate Pleasure: 10 Types of Orgasm for You to Try

Erotic Non Fiction

Kristina J, Manners Matter: Why Being Polite is Sexy (and Non-Negotiable, Even for Sex Workers)

Awakening Your Inner Essence, Exploring The Full Body Orgasm: A Personal Journey as a Tantric Practitioner

Little Red Spanking, The Lover’s Spat: A Paddle Story

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Pain as Pleasure, Building A Role Play– Chat GPT and the end (or beginning) of everything

Erotic Fiction

Jerusalem Mortimer, In the Realm of the Sensei Prologue-3

Sugarbutch, Don’t Swallow

Jasmine Gold, A Nun’s Humiliation

Product Reviews

Buzzing Babe, The Best Male Vibrators for Pleasure You Didn’t Know Existed (2024)

Liz X, Powerful Pleasure: Kiiroo’s Duo Powerblow FeelPocket Stroker

Sex Work

Hellga, One Overnight in Paris. Fly Me to You

Miss Kim Rub, Top Five BDSM Practices

Sex Worker Search, How to Send a Takedown Request to an Escort Directory

Femina Viva, How to Set Your Price (or not) as a Sex Worker

Sandra, Flogging, DP and Two Pearl Necklaces. A Duo with Oz

Nuit d’Or, Self-care For Dominants

Oz Bigdownunder, I Fucked Her Sissy Tits Off. A Duo with Lady Ava Sheridon and Her Sissy Slave

Books and Movies

History of BDSM, Strangeland (1998): The Celluloid Dungeon

Poetry

Simone Francis, Watch Me

guest posts

Beg For It: A Collaborative Quickie Guest Post by Writing Spicy authors

collaboration between Juneboi, Jezebel Jett, Lucy Rose, Sinclair Sexsmith, Sixten Black, & SJ

Content warnings: previously negotiated power dynamics, D/s, daddy/boy, penetration, begging, blow job, rough sex, gagging, trans butch characters

“It’s truly not my fault you turn me on,” Daddy says, inching toward the boy. He pulls at their shirt. “Now … what are you gonna do about it?”

They bite their lower lip and can’t look him in the eyes anymore, shrinking a little as their daddy squares his shoulders and broadens his chest. They can’t stop looking at his package, pressing against the fly of his jeans. Their hands twitch at the thought of unzipping, unwrapping, touching, tasting.

“You’re very quiet there, boy,” he began, noticing them gazing hungrily at his crotch. “What’s wrong? Cat got your tongue?” They blushed hard and licked their lips, thinking of all the things they wanted their tongue to be doing.

They’re suddenly aware of just how empty their mouth is and how hungry they are, hungry for the praise that will fall from Daddy’s lips when they finally sink to their knees, hungry for cruel words spat out from between gritted teeth.

“Your silent hunger isn’t going to get you fed.” He says reaching down pulling at their hair, eyes growing darker, “Say it.”

They look up at him asking in their eyes, then the words tumble from their lips like soft marbles, “I need your cock, Daddy.” That last word falls off their tongue like it stepped off a cliff, falling into Daddy’s rabid gaze like a vortex of clouded lust and fog.

Daddy smiles ferociously. His grip tightens, lifting them so they can focus on nothing but him. Nothing but Daddy’s cock pressing against their belly. His silence is menacing. The boy pools between their legs. “You think it would be that easy?” He shoves them lower. “Beg for it.”

They focus on Daddy’s mouth, the shape of Daddy’s cock in his jeans, their big, rough hands. They let the desire build in their pelvis like a magma pool in a volcanic crater — but not to erupt, no. That’s not their job. Their job is to be an open space, a sheath for a sword, a vacant thing that Daddy can empty into. To be a thing to use. To be a thing that needs it, even more than Daddy needs to take, to ravage, to destroy, to be an unforgivable monster. 

“Please,” they start, their mouth dry. “The only thing I need is your cock. In my mouth. I can’t remember ever needing anything else. I want it. Please, I’m so hungry. I’m so needy. I’ll never need to eat again, if I can just have a taste. Please.”

They looked so fucking sweet as they said it. Desperate eyes. Pouting lip. Daddy’s cock jerked at the sight. He hoped they saw it.

“Now that wasn’t so hard, was it?” they smirked. Daddy’s hand balled in their hair and held them firm as he unzipped his jeans. The tick tick tickof the zip made the boy hold their breath. 

At last, Daddy freed his cock from his straining jeans.

“Tongue out and eyes closed,” he commanded.

Their mouth fell open and eyes closed before the lull of their pulse could sprawl into its dub. The water of them rushing to meet the edge of their tongue. Breath caught in anticipation in the wonder that maybe they could get what they wanted.

Daddy looked down; the hollow of their cheeks as they sucked was so fucking tantalizing. The nerves that connected their cock to their belly to the broken metronome of their chest cried out as they stared down at those sweet eyes. That waiting vacancy of their mouth ready for the cave in, ready for the back of their throat to be raw and their jaw as sore as the ache that told them to shove it down deep, hear that praise in their whimpers that sounded like a staccato prayer only god could hear.

Daddy knew that he should finally, finally reward them, for he himself was aching to be entranced by that tongue, the one that fell so beautifully from their sweet baby boy’s mouth, so warm, and so willing. The boy’s eyes glistened, so wet and their mouth so wide as if he was already thrusting inside them. 

“Please …” The boy’s voice only a whisper, before Daddy pressed his cock deeper, deeper; past the boy’s mouth, a tender pressure at the back of their throat, a soft little gag that sounded like sweet music to Daddy’s ear. He forced himself even further. Again and again, slamming into that wet cavern and the noises themselves overwhelmed him. 

“Is this what you finally want? To be used by Daddy?” He only felt the movement of their mouth. A yes, of course, it was a yes. This was what they waited for.

real life

Show Me How Bad You Want Me

Content: boot worship, boot play, boot fucking, boot licking, dirty talk, wetness, sir/girl, teasing, begging

“Show me,” I say. I look down at her and hold eye contact. She doesn’t look away.

She swallows. “Show you … what, Sir?”

“Show me,” I say again, nudging her cunt with my boot. She’s straddling it, my right boot, the tall knee-high Wescos I got out just for this occasion. Pressing her wet pussy into the leather. “How wet you are.”

She whimpers a little. Both her hands are holding my calf, and she’s on her knees. Her short purple skirt pools around her and I can see her thick thighs, striped red with cane marks that will hopefully be darker tomorrow. Her chest is bare; her little tank top with the thin criss-cross straps is on the floor somewhere, and her tits are so perfect, the curve of them, the shape, the swell, and her pretty hard nipples make my mouth water. She’s already been rocking her hips to rub her clit against the steel toe of my boot, but she shifts her weight into her legs more and starts making bigger movements.

I can feel when she gets just the right spot so her lips open and her wetness slicks my boot; now she glides back and forth even easier. Fuck.

“That’s good. Mmm, very nice. You were already grinding against me, but now it’s so, so wet. Are you dripping for me, dirty girl?”

She whimpers again. “Mm hmm,” she half moans, her eyes closed.

I reach down and grip her hair, and touch my lips to her ear, as I say, “Such a slut, to move your hips like that. Such a slut, to polish my boot with your pussy.”

“Yes, Sir,” she breathes.

“Show me,” I say, using my fist in her hair to move her on my boot, angling the toe of my boot up so she can use the curve of it however it feels good. “How bad you want me.”

She cries out a little, thrusts against me in a way that feels like my toe cap is right at her opening.

“Show me how you want that wet cunt fucked,” I growl. She thrusts again. “Show me how you want my cock.”

“Oh, god,” she moans. “I want it, I want your cock, Sir, please can I have your cock.”

“Yeah? You want it?” I thrust my boot between her legs harder, hold her tight by her hair.

“Yes, Sir. Please, Sir, please fuck me, please I want it,” she begs, as she rocks against me and moans.

“Is your pussy so empty?”

“Yes, Sir!”

“Is your throat so hungry?”

She swallows. “Yes, yes, fuck.”

“What do you want inside you, slut?”

“Your cock, Sir, please, please, your cock,” she grips at my calf in the tall boot and grinds with everything she can.

“Did you polish my boot nice and pretty with your wet cunt?”

“Yes, Sir.” She’s quieter, this time; a little embarrassed about how wet she gets.

“Let’s see,” I say, and pull her hair, encouraging her up. She moans a little in protest, but shifts and stands. There’s a dark, wet spot on my boot where she was riding it, even a couple of drips down the side. A growl starts somewhere low in my pelvis.

“Fuck, that’s so good,” I say, in that rumbling voice that I barely recognize, dripping with lust and drive. I pull her to me and kiss her. “That’s so good, for such a messy slut.” She whimpers against my mouth, tongue and lips swollen, slick.

“Now,” I say, holding her for just another few beats in my arms. “Go clean up the mess you made.”

“Oh, god,” she says. I kiss her again, then push her head down toward my boot. She goes down to the floor, all the way on her belly, and starts to lick.

dirty stories

Don’t Swallow

Content: butch/femme, blow job, spit play, cum play, rough, praise kink, ‘good girl’, masturbation, penetration (mouth), praise, strap-on

Red comes over after work, after the gym, and wants to shower before we play. When she walks in, she’s already talking a bit frantically, some nervous/anxious energy filling up the hall, and I just smile and wait, a pillar of calm, a quiet presence as she sits and takes off her sneakers.

Finally, she pauses for breath. “Um,” she says. “Hi.”

“Hi,” I say. I take a step toward her and stand between her legs. She looks up at me. I put my hands in her hair and lean down to kiss her, and I feel her shoulders move down half an inch as she exhales. Her lips are soft and she parts them to let my tongue in, and her mouth is soft. My dick clenches and thickens when she touches her tongue to mine. I grip her hair a little harder and she lets out a little squeak of surprise, delight, maybe just a pinch of pain.

I twist my fingers in her hair to grab a handful, and with the other hand, I unbutton and unzip my jeans. “I can’t wait,” I growl. “Well. I can. But I don’t want to.”

“You shouldn’t wait,” she breathes, eyelids lowered, watching my hand as I take my cock out. She looks up at me, her lips parted, waiting, her chest moving up and down with her shallow breaths.

I take a condom out of my back pocket and slide it down the shaft. I have a rule: I always have a condom in my pocket if I am hard packing. The cock is clean, and this is the one I usually use with her and only her, but we’re still using barriers.

I move my hand out of her hair and to her jaw, tipping her head up as I run the head of my cock against her lips. She goes to open her mouth around it further and I hold her still, shake my head. She blinks, and understands, stilling herself, letting me rub the ridge against her mouth.

“Good,” I murmur. “Open.” She swallows first, and then opens her mouth wider. “More. Stick out your tongue.” She does. Her pretty pink tongue is wet. I slide the underside of my cock against her tongue, let her feel the ridge of the corona. She moans, her eyes fluttering closed, a light purr in the back of her throat and around my cock as I start sliding it in deeper. I circle her mouth with it inside, I touch the tip of it to her pretty lips. I hold her head just where I want it, my grip on her jaw sometimes loose and sometimes urgent, demanding.

I slide my thumb into her mouth while I still have a grip on her jaw, and start sliding it in and out, along with my cock. “Close your mouth,” I say, low. “Suck.”

Red does. She moans again. I can feel her throat working. “Don’t swallow,” I say, and a little shiver goes through her at that.

She hates being messy.

She loves being forced to be messy.

I feel drool starting to pool in my palm under her chin. She increases the pressure against my cock and I feel it rub in just the right places, fuck, am I turned on enough to come like this? I don’t often, but I might. Might just come right down her throat.

“Touch your pussy,” I order, my thumb no longer in her mouth, my cock getting deeper, my hips starting to find a rhythm with her tongue and her sucking mouth and her throat. I can feel the thrusting building in my pelvis and I want more, but I’m going to warm her up.

She slides her hand down into her yoga pants and starts moving it. “Don’t come,” I say. Not that she probably would, she mostly needs a vibrator to get off. But I may as well make it clear. And I may as well get her even more worked up — and ready to get fucked — while she has me in her mouth.

I have so many plans for her tonight; this is just the beginning.

“Beautiful girl,” I murmur, stroking her hair, holding her cheek, my eyes spilling over with lust. “I’m going to show you what that throat is for. You’re going to double tap if you need to pause. Remember?”

She nods, her mouth full, looking up at me. Her lips are so pink and puffy around me. I’m about halfway into her mouth and it’s already almost too much, but I want to feel it all the way in. I really might come like this; I can feel it building. I want to feel my balls pound against her chin. I want to hold the back of her head against me while I pulse and shoot and she gags. Just the idea makes my dick swell even more, and I rub against the base of the cock at a really good angle.

“Good,” I say, and pull out. Red breathes in deep. I graze my hand along her chin and am delighted to come away with long strings of spit and drool. I wipe it on her chest and she makes a low little sound, a moan of pleasure mixed with a bit of shyness and a hint of disgust, but her eyes are getting glassy and I know she likes it. “Good.”

I nod a little, raising my eyebrows — a question for her, seeing if she’s ready. She nods back, a very slight move, and licks her lips, dropping her eyes back to my cock, readying her mouth.

I slide it in again, further this time, but still not all the way. Pull out. Slide again, a little faster in and out, in and out, oh fuck it feels good to shove into her throat like this, even if it’s not that deep, the urgency is starting to build in me and the pressure feels so good. I press deeper and she opens her throat, I can feel it with my hand on her neck, and I move my hand to the back of her head to press her just a little further. Then pull back.

“Good,” I say again. “Like that. Do it again.”

She does. Opens wide, and swallows the head of my cock down her throat this time. She looks up at me, eyes watering. I give a brief nod, my eyes bright, mouth parted, almost starting to pant as I press my hand on the back of her head and press my hips against her mouth.

“More.”

She starts to gag. Her hands come up to my thighs and push, then grab at my jeans, more reflexively than to actually push me away, though I can tell she’s starting to sputter and her eyes are getting wild.

I pull out. She gasps, breathing deep.

“That’s so good,” I murmur, soothing, stroking her hair. But I don’t give her long before I shove back in. “Again. Suck this time. Suck for me.”

She does as she’s told. She works her soft inner lips around the head of my cock, sucking the air out of her cheeks and putting pressure against me. She moves a hand up to the base, looking at me as she does, and I nod, sure, go ahead, and she encircles the root and starts sliding it both up and down and around, gently. The rhythm and pressure pushes in just the right spots against my dick and I keep thrusting my hips against her as she sucks, as she works me with her hand. She opens her mouth and circles the tip with her tongue, pulls on the shaft with tighter and longer strokes as she sticks her tongue out, keeps her mouth wide.

“Please,” she says. “Please, I want your cum. Please.” She’s starting to whine, a pleading desperation edging into her voice. “I need it, please fill me up, I’ll swallow it all.”

She’s keeping her pretty eyes on my face, her mouth open and her tongue out in between her words, her mouth is wet, her tongue is wet, her chin is wet and dripping with her own saliva; she hasn’t swallowed. What a good fucking girl.

She sucks at the crown of my cock again and expertly works her fingers along the shaft. Her words send me, and I rub my body against the base of the cock, and I visualize my balls getting high and tight against my body, my cock swelling just a tiny bit more and then starting to pulse as ropes of cum finally release and hit the back of her throat.

Immediately, Red closes her mouth around the tip, like she can keep all my cum in her mouth. She keeps her hand steady, and I come, hips shuddering against her. She gags a few times as I thrust in and out, sliding so smooth in her pretty mouth.

“Don’t swallow,” I say again, barely able to make words, my eyes squeezed shut, but I don’t want to miss her mouth full and wet. I feel more than see her nod.

My hips are still bucking a little, though I’m trying to control it so they are more shaking and less thrusting in and out of her hole. She palms my balls and squeezes a little, pressing them up against me, still holding the head of my cock in her mouth. When I get it together enough to look at her, her eyes are rolling back a little, one hand still in between her legs, the other lazily stroking my cock.

“Fuck, that’s so good,” I say. I slowly pull my cock from her mouth and tuck it back into my underwear and jeans.

I slide three fingers into her mouth just to feel how wet it is, to feel my cum and her saliva mixing. “Look at that,” I murmur, crouching down in front of her, sliding my fingers in and out. “So wet. Is your mouth all full of cum now? Did you do such a good job and suck the cum out of my cock?”

She nods, opening her mouth.

“You really did, didn’t you. It’s not easy for me to come like that, but your pretty mouth … ” I pull my dripping fingers out and run them over her lips. “You’re so good at that.”

I love how slick and slippery her mouth gets. It’s dripping in strings down her chin, and her gym tee shirt is dark on her chest where it’s wet. I wipe my fingers on her cheeks and chin and throat, down to her tee shirt, and I let out a low groan. “Such a messy girl. Thank you, you did such a good job. You can swallow now.”

She does, still a little breathless, gulping twice. “Thank you,” she breathes.

“Good girl,” I say, standing, and then I lean down to kiss her. “That’s what that throat is for. Now,” I straighten and offer her my hand, and she stands. I grip the back of her neck with one hand and push her toward the bedroom door. She can have a shower later, after I mess her up some more. “Let’s go play.”

calls for submission

Call for Submissions: Best Women’s Erotica of the Year Volume 11

Please note: This is not my (Sinclair’s) call for submissions or book practice! Please don’t contact me about it. It is being put together by Cleis Press, contact them for any questions, queries, or follow ups.

Cleis Press is looking for short stories to be included in Best Women’s Erotica of the Year, Volume 11. Writers who have been previously published are preferred, but it is not a requirement. The theme for this volume is “the future of sex.” Technological advancements in the world of sex and intimacy are on the rise, from sex tech to AI to relationships that take place in digital worlds, so let your imagination wander to the next level. Please refrain from using COVID19/ quarantine as a plot setting; be creative. We like stories that are inclusive and diverse, so characters on the LGBTQ+ spectrum, those that have disabilities, or represent a minority are always appreciated. We are seeking original ideas, and stories that have not been previously published via print and/or online.

Cleis Press will not accept nor publish stories that contain the following themes/ tropes:

  • Nonconsensual sex or activities (including dub-con of any degree)
  • Stories involving underage characters or minors, grooming, or anything of the like (including age play)
  • Incest (including pseudoincest), bestiality, necrophilia, racism
  • Characters that resemble real public figures/ celebrities (including political figures)
  • Substance/alcohol/drug abuse that affect the character’s willingness/ability to consent or make sane judgements and decisions
  • Infidelity or cheating tropes (polyamory and non traditional relationships are welcome so long as all parties are consenting).

How to submit:

Deadline: July 1, 2024 by 11:59 p.m. EST (Unless otherwise noted, or an extension is granted, stories submitted after this time frame will not be considered.) Not every submission is guaranteed publication. We will try to respond no later than July 30, 2024, with decisions.

Format:

Word Doc (.doc or .docx) 1.5 – 2 double spaced (Do not paste in the body of the email)

First page to include: your legal name (and pseudonym, if applicable), email address, and a biography (maximum of 50 words), written in the third person.

Times New Roman, 12-point, black font pages numbered

Header with story title (aligned left) and last name or pseudonym (aligned right)

Stories should be 2,500 – 5,000 words in length

Submissions can be sent to acquisitions@cleispress.com /Attn: Ashley

The subject line should read as follows: BWE 11 Short Story Submission

The book will be published in December of 2025. Writers will receive a copy of the book, and a one-time compensation of $100 USD.

PS, from Sinclair: I was in touch briefly with Rachel Kramer Bussel, who used to edit the Best Women’s Erotica series, and she is happy to be moving to non-erotic pursuits, so she’s no longer editing this series.

calls for submission

Call for Submissions: Anthology of Bisexual Erotic Fiction, edited by Christian Pan

Please note: This is not my (Sinclair’s) call for submissions or book practice! Please don’t contact me about it. It is being put together by Christian Pan, contact him for any questions, queries, or follow ups.

Bisexual author Christian Pan seeks bold, sexy, and dynamic erotic short stories to be included in a new Anthology of Bisexual Erotic Fiction which will be published independently on Bi Visibility Day (23 September 2024).

Background:
According to the latest Gallup poll (2023), 7.6% of Americans identify as part of the LGBTQ community. Three-fifths of LGBTQ adults in America identify as bisexual, causing some researchers to call bi people “the invisible majority”, according to an article published in The Hill in 2023.

This contradiction – on the one hand, of bisexuality being a significant portion of the LGBTQ adult population, yet on the other hand remaining largely invisible within the public sphere–I see reflected within erotic literature. Yes, there are a number of quite talented bisexual-identifying authors of erotica out there, writing exceptional erotic stories that center bisexual characters, and welcome readers into their complexity. However, reputable imprints that publish LGBTQ fiction (including erotica) may have only a limited selection of titles available, if they have any at all. For example, I went to one search engine for a press that publishes a lot of LGBTQ literature (fiction, nonfiction, memoir, and erotica) and when I entered “bisexual” into their search engine, only three titles appeared from their entire catalogue. Two were anthologies of bisexual women´s erotica, and no titles about bisexual men (which, in 2024, I find particularly troubling).

Let´s change this.

I want to self-publish an anthology of exceptional bisexual erotica. I want to gather a diverse collection of erotic stories about bisexual people, to heighten our visibility within our field, to let the world know about our creativity and imaginations. I want this anthology to help uplift the stories, interests, kinks, and experiences of bisexual-identifying folks. Wouldn’t that be fun?

Who wants to join me?

Entry guidelines:

I´m seeking well-written erotic short stories that center bisexual characters. I want these to be hot of course, but I also want them to be intelligent, honest, and bold. Take a chance–put some of you–your feelings and experiences–onto the page.

Your short story can be set in any time-period (present-day, historical, future), and you´re welcome to have your story shift into another genre (fantasy, science-fiction, etc).

Stories by bisexual-identifying authors are preferred, but not required.

In your short story submission, please DO NOT include any of the following:

  • Nonconsensual sex or activities (including dub-con of any degree)
  • Stories involving underage characters or minors, grooming, or anything of the like
  • Incest (including pseudoincest), bestiality, necrophilia, racism
  • Characters that resemble real public figures/ celebrities (including political figures)
  • Substance/alcohol/drug abuse that affect the character’s willingness/ability to consent or make sane judgements and decisions
  • Infidelity or cheating tropes (polyamory and non traditional relationships are welcome so long as all parties are consenting).

Practical details:

All stories must be written in English. First page to include: your legal name (and pseudonym, if applicable), email address, and a biography (maximum of 50 words), written in the third person.

Please have your stories be 4000-5000 words in length.

Format your stories into 12 pt New York Times font, 1.5 or double-spaced, formatted for page numbers.

When ready to submit your story, please go to the registration link here.

Deadlines & important dates:

Deadline for submission: 15 June 2024.

Accepted writers will be notified no later than 12 July 2024.

Rights:

Writers retain all rights to their written work. Editors of this anthology require that stories accepted into this anthology a) have not been published anywhere else before (online or in print), and that the story will remain exclusive within this anthology until 1 year after the anthology´s publication (September 2025).

Payment:

For payment, each writer will be paid $40 USD for their story to be included in this anthology, which will be transferred to their account via Venmo or Zelle by the day of publication. In addition, each writer will receive a digital copy of the anthology.

Publication:

I will cover the costs of editing, formatting, designing the anthology´s book cover, etc.

The anthology will be published on 23 September 2024 (Bi Visibility Day).

About me:

Christian Pan is a bisexual writer who has published over 100 erotic short stories in English, Spanish, and French since 2021. Of his 13 previous books, At the End of the World won the 2023 Star Recommendation from All The Filthy Details, and was a Finalist for the 2022 Golden Pigtails Smut Award for Dark/Taboo Erotica.
In addition to fiction, Christian writes book reviews for his blog Dirty Words, and is a regular contributor to Dish Stanley’s Crush Letter and Dr. Tiffany K.´s Artistic Edge Magazine. He also interviews erotic authors for the Pulse Session segment on the monthly podcast, All the Filthy Details. Since September 2022,, he has been the A Club Captain for Patreon´s Queer Erotic Content Creators Club.
He lives in New York City. To learn more, please visit: https://linktr.ee/christianpan

Questions:
Email me at christian.pan.erotica@gmail.com

calls for submission

Call for Submissions: To The End: Queer Divorce Narratives, edited by Morty Diamond

Please note: This is not my (Sinclair’s) call for submissions or book practice! Please don’t contact me about it. It is being put together by Morty Diamond, contact him for any questions, queries, or follow ups.

This call for submissions is also on Morty Diamond’s site.

Call for Submissions
To the End:
Divorce narratives from queer, trans, non binary, gay, bisexual, lesbian, two-spirit, gender-expansive, and intersex writers 

This anthology explores the full depth and breadth of divorce narratives from queer, trans, non-binary, two-spirit, genderfluid, gay, lesbian, bisexual, and intersex writers. Divorce can be painful, clarifying, freeing, extremely messy, and/or full of renewed life. What story are you called to share about your divorce and how it relates to your LGBTQQI experience?

This book is interested in divorce narratives including, but not limited to, the following topics:

  • “Love is Love!” is the rallying cry of the gay marriage movement and straight acceptance. To what extent did your experience of divorce make you feel more or less of this sentiment?
  • Some of us looked to marriage as a way to legitimize and/or normalize our lives. Did marriage accomplish this? Did divorce change this?
  • How did your trans identity complicate divorce? For example: were you in a marriage that ended when you came to terms with your trans identity or transitioned?
  • Were there unique stressors related to your gender or sexuality found in your marriage that led to divorce?
  • How did the narrative of gay marriage fit into your understanding of what being married meant and how did it ultimately affect your divorce?
  • If your marriage was a political act, how did your divorce disrupt or complicate that narrative?
  • Did a lack of support from your family of origin impact your divorce and, if so, how?
  • What lessons about identity did you discover through your divorce?
  • Were there generational differences in your marriage? If so, how did they impact the relationship and/or divorce?
  • If you discovered your queer identity within your marriage, how did divorce affect it, if at all?
  • What did you gain and/or lose during your divorce?
  • What advice would you give to someone who is going through a divorce now?
  • Are you disillusioned with marriage now that you have gone through divorce?
  • For trans and gender fluid people: Did you experience your ex using your identity against you in court proceedings? Did this delegitimize your role as husband, wife, parent, or caregiver, whether legally, personally, emotionally, or otherwise?
  • For those who have children: What were the legal struggles of your divorce when it came to your children? What was it like going into a courtroom to fight for access to your child?

To submit your work:

Please email your non-fiction personal essay of no more than 5000 words to: mortydiamond@gmail.com. Formats preferred: MS Word or link to Google Document. Contributors will be paid for their work and will receive copies of the book.

Deadline for submissions: July 15, 2024

About the editor:

Morty Diamond is a trans/queer therapist, social worker, artist, and writer living in California. Morty experienced his own divorce in 2020 and has since been interested in bringing more clarity and insight into the social and emotional aspects of divorce for LGBTQQI people. His last two anthologies, Trans/Love and From the Inside Out FTM and Beyond, are both published by Manic D Press. He is a lecturer at San Francisco State University in the School of Social Work.

erotica writing, event, media

[Video] Sugar & Spice: Spicy Queer Kink Erotica Showcase

Here’s the replay for the Sugar & Spice Spicy Showcase!

Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading
Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET
hosted by Stina French
featuring: Kiki DeLovely
and:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
Lokchi
Tavia
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett

Want to follow along with the chat? Click the + below

Zoom chat during Sugar & Spice
00:20:53 Stina French: welcome everyone!
00:20:55 Sinclair | they/them: hi all!!
00:21:00 Stina French: we’re just getting settled together as everyone arrives!
00:21:08 Sinclair | they/them: the song is morally grey — https://open.spotify.com/track/0OKMe15oWhcOevZ2hggnrG?si=d2f4e6431f064447
00:21:15 Dawn Davis: ummmm…. yummy music
00:21:17 Sinclair | they/them: welcome welcome
00:21:23 Lore Hershey: The music tho
00:21:28 Sinclair | they/them: little bit of music as we get going
00:21:37 Deshawn Dazevedo: Happy Sunday!
00:21:48 Stina French: happy happy day of holy collective eroticism!
00:21:56 Dawn Davis: Is that pussy lapdance, Sinclair?
00:22:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “happy happy day of h…” with 🥵
00:22:02 Stina French: we’ll start soon
00:22:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Is that pussy lapdan…” with 😂
00:22:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Is that pussy lapdan…”

basically
00:22:09 Stina French: is everyone breathing deep? down into the belly?
00:22:13 Lore Hershey: Replying to “happy happy day of h…”

Our favorite place for Sunday worship
00:22:22 Kiki DeLovely: Welcome, everyone! 💋💋
00:22:41 Dawn Davis: Oregon
00:22:43 Alana: NY!
00:22:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: add ❤️
00:22:46 Lucy Rose: PA!
00:22:49 Adriel Wilson: CT
00:22:49 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: NC!!!!
00:22:50 Deshawn Dazevedo: NC!
00:22:52 nik valkov: im in guelph ! (near toronto)
00:22:52 Lore Hershey: Northern VA!
00:22:53 Melody: CA
00:22:55 Jezebel Jett: CA
00:22:56 michelle: ny!
00:22:58 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Bull City
00:22:59 Mac Brydum: Seattle
00:23:01 Sixxten Maelor: Manchester, UK
00:23:02 Sinclair | they/them: pacific time! good morning! duwamish / coast salish land
00:23:03 Alanna S: yorkshire, UK
00:23:07 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “yorkshire, UK” with ❤️
00:23:17 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAA E
00:23:21 Deshawn Dazevedo: Heyy Ivyyy
00:23:21 Phil Richi: Amsterdam
00:23:22 Sinclair | they/them: you love new york, you need new york, you know you need unique new york
00:23:30 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Reacted to “Heyy Ivyyy” with ❤️
00:23:36 Melody: Ohlone Land
00:23:38 Lore Hershey: Calling in from Piscataway land
00:23:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Mountain Time / Treaty 6 Territory! <3
00:23:58 Max Pearl: Kashia Pomo land
00:24:30 Adriel Wilson: Wangunk land
00:24:37 Kiki DeLovely: Occaneechi-Saponi land
00:24:47 E (she/her): Reacted to “YAAAAA E” with 💜
00:25:56 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com has all the info!!
00:25:57 Lucy Rose: It’s the best!! Would recommend 10/10 🙂
00:26:03 Lore Hershey: It’s phenomenal – def take it!
00:26:11 Jezebel Jett: Best workshop ever!
00:26:33 Jezebel Jett: And the mostttt fun and lovely people🌈🔥
00:26:39 TJ Aluminumbrat: 11/10 !!
00:26:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “And the mostttt fun …” with ❤️
00:26:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “11/10 !!” with ❤️
00:26:52 Lore Hershey: WHAAAAAAAAA
00:26:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Best workshop ever!” with ❤️
00:26:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “It’s phenomenal – de…” with ❤️
00:26:58 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “And the mostttt fun …” with ❤️
00:26:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “It’s the best!! Woul…” with ❤️
00:27:06 E (she/her): what, affairs? do we have a newsletter
00:27:11 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “what, affairs? do we…” with 😂
00:27:13 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “what, affairs? do we…” with 😂
00:27:20 Lore Hershey: Replying to “what, affairs? do we…”

I think we need one, apparently
00:27:21 Kim R: I haven’t heard of any of this so hello and I’m all ears!
00:27:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I haven’t heard of a…” with ❤️
00:27:31 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I haven’t heard of a…”

yay welcome!!
00:28:41 Leoh Blooms: Hello from Seattle <3
00:28:42 Lore Hershey: 🥵🥵🥵
00:28:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Hello from Seattle <..." with ❤️
00:28:52 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Hello from Seattle <..." hello from seattle too!
00:28:55 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵” with ❤️
00:29:02 Leoh Blooms: Reacted to “hello from seattle t…” with ❤️
00:29:03 Alana: Reacted to “Hello from Seattle <..." with 🥰
00:29:37 Tirzah Villegas: 🔥
00:29:52 Sinclair | they/them: neurodivergent queers FTW
00:30:09 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:19 Adriel Wilson: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 😍
00:30:19 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “neurodivergent queer…”

Is there any other type??
00:30:25 michelle: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:30:46 E (she/her): Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🎉
00:30:58 RV: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:31:03 Sinclair | they/them: individual readers will give content warnings for their pieces
00:31:13 Sinclair | they/them: but you can generally expect sex & kinky shenanigans

00:31:19 Tirzah Villegas: yaasssss Eli!
00:31:20 Jezebel Jett: Hell yeah Eli!!! 💕🌈🔥
00:31:27 Lucy Rose: yay eli!!!
00:31:28 Sinclair | they/them: eli (they/he) is a trans*, poly, queer, ace, [s]witchy country boi born and raised in Durham, NC. A child of the ocean and a friend of the plants- they are inspired by the ancient, the eternal, and those things that only last a breath. This friendly hermit and hopeful romantic is often found writing about longing, heartbreak, and the various ways of embracing pleasure in the face of it.

You can follow them on Instagram @mouthfullofflowers
http://www.instagram.com/mouthfullofflowers
00:31:30 Lore Hershey: GO ELIIIIIIIIII!!!!! <3
00:31:32 TJ Aluminumbrat: ELIIIIIIII YOU GOT THISSSSSSSSSSS
00:31:34 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyy Eli!!!! 🔥🔥🔥
00:31:48 E (she/her): go Elii!
00:31:57 Sinclair | they/them: fucking epic bio
00:32:00 Deshawn Dazevedo: Let’s go Eliii🙌🏾
00:32:03 E (she/her): wow gorgeous bio
00:32:10 Alanna S: well this is a beautiful bio! what a set up
00:32:12 TJ Aluminumbrat: <3<3<3
00:32:14 Lore Hershey: “Friendly hermit and hopeful romantic” – kindred spirits, Eli 🙂
00:32:15 Lucy Rose: so excited for your reading eli!!! <3
00:32:22 Sinclair | they/them: blush-off!
00:32:26 Adriel Wilson: 💖
00:32:42 Kim R: 😍
00:32:44 Sinclair | they/them: “just take it” !!!
00:32:50 S They/them: 🔥Eli 🙌🏽
00:32:56 E (she/her): “the ancient, the eternal, and those things that only last a breath”
00:33:04 Stina French: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with ❤️
00:33:10 Sixxten Maelor: Go get it, Eli!!!
00:33:10 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with 🥺
00:33:15 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““the ancient, the et…” with 🔥
00:33:17 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““the ancient, the et…”

SO GOOD
00:33:18 Stina French: part 1, water: you had me at the title
00:33:31 Stina French: Reacted to ““just take it” !!!” with ❤️
00:33:41 Sinclair | they/them: taste you on the air!!!
00:33:47 Stina French: Replying to ““just take it” !!!”

we will take it. totally here for it.
00:33:50 Lucy Rose: good lord eli! this is gorg
00:33:55 Stina French: Reacted to “blush-off!” with 😂
00:33:56 Adriel Wilson: 🔥
00:33:59 Tirzah Villegas: 🥵 you do that thing
00:34:07 Sinclair | they/them: 😮😮🥵
00:34:08 E (she/her): rhythm you sound into me!
00:34:15 Alana: Eli your work is always so beautiful and erotic
00:34:19 Dawn Davis: Wow. I didn’t expect to cry
00:34:21 E (she/her): sensory! butt ass naked!
00:34:24 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Wow. I didn’t expect…”

I DID
00:34:30 Stina French: Reacted to “neurodivergent queer…” with 🥰
00:34:30 Kim R: Drooling here
00:34:40 E (she/her): the nettles story!!
00:34:43 S They/them: Nettles!!
00:34:44 Sinclair | they/them: yesssss nettles
00:34:46 Lore Hershey: “I knew I loved you before I ever said hello, so why would I rush knowing you?” – so, so beautiful
00:34:48 Alana: Yaaaaaa this piece!
00:35:01 E (she/her): Reacted to “”I knew I loved you …” with ➕
00:35:05 Krystal Rubio: Reacted to “”I knew I loved you …” with ➕
00:35:06 TJ Aluminumbrat: Eli you’re so so SO GOOD
00:35:10 Sinclair | they/them: nettles flogger 🥵🥵
00:35:14 Sixxten Maelor: This piece is everything!!!
00:35:18 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkkk
00:35:25 Stina French: the detail! oof
00:35:30 E (she/her): ooh handkerchief. gloves
00:35:35 Sinclair | they/them: ahhhh such a good intro I’m 💀 already and this is only the first reading
00:35:38 RV: Reacted to “nettles flogger 🥵🥵” with 🍃
00:35:38 E (she/her): leaves description!
00:35:51 Jezebel Jett: 🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair knew by putting you as the opener
00:35:52 Lore Hershey: To irritate in all the best ways 🥰
00:35:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Owieeee 🥰
00:35:58 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…” with 🥵
00:36:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…” with 💯
00:36:09 Lore Hershey: Replying to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…”

+1 – Eli opened all of us
00:36:14 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “🥵🥵🥵🥵 Sinclair kn…”

😈
00:36:16 E (she/her): if i were allowed
00:36:17 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with 😮
00:36:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with 🔥
00:36:22 Alana: Reacted to “+1 – Eli opened all …” with ❤️‍🔥
00:36:23 Sinclair | they/them: damnnnn
00:36:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “if i were allowed” with 🔥
00:36:30 E (she/her): also nettles details
00:36:31 Sixxten Maelor: Anybody else want to follow eli?!?! :)
00:36:33 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “😈” with 😇
00:36:46 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

they’re just leaving you a HOT STAGE
00:36:57 Lore Hershey: I LOVE THE ECOEROTICISM…. LORDY
00:37:02 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I LOVE THE ECOEROTIC…” with 👏
00:37:06 E (she/her): ooh gentleness reaction
00:37:14 Stina French: too soft for you? unghhh that line hits so HARD
00:37:14 E (she/her): blanketed
00:37:21 Stina French: Reacted to “I LOVE THE ECOEROTIC…” with ❤️
00:37:24 Alanna S: Yesssss to nature prose! Love this all
00:37:28 TJ Aluminumbrat: oooooooooh
00:37:32 Stina French: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

THIS
00:37:36 Tirzah Villegas: ooh lawd!! with the breathing!
00:37:42 Lucy Rose: “having no will other than to surrender” whew!!
00:37:48 E (she/her): no will other than to surrender. they both do
00:37:51 Sixxten Maelor: 🔥🔥🔥
00:38:01 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Anybody else want to…”

@Sinclair | they/them almost like the stage is… covered with nettles 😋
00:38:12 Sixxten Maelor: Really wish it was still nettle season right now!
00:38:15 E (she/her): into infinity
00:38:30 E (she/her): sound effect!
00:38:35 Lore Hershey: THE SOUNDSSSSSSS
00:38:35 Deshawn Dazevedo: We all want more!!
00:38:41 Alana: Love the sound effects dayummmm Eli
00:38:42 Dawn Davis: Yes, please. Sound effects.
00:38:43 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵
00:38:47 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Love the sound effec…” with 🥵
00:38:52 Lucy Rose: the sound effects! a real performance!
00:39:03 Sixxten Maelor: I yield the floor for Eli to continue!
00:39:09 Lore Hershey: “I burn to embrace this knowing” 🤩
00:39:11 E (she/her): belong to both of them
00:39:18 E (she/her): bite into the memory
00:39:33 Alanna S: biting into the memory of nettles – what a line!! <3
00:39:37 E (she/her): oh wow
00:39:45 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: 🥵🔥
00:39:46 Sinclair | they/them: most mornings I grieve for the earth … fuck
00:39:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ahhhh oasis
00:39:49 Sinclair | they/them: <3 <3
00:39:57 S They/them: Reacted to “most mornings I grie…” with ‼️
00:39:58 Sinclair | they/them: ME TOO DAWN
00:40:16 Jezebel Jett: So beautiful 😘💕💕🌈
00:40:20 E (she/her): also the belt idea
00:40:26 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “also the belt idea” with 💯
00:40:59 Lore Hershey: Your lyricism is haunting, Eli
00:41:11 E (she/her): the nettles hung around it
00:41:14 E (she/her): love them!
00:41:17 Sinclair | they/them: tell them you love them!!!
00:41:19 E (she/her): looking to be consumed!
00:41:23 S They/them: Tell them you love them!
00:41:35 Lore Hershey: CRYING
00:41:36 Lucy Rose: ELI!!!!!!!!
00:41:41 Deshawn Dazevedo: AAAHHHHH
00:41:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYAAAAAAA
00:41:46 S They/them: Wowwwwwww Eli 🙌🏽🔥
00:41:50 michelle: wowowowowowwwww
00:41:59 Kiki DeLovely: Painful 🥵
00:42:06 Tirzah Villegas: 🔥 I mean I was blushing too
00:42:11 Sinclair | they/them: DAMNNN
00:42:13 Adriel Wilson: fire!!!
00:42:13 Sinclair | they/them: <3
00:42:14 E (she/her): delivered into my own becoming!
00:42:15 Sinclair | they/them: SO GOOD
00:42:26 Lore Hershey: Forever stung by those nettles, in the best way
00:42:29 Alanna S: that entire reading was stunningly beautiful, thank you!

00:42:30 Sinclair | they/them: Sixxten Maelor (she/they) is a forty-something butch Queer kinky polyamorous punk and self-proclaimed science geek. Sixxten was born and raised in Wales, and now makes their home the North of the UK with her two gorgeously weird kids. Often autobiographical, Sixxten’s work explores themes of gender, sexuality and kink; especially stories centred on power exchange and surrender. When not writing, Sixxten can be found building random things from scrap wood, being overly precious about their garden or learning to bootblack on the UK queer leather scene.Find them at @sixxofthebest or @ADHDevience on insta.
00:42:57 Jezebel Jett: Yayyyy Sixxten!!! So excited to hear you read!!! 🌈🔥
00:43:05 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/sixxofthebest http://instagram.com/ADHDevience
00:43:10 Lucy Rose: get ready for this story y’all it is so good!!
00:43:13 Sinclair | they/them: follow the readers y’all!!
00:43:15 Alana: Yayayayayayyyyy❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
00:43:25 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Sixxten!!! 🌶🌶🌶
00:43:40 Sinclair | they/them: OH also, if the readers have any gift book suggestions, spicy or otherwise, you’d like to DM me or drop into the chat (when you read or after), please do!!
00:43:45 E (she/her): omg amazing handdles
00:43:46 Lore Hershey: GO SIXXTEN!
00:44:07 E (she/her): No, we want to hear yours too!!
00:44:10 Stina French: Reacted to “🔥 I mean I was blus…” with ❤️
00:44:13 Lore Hershey: Here for the whiplash
00:44:14 Sinclair | they/them: plain and utter absolute filth!!
00:44:37 Alana: Nothin like some absolute filth on a Sunday afternoon
00:44:44 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Nothin like some abs…” with 🥰
00:44:54 E (she/her): dangle at the edge of orgasm. Oh wow
00:44:56 RV: Replying to “Sixxten Maelor (she/…”

Yessss to the North!
00:45:03 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Yessss to the North!” with ❤️
00:45:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Denial 😩
00:45:08 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Denial 😩” with 🥵
00:45:12 Lucy Rose: loving the pure and utter filth!!
00:45:14 Alanna S: Reacted to “Yessss to the North!” with ❤️
00:45:23 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “loving the pure and …” with 🥰
00:45:24 E (she/her): omg same number
00:45:40 Stina French: follow the readers, yes!::: @mouthfullofflowers @sixxofthebest @ADHDevience
00:45:43 Sinclair | they/them: yesssss
00:45:46 Sinclair | they/them: here’s to daddies getting fucked
00:45:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:24 Sinclair | they/them: my girlfriend is blushing and giggling from the kitchen :)
00:46:34 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:35 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with 🥰
00:46:37 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with 😏
00:46:38 E (she/her): trembling cock!
stubble on cunt!
00:46:38 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:46:39 Alanna S: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:40 nik valkov: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “my girlfriend is blu…” with ❤️
00:46:45 Stina French: no boy of mine is going to be bad lay
00:46:46 Lucy Rose: this is so cheeky omg i love it
00:46:47 E (she/her): ooh yay for doms bottoming!
00:46:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “no boy of mine is go…” with 💯
00:46:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “no boy of mine is go…” with ‼️
00:47:02 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh yay for docs bot…” with 💯
00:47:05 Stina French: oh. my. let’s do see what that little cock can do!
00:47:05 Lore Hershey: The condescension…. MMMMMMMYUM
00:47:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh yay for docs bot…” with 🔥
00:47:37 E (she/her): ooh craft of it
00:47:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The condescension……” with ❤️
00:47:39 Stina French: i liked paying attention
00:47:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: oooooooooohhhhhhhhhh
00:47:46 E (she/her): omg
00:47:52 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “omg” with ✅
00:47:56 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i liked paying atten…”

Honestly, same
00:48:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “omg” with ✅
00:48:03 Sinclair | they/them: goddamnit why did that line make me tear up
00:48:05 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkk
00:48:12 E (she/her): oh gosh
00:48:22 Alanna S: Replying to “my girlfriend is blu…”

I’m blushing and giggling from the zoom audience!
00:48:22 Lore Hershey: AN OBSCENE WHIMPER 🥵
00:48:34 TJ Aluminumbrat: Hehehehe yeah make him stumble over his words
00:48:35 Alana: Unfff!!!!!!!
00:48:36 TJ Aluminumbrat: !!!!!
00:48:39 Alana: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:48:43 Lucy Rose: omg this is so fun
00:48:46 Sinclair | they/them: whatttt
00:48:58 Dawn Davis: My heart is RACING
00:49:20 Sinclair | they/them: 😮😭🥵
00:49:45 Adriel Wilson: oh my god 🥵🥵🥵
00:49:51 Lore Hershey: The. Degradation. IS. GORGEOUS.
00:49:56 Sinclair | they/them: oh my god
00:50:17 Alana: Lol Sinclairs face
00:50:32 Alanna S: the absolute filth 😍
00:50:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH
00:50:39 Dawn Davis: I didn’t give him any chance to comment
00:50:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: BINGO
00:50:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😶
00:50:49 E (she/her): ooh similar sensations
00:50:51 Sinclair | they/them: add 💯
00:50:56 E (she/her): omg reasonable job
00:50:57 Alanna S: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😂
00:51:02 Sinclair | they/them: “maybe you could try ….” !!!
00:51:08 Sinclair | they/them: the dialogue!!!!!
00:51:09 Sinclair | they/them: wtf
00:51:25 Leoh Blooms: Good lord
00:51:26 Stina French: all muscle memory and defiance
00:51:27 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 😂
00:51:28 MB: All muscle memory and defiance
00:51:29 Sinclair | they/them: all muscle memory and defiance!!!!
00:51:36 MB: A popular line!
00:51:39 Lore Hershey: The pace was ferocious, all muscle memory and defiance – HOTTTTTTTTJESUSFUCKINGCHRIST
00:51:53 Stina French: it’s the dialogue for me… but even more so, the inner dialogue, the getting to know of oneself that the protag is doing… unnnngh
00:51:57 Lucy Rose: sinclair’s face!!
00:52:05 E (she/her): Reacted to “Lol Sinclairs face” with 👆
00:52:09 Lucy Rose: good god sixxten
00:52:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW
00:52:17 Alanna S: YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE
00:52:18 Tirzah Villegas: 🥵🔥
00:52:18 nik valkov: Ok hot
00:52:21 Adriel Wilson: DAAAAAAAMN
00:52:24 Sinclair | they/them: my girlfriend from the kitchen: “GODDAMN. WOW.”
00:52:24 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE” with 🥵
00:52:25 Kiki DeLovely: Daaaaaaamn 🥵
00:52:27 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
00:52:27 Lucy Rose: that was so filthy and FUN!!
00:52:29 Lore Hershey: Replying to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE”

DENIAL
00:52:31 E (she/her): nice!!! also having thoughts…
00:52:32 S They/them: 🔥🙌🏽
00:52:32 Sinclair | they/them: THAT WAS POETRY
00:52:39 Dawn Davis: perfect
00:52:43 Sinclair | they/them: wowwwwww
00:52:56 Sinclair | they/them: this is being recorded!!
00:53:00 Sinclair | they/them: & I will post the chat too

00:53:08 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS GO ALANA!!!! GET IT
00:53:11 Lucy Rose: yay alana!!
00:53:21 Adriel Wilson: 😍
00:53:21 Sinclair | they/them: Alana (they/she) is a queer femme-ish social worker and lives with their kiddo and co-parent in NY. She had never written erotica before trying for this class and is so fucking proud of herself for actually doing it. 2023 was a year of tremendous personal growth for her and she knows the Writing Spicy class was the perfect ending for it. Alana’s favorite things about this class have been experiencing empowering embodied feelings as they wrote, writing from a character POV besides that of a femme top, and listening to the incredibly hot, beautiful pieces their classmates shared. She thanks you for coming today and hopes you come again (and again).
00:53:22 Alex Marino: Alanaaaaaaa woohooooooo
00:53:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA Alana!!!1
00:53:24 Jezebel Jett: Yessss ALANA!!! You’re gonna rock this!
00:53:26 Lore Hershey: The iconic pink lipstick stain
00:53:29 Sinclair | they/them: what’s your IG Alana???
00:53:42 Adriel Wilson: 🙌
00:53:48 Ryan Shen: yay alana!
00:53:51 Alana: Replying to “what’s your IG Alana…”

femme.ishh
00:54:14 Lucy Rose: yay alana!!!
00:54:16 E (she/her): ooh putting class reflections in the bio!
00:54:18 Sinclair | they/them: 😆😍
00:54:21 Stina French: Reacted to “ooh putting class re…” with ❤️
00:54:30 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ooh putting class re…” with ❤️
00:54:44 Kim R: This has been amazing! Loving it!
00:55:06 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Alana!!! 💋
00:55:06 E (she/her): go alana!
00:55:10 E (she/her): ooh the lipstick!
00:55:29 E (she/her): ooh fantasy
00:55:33 Sixxten Maelor: You wore the pink lipstick!!! 🥵
00:55:46 E (she/her): my – breakoff
00:55:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “You wore the pink li…” with 💯
00:55:51 Stina French: eye contact, so hard
00:55:56 Adriel Wilson: ❤️‍🔥💋
00:55:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “my – breakoff” with 🥰
00:55:59 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “my – breakoff” with 🥵
00:56:08 Lucy Rose: i love this piece!! <3
00:56:14 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “here’s to daddies ge…” with 🥂
00:56:20 E (she/her): resonates between my legs!
00:56:24 Jezebel Jett: Being spotlit like that nghhhh
00:56:26 Leoh Blooms: 🔥❤️‍🔥
00:56:30 Sinclair | they/them: “too bad my thirst isn’t quenched” !!!
00:56:33 E (she/her): too bad my thirst isn’t quenched! kissing fingers!
00:56:35 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “goddamnit why did th…” with ❤️
00:56:36 Lore Hershey: “Too bad my thirst isn’t quenched” – How I just swallowed
00:56:43 Stina French: cock-twitching smirk
00:56:43 Sinclair | they/them: cock-twitching smirk!!
00:56:44 E (she/her): cock-twitching smirk!
00:56:47 Sinclair | they/them: WHAT
00:56:48 Adriel Wilson: “cock twitching smirk”
00:56:54 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:57:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY A LIE
00:57:03 Sinclair | they/them: #cocktwitchingsmirk is my fave
00:57:06 Stina French: where else would you wanna see it
00:57:09 E (she/her): where else would you want to see it
00:57:10 Sinclair | they/them: or maybe my new fetish on fetlife
00:57:16 E (she/her): still on my mouth!
00:57:17 Alanna S: where else do you wanna see it!! what a line
00:57:19 E (she/her): ooh car
00:57:22 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY…” with ‼️
00:57:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: mood
00:57:46 Adriel Wilson: mmmmmm!
00:57:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “mood” with 😆
00:57:57 E (she/her): confused but a good boy
00:57:59 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “mood”

“I’m confused, but a good boy, so I do as I’m told” ??
00:57:59 Stina French: how bout right here
00:58:00 E (she/her): oh gosh
00:58:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “how bout right here” with ‼️
00:58:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “confused but a good …” with ✅
00:58:07 Dawn Davis: something sweet
00:58:08 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “mood” with 😆
00:58:09 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “my girlfriend is blu…”

@Alanna S How about I read it to you in person next week, and you can show me? 😏🤭
00:58:12 Ryan Shen: oh myyyy
00:58:21 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m blushing and gig…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:58:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 😮
00:58:28 Alanna S: yesss!!
00:58:31 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 😮
00:58:49 Sinclair | they/them: aww poor boy
00:58:55 Stina French: i just don’t know what to do with my hands? ha!
00:58:56 E (she/her): aw I’m sorry I just don’t know what to do with my hands!
00:59:11 Sinclair | they/them: oh she is PREPARED
00:59:18 E (she/her): speaking of hard
00:59:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Whooooa
00:59:25 Sinclair | they/them: speaking of hard!!!
00:59:25 Adriel Wilson: 🔥
00:59:37 Lucy Rose: alana!!
00:59:41 Sinclair | they/them: OH YES SHE IS
00:59:47 Leoh Blooms: 🔥❤️‍🔥🔥
00:59:49 Sixxten Maelor: oh my god!!!!!!! Everything!
00:59:50 Dawn Davis: MMmmmmmm… just how I like it
00:59:56 E (she/her): fingering herself!
01:00:08 E (she/her): friction and wetness and desire!
01:00:13 E (she/her): literally on top of me!
01:00:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “literally on top of …” with ❤️
01:00:20 Alanna S: this is so good
01:00:26 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “friction and wetness…” with 😍
01:00:32 Sinclair | they/them: fuckkkk
01:00:33 Sixxten Maelor: Exhibitionism and denial FTW!
01:00:39 Sinclair | they/them: real
01:00:43 E (she/her): omg car horn. Love these bits
01:00:50 Stina French: shivers
01:00:55 TJ Aluminumbrat: Replying to “mood”

I’m good…SOMETIMES
01:00:55 Stina French: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
01:01:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m good…SOMETIMES” with ‼️
01:01:02 E (she/her): I’ll savor every drop of her
01:01:04 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I’m good…SOMETIMES” with 😍
01:01:06 Sixxten Maelor: best reward ever!
01:01:12 Leoh Blooms: Aaahhhhh! That was so good
01:01:14 Lucy Rose: that was so goooooooooood!!!!
01:01:15 Adriel Wilson: ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
01:01:15 Ryan Shen: soooo hot
01:01:16 TJ Aluminumbrat: ALANAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
01:01:19 Alanna S: aaaah this was so hot!!!
01:01:19 Sinclair | they/them: HOLY SHIT
01:01:20 Alex Marino: 👏
01:01:21 Sixxten Maelor: 🔥🔥🔥
01:01:23 Kiki DeLovely: Ooooph!! 🔥
01:01:24 S They/them: Wowwww 🔥
01:01:24 Tirzah Villegas: 💋
01:01:34 Sixxten Maelor: Destroyed!
01:01:35 Stina French: as mentioned, in case you’d like to see it, here is a reading Sinclair did a while ago at Listen To Your Skin: https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=309822590877041 i think sometimes that the video section of listen to your skin’s facebook page is the most unknown treasure trove of jill-off material…

01:01:36 Sinclair | they/them: here’s the lineup folks!! four more readers to go:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
FEATURE: Kiki DeLovely
Tavia
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett

01:01:46 Lore Hershey: ALANA, THAT WAS INCREDIBLE!
01:01:58 Stina French: listen2yourskin on insta
01:02:03 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “as mentioned, in cas…”

spicy students, you should definitely read!!!
01:02:04 Alana: Replying to “You wore the pink li…”

Was there ever any doubt ;)
01:02:05 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “as mentioned, in cas…”

or feature!!
01:02:17 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “listen2yourskin on i…” with 🥰

01:02:24 Sinclair | they/them: KIKI DELOVELY is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, nonbinary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world before setting down roots on unceded Occaneechi-Saponi land. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. More about their work at Open Heart Active Healing https://bit.ly/OpenHeartActiveHealing
https://www.instagram.com/kikidelovely/
01:02:33 Alana: Reacted to “IT’S NOT TECHNICALLY…” with ❤️‍🔥
01:02:41 TJ Aluminumbrat: KIKIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3
01:03:01 Alana: Reacted to “@Alanna S How about …” with 🥵
01:03:02 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “the absolute filth �…” with ❤️
01:03:12 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki has been INSTRUMENTAL for the development of Writing Spicy <3 <3 so so grateful for all of their feedback and work and support
01:03:21 eli Rue: Whew, I’m finally back yall lol thanks for all the love in the chat and heeeeey to all my friends who joined from the east and west coast I love yall!
01:03:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Kiki has been INSTRU…” with ✅
01:03:25 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Kiki has been INSTRU…” with ❤️
01:03:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Honestly, same” with ❤️
01:03:42 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:03:44 Sinclair | they/them: no audio Kiki
01:04:00 Sinclair | they/them: we heard you before!
01:04:07 S They/them: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:04:34 Sinclair | they/them: it’s ok I need to catch my breath anyway
01:04:54 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Lol Sinclairs face”

I couldn’t see. I’ll be watching the recording back just for this!
01:04:56 eli Rue: Reacted to it’s ok I need to ca… with “❤️”
01:05:08 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I couldn’t see. I’ll…” with ❤️
01:05:16 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “it’s ok I need to ca…” with ❤️
01:05:22 Jezebel Jett: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:05:43 Jezebel Jett: Yay Kiki I cannot wait to hear this! 💕🔥🌈
01:05:47 Lucy Rose: those are literally all my fav CNs
01:05:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: Damn Kiki how’d you get my christmas list
01:05:53 Dawn Davis: Content warning or enticements?
01:05:55 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with ‼️
01:05:57 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 💯
01:06:03 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with 💯
01:06:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with ✅
01:06:07 Krystal Rubio: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with ‼️
01:06:07 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Content warning or e…” with 💯
01:06:17 Stina French: kiki’s insta is kikidelovely
01:06:22 Stina French: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 😂
01:06:38 Jezebel Jett: Eli and Tavia so sweet rn bawwww
01:06:38 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki has a couple of stories on Sugarbutch if you haven’t read them: https://www.sugarbutch.net/author/kikidelovely/
01:06:41 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “my girlfriend from t…” with 🤭
01:06:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Eli and Tavia so swe…” with ❤️
01:06:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: Fruitless wriggling oh my LORD
01:06:51 E (she/her): lift up my skirt and cup me
01:06:54 Stina French: Reacted to “Kiki has a couple of…” with ❤️
01:06:59 Lore Hershey: Go Kiki!!!!!!!!
01:06:59 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “YOU ABSOLUTE TEASE” with ☺️
01:07:05 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Eli and Tavia so swe…” with ❤️
01:07:08 Alana: Reacted to “Damn Kiki how’d you …” with 🤣
01:07:12 E (she/her): yeah doesn’t sound like a very obeyable command!
01:07:18 Dawn Davis: Drip. On. Me
01:07:20 Stina French: pucker up that sweet little hole for me………..
01:07:25 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Whew, I’m finally ba…” with ❤️
01:07:43 Sinclair | they/them: ☺️☺️
01:07:44 E (she/her): this luxury
01:07:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA
01:07:47 E (she/her): pussy begged
01:07:54 Stina French: my pussy begged harded unnnffffff
01:08:00 Sinclair | they/them: that was almost a spit take
01:08:04 Lucy Rose: this is so goooooood
01:08:12 TJ Aluminumbrat: I think about this story every day
01:08:17 Sinclair | they/them: oh noooo
01:08:19 Jezebel Jett: Yall write these Tops TOO WELL 🥵🥵🥵🥵
01:08:23 Sinclair | they/them: truly bad ones!!!
01:08:24 Lucy Rose: new life motto right there!
01:08:29 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “new life motto right…” with ❤️
01:08:31 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “new life motto right…” with 💯
01:08:41 Dawn Davis: gooooooosebumps
01:08:57 Stina French: relatable
01:09:06 Dawn Davis: ohhhh crawling…
01:09:14 Jezebel Jett: Crawl to me 🥹🫠🫠🫠
01:09:46 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki is definitely showing us why they’re so good at feedback 🥵
01:09:49 E (she/her): break the sound barrier
01:09:58 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Kiki is definitely s…” with 💯
01:10:00 Lucy Rose: i wish i had eloquent words but GOOD LORD
01:10:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i wish i had eloquen…” with 💯
01:10:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i wish i had eloquen…” with 🥵
01:10:15 Lucy Rose: face slapping 🥰
01:10:24 Stina French: Reacted to “face slapping 🥰” with 🥰
01:10:28 E (she/her): lingering threads of space and time
01:10:34 Sixxten Maelor: We all need this!!
01:10:34 Dawn Davis: conflicting spaces…
01:10:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “lingering threads of…” with ❤️
01:10:35 E (she/her): two conflicting spaces
01:10:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “We all need this!!” with 👏
01:10:50 E (she/her): good girl to the fullest!
01:11:06 Dawn Davis: gushing out of her
01:11:20 E (she/her): omg
01:11:25 Lucy Rose: omg
01:11:34 E (she/her): perverted sayings
01:11:34 Dawn Davis: Spicy idioms!!!
01:11:45 Lucy Rose: those were so good they got a real giggle out of me omg
01:11:51 Sixxten Maelor: Best alterative fortune cookie lines!
01:11:53 E (she/her): kinky yes and!
01:11:55 Stina French: GOD DAMN
01:11:58 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Best alterative fort…” with 💯
01:12:15 TJ Aluminumbrat: Not the rules 😩
01:13:00 E (she/her): hee
01:13:02 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Not the rules 😩”

YES THE RULES
01:13:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: Never let them know your next move!!
01:13:17 tim benson: Replying to “Not the rules 😩”

😍
01:13:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “YES THE RULES” with 🤨
01:13:46 E (she/her): crystal shaped curveball
01:13:51 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Never let them know …” with 💯
01:13:56 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “crystal shaped curve…” with 👏
01:13:59 E (she/her): gem and all
01:14:09 Dawn Davis: A HOLE new level
01:14:10 Stina French: sparkly feelings in my panties
01:14:16 tim benson: i admit i didnt read the rules very well
01:14:19 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “sparkly feelings in …” with ‼️
01:14:20 E (she/her): omg sparkly feelings in my panties
01:14:27 Sinclair | they/them: omg such a witch
01:14:27 Lore Hershey: Witches have so many panties’ treasures 🥰
01:14:33 Kim R: 😀
01:14:37 tim benson: am i still welcome?
01:14:46 E (she/her): rock identification!
01:16:15 E (she/her): nice, inspired reaction
01:16:18 Stina French: answer w/ their fingers
01:16:23 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “omg sparkly feelings…”

elle (gf) literally squealed at that line
01:16:54 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “elle (gf) literally …” with ❤️
01:17:09 E (she/her): fucked by the goddess!
01:17:13 Dawn Davis: Fucked by the earth herself
01:17:24 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “fucked by the goddes…” with ❤️
01:17:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Fucked by the earth …” with ❤️
01:17:29 E (she/her): tuck little bit of magic under my tongue
01:17:44 Dawn Davis: mouth companions!
01:17:48 Sinclair | they/them: I saw that Dawn!!
01:17:55 Lucy Rose: this is so goooood!!!
01:17:58 E (she/her): mouth companions
01:18:03 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵
01:18:08 E (she/her): hee unlikely line
01:18:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: YOOOO KIKIIIII
01:18:13 Lore Hershey: KIKIIIIIII, I am screaming
01:18:14 Lucy Rose: i NEEEEED the whole story!!!
01:18:17 Sarah St John: ❤️
01:18:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: AMAZING KIKI
01:18:23 S They/them: Earth magic! 🔥
01:18:23 Sinclair | they/them: Kiki is that story published somewhere!??
01:18:35 Sixxten Maelor: Such a good reading! 🔥
01:18:52 Sinclair | they/them: 💀💀
01:18:53 Dawn Davis: And everyone’s voices ❤️
01:19:01 Lucy Rose: that story was ahem thought provoking!

01:19:04 Sinclair | they/them: Tavia (all pronouns) is a dreamer and romantic that lives on the edges of existence and births new worlds into being. A neurocomplex, gray-ace, poly, kinky Dominant and creative, walking a path of loving devotion to the sacred and taboo. Their journey as a writer began as a child, as they sought refuge within the pen and paper to understand their inner world, and now continues into adulthood as they etch their story into the skin of the world. You can find them on Instagram, where they rarely post but will chat in the DMs, @blacknherby.
01:19:08 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/blacknherby
01:19:16 Jezebel Jett: Fuck yeah Tav!!! 💕💕💕
01:19:29 Sixxten Maelor: Go smash it, Tavia!!
01:19:33 Lore Hershey: Kiki, you gave us so many great and inspired ideas for how to best charge our crystals 😎
01:19:35 E (she/her): “lives on the edges of existence and births new worlds into being”!
01:19:39 Sinclair | they/them: wooooo Tavia <3 👏👏👏
01:19:43 Deshawn Dazevedo: Lets go Zaddy Taviaaaa
01:19:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Lets go Zaddy Taviaa…” with ❤️
01:20:01 S They/them: Tavia! 🙌🏽💗
01:20:04 Lore Hershey: TAVIAAAAAAAAAA, you go!!!! So excited to hear your beautiful work
01:20:05 Sinclair | they/them: this group has hella good bios damnnn
01:20:06 Alana: Taviaaaaa!!!!
01:20:06 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this Tavia!!
01:20:23 E (she/her): Reacted to “Kiki, you gave us so…” with 😆
01:20:34 Stina French: letters in limerence!!!!
01:20:38 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Tavi!!!! 🔥
01:20:39 Stina French: swoooooooooooooon
01:20:43 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “letters in limerence…” with ❤️
01:20:46 Stina French: so yeah, that dm invitation is looking even nicer now
01:20:48 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “swoooooooooooooon” with ❤️
01:20:57 E (she/her): “etch their story into the skin of the world”
01:21:03 Sixxten Maelor: What a way to open!!
01:21:03 Lucy Rose: you are such a good reader!!
01:21:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““etch their story in…” with ‼️
01:21:15 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““etch their story in…”

wtfffff
01:21:16 Stina French: the smirk in your voice, egads! helps!
01:21:18 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to ““etch their story in…”

so good
01:21:20 E (she/her): amount of hunger right size!
01:21:24 Lore Hershey: Full body shivers over here
01:21:25 Sinclair | they/them: wow
01:21:27 TJ Aluminumbrat: WHAT
01:21:27 Sinclair | they/them: WOWWW
01:21:32 E (she/her): reflecting! truly myself!
01:21:39 Sixxten Maelor: omg! Yes!
01:21:47 E (she/her): don’t want to be that wise! orgasms riding your face!
01:21:47 Tirzah Villegas: Oohhh drenched and dripping. Plz
01:21:47 Alana: Tavia + Eli please adopt me DAMNNNNN
01:21:52 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 👏
01:21:54 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with ❤️
01:21:54 Krystal Rubio: this is too good !!
01:22:00 Deshawn Dazevedo: ^^^
01:22:06 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 💯
01:22:08 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with ❤️
01:22:13 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

^same
01:22:18 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Tavia + Eli please a…” with 💯
01:22:24 Sinclair | they/them: omggggg
01:22:30 Stina French: precepts… for me it’s the rawness + huge vocab
01:22:30 E (she/her): see and hold the parts of you that ache for recognition!
01:22:35 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “see and hold the par…” with ‼️
01:22:37 E (she/her): trained!
01:22:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “see and hold the par…” with 💯
01:22:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “trained!” with 🥵
01:22:45 TJ Aluminumbrat: Is any of it real
01:22:48 TJ Aluminumbrat: AAAAAHHHHHHH
01:22:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Is any of it real” with ‼️
01:23:00 Sixxten Maelor: Existential erotica 🔥
01:23:01 Deshawn Dazevedo: !!!!!!!!!!!
01:23:05 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Existential erotica …” with 😩
01:23:09 Stina French: Reacted to “Existential erotica …” with ❤️
01:23:15 Sinclair | they/them: ❤️👏❤️👏
01:23:26 Stina French: i love his service
01:23:26 Sinclair | they/them: Eli giggling from the other room :)
01:23:31 E (she/her): I love his service! no really!
01:23:33 Dawn Davis: I love his service.
01:23:33 Sixxten Maelor: Here for service!
01:23:34 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: I’m hungry 🤤
01:23:41 E (she/her): bows!
01:23:47 E (she/her): waiting!
01:23:47 Alanna S: what a first line <3
01:24:00 Alana: That bratty mouth!
01:24:07 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ✅
01:24:10 Sixxten Maelor: Such a good fucking boy
01:24:13 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ‼️
01:24:16 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “That bratty mouth!” with ✅
01:24:17 Sixxten Maelor: Delectable tears
01:24:20 Sinclair | they/them: omg
01:24:30 Dawn Davis: Beating confidence into him
01:24:32 E (she/her): beating confidence!
01:24:36 Sinclair | they/them: beating confidence into him!!!
01:24:38 Sixxten Maelor: I relish beating confidence into him!!!!
01:24:43 Alana: My wretched desires YES
01:24:47 Sinclair | they/them: ❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏❤️👏
01:24:59 Stina French: NURSING YES YES YES
01:25:01 Sixxten Maelor: 👏
01:25:04 Lore Hershey: These vignettes are everything
01:25:38 Sinclair | they/them: 💀
01:25:57 E (she/her): being hungry and yearning for other needs!
01:26:01 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “💀”

secret nursing fetish
01:26:01 Tirzah Villegas: *passing out emoji*
01:26:05 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “💀”

https://www.sugarbutch.net/tag/breastfeeding/
01:26:07 Alanna S: have JUST NOW remembered that fun UK/US dialect difference 😂
01:26:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “*passing out emoji*” with ‼️
01:26:11 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “*passing out emoji*” with 💯
01:26:15 Sarah St John: ANR 😋
01:26:15 Stina French: ooooh sparing no detail YES
01:26:19 Alanna S: this reading is so good
01:26:21 E (she/her): scratching a deep itch I didn’t know I had
01:26:22 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “*passing out emoji*”

This!!!!
01:26:23 Stina French: damn, this one has really got me
01:26:23 Alana: Take what you ned
01:26:24 E (she/her): pretty mouth
01:26:30 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “scratching a deep it…” with ❤️
01:26:32 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “damn, this one has r…” with 😏
01:26:37 Sarah St John: Reacted to *passing out emoji* with “💯”
01:26:45 Stina French: i was NOT in the mood to go be “headmistress” at the holiday market we’re doing, but now, thanks to tavia, i really, really am. :hugs:
01:26:47 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “*passing out emoji*”

THIS
01:26:51 Alana: Replying to “Take what you ned”

Need damnit
01:26:52 Dawn Davis: Sounds from the other room!!! Eli
01:26:57 E (she/her): be a good boy and help mommy come!
01:26:59 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “i was NOT in the moo…” with 🥰
01:27:07 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “i was NOT in the moo…”

hahah so glad we can be helpful ::hat tip emoji::
01:27:09 Sarah St John: Ah!!!
01:27:10 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Awwwwww
01:27:11 Kim R: OMG! I love it! The way you read, the passion in your words is amazing!
01:27:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: TAVIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
01:27:15 Sarah St John: So hot!!!!
01:27:16 Lore Hershey: 🥵 TAVIAAAAA, your reading voice is just fire
01:27:17 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Not the cliff hanger
01:27:18 Sarah St John: Thank you!!
01:27:19 Sixxten Maelor: Gahhhhhh!!!!! Holy fuck!
01:27:25 S They/them: 🔥🔥Tavia!!!!!! 🙌🏽
01:27:25 Alanna S: that was so good!!!!
01:27:30 E (she/her): Replying to “have JUST NOW rememb…”

dialect difference?
01:27:37 Ryan Shen: this was a fantastic set of 3 pieces, great build up tavia!!
01:27:40 Lore Hershey: Absolutely stunning!!!
01:27:40 Kiki DeLovely: Mmmmmmf!! 🥵
01:27:44 Sixxten Maelor: I am not OK over here!!!
01:28:05 Sinclair | they/them: EVERYONE IS ALL IN
01:28:11 Sinclair | they/them: we have all ante’d up so hard
01:28:28 Lore Hershey: This event should be renamed from “Sugar and Spice” to “Saucy and Hot”
01:28:30 Sinclair | they/them: next readers:
Lucy Rose
Jezebel Jett
01:28:32 Jezebel Jett: Yessssss Lucy!!!!
01:28:33 Alana: Lucyyyyyy!!!!
01:28:37 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 🤣

01:28:46 Sinclair | they/them: Lucy Rose (she/her) is an old-school stone femme who believes strongly in the power of speaking and claiming our desires aloud to dispel loneliness and shame. As a fledgeling writer, she finds a great deal of inspiration through writing and collaborating with writers, whether also new or more experienced, and is always happy to write with others! When offline, you can find her reading, running, adding to her ever-growing candle collection, and living out a real-life love story with the stone butch of her dreams. She grew up in small-town New England and now calls Pennsylvania home. You can follow her at @femmedykeprincess on Instagram.
01:28:47 TJ Aluminumbrat: LUCY!! You got this!!
01:28:49 Sixxten Maelor: Wooohoo, Lucy!!!
01:28:54 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/femmedykeprincess
01:28:59 Lore Hershey: GO LUCY!!!!!!!! You’ve got this!
01:29:04 Sarah St John: Lucy!!
01:29:14 Lore Hershey: #candles
01:29:14 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 💯
01:29:20 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyyy Lucy!! 🌶
01:29:31 Sinclair | they/them: femme dyke princess!!
01:29:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with 🤭
01:29:44 Lore Hershey: Crumbs for collaboration and community! <3
01:29:47 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Crumbs for collabora…” with ❤️
01:30:03 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with ❤️
01:30:08 E (she/her): go Lucy Rose!
01:30:18 Sixxten Maelor: Great lipstick game going on in this group!
01:30:25 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with ❤️
01:30:27 Stina French: i’m so fucking proud of you first timers!!!!! in a pleasure-negative and sex-negative world, it’s a brave act to express desire and articulate eroticism.
01:30:31 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

next time, you + me too
01:30:36 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with 👄
01:30:39 Adriel Wilson: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👆
01:30:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:30:48 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:30:49 Stina French: Reacted to “Crumbs for collabora…” with ❤️
01:30:55 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

+1 to this!
01:31:00 Dawn Davis: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

Exactly
01:31:02 Stina French: Reacted to “This event should be…” with 😂
01:31:08 E (she/her): stares!
01:31:16 Tavia: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

y’all making Eli blush again
01:31:31 Dawn Davis: We won’t sit here for long
01:31:32 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Tavia + Eli please a…”

Too bad, Eli 😋
01:31:34 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “i’m so fucking proud…”

Shucks, thanks!
01:31:40 Stina French: oh my god the sentence structure backing up the heat there
01:31:46 Sinclair | they/them: needy impatience 🥵
01:31:54 E (she/her): drunk on arousal and old fashioneds
01:32:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 💯
01:32:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 😏
01:32:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “drunk on arousal and…” with 🥵
01:32:20 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “needy impatience 🥵” with ✅
01:32:34 E (she/her): can’t takes eyes away from your dick!
01:32:41 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Too bad, Eli 😋” with 😂
01:32:46 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “can’t takes eyes awa…” with ❤️
01:32:50 Sixxten Maelor: Unfff – those needs!
01:32:51 Dawn Davis: BEGGING
01:32:55 Dawn Davis: like communion
01:32:56 Sixxten Maelor: Taking communion
01:33:03 Alanna S: communion!!! yes
01:33:08 E (she/her): like i’m taking communion! more than i need to breathe!
01:33:09 Stina French: ohhhhh the mix of metaphor and slutty verbiage ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
01:33:14 E (she/her): this awareness of appearance
01:33:33 Sixxten Maelor: Let me hear you struggle!!!!!!!!
01:33:35 Sinclair | they/them: let me hear you struggle 🥵
01:33:38 Dawn Davis: Let me hear youstruggle
01:33:43 E (she/her): Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👏
01:33:55 Tavia: Reacted to “i was NOT in the moo…” with 🥰
01:34:00 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “Let me hear you stru…” with 🥵
01:34:07 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “let me hear you stru…” with 🥵
01:34:13 Stina French: Reacted to “Let me hear youstrug…” with ❤️
01:34:18 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Let me hear youstrug…” with ❤️
01:34:25 E (she/her): deeper than I thought was possible!
01:34:32 Sinclair | they/them: ooooof Lucy you gotta publish this piece somewhere
01:34:34 E (she/her): mascara tinted tears!
01:34:41 Stina French: just a tool for you now
01:34:42 E (she/her): mouth his is just a tool
01:34:54 E (she/her): just an appetizer
01:34:59 Sinclair | they/them: mouth is just a tool for you now 🥵
01:35:01 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
01:35:08 Sixxten Maelor: Visuals of smudged lipstick and streaked mascara in the bathroom 🔥
01:35:08 E (she/her): thank me!
01:35:13 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “thank me!” with ‼️
01:35:14 E (she/her): as my legs shake
01:35:18 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “thank me!” with 😮
01:35:22 Sinclair | they/them: yessssss
01:35:27 Sinclair | they/them: w/holy undone!!!
01:35:31 Sixxten Maelor: Wholly undone
01:35:34 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ohooooo being thrown
01:35:42 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “w/holy undone!!!” with 💯
01:35:47 Sinclair | they/them: GODDAMN
01:35:52 Stina French: how beautiful i am beneath you
01:35:56 E (she/her): distilled!
01:35:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “how beautiful i am b…” with 💯
01:36:03 E (she/her): love you!
01:36:06 Alana: This is so dirty and beautiful
01:36:12 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This is so dirty and…” with ❤️
01:36:18 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This is so dirty and…” with ❤️
01:36:20 Sixxten Maelor: This is so romantic!
01:36:22 Stina French: and all else melts away
01:36:32 Alana: Crying and sweating NBD
01:36:35 Lore Hershey: SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!! That piece is amazing
01:36:38 Sarah St John: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

Awesome
01:36:38 Sixxten Maelor: Hot damnnnnnnn!!
01:36:44 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “femme dyke princess!…” with ❤️
01:36:48 Dawn Davis: butch/femme, daddy/girl
01:36:49 James Coats: Replying to “[Full message cannot be displayed on this version]”

God Damn
01:36:49 TJ Aluminumbrat: DANG LUCY
01:36:50 Sarah St John: So good!!!
01:36:51 Alana: Keep the screens on !!!!!!!!!
01:36:51 Dawn Davis: yummmmmmmmm
01:36:52 Kiki DeLovely: Fuckyesss 🥵
01:36:54 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
01:36:54 Alana: ;)
01:36:55 Alanna S: this legacy we stand in is such a gorgeous line and something i think about a lot the more i explore queer history <3 <3 such a great story, thank you!!
01:37:04 Tavia: Goddamn Lucy

01:37:07 Lore Hershey: JEZEBEL!!!!!!! You’re incredible!!! Go go go
01:37:07 Sinclair | they/them: Jezebel Jett is a white, queer, poly, kinky, femme, disabled writer. Writing since second grade as escapism from a stringently religious childhood, her focus on erotica for the last decade has been transformative — and she has boundless space at her table for whimsical, poly, kinky, queerdos. She lives to embrace both “the beauty and the terror,” as Rilke says. Residing in California, you can find her singing off-key to 80s music at bonfires, painting, and making playlists as a love language. She is currently editing her first short story Erotica book, and also working on a book of Erotic poetry. Find her @ jezebeljett.com or JezebelJett on IG
01:37:08 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👆
01:37:09 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with ❤️
01:37:10 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i’m so fucking proud…” with 👏
01:37:11 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/JezebelJett
01:37:14 Tavia: LEHGOOOOO JEZEBEL
01:37:14 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “this legacy we stand…” with ❤️
01:37:14 E (she/her): whoo Jezebel Jett!
01:37:28 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Sinclair | they/them only if someone promises to smear it! 😏
01:37:38 Tavia: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with ❤️
01:37:39 Tavia: Reacted to “Great lipstick game …” with 👄
01:37:40 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

deal!
01:37:41 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

oh wait
01:37:44 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

you’re too far
01:37:51 E (she/her): both the beauty and the terror!
01:37:58 Kiki DeLovely: Yayyy Jez!!! ❤️‍🔥
01:37:59 Lore Hershey: I love fellow poly, kinky, queerdos <3
01:38:06 Sixxten Maelor: Go Jezabel!!!!!!
01:38:12 Sinclair | they/them: and HOW MANY WORDS have you written in the last 8 weeks JJ!???
01:38:13 Lucy Rose: LETS GOOOO JEZEBEL!!!
01:38:17 Tavia: Replying to “I love fellow poly, …”

Yaaaaasss live for this shit
01:38:18 E (she/her): Reacted to “w/holy undone!!!” with 👆
01:38:21 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “and HOW MANY WORDS h…” with 🥰
01:38:22 Lucy Rose: y’all are in for SUCH a treat w this story
01:38:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: JEZEBEL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
01:38:27 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “and HOW MANY WORDS h…” with 💯
01:38:28 Alana: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Sixxten Maelor @Sinclair | they/them I volunteer as smearer
01:38:28 Sinclair | they/them: omgggg
01:38:36 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

that would be sooooo helpful ;)
01:38:39 Lore Hershey: This story is *chef’s kiss*
01:38:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Omg my OTHER christmas list
01:38:42 Dawn Davis: Crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
01:38:44 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

NY seems about halfway between us
01:38:45 E (she/her): naked island of your bed!
01:38:49 Stina French: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

i’m here for whoever needs help smearing things.
01:38:59 Alana: Reacted to “NY seems about halfw…” with 💀
01:39:00 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 🥵
01:39:00 E (she/her): sting of my fragility!
01:39:05 Stina French: Reacted to “Keep the screens on …” with 👍
01:39:07 E (she/her): hold me like a prayer!
01:39:07 Sixxten Maelor: This CW list is basically my letter to Santa …
01:39:13 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with ✅
01:39:13 Alana: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 🥵
01:39:18 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 🥰
01:39:19 Lucy Rose: Replying to “ooooof Lucy you gott…”

i mean… let a girl know 😆
01:39:25 Stina French: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 😂
01:39:30 Lucy Rose: BOOKENDING BRUTALITY WITH TENDERNESS
01:39:31 Tavia: Reacted to “BOOKENDING BRUTALITY…” with 💯
01:39:33 Lucy Rose: i love this story
01:39:34 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “NY seems about halfw…” with 🔥
01:39:38 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with ✅
01:39:38 Tavia: Reacted to “ooooof Lucy you gott…” with 💯
01:39:38 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “This CW list is basi…” with 🥰
01:39:47 Alana: Replying to “BOOKENDING BRUTALITY…”

Is there any better way?!
01:39:49 E (she/her): bookending brutality! levels what was left of my standing empire!
01:39:53 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “deal!” with 💀
01:39:55 Stina French: like mercy, like it better be enough
01:39:57 Lore Hershey: Replying to “i love this story”

+1
01:40:06 Kim R: Reacted to ooooof Lucy you gott… with “💯”
01:40:09 Dawn Davis: shove it back into me
01:40:19 E (she/her): my own iron and salt! liquor!
01:40:23 Tavia: its the word play and metaphor for me
01:40:27 E (she/her): deep as my hunger!
01:40:32 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with ✋
01:40:32 Alana: Jezebellllll damn
01:40:38 Lucy Rose: your writing and reading is just so goddamn gorgeous <3
01:40:54 E (she/her): sting of not seeing you
01:41:03 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

@Alana April?? 😉
01:41:10 Dawn Davis: poetry…
01:41:28 Sixxten Maelor: A sendoff to sea
01:41:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Like a send off to sea
01:41:30 Tavia: Replying to “Great lipstick game …”

I volunteer as tribute
01:41:32 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “A sendoff to sea” with ❤️
01:41:45 E (she/her): drizzle whispers
01:41:46 Tavia: Reacted to “i’m here for whoever…” with 💯
01:41:54 E (she/her): feel both sides
01:41:57 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “I volunteer as tribu…” with 🔥
01:42:05 Lucy Rose: a body of trembles!
01:42:08 E (she/her): morse code
01:42:16 James Coats: I am a body of tremors
01:42:30 Lucy Rose: whew!!
01:42:33 Dawn Davis: show me how it hurts
01:42:38 Lucy Rose: “show my how it hurts, im proud of you”
01:42:42 Sixxten Maelor: Show me how it hurts!!!
01:42:43 E (she/her): lighthouse for my fear
01:42:51 Lore Hershey: The soft praise dear lord
01:42:56 E (she/her): peeking through the curtain!
01:42:58 E (she/her): firm!
01:43:06 Stina French: curl fingers like a riptide…. ungh
01:43:06 E (she/her): kiss my catharsis
01:43:17 Dawn Davis: something unholy happened
01:43:22 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “something unholy hap…” with 🔥
01:43:22 E (she/her): feel like what i think of
01:43:27 Alana: A hurricane whewwww
01:43:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Jezebel
01:43:38 Stina French: i can’t even quote you at this point, bc they just keep rolling….. line after line
01:43:38 Sinclair | they/them: whatttt
01:43:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: This feels like a sermon
01:43:44 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:44 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with ❤️
01:43:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 💯
01:43:48 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 💯
01:43:48 E (she/her): Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with 👆
01:43:51 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 💯
01:43:53 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with ❤️
01:44:03 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “i can’t even quote y…” with ❤️
01:44:07 Stina French: Reacted to “This feels like a se…” with 🙌
01:44:14 E (she/her): anchor me with your eyes! constellation god forgot to make!
01:44:14 Lucy Rose: THAT ENDING!!!
01:44:15 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW
01:44:16 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
01:44:17 Lucy Rose: jeeeeez
01:44:17 Sixxten Maelor: Replying to “This feels like a se…”

Finally, a church I can get behind!
01:44:19 E (she/her): just to watch us rise!
01:44:20 Stina French: just to watch us rise
01:44:21 Lucy Rose: omg jezebel
01:44:21 Lore Hershey: <3 <3 <3 <3 JEZEBELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
01:44:22 Kim R: Holy shit!
01:44:25 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: Wooowwwwwww
01:44:36 Sixxten Maelor: Heck!
01:44:36 Lore Hershey: TOOK US TO CHURCH
01:44:40 Lucy Rose: jezebel is also SUCH a kind soul and to be such a talented writer on top of it? unfair
01:44:43 Lucy Rose: good job all!!!
01:44:43 Sixxten Maelor: AMEN!!!
01:44:45 Ivy Nicole-Jonét: 🔥🔥🔥💙💙💙
01:44:47 Sinclair | they/them: holy shit
01:44:55 Sinclair | they/them: all the readers + hosts today:
Stina: https://www.sexploratoriumdenver.com/ https://sisterrainbowscream.com/open-mic-series/
here is a reading Sinclair did a while ago at Listen To Your Skin: https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=309822590877041

Writing Spicy: http://writingspicy.com
Sinclair: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
Jezebel Jett: http://instagram.com/JezebelJett http://jezebeljett.com
Lucy Rose: http://instagram.com/femmedykeprincess
Tavia: http://instagram.com/blacknherby

Kiki: https://bit.ly/OpenHeartActiveHealing
https://www.instagram.com/kikidelovely/
https://www.sugarbutch.net/author/kikidelovely/

01:44:57 James Coats: You did not even have to do us like that 🥵
01:44:58 Deshawn Dazevedo: This was so amazing and inspiring!
01:45:03 Kiki DeLovely: I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵
01:45:04 Tavia: Reacted to “I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵” with 💖
01:45:05 Dawn Davis: No! We don’t have to stop
01:45:07 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSSSSSSS Be the storm
01:45:08 Stina French: in case you’re even in Denver, or want me to re-post your kink content: @sexploratoriumdenver on insta. and the literary event i mentioned is @listen2yourskin on insta.
01:45:09 Tavia: Reacted to “This was so amazing …” with 💖
01:45:10 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I’m destroyed 🥵🥵🥵” with 💖
01:45:11 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “all the readers + ho…”

eli: http://www.instagram.com/mouthfullofflowers

Sixxten: http://instagram.comsixxofthebest & http://instagram.comADHDevience

01:45:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This was so amazing …” with ✅
01:45:24 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “in case you’re even …” with 🥰
01:45:29 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “in case you’re even …” with ❤️
01:45:35 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “all the readers + ho…”

http://instagram.com/listen2yourskin http://instagram.com/sexploratoriumdenver
01:45:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you for reading everyone!!! <3 <3 <3
01:45:36 Stina French: in case you’re even in Denver, or want me to re-post your kink content: @sexploratoriumdenver on insta. and the literary event i mentioned is @listen2yourskin on insta.
01:45:38 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “You did not even hav…” with ❤️
01:45:42 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “You did not even hav…”

YES SHE DID
01:45:43 Lore Hershey: You all are phenomenal
01:45:43 Lucy Rose: pls shoot me a DM and do a writing spring (or 2 or 3 or 4) with me! i love sprinting with y’all and need some writing motivation 🙂
01:45:50 Dawn Davis: @dawndaviscoaching Please follow. I love you all!!!!!
01:45:51 Lucy Rose: Replying to “pls shoot me a DM an…”

@femmedykeprincess on IG
01:45:52 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “pls shoot me a DM an…” with 🥰
01:46:12 Kiki DeLovely: Thanks for the love, y’all, and all your breathtaking offerings ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
01:46:13 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:18 Tavia: Reacted to “pls shoot me a DM an…” with 🥰
01:46:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:20 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:21 Lore Hershey: Who. Is. Sprinting. After. This?!
01:46:21 Tavia: Reacted to “Thanks for the love,…” with ❤️
01:46:23 Adriel Wilson: Thank you for sharing your work everyone! It was all so amazing!! ❤️‍🔥
01:46:33 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com
01:46:42 Kiki DeLovely: So incredibly proud of every damn one of you 😍😭😍
01:46:48 Stina French: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:53 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:56 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:46:58 Dawn Davis: I am so glad I came. Thank you all!!!!
01:47:09 Lore Hershey: Stina, do you have a sign up link??
01:47:11 Dawn Davis: Reacted to “So incredibly proud …” with ❤️
01:47:28 Sarah St John: Great readings everyone!
01:47:29 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

https://sisterrainbowscream.com/open-mic-series/ ?
01:47:33 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

not sure?
01:47:36 Tavia: Soooo much love
01:47:40 Sixxten Maelor: I would not have been able to be here without your kind sliding scale, @Sinclair | they/them – so thank you so, so much for that ❤️
01:47:51 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

The Google link doesn’t work for signing up
01:47:53 Lucy Rose: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

ditto, it was such a blessing
01:48:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

https://zoom.us/meeting/register/tJwtdeygqDssG9zymefi4MCT3C2OIzX0kwSj#/registration RSVP here
01:48:35 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Stina, do you have a…”

I think the Google link just isn’t updated
01:48:37 Lore Hershey: That is so exciting, Stina! Congrats 🙂
01:48:40 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I would not have bee…” with ❤️
01:48:42 Sixxten Maelor: I cannot recommend the Writing Spicy group highly enough. Great teaching, amazing feedback, numerous opportunities and a wonderful group of folx ❤️
01:48:42 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “ditto, it was such a…” with ❤️
01:48:49 Stina French: listentoyourskin@gmail.com
01:48:49 Lucy Rose: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with 💯
01:48:49 Tavia: Reacted to “listentoyourskin@gma…” with 💖
01:48:51 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

SO GLAD you could both join <3
01:48:53 Tavia: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with 💯
01:48:54 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:48:56 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:48:57 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “listentoyourskin@gma…” with 💖
01:48:59 Tavia: Reacted to “I would not have bee…” with ❤️
01:49:07 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I would not have bee…”

what amazing fucking writers + words
01:49:08 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I cannot recommend t…” with ❤️
01:49:12 E (she/her): omg
01:49:30 Lucy Rose: feels a little dramatic to say but writing spicy is life changing! the space is so safe and comfortable and everyone should join!!
01:49:30 Dawn Davis: fucked on the art!!!
01:49:39 Sixxten Maelor: Reacted to “feels a little drama…” with ❤️
01:49:41 Tavia: Reacted to “feels a little drama…” with ❤️
01:49:42 Jezebel Jett: The loudest volumes in my heart for Sinclair
01:49:45 Tavia: agreeeeed
01:49:47 Jezebel Jett: And this workshop
01:49:56 Lore Hershey: Deeply agree!!!
01:50:03 Lore Hershey: So beautiful and connecting
01:50:11 TJ Aluminumbrat: 1000%
01:50:41 E (she/her): thank you everyone!
01:50:43 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The loudest volumes …” with ❤️
01:50:56 Sixxten Maelor: Thanks for the amazing hosting @Stina French!!!
01:51:56 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you!!!
01:51:59 Adriel Wilson: thank you!
01:52:04 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com

erotica writing, event

[Video] Spicy Showcase at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Here’s the replay for the Spicy Showcase at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Queer Kink Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!
Thursday, December 14, 2023, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET
hosted by Kathleen Warnock
featuring: Sinclair Sexsmith
and:
Lore Hershey
LM
TJ
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan

Featured image by TJ

Want to follow along with the chat? Click the + below

Zoom chat during DCW
00:25:26 Sinclair | they/them: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
00:27:14 Sinclair | they/them: http://native-land.ca
00:27:14 Kathleen Warnock: I am on unceded Lenni-Lenape land.
00:29:24 Sinclair | they/them: lineup!
Lore Hershey
LM
Mr Loving Words
TJ
Sinclair
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan
00:29:28 Christian Pan: I am on the unceded land of the Lanape, also known as Manhattan. I use he/him pronouns. Very grateful to be here, and sharing some of my writing with you all.
00:29:34 Laurel Salvo: Yay loreeeee
00:29:57 Sassywheelz (she/her): From Sacramento, CA, heard about Spicy Showcase via email. I’m excited to be here and do enjoy hearing MrLovingWords read his 🔥 work.
00:30:30 Guest: LORE!!!!!!!YAMAHA AAA AAA
00:30:48 Alana: YAY LORE!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤️‍🔥

00:31:14 Sinclair | they/them: Lore Hershey (she/they) is a queer, neurodivergent, kinky and nerdy word witch; trauma-informed and trained conflict resolution practitioner; and astrologer who founded The Unconventional Plutonian (UP), a platform dedicated to inner transformation and rewilding work. They are a writer of erotica, speculative fiction, and poetry, and lover of all things whimsical and inquisitive. Their major kinks include supporting individuals and communities seeking to reimagine and change deeply held narratives with courage and empathy; a healthy dose of psychological play, brat taming, forced praise, and general mischief; and challenging power paradigms through radical liberatory self-expression. You can find them on http://Instagram.theunconventionalplutonian
00:31:23 eli Rue: Lore!!!!
00:31:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Calling in from unceded Treaty 6 Territory! Yaaaa Lore!!! <3 <3
00:31:54 Katie Bowen: yayyy
00:32:06 Sinclair | they/them: It Came From the Closet: https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9781952177798
00:32:52 Alana: Yaaaaaas give it up Lore❤️‍🔥
00:33:37 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🔥🔥
00:33:44 Sinclair | they/them: “gasoline to her …” what was that line!!! oooof
00:33:51 Laurel Salvo: 😰😰😰😰
00:33:55 Alana: Love a good circling prowl!
00:34:21 Sassywheelz (she/her): A victorious grin
00:34:22 Alana: UUUUUUUUFFFFFFF!!!!!
00:34:27 TJ Aluminumbrat: Every inchhhhhh
00:34:33 Aspen D: Every inch!
00:35:03 Sinclair | they/them: “she refuses to break eye contact” 😶
00:35:04 Alana: Love how she uses him as she keeps eye contact with the narrator!!!!
00:35:05 Faith Arrowsmith: “Demands more be given”
00:35:09 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Demands more be giv…” with 🔥
00:35:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Mmm I’m here for the claiming
00:35:31 Aspen D: Cosmic clash
00:35:49 Sinclair | they/them: starlight ⭐🌟✨💖
00:35:57 Sinclair | they/them: 🥺
00:35:58 Aspen D: Oooh love slick lacquer
00:36:12 Sinclair | they/them: “flaws, jagged and spent” fuckkkk
00:36:12 Alana: Ooooofff the love
00:36:13 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Claim her! … Please. … Powdering all my cracks.
00:36:31 Kathleen Warnock: “We are ephemeral and free…always have been”
00:36:49 Faith Arrowsmith: Oooh
00:36:52 Aspen D: Hotttttt
00:36:53 Alana: YAYAAAAAAAAHHHH Damn that was hot!
00:37:26 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Lore’s words rock my world.
00:37:54 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “YAYAAAAAAAAHHHH Damn…” with 😍
00:40:05 Alana: HOT HOT HOT
00:40:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAAAA
00:40:21 Christian Pan: Great work, @Lore Hershey !
00:40:57 Sinclair | they/them: LM (she/her) is a fierce, fabulous, 40-something Puerto Rican mama of three children, and an ethically non-monogamous kinkster. By the end of third grade, LM hand published her first three books (Patchy the Pumpkin, Twin Stars, and Toyland), and wrote dark, twisted poetry through college. After she turned 40, she wrote her first erotica short story and was hooked. LM’s many passions include crocheting, loom knitting, pole dancing, all things kink, hiking, the beach, and the art of mixology. She is a voracious reader and usually reads more than 150 books a year. She lives in the San Francisco Bay Area.
00:41:45 Laurel Salvo: Yay LM!!! So excited!
00:42:07 Lore Hershey: GO LM!!!!
00:42:31 Alana: Not like they can compete with the hotness in these stories!!!!!
00:42:37 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Not like they can co…” with 👍
00:42:38 TJ Aluminumbrat: You’re gonna crush it LM!! <3
00:42:43 Sinclair | they/them: LM’s instagram http://instagram.com/bayareablindmom
00:44:09 TJ Aluminumbrat: WOWZA what an opening !
00:44:43 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵🥵🥵
00:44:54 Alana: Knots of pleasure and pain WHATTTT
00:45:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Knots of pleasure an…” with ⭐
00:46:20 Sinclair | they/them: oooffff I love a countdown
00:46:30 Alana: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:46:55 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with 😬
00:46:56 Sinclair | they/them: “my perfect little slut” 🥺
00:47:08 Sinclair | they/them: “indeed”!!!!
00:47:23 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “oooffff I love a cou…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:47:36 Sinclair | they/them: “in pain, in lust in yearning, in desire” !!!
00:47:37 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Knots of pleasure an…” YUMYUMYUM
00:48:06 Alana: Not wanting to let go of it………..
00:48:10 Lore Hershey: Thanks for all the chat love, everyone!!! Just read it 🥰
00:48:21 Sarah St John: May i?
00:48:30 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Thanks for all the c…” with 👍
00:48:44 Lore Hershey: AND YOU DID
00:48:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Thanks for all the c…” with 💖
00:48:50 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “AND YOU DID” with 🔥
00:48:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “AND YOU DID” with ‼️
00:49:34 Lore Hershey: “Coaxed another wave of pleasure” need to turn the fan on
00:49:47 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Coaxed another wave…” with ‼️
00:49:49 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”Coaxed another wave…” with 🥵
00:49:58 Sinclair | they/them: “what a fantastic little slut you are” !!!
00:50:06 Sinclair | they/them: 🥵🔥
00:50:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LM !!!
00:50:30 Lore Hershey: #ascended
00:50:34 Alana: WHEWWWWWWW
00:50:35 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “#ascended” with 😂
00:50:35 Kathleen Warnock: Well done!!!
00:50:36 elsbeth (she/her): Sooo good
00:50:38 Sarah St John: So hot
00:50:40 Lore Hershey: IT’S MAGNUM!!!!
00:50:44 Christian Pan: Great work, @LM D’Lishes (She/Her)
00:50:48 eli Rue: 🥵🥵🥵
00:51:05 Sinclair | they/them: The Ethical Slut – https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9780399579660

00:52:17 Sinclair | they/them: Mr Loving Words (he/him) is a poet, performer, and educator born in Los Angeles and raised in the Inland Empire. He believes that poetry has the ability to bring diverse groups together, offering a way to connect through shared challenges, achievements and experiences. He is the winner of the 2021 San Gabriel Poetry Slam. You can find him attending poetry readings throughout California or follow his poetry via http://instagram.com/MrLovingWords
00:52:48 Sinclair | they/them: mmmm prettyyyyyy
00:53:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: And a whole lot of hope <3
00:53:48 Sinclair | they/them: “so too would my legs crumble before you” 🥵
00:53:50 Lore Hershey: “Crumble before you like Jericho’s walls” – I am just… brain offline
00:53:51 Faith Arrowsmith: This poem makes me want to bite shoulders.
00:53:54 Sinclair | they/them: render worship!!!!
00:53:56 Sinclair | they/them: fuck
00:53:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with ❤️
00:54:00 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with ‼️
00:54:02 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with 🔥
00:54:04 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “fuck” with ❤️
00:54:11 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “This poem makes me w…” with 🥵
00:54:31 Faith Arrowsmith: Written intention along your spine!
00:54:34 Lore Hershey: “Written intention along your spine” – I am weak
00:54:57 Kathleen Warnock: “not the wine you’ve sipped from the glass…”
00:54:58 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to #ascended with “👆”
00:54:59 Sinclair | they/them: “written intention along your spine” fuckkkkk
00:55:05 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““not the wine you’ve…” with 🥵
00:55:07 Lore Hershey: 🥵
00:55:08 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to ““not the wine you’ve…” with ⭐
00:55:19 Sinclair | they/them: “fuse our fabric and skin into one entity” !!!!
00:55:22 Sinclair | they/them: goddamn
00:55:22 Alana: ❤️‍🔥
00:55:28 Sinclair | they/them: your weakest spot!!!
00:55:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Neck and shoulder meet, your weakest spot. That’s certainly a hot spot.
00:55:46 Faith Arrowsmith: 💀
00:55:49 elsbeth (she/her): Damn!
00:55:51 Sinclair | they/them: WOW
00:55:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I … am … yours …
00:55:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I … am … yours ….” with 🥵
00:56:04 Christian Pan: Beautiful poem, @Mr Loving Words
00:56:13 eli Rue: Reacted to I … am … yours …. with “🥵”
00:56:23 Sinclair | they/them: love how the content warnings are like … a mini preview that makes me start to squirm 😄
00:56:32 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “love how the content…” with ❤️
00:56:35 Sinclair | they/them: “don’t open it … we’ll play with it tonight” !!!
00:56:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “love how the content…”
Yeeeeees!
00:56:51 Sinclair | they/them: (oh that rose vibrator is gooooood)
00:56:57 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Yeeeeees!” with 💖
00:56:58 Christian Pan: Reacted to ““don’t open it … we’…” with 👍
00:56:59 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “love how the content…” with ❤️
00:57:04 Erika Pérez: Reacted to “(oh that rose vibrat…” with 👍
00:57:14 Sinclair | they/them: “sir likes me distracted by my thoughts” hehehe
00:57:22 Sinclair | they/them: 😈
00:57:38 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “(oh that rose vibrat…” with 🥵
00:57:43 Sinclair | they/them: I love how “prep for the evenings activity” translates in my brain to “probably an enema”
00:57:57 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 😂
00:58:00 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 👆
00:58:00 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I love how “prep for…” OMFG
00:58:01 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “I love how “prep for…” with 😃
00:58:08 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to I love how “prep for… with “👆”
00:58:09 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I love how “prep for…” I mean, are you wrong?
00:58:10 Sinclair | they/them: yesss flared base! crystal red jewel in the shape of a heart!!!
00:58:18 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🥵
00:58:35 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to love how the content… with “💯”
00:58:46 Sinclair | they/them: arousal simmering to the surface of my skin … 🥵
00:58:49 Faith Arrowsmith: You can and you will
00:58:51 Sinclair | they/them: you can and you will!!!!!
00:58:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “I love how “prep for…”
Right…
00:58:55 Sinclair | they/them: damnnn
00:58:58 Faith Arrowsmith: Well then
00:59:01 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Well then” with ‼️
00:59:03 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Well then” with ⭐
00:59:08 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Well then” IN THAT CASE
00:59:37 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): PUt it in your ass. … Sooooooo hot!
00:59:39 Sinclair | they/them: “I was just playing” … awww
00:59:45 Lore Hershey: “I wanted to see how primal you would get” #honestlysame gorgeous
00:59:49 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”I wanted to see how…” with ⭐
00:59:52 Alana: Reacted to “”I wanted to see how…” with ❤️‍🔥
00:59:56 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “”I wanted to see how…”
#honestlysame
01:00:01 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “#honestlysame” with 🥰
01:00:13 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): slit … clit … hot hot hot. Yes, taste my sweetness. … Lip gloss.
01:00:21 Puff the Magic System (he/him): jfc
01:00:22 Lore Hershey: YOU WILL
01:00:26 Alana: Ooooofff I love that. someone being betrayed by their own body. Giving away all the excitement
01:00:33 Sinclair | they/them: ooh I did not realize that the narrator was a person with a clit kind of person!!
01:00:44 Puff the Magic System (he/him): 🥵
01:00:45 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Ooooofff I love that…” with 💯
01:00:46 Lore Hershey: Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…” Me neither
01:00:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Ooooofff I love that…” with ‼️
01:01:28 Sinclair | they/them: “doesn’t feel that bad” !!! 🥺😮
01:01:41 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…”
Me niether. Makes it even hotter in some ways. Ah, pet.
01:01:52 Lore Hershey: The “how does it feel” check-in is so gorgeous
01:01:56 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The “how does it fee…” with 💯
01:01:58 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “The “how does it fee…” with 🥺
01:02:01 Sinclair | they/them: so gooooood
01:02:20 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Rub yourself for me.
01:02:32 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Rub yourself for me.” with 🥵
01:02:48 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “ooh I did not realiz…”love the gender fuckery of this Mr Loving Words reading the narrator’s perspective 😵‍💫
01:02:55 Sinclair | they/them: “may I please come sir” !!!
01:02:58 Lore Hershey: I hope “I Fan My Clit” becomes the name of a hit song
01:03:03 Christian Pan: Reacted to “love the gender fuck…” with ❤️
01:03:10 Alana: Reacted to “I hope “I Fan My Cli…” with 🎵
01:03:20 Sinclair | they/them: 💀
01:03:22 Sinclair | they/them: omgggg
01:03:34 Lore Hershey: 🙃🙃🙃
01:04:31 Lore Hershey: Anyone else drooling?
01:04:37 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Anyone else drooling…” with ✅
01:04:46 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I hope “I Fan My Cli…” with 😂
01:04:51 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYAAAAAA
01:04:59 Christian Pan: Great work, @Mr Loving Words !
01:04:59 Sarah St John: So good!!!!
01:04:59 Sassywheelz (she/her): Giving me gentle kisses on my cheek, forehead…
01:05:02 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you for reading Mr Loving Words!!!
01:05:04 Sarah St John: 👏
01:05:04 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): soooo fucking good.
01:05:04 Sassywheelz (she/her): wooooo
01:05:06 Lore Hershey: WOWOWOOWOWOWOOOWW, thank you
01:05:09 Kathleen Warnock: Wonderful work!
01:05:26 Faith Arrowsmith: Gahhhhh so friggin good
01:05:29 eli Rue: so intoxicating !!!
01:05:35 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “so intoxicating !!!” with 🥰
01:05:43 Lore Hershey: Yeahhhhh go TJ!!!!

01:05:45 Sinclair | they/them: TJ (they/them) @aluminumbrat is a biracial illustrator regularly causing problems in the Northern Hemisphere. Their comics and paintings explore humour, queer intimacy & sexuality, and are inspired by their ancestral Egyptian pictorial traditions.
01:05:47 Faith Arrowsmith: Goooo TJ!!!
01:05:48 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Causing problems is good stuff.
01:05:53 Laurel Salvo: Yayyy tj!!!
01:05:55 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/aluminumbrat
01:05:58 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Causing problems is …”
A MENACE, affectionate
01:06:11 Sarah St John: TJ!!!
01:06:36 Sinclair | they/them: NO RULES
01:07:42 Sinclair | they/them: yayyyy
01:07:45 Sinclair | they/them: great intro!! <3 <3
01:08:00 Faith Arrowsmith: They’re the cutest lil comic couple.
01:08:11 Sinclair | they/them: 😍
01:08:38 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with 💯
01:08:48 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with ❤️
01:09:00 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Dangous words, I can do whatever I want.
01:09:06 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Dangous words, I can…” with 💯
01:09:16 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “They’re the cutest l…” with 😍
01:09:40 Kathleen Warnock: I love this!
01:09:41 Sinclair | they/them: OH NOOOO
01:09:45 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I love this!” with 😍
01:10:06 Sinclair | they/them: 😂😅
01:10:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): Haha, so fun and cute.
01:10:37 Faith Arrowsmith: TJ fan club
01:10:38 Alana: I love love this!!
01:10:39 Sarah St John: ❤️❤️❤️
01:10:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): friggin’ awesome!
01:10:46 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/aluminumbrat
01:10:50 Christian Pan: Great work, @TJ Aluminumbrat
01:10:51 eli Rue: Love it so much!
01:11:29 Sinclair | they/them: YAY LOCAL ARTISTS
01:12:06 Faith Arrowsmith: Sometimes Facebook marketplace has a lot of local artists, surprisingly!

01:12:23 Sinclair | they/them: http://sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair
01:12:33 Lore Hershey: Amazing work, TJ!! <3
01:12:35 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com
01:12:53 Lore Hershey: Do Writing Spicy! You won’t regret it
01:12:54 Faith Arrowsmith: Everyone. Join. Writing. Spicy.
01:13:00 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Everyone. Join. Writ…” with 👍
01:13:05 Kathleen Warnock: Thank you for all you do, Sinclair!
01:13:07 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Do Writing Spicy! Yo…” with 👍
01:13:14 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with 🥰
01:13:42 Lore Hershey: I love that Sinclair’s CW list is like collectively longer than all of ours. #goals
01:13:50 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to Thank you for all yo… with “💯”
01:13:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Causing problems is …” with 😏
01:14:03 eli Rue: Reacted to I love that Sinclair… with “🔥”
01:14:08 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “A MENACE, affectiona…” with 😂
01:14:14 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to I love that Sinclair… with “😆”
01:14:24 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Over my lap … best first three words ever!
01:14:43 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I love that Sinclair…” with 😂
01:15:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “great intro!! <3 <3” with ❤️
01:15:29 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Dangous words, I can…” with 😎
01:15:41 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Over my lap … best…” with 👍
01:15:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I love this!” with ❤️
01:16:07 Sassywheelz (she/her): Shut it, take it
01:16:11 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Shut it, take it” with 🥵
01:16:20 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Shut it, take it” with 🥵
01:16:36 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Shut it, take it” The room is a little spinny
01:16:43 Sarah St John: Holding so you can feel me
01:16:44 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I love that Sinclair…” with 😂
01:17:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: YYYYYAAAAAAAAAA
01:17:22 Lore Hershey: The cadence of reading that piece was incredible!
01:17:22 Alana: Raise your hand if you identify with the flustered, unable-t-speak lil toy right now
01:17:26 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Keep doing that. Just like that. And I do. … Hot!
01:17:30 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:17:32 Kathleen Warnock: It’s because of spring…
01:17:32 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:17:33 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with 👏🏼
01:17:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Raise your hand if y…” with ✅
01:18:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “The cadence of readi…” with ❤️
01:18:36 Alana: lolllllz
01:18:46 TJ Aluminumbrat: Lilacs <3 <3
01:19:03 Lore Hershey: Gorgeous
01:19:24 Kara Plaxa: Please carve your name!
01:19:36 Alana: I volunteer as tribute!
01:20:04 Lore Hershey: it’s so vulnerable and *chef’s kiss*
01:21:14 TJ Aluminumbrat: loooooooooove this one
01:21:24 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): OMG yes. … Sometimes I want so much I can’t even tell what I want. … So true.
01:21:25 Lore Hershey: SIX WAS THICK
01:21:37 Faith Arrowsmith: 🔥🔥🔥🔥
01:21:44 Alana: Reacted to “SIX WAS THICK” with ❤️‍🔥
01:22:04 Sassywheelz (she/her): I savor the bruising
01:22:17 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “I savor the bruising” with ❤️
01:22:19 Lore Hershey: A new meaning of lock jaw damn
01:22:42 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I love the way sinclair reads. My writing has to sound good too, but damn. Sinclair takes it to a whole new level.
01:23:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “A new meaning of loc…” with 😂
01:23:20 Lore Hershey: Bring on the brat taming!!!! *fight round bell rings*
01:23:36 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Bring on the brat ta…” with 🤨
01:23:41 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Bring on the brat ta…” with ❤️
01:23:45 Sarah St John: Squishy shit 😅
01:23:47 Puff the Magic System (he/him): ‘we live for this squishy shit’ #relatable
01:23:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): …this squishy shit …!
01:23:58 Lore Hershey: Replying to “…this squishy shit…” samesamesame
01:24:22 Erika Pérez: “Just let me use you”….holy fuck
01:24:31 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “…this squishy shit…”
I mean, it’s awesome stuff.
01:24:51 TJ Aluminumbrat: Minimize the squirming holy FUCK
01:24:59 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “”Just let me use you…” with ❤️
01:25:02 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “”Just let me use you…” with 💕
01:25:27 Sarah St John: Rough body play 🥵
01:26:25 Sassywheelz (she/her): WOWWWWWWWWWWWWW
01:26:37 Kara Plaxa: Leave me in the dark…. Ugh, dead!
01:26:48 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Rough body play 🥵” with 👍
01:27:00 Sassywheelz (she/her): You taste like I belong on my knees
01:27:29 Lore Hershey: “You bring out the worship in me” #honestlysame #anyone
01:27:35 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “You taste like I bel…” with 💋
01:27:44 Lore Hershey: that was supposed to be #anyone?else?
01:28:11 Lore Hershey: Darby is into this one
01:28:17 Alana: Reacted to “Darby is into this o…” with 🤣
01:28:21 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Darby is into this o…” (the cat)
01:28:41 Christian Pan: Great work, @Sinclair | they/them
01:29:43 Lore Hershey: I love this one
01:30:30 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Do we know if these are published pieces?
01:30:42 Alana: Darby is killing it rn
01:30:48 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Darby is killing it …” with 😂
01:31:00 Lore Hershey: fuckkkkkkkkkkk
01:31:30 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I’m dying.
01:31:46 Lore Hershey: Crying
01:31:51 Lore Hershey: , respectfully
01:32:00 Alana: Reacted to “, respectfully” with ❤️
01:32:16 Lore Hershey: “Letting it in is just as much work as dishing it out” – so true
01:32:34 Kara Plaxa: SO HOT
01:32:34 Lore Hershey: DESTROYED
01:32:40 Puff the Magic System (he/him): Am ded
01:32:43 elsbeth (she/her): swoooooon
01:32:44 Christian Pan: So good, @Sinclair | they/them !
01:32:49 Alana: That was incredible Sinclair!!!!
01:32:54 Lore Hershey: asklfjaslkfjalskjga;sjga;lsk;alka
01:33:00 Laurel Salvo: I wasn’t breathing until now basically
01:33:00 Faith Arrowsmith: So friggin good
01:33:06 Laurel Salvo: Jfc
01:33:10 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “I wasn’t breathing u…” with 😂
01:33:11 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAA Thank you for reading Sinclair <3 <3 <3
01:33:21 Lore Hershey: Replying to “I wasn’t breathing u…” Unintentional breathplay

01:33:32 Sinclair | they/them: Yu-Long Boba Baba (they/othem) is a trans man who grew up and still resides in New York City (unceded territory of the Lenape) with immigrant parents from Taiwan. They participated in GAPA’s “This is 2020,” an interdisciplinary writing workshop series that embraced the importance of representation and encouraged writing in multiple formats. They are dedicated to unlearning colonized ideas of how to relate to humans and ideas of intimacy, as informed by Kim TallBear’s “more than monogamy” practices. They write to process emotions in the formats of poetry/prose, plays, storytelling and personal narratives.
01:33:39 eli Rue: Damn that was absolutely amazing
01:33:42 Faith Arrowsmith: Also hi Darby!
01:33:42 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
01:33:49 Lore Hershey: Darby is a babe
01:33:55 Faith Arrowsmith: Yay Yu-Long!!
01:34:05 Lore Hershey: Go Yu-Long!!!!!!!
01:34:26 Lore Hershey: YESSSSSSS you get it
01:35:18 Alana: I have to go now but y’all are amazing and hot damn I won’t focus for the rest of the night!
01:35:24 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “I have to go now but…” with ❤️
01:35:26 Christian Pan: Reacted to “I have to go now but…” with 👍
01:35:28 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I have to go now but…”
thanks for coming!!
01:35:34 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “I have to go now but…”
will post the recording in the next few weeks
01:36:01 Sinclair | they/them: darby has stolen my water
01:36:20 Sinclair | they/them: yummm ube in a waffle!
01:36:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: Replying to “darby has stolen my …”
Her water*
01:36:28 Faith Arrowsmith: Reacted to You taste like I bel… with “👆”
01:36:42 Faith Arrowsmith: Replying to “darby has stolen my …”
Everything belongs t…
01:36:43 Lore Hershey: My brain: “Waffle is a euphemism”
01:36:50 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “My brain: “Waffle is…” with ❤️
01:36:51 Christian Pan: Reacted to “My brain: “Waffle is…” with 😃
01:37:12 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Do we know if these …”
some of them are on my instagram

the last poem I read is here: https://www.sugarbutch.net/2022/03/the-right-one/

and also on my spoken word album: https://mrsexsmith.bandcamp.com/track/the-right-one-live

01:37:57 Lore Hershey: Waffles ARE a church service 😇
01:38:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Waffles ARE a church…” with ✅

01:38:33 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Waffles ARE a church…” with 😍
01:38:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): My baby deserves the rest. Aw. So sweet.
01:39:01 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “My baby deserves the…” with ❤️
01:39:06 Lore Hershey: A catering service 🥵
01:39:16 Lore Hershey: Replying to “A catering service �…”
#foodandwhims
01:39:25 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with ❤️
01:39:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Everything belongs t…” with 😂
01:40:02 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Thank you for all yo…” with 💯
01:40:05 Sinclair | they/them: “different kind of worship” killlllled me
01:40:15 Lore Hershey: Reacted to ““different kind of w…” with 😇
01:40:35 Sinclair | they/them: thanks so much for all the comments <3 I will read later
01:40:37 Lore Hershey: “oh no”
01:40:50 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”oh no”” with 😂
01:40:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “”oh no”” with ❤️
01:41:19 TJ Aluminumbrat: Love the special drawer LOL
01:41:27 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Love the special dra…” with 👆
01:41:39 Faith Arrowsmith: SPECIAL DRAWER AW YEAH
01:41:50 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with 😂
01:41:53 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with ❤️
01:41:54 Lore Hershey: If there is a special drawer in a kitchen, is it called a whisky drawer?
01:42:02 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “SPECIAL DRAWER AW YE…” with ❤️
01:42:07 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “If there is a specia…” with ✅
01:42:45 Sinclair | they/them: awwwwww 🥺
01:43:05 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “If there is a specia…”
LOL. My special drawer in the kitchen is one use appliances like a banana slicer, strawberry slicer, egg slicer. I am a sucker for one use tools like that. I love myy cherry pitter.
01:43:08 Lore Hershey: I love the number of meals in this piece *wipes mouth*
01:43:16 Lore Hershey: WOOOOOOO!
01:43:17 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Ah. Read soooooo well.
01:43:18 Sassywheelz (she/her): Yayyyyy
01:43:23 Christian Pan: Good job, @Yu-Long Boba Baba
01:43:42 Regine Reyes: 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
01:43:53 TJ Aluminumbrat: YAAAAAA YU-LONG <3 <3 <3
01:44:27 Kathleen Warnock: Tobi Hill-Myer has appeared in BLE!
01:44:40 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): What a hot night!
01:44:46 Christian Pan: Reacted to “What a hot night!” with 👍
01:44:59 TJ Aluminumbrat: You got this Puff !!!
01:45:10 Lore Hershey: GO Puff!!!!
01:45:17 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to If there is a specia… with “✅”
01:45:25 Puff the Magic System (he/him): @puff_themagic_system
01:45:29 Sinclair | they/them: https://www.spdbooks.org/Products/9780990452874/nerve-endings-the-new-trans-erotic.aspx – Nerve Endings, Tobi Hill-Meyer
01:45:34 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to My brain: “Waffle is… with “😃”

01:45:34 Sinclair | they/them: Puff the Magic System (he/him)
Is a queer, kinky, polyamorous, and trans artist and community organizer based in “Olympia, WA” (traditional land of the Squaxin Island Tribes). They are a system (plural) as well as autistic, and disabled. They use traditional and digital media for their visual art. A longtime lover of performing arts, they are a drag performer and producer of an all trans variety show. They have recently started writing again after a long break and explore the intersections of kink, trauma healing, and gender in their erotica.
01:45:43 Sinclair | they/them: http://instagram.com/puff_themagic_system
01:46:09 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Okay, just throwing my love out there for disability pride. Lots of us representing the disability community–which is often under represented.
01:46:18 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:20 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:24 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with 👏
01:46:26 Lore Hershey: Replying to “Okay, just throwing …”
+1
01:46:35 Sassywheelz (she/her): Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:36 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Okay, just throwing …” with ❤️
01:46:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Full of fire I don’t know what to do with … this is something I can totally resonate with.
01:47:17 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Full of fire I don’t…” with ❤️
01:47:53 Sinclair | they/them: Yu-Long’s OF: https://onlyfans.com/yulong88
01:48:10 Sinclair | they/them: oof your reading voice Puff … SO GOOD
01:48:28 Sinclair | they/them: “fight the urge to tear you apart” … 🥵
01:48:38 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Every second of you making me mine? I may have mixed up words.
01:48:50 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “oof your reading voi…” with ❤️
01:49:23 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Blue electricity … I can totally see that zapping through the air.
01:49:58 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥🥵
01:51:06 Sinclair | they/them: damnnnn
01:51:34 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Your only purpose is for my release. … Fuck that’s hot!
01:51:40 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Your only purpose is…” with ❤️
01:52:42 Faith Arrowsmith: I pretend that I don’t know that you know❤️
01:52:44 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): All melted in my bed. … Just saying, this is usually me. I can resonate with these words. LOL
01:52:53 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “I pretend that I don…” with ✅
01:52:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “I pretend that I don…” with ❤️
01:53:26 TJ Aluminumbrat: WWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOWWWWWW
01:53:28 TJ Aluminumbrat: PUFF
01:53:29 Faith Arrowsmith: Ooooof
01:53:31 Christian Pan: Great work, @Puff the Magic System (he/him)
01:53:32 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): I love you but I won’t tell you yet. … Oh my heart!!!
01:53:38 Lore Hershey: Beautiful!!!!
01:53:48 eli Rue: Reacted to I love you but I won… with “💯”

01:53:50 Sinclair | they/them: Christian Pan (christianpanerotica.com) is a bisexual writer who has published nearly 100 erotic short stories in English, Spanish, and French since 2021. Of his 8 previous books, At the End of the World won the 2023 Star Recommendation from All The Filthy Details, and was a Finalist for the 2022 Golden Pigtails Smut Award for Dark/Taboo Erotica. In addition to writing book reviews for his blog Dirty Words, he contributes to Dish Stanley’s weekly Crush Letter, hosts the Pulse Session for the monthly podcast All the Filthy Details, and organizes the Queer Erotic Content Creators Club through Patreon. He lives in New York City.
01:54:17 Faith Arrowsmith: Get outta here, feelings!! 😹
01:54:21 TJ Aluminumbrat: DANG Christian!!
01:54:26 Christian Pan: Reacted to “DANG Christian!!” with 😃
01:54:31 eli Rue: Reacted to DANG Christian!! with “😃”
01:54:46 Sinclair | they/them: http://christianpanerotica.com
01:54:49 Faith Arrowsmith: Christian when do you sleep?!
01:54:50 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to Good job, @Yu-Long B… with “❤️”
01:54:58 Yu-Long Boba Baba: Reacted to YAAAAAA YU-LONG <3 <... with "❤️"
01:55:05 Sinclair | they/them: Desire Lines – https://bookshop.org/a/8005/9798985034103
01:55:37 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Replying to “Christian when do yo…”
Right? and where are these stories? I think I need to practice my Spanish and reading some smut by be a great way to do that. :)
01:55:56 Sinclair | they/them: Wasted Nun – https://amzn.to/3v0ha90
01:56:11 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Ooooh, hot beginning …
01:56:21 Sinclair | they/them: Replying to “Christian when do yo…”

http://christianpanerotica.com
01:56:28 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “Great work, @Puff th…” with ❤️
01:56:56 Lore Hershey: Shannon def goes Commando
01:57:28 Sinclair | they/them: all Christian’s books are at https://www.christianpanerotica.com/ !!
01:58:38 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Shannon def goes Com…” with 👍
01:58:53 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): OH my god. @Christian Pan I adore that you addressed the yummy tummy subject. So many women, okay, me, feel so awkward with mom belly. So I love your little salute to Shannon’s yummy tummy. I suspect many women feel a bit embarrassed about their “tummies.”
01:59:01 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Shannon def goes Com…” with 👍
01:59:13 TJ Aluminumbrat: Ahh yes the tartan skirt <3
01:59:32 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “OH my god. @Christia…” with 🔥
01:59:34 Sinclair | they/them: Reacted to “OH my god. @Christia…” with ❤️
01:59:44 Sinclair | they/them: 🔥 hottttt
01:59:52 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Animal breaaths…
01:59:57 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Animal breaaths…” with 👏
02:00:34 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): EEK! Let’s see what our boys are up to.
02:00:54 Sinclair | they/them: ahhhhh
02:01:00 Sinclair | they/them: “cotton underwear to fist”
02:01:08 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “”cotton underwear to…” with ❤️
02:01:49 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Hot!!!
02:03:09 Sinclair | they/them: all Christian’s books are at https://www.christianpanerotica.com/ !!
02:03:14 Lore Hershey: CHRISTIAN! Great job!
02:03:14 Christian Pan: Thanks!
02:03:15 Faith Arrowsmith: NOOOO CLIFFHANGER!!!
02:03:15 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): O … M … G …!
02:03:18 TJ Aluminumbrat: Eeeeeeeeee Christian !!!
02:03:29 Lore Hershey: WE BE SPRINTING
02:03:31 Faith Arrowsmith: Cruel, Christian!! 😹
02:03:36 Christian Pan: Thanks for all of the love & positive comments, everyone!
02:03:46 eli Rue: love hearing you read christian!!!
02:03:48 Christian Pan: Reacted to “CHRISTIAN! Great job…” with 👍
02:03:55 Christian Pan: Reacted to “love hearing you rea…” with 👍
02:03:55 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Yes, thank you all for the kind, kind words.
02:04:01 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “love hearing you rea…” with 👍
02:04:03 TJ Aluminumbrat: Thank you everyone <3 <3
02:04:08 elsbeth (she/her): Thank you!!! So hot.
02:04:09 Sinclair | they/them: next up: Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading, Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET 

02:04:09 Lore Hershey: Everyone did such a beautiful, beautiful job!
02:04:13 Erika Pérez: discord link please
02:04:14 Kathleen Warnock: What an amazing reading!
02:04:14 Christian Pan: Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with 👍
02:04:19 Lore Hershey: SO STOKED
02:04:19 eli Rue: Reacted to Everyone did such a … with “👍”
02:04:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): All the readings tonight were so great!!!! I am so happy to listen to everyone and have mind dripping.
02:04:23 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with ❤️
02:04:25 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with 👍
02:04:28 Lore Hershey: Reacted to “All the readings ton…” with 🥵
02:04:33 Erika Pérez: Thank you, everyone!
02:04:35 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Reacted to “Everyone did such a …” with ❤️
02:04:37 TJ Aluminumbrat: Reacted to “All the readings ton…” with 🥵
02:04:37 eli Rue: Reacted to What an amazing read… with “💯”
02:04:51 Lore Hershey: Thank you, Sinclair and Kathleen!!! <3
02:05:13 Christian Pan: Thank you, Sinclair & Kathleen! Such a pleasure and a joy being here, sharing space with you all
02:05:14 LM D’Lishes (She/Her): Thank you Drunken! Careening! Writers!
02:05:20 Sassywheelz (she/her): Thank you Sinclair and Kathleen
02:05:26 Kathleen Warnock: Reacted to “Thank you Drunken! C…” with ❤️
02:05:32 elsbeth (she/her): Thank you!
02:05:44 Sinclair | they/them: http://writingspicy.com

Special thanks to Jezebel Jett, who edited the video for public sharing!

erotica writing, event, media

[Video] Spicy Showcase at Smut Peddlers

Here’s the replay for the Spicy Showcase at Smut Peddlers!

Smut Peddlers: An evening of LGBTQ erotica
Wednesday, December 6, 2023, 4pm PT / 7pm ET
Hosted by Glad Day Books in Toronto and Kel Hardy
featuring: Tobi Hill-Meyer
and:
MK
Lily
Sarah St John
SJ
Faith Arrowsmith

TOBI HILL-MEYER is an Indigenous Chicana trans woman. She believes creating stories is a critical part of making change, they can give us strength, model paths to success, provide encouragement, and create greater empathy. She is dedicated to community support and fighting for positive change at a local level. Tobi’s work has been in Best Lesbian Erotica, Ask: Building Consent Culture, Trans Bodies Trans Selves, Take Me There, Beyond Binary, Coming Out Like a Porn Star, and Girl Sex 101. She is editor of the Lambda Literary Finalist anthology Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic, author of children’s books A Princess of Great Daring and Super Power Baby Shower, and director of the award winning erotic documentary series Doing it Online. tobihillmeyer.com

(I don’t have the saved chat from this one; I’ve asked Kel to send it to me, but I’m not sure it was saved. If anyone who was there saved it, please let me know!)

Special thanks to Jezebel Jett, who edited the video for public sharing!

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Sinclair’s 2024 Calendar

Here’s where I’ll be and what I’ll be teaching — online & in person — in 2024!

This page will be updated as things are added.

Updated: December 5, 2024

December

December 1, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | Spicy Showcase through Theo

December 9, 2024 | 6-8pm PT | Make It Yours: Embodying Your Strap On through Wicked Grounds

December 14, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | Spicy Showcase through Swoon Bookstore

December, 2024 | TBD | Erotica reading with Drunken! Careening! Writers!

January 2025

January 11, 18, 25 | 4-6pm | Writing Spicy at Charlie’s Bookstore, in person in Seattle

January, 2025 | date TBA | Daddy 101 through Wicked Grounds

February 2025

February 6 + 13, 2025 | 6-8pm PT | Writing Spicy through Wicked Grounds


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  • Patreon workshop: Enhancing Long Distance D/s
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Previously in 2024

January

January 5, 2024 | 7pm PT | in person in San Francisco | Queer Leather Happy Hour
January 23, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Daddy 101 through Wicked Grounds

February

February 13, 2024 | 4pm PT | online | Queer V-day Smut Reading through A Room of One’s Own
February 17, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
February 24, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books
February 27, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Your Year In Kink through Wicked Grounds

March

March 3-9, 2024 | online | Smashwords “Read an eBook” sale
March 13, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Sweet & Rough through the Big Queer Book Club with Auntie Vice
March 26, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Writing Spicy through Wicked Grounds
March 30, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Erotica Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books

April

April 11-14, 2024 | in person | International Ms. Leather & Bootblack (attending)
April 20, 2024 | 5-7pm | in person in Seattle | Queer Poetry Writing Workshop at Charlie’s Queer Books
April 21, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
April 23, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | Sexual Politics of Kink through Wicked Grounds
April 26-28, 2024 | online | Thrive: BDSM & Mental Health (attending)
April 26-28, 2024 | online | Reign of Blood: Sharps Conference (attending)

May

May 23, 2024 | 6pm PT | online | The Art of Ownership through Wicked Grounds

June

May 31 – June 3, 2024 | in person | Desire: Leather Women Conference
June 16, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)

July

July 17, 2024 | 6-7:30pm PT | online | Writing Spicy (part 1 of 2) for Wicked Grounds
July 24, 2024 | 6-7:30pm PT | in person in Seattle | Writing Spicy at Charlie’s Queer Books Sign up here
July 31, 2024 | 6-7:30pm PT | online | Writing Spicy (part 2 of 2) for Wicked Grounds

August

August 8, 2024 | 6-7:30pm PT | online | Daddy 101 workshop through Wicked Grounds
August 10, 2024 | 7:30-9:30pm PT | online | MAsT Auckland
August 11, 2024 | 11am-12:30pm PT | online | Writing Spicy Exclusive: Theo Reads
August 18, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)
August 29 – September 2, 2024 | in person | Dark Odyssey: Summer Camp

September

September 7, 2024 | 12–2pm PT | online | High Protocol for Spoonies on CONsolidation
September 12, 2024 | 6-7:30pm PT | online | High Protocol for D/s workshop through Wicked Grounds
September 27, 2024 | 4:30-6pm PT / 7:30-9pm ET | online | Kink Between the Lines erotica reading, organized by Cecilia Tan

October

October 20, 2024 | 4-5:30pm PT | online | The EroSomatics Salon (ask me for an invitation)

November

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Spicy Showcases: Come Join Me For Writing Spicy Queer Kinky Erotica Readings

You’re Invited!

To the Spicy Showcases from the 2023 Writing Spicy erotica writing group’s online readings, on December 6, December 14, and December 17

Here’s the details:

Smut Peddlers: December 6, 2023

Smut Peddlers: An evening of LGBTQ erotica
Wednesday, December 6, 2023, 4pm PT / 7pm ET
Hosted by Glad Day Books in Toronto and Kel Hardy
featuring: Tobi Hill-Meyer
and:
MK
Lily
Sarah St John
SJ
Faith Arrowsmith

TOBI HILL-MEYER is an Indigenous Chicana trans woman. She believes creating stories is a critical part of making change, they can give us strength, model paths to success, provide encouragement, and create greater empathy. She is dedicated to community support and fighting for positive change at a local level. Tobi’s work has been in Best Lesbian Erotica, Ask: Building Consent Culture, Trans Bodies Trans Selves, Take Me There, Beyond Binary, Coming Out Like a Porn Star, and Girl Sex 101. She is editor of the Lambda Literary Finalist anthology Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic, author of children’s books A Princess of Great Daring and Super Power Baby Shower, and director of the award winning erotic documentary series Doing it Onlinetobihillmeyer.com

Drunken! Careening! Writers!: December 14, 2023

Queer Kink Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!
Thursday, December 14, 2023, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET
hosted by Kathleen Warnock
featuring: Sinclair Sexsmith
and:
Lore Hershey
LM
TJ
Yu-Long Boba Baba
Puff the Magic System
Christian Pan

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is an award-winning queer trans masc writer focusing on queer culture, trauma, dominance, submission, spiritual kink, and transgender and nonbinary issues. Sinclair’s creative nonfiction and queer erotica writings are widely published online and in more than thirty anthologies, including eight volumes of Best Lesbian Erotica series. They are the editor of Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 4, Volume 5, Volume 6, Volume 7, Best Lesbian Erotica 2012, Erotix: Literary Journal of Somatics, and Say Please: Lesbian BDSM Erotica. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2015 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award. Sinclair writes at sugarbutch.net since 2006, recognized numerous places as one of the top sex blogs. They have been teaching about erotic writing, the power of queer narratives, somatic arts, and many sex and kink techniques since 2002. Sinclair is an international leather titleholder and an avid creative journaler, and lives on unceded Duwamish land. Find them all the places online at sugarbutch.net/find-sinclair.

Sugar & Spice: December 17, 2023

Sugar & Spice: Queer Kink Erotica Reading
Sunday, December 17, 2023, 10am PT / 1pm ET 
hosted by Stina French
featuring: Kiki DeLovely
and:
eli
Sixxten Maelor
Alana
Lokchi
Tavia
Cate
Sage Elder
Jezebel Jett

hosted by Stina French, Headmistress of The Sexploratorium & host of Listen To Your Skin Reading Series

KIKI DELOVELY is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, nonbinary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world before setting down roots on unceded Occaneechi-Saponi land. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. More about their work at Open Heart Active Healing.

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“If you’re gonna write spicy, you need spicy ink!” Some Writing Spicy Art by @aluminumbrat

In one of the previous Writing Spicy groups, aluminumbrat illustrated this gorgeous lil piece of me adding peppers & eggplants to a blender and making fountain pen ink out of it.

aluminumbrat adds: “If you’re gonna write spicy, you need spicy ink! And you write *really* spicy so I thought jalapeño pepper ink would be the best for penning erotica. 🌶️🖊️💥”

So this time around, I reached out to them to see if I could commission them to make something quite similar, but maybe with different things going into the blender, like kink toys, or books — still with the peppers, of course.

They were game!

aluminumbrat adds: “You were very clear with the vision – an illustrator’s dream, honestly! 🙌 We knew books had to be there…the first sketches I did were of stacks of books and peppers! 📚”

We chatted a bit back & forth, and eventually they sent me this rough sketch / mockup:

Then I sent them some reference photos of fountain pen ink bottles, and books, and the Sugarbutch brand palette.

aluminumbrat: “It was very cool to see your fountain pen inks and fave kink books! 🩸 🖊️ The Sugarbutch brand palette is very timeless, kinda fancy/classy. So I added amber details in as a reference to whiskey 🥃”

They sent me back this sketch, to approve of the colors:

And then they got to work on the final pieces! They even posted a little video of painting the portrait of me

aluminumbrat: “The original illustration didn’t have your face in it, so it felt right to finally paint your portrait. 🎨”

I love them! Thanks so much!!

Aluminumbrat is available for commissions if you find yourself in need of some skillful art! Thank you!

aluminumbrat: “Thank you for working with me! I had a total blast and can’t wait for Writing Spicy to start. 👀 Also, regarding commissions: yes, I’ll draw almost anything for money. 🤧”

dirty stories, fiction

The Bradley Shower Pole

Content: bathhouse, anonymous sex, cis and trans men, blow jobs, (self) objectification, brief mentions of body dysphoria, glory hole, shower, tdick, penetration

Jaime found the darkest little cubby, where he could barely see, and dropped carefully to his knees in front of the open hole. He adjusted the towel around his waist and waited.

He waited until his knees started to hurt. He fidgeted with the edge of the towel. He itched for the familiar distraction of scrolling through Instagram on his phone. He adjusted the pinch of the elastic band around his upper arm, the one the bearded, tattooed man at the front desk had given him with his locker key and a little plastic tag that said “392” on it.

The house music drowned out most sounds. He was trying to remember how to meditate when he felt, more than heard, a gentle bang on the wall. Then a dick appeared through the hole. Factory-installed. The flashing laser lights bounced off of the black walls and occasionally found him for long enough to kind of see the hole cut into plywood wallboard, and the shape, the general size. Light skinned, but he couldn’t really tell in the shadows.

He started with his hand, stroking, then quickly took it into his mouth. Half-hard. The smell of sweat, the tickle of hair on his nostrils when he sucked it deeper into his mouth. That smell of men was comforting to him, and dropped down into his pelvis like a firecracker. He could feel his dick starting to clench and swell, and he started to get that itch of desire, that craving to rub himself.

He had scoped out the glory holes the last time he was here, and decided that next time, he was going to try it.

He adjusted his knees so his heel pressed against his own dick, and gently rocked against it. He moaned a little, but it was muffled by the dick in his mouth. Not very big, but big enough to give that satisfactory feeling of his mouth being filled. Still mostly soft. Maybe a little softer than when he started. He probably wasn’t going to come. But that was just fine with Jaime.

In and out, some pressure with his hand at the base, his wrist pressed into the wall. He missed having someone’s hands in his hair, pushing on his head. After a few minutes, the dick withdrew. He saw a flash of the white towel through the hole in the wall as the person readjusted, then walked out of view.

His heel was wet from his own juices. He changed positions again to give his knees a break. And waited.

It didn’t take as long this time. Another dick. Thicker, but still pretty short. Jaime liked them short; he could swallow them deep and barely gag, but still get that deep breath of sweat and a tickle of fur. He was starting to get a sense of what he liked. This was his third time at Steamworks, and it was almost feeling comfortable, like he belonged here. Or like, maybe someday, he could.

He focused on this new dick, licking the shaft, flicking his tongue over the frenulum, sucking the head all the way into the back of his mouth. He lost himself in the rhythmic pleasure of it, pulsing to the beat of the heavy house music. His front hole was gushing now, and he could feel the wet drip from him to the floor, open and exposed. He wondered if he pressed his ass against the hole if the other man would fuck him. If he offered two holes, instead of one, which would the man choose?

The dick he diligently sucked, practically worshiped, was stiffening again in a way that Jaime thought meant the man might come, but he pulled out instead with a few grunts. Jaime was a little disappointed. He would have taken the man’s come, would have loved to have that thick, sticky taste of it hit the back of his throat, and never known which man it was when he went back out to the big room. A secret thrill. One so many of the men here surely knew, if they ever wanted to.

It was a test, really. Even though everyone was explicitly allowed in on Gender Fuck party nights, he still wanted to feel what it would be like to be in a men’s space, to be fucked by men as a man. He still wanted to feel what it would be like to cruise, to choose, to give the slightest nod, to be groped in a hallway without even a hello. He wanted to be a hole to fuck, to be used. Well, he’d be using them, too. Look at the glory hole — he wasn’t even seeing their faces. He just wanted their dicks, mostly. Though a hand on his head really would be nice. And maybe just a little eye contact.

He waited for another dick to come through his hole, the glory hole he was now thinking of as his. Certainly his favorite glory hole. His dick was swollen and throbbing, aching for touch. He clenched and released his internal muscles and felt it flex, felt the walls of his hole tighten and release. He wanted to get fucked.

Slowly, he rose from his knees and bent at an awkward angle trying to get his cunt and ass to line up with the hole. His belly was a little in the way to bend at this angle, but he managed, and could feel the slightly different flow of air over the wet folds of him as he pressed into the wall. The paint was probably sticky. Was this even safe, offering himself up like this? It could be anyone. This was risky behavior. He had calculated. He had thought this through. It could be anyone, and that’s what he liked about it. Right now, he was just a hole for the taking. Surely, some of these men knew their way around a cunt.

He waited, knees burning, in a partial squat against the wall, braced with one hand on either side wall. The glory hole spaces were made for just one body at a time.

Minutes passed. He tried to count his breaths, one through eight, then back to two, up to eight again, then start at three, all the way to eight. He kept losing track and starting over, but that’s what meditation is, isn’t it. Starting over. Again and again. Beginning fresh, without the weight of failure or shame or negative self-talk. He started thinking about his groceries, the laundry he hadn’t finished. His mind meandered to the computer programming book he was reading for his job, to what restaurants were between him and his apartment on 15th and which one he’d stop at on the way home. Then, he’d come back to himself, to his dark little corner with his hole exposed on the other side of the wall, and breathe again, and try to focus.

His hips and knees were starting to burn.

All I am right now is a hole, he told himself, over and over, like a prayer. Just a hole for the taking. Just a warm, wet thing, a sheath, a place to get stuffed. Please, please. He wanted it. He was probably still dripping. What a sight he would be from the other side of the wall.

“Fuck me,” he whispered, feeling desperate and even a little pathetic. What more could he offer? “Please, fuck me.”

That was when he felt fingers, rough and dry and thick, shoving deep into his front hole. He almost fell over, but had his hand in front of him on the other wall, braced. He cried out immediately and pressed back into the wall, into the other man’s hand.

The fingers weren’t all that good at what they were doing. Just poking, exploring. Then they withdrew. He heard grunts, or he thought he did, it was hard to tell over the loud house music. Then, something softer against his opening.

Please let it be a cock, please, he pleaded in his mind, though found himself mouthing the words. “Please, I want your cock,” he whispered.

It wasn’t that big. A few years of fucking dykes with their choose-your-own-adventure straps, and he got used to the big monsters, the ones thicker than a fist. It’s different to go back to the factory-installed variety after some time away. Softer. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like anything more than a tickle, a little pressure. But still, he prefers it. It feels right. There’s something more satisfying.

He tried to ease back on it, to take it deeper, but he couldn’t really go anywhere pressed up against the wall. He pressed anyway. He couldn’t really open any wider, his ass spread apart, but he reached back with his hands and counterbalanced his weight, leaning forward, and spread open his holes with his fingers. He’s so slick. He can feel it going in and out.

All I am right now is a hole.

All I am is a hole.

All I am —

All —

All —

His mind calmed, quieted, in that way that it only does when there is a cock deep inside. Something in his chest unwound, spiraling outward, through his shoulders and hips, through his fingers and toes. He had no words. He was nothing but a hole, nothing but made for this, nothing but open, open, open.

“All I am is a hole.” The words skated across his mind, the idea of the words, the idea behind the idea, and he didn’t have any words, didn’t have any thoughts. Blank boy. No thinking. Just a hole.

He was lost, not even in his body anymore, except that he could feel everything, every whisper of air current changeing against his skin. Where is his towel? On the floor. He didn’t notice when that fell. Probably filthy now, but he wasn’t thinking about that. What can he do? Nothing. Nothing, he’s just a hole. Just a hole for the taking. That’s it, take me. Take everything. Leave me empty. Leave me filled.

He felt shuddering against his ass, more pressure, a throbbing inside of him. Then the cock, the man attached to the cock, withdrew. No fanfare, no grunting (not that Jaime could hear, anyway). No announcement of orgasm or coming or jizz or being a good little hole for the man’s pleasure. Just air, where there was warmth. Just the house music suddenly flooding back into Jaime’s ears. Just the laser light dance in front of his eyes. Just the towel on the floor, and Jaime’s sticky hole.

His mind wasn’t working. No thoughts, only hole. What does he need? Warmer. Wash off. He headed to the shower. The men he passed in the hall checked him out visibly, obviously. One of them was holding his towel over his dick, not around his waist. He had a sexy chest, beefy with a good amount of hair. One of them stared at the scars on his chest. He doesn’t say anything. The smile and sparkle in his eye contact told Jaime he was intrigued.

There were other men in the shower, three of them at one of the shower towers, one at the other. They watched him as he approached. Side eye; quick glances, then looking away — or long hard stares. Jaime shivered a little, though it was warmer in here, and the mist was making it humid.

He took an empty shower head between two men. Is this what high school gym locker rooms were like? Is this what I would’ve felt in high school, had I been a guy in the locker room with the other guys? Guys older than me, more developed? Hairier, bigger, voices already dropped? His thoughts came slowly, through a fog, more of a flash of a high school scene and a question, almost a deja vu. As if he’s remembering what would have happened, in his other childhood, in his other life.

The first time he accidentally brushed the man next to him, he recoiled quickly, with a sheepish look in the man’s direction. He didn’t seem to notice. Maybe the water is stimulating enough that the touch didn’t register. Maybe he didn’t even actually touch him.

But then, the next time — a hand at his hip. Gentle pressure, fingertips pulled him back. His butt made contact first, and the man’s other hand rubbed it under the hot water, squeezing a little, tentatively, like a question. Jaime arched and pressed back further, bracing one hand on the shower pole, spreading his legs. He could feel the man’s cock, hard and jutting out, pressing against his crack, but not in the right spot. Jaime squirmed, on his tiptoes, switching his hips forward and back to try to get the right angle. The man wrapped his arms around Jaime, touching his chest and stomach, making his breath catch when he brought his hand down to the hair between his legs.

The man on the other side of Jaime was watching them. He started off rubbing soap through his chest hair and along his belly, but now he’s rubbing his dick, his eyes hungry and eating them up. He locked eyes with Jaime and didn’t look away. The man behind Jaime is dragging his finger between Jaime’s legs, but doesn’t seem to know what else to do. He smacked Jaime’s dick a little, which is more surprising than painful — water sprayed and Jaime yelped, almost slipping, but regained his footing.

The other man smiled. Jaime smiled back, feeling bold and like a hot piece of ass that everyone wants. He bent at the waist, reaching. He didn’t think he could, but he’s always had a long torso, and when he bent, he reached the other man and slid one hand along his thick thigh. He’s squat, thick, dense, and so was his dick. Jaime opened his mouth, and it took no work for the other man to slip it in.

The man behind him shifts his hands behind Jaime and starts guiding his dick into him. He tried Jaime’s asshole, but finds it tight, unlubed, and keeps going. Maybe his dick is too soft. Maybe he didn’t mean to slide right into Jaime’s front hole, but it was right there, open and slick, still full of the come from the glory hole, and it happened so easily. He had trouble getting a good angle where he can keep moving his mouth, but he kept trying, lapping with his tongue, holding on to the man’s hip and thigh, sometimes circling his fingers around his cock. Sucking, when he could, before it popped out. Desperate for it to get back in.

He realized he was fussing, trying so hard to do what would feel good for these men, and he tried to relax a little. That helped. The man behind him had him by the hips and was thrusting mercilessly. They fit together, something matched in his hipbones and Jaime’s, in the size and shape of the man’s cock with the size and shape of Jaime’s hole. It’s the click Jaime had been craving, the satisfying union, the white noise of his empty head and full hole.

Two full holes.

His arms went limp for a moment. Impaled. Only a body, only this beautiful body, this home he sometimes hates but mostly loves, the smooth chest and furry belly, the ears too big and the hands too busy, the cock small, but ideal. Just enough. Just right. It fit, somehow. It matched. And someday, it’ll fit perfectly right in someone’s mouth, the way other cocks fit into his holes, the way it feels when the sheath is just right.

A smack on his cheek. He realized he was being held up. The man in front of him tilted his face up, hand under his chest, holding some of his weight. Jaime finds the muscles of his legs, looks up at the man, blinking.

“Just checking,” he said. His hair is dark because of the water, but he’d be blond or redhead if he was dry.

Jaime’s mouth was open in an O, and he lowered it back down to the man’s dick. The man gives it to him eagerly, keeping one hand on Jaime’s shoulder. He sucked again, losing himself in it, eager and hungry. Starving. Oh please, oh please give me your come, please let me suck it, he thought. He tried to think it so loud, begging, pleading with his mouth, so that the man would hear his thoughts and understand. Please, I want to swallow it, I’m good at this, show me you like it, give it to me, please.

He didn’t know if the man behind him was going to come or not. He was still getting fucked, slower now, but thoroughly. The water was not the best lube, but it was enough that he wasn’t chafing, only occasionally feeling a tug when it wasn’t quite slick enough.

I’ll take your come, too, he thought. I’ll take it, if you give it to me. I want it. Fill me up, oh, fill up my holes with your come, please.

The steam of the shower made all the images blurry, coming in and out of focus. The red tiles, the white towels as men walk by, skinny legs and fat legs and somebody brought their own Adidas rubber sandals to wear. Men stopped, watched, looked. At him.

He brought one hand down to his dick. He tried out a few swipes but can barely touch it directly, too sensitive, too swollen. He would love to wrap something around it, like that little squishy silicone toy at home. Instead, he made his fingers into a v and pinched it a little at the base, using the folds around it to make friction, movement, sensation. Up and down. He’s so hard. He likes when it feels this swollen, this big. He can feel it contract as the man behind him kept slamming his dick inside, and he pushed on it from the outside while it’s being pushed from the inside.

It didn’t take long. He came, finally, gagging on the fat cock as it spurts at the same time, and squeezing the man behind him so hard that he can’t stay in. He yelled, but only once, before he got a hold of his reaction and keeled forward, letting himself be lowered all the way to the shower floor by the man in front of him.

He’s gone. He’s nothing. He’s a puddle under this water, rain over him, pressed against this hard tile, warm but still cooler than the water temperature.

He’s humming a little, trying to get his breath back, still seeing stars. “I’m okay,” he said, as he saw the man trying to catch his eye again. He started getting up. “I’m good. Uh,” he cleared his throat, trying to consciously lower his voice. “Thanks.”

He turned to the other man. Gave him a nod. What’s the etiquette here? A high five? “Thanks.”

“Thank you,” he said, his voice gruff, a big, dumb smile hiding under a dark beard. Jaime didn’t remember ever looking at his face before backing into him, but his chest was familiar, something comforting about the curve of his pecs, his strong arms. The man held his eye a few beats longer than he was comfortable, but as soon as he breathed, Jaime felt hypnotized, light on his feet.

He felt the other man at his back, a hand on his shoulder. “Hey now, don’t fall or nothin’.”

“No, I-I’m good,” Jaime replied. He wiped his eyes. He should get out of the steam. “Thanks. Thanks.”

With water dripping into his eyes from his hair, he found his way to a dry spot nearby and toweled off as best as he could with this thin, scratchy gym towel. If he was noticed, if his small dick or scars were stared at, he didn’t see it. He was floating, clear.

And he was starving.

He wound his way through the dark hallways, peeking into the open doors, mostly finding men sprawled naked and touching their dicks on the beds. He moved out of the way for another man to pass, dark skin in the dark light, white towel bright. He found his locker, took the band off his arm, and slid the key that said “392” into the lock.

At some unknown point after he put his gray jeans back on, and before he slid his worn in Phish tour shirt over his head, he started grinning. Like a fool; like a freshly fucked boy toy. He shivered all the way to the backs of his knees, starting from his neck, and made his way downstairs.

As he turned onto the glistening sidewalk, wet from today’s rains, the house music faded and his eyes adjusted to the absence of lasers. His body buzzed. Every pore was alive, sensate. The city glittered in front of him. He breathed deep. What didn’t smell like garbage had that distinct petrichor smell of concrete and rain, desire and satiation. He could tell his cunt would be sore tomorrow. His dick was still throbbing, humming. Pleased with himself. That was what he wanted, and he did it.

He did it.

Now, he thought, as he started the short walk home. Now, I want some spicy noodles. And he knew just the place to stop on the way.

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10 Days of Writing Spicy Prompts

10 Days of Writing Spicy Prompts starts tomorrow, Friday, September 15th!

10 days of spicy erotica prompts is underway!

I’ll be posting one prompt every (week)day on Instagram, Twitter, and to via email untill October 4th. I’ll give you a few different options for the prompts, changing the pronouns or slightly tweaking the language — hopefully that gives you an idea of what you can do to *any* prompt, mine or not.

I’d love to see what these prompts inspire in you … please tag me @mrsexsmith, and use the hashtag #writingspicy when you share your work on Twitter, or in Instagram posts or stories, so I can see them (and share & repost!).

I’ll be sharing some of my responses to these prompts, too. Can’t wait to read what y’all come up with!

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Check out the new queer porn site, QueerCrush

Have you seen QueerCrush yet?

QueerCrush is “a celebration of authentic lesbian passion and fun brought to you by director Electra Rayne and videograoher Dahlia Von Knight. … No fake orgasms or uncomfortable positions “for the camera”, just real, unscripted, authentic queer connection.”

I’ve been meandering around the (many!!) videos that are already live on the site. I recognize a few queer porn stars (heyyyy), some porn stars I’ve mostly seen in mainstream porn, and many folks who are brand new. There are a lot of folks with bigger bodies, quite a few people of color, and quite a few trans women. I am of course biased, and would love to hear more dirty talk, and more kink, and more D/s, and more strap-on sex, but there is some of that.

I’m still finding my personal favorites, but here’s a few that have caught my eye so far.

(Also, they have a pride month sale that is extending into Wrath Month (July), so you can get 20% off your membership for life if you sign up now!)

Asking For It – Sinn Sage and Teeny Steele

Love the spanking, slapping, and rough body play in the beginning of this one. It’s clear how much they were really in it with each other and delighting in each other’s bodies. I got distracted by the amazing lingerie — the garter and thigh straps — that Teeny was wearing, they’re so hot! I have often wished for a “lingerie / sex toys / decor featured in this video” list.

Grind – Alison Rey and Casey Calvert

I’ve seen Alison in (many) other mainstream porn, and often really enjoy her (keep an eye out for an upcoming post about daddy/girl porn, if that is a thing that you might like). I was quickly fascinated by the grinder that they’re using and went searching for it! When I asked Electra Rayne, she said she didn’t know, that Alison found it on Tiktok — which quickly led me to Uncover Creations Tentacle Grinder II (you’re welcome). I am not usually into grinder toys, but this scene made me want one. (Any recommendations? Leave ’em in the comments!)

Good Job – CeCe LaRue and Madam Morgan

I saw a gif of this scene — the nipple sucking part specifically — over on QueerCrush’s Twitter and immediately went to watch it. Love seeing all kinds of trans bodies in porn, and their pleasure and excitement about each other was smashing.

Dominate Me (Bonus Scene) — Electra Rayne and Alex de la Flor

I only planned to include three videos in this round up, but since this is a bonus video, consider this your bonus feature. Electra Rayne is summoned by Alex de la Flor, and then tops her magnificently. What really caught my eye, though, was the dildo Electra has — it’s probably the Carter from New York Toy Collective (don’t you think?), and it’s an ampallang piercing, horizontally through the glans. (Psst, use the code SUGARBUTCH to buy things at NYTC and get $5 off!) I had a piercing in one of my cocks once, but it got damaged (not because of the piercing) and I miss it, this made me want to run out and get another one. Maybe that should be on my kink bucket list for the second half of 2023.

I’ve barely scratched the surface of the dozens of videos on QueerCrush.

But I’m excited to see more! I’ve already got my eye on a few different scenes that I’m going to watch next. I don’t usually watch this kind of porn (I tend toward lots of dirty talk, lots of kink, lots of brutality, personally), but I have really enjoyed seeing people who look like me.

They are also interested in more masc performers on the site (Billy Lore, I’m looking at you!), so if you’ve got any requests or recommendations, or if you have wanted to play in some queer porn, you can reach out to QueerCrush and apply.

Don’t forget the Pride sale on QueerCrush is 20% off your lifetime membership!

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Best of 2022 on Sugarbutch

2022 was a huge transition year for me.

In April, I changed the Patreon from per-thing to per-month, which significantly helped me work on longer form projects, and offer longer online groups/courses (3!). That changed how I was writing online significantly, and meant I published far less in 2022 than I have in the past. But it also meant that I had more time to work on longer writings and bigger projects.

The biggest thing, though, was that my 11-year 24/7 TPE Owner/property Daddy/boy relationship (and legal marriage) with rife ended in August. We’re still working out the details of the legal separation, but we’ve been living apart since October, and I moved into my own apartment (my first time living alone in my life!) in January. October through April were incredibly rough for me, and I’ve been in and out of emotional crashes that have me barely above water. My finances have completely changed, and I’m unsure if I will be able to keep writing here, or how. (I want to — I just have to also figure out how to afford Seattle rent and restart my entire life.) I would like to write more about this, but honestly, so far, it’s just been too hard to share.

But, some great things happened in 2022, too. Aside from the general Sugarbutch world, I have a few other ongoing projects, like:

Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 7, which I edited, came out in December! (I have no news about the BLE series from Cleis going forward, though — unsure if there’s a new editor or if they’ve paused the series.)

The erotic energy / somatics group I’m part of, EroSomatics, made some great leaps forward, and we’re planning to offer some workshops online (and maybe in person!?) in 2023.

But, even though I published way less than usual in 2022, and I

Without Further Ado: Here are the best posts of 2022 on Sugarbutch (& beyond)

Note about the password protected posts: The password is given to all the folks who support me on Patreon. Thank you, thank you, to all of you who have been supporting my work, either for a month or years, in all the ways you do it, whether with money or otherwise. It has been hugely supportive during this transition. If you love my work, please sign up to support me here, so I can keep writing, publishing, & sharing things with all of you.

On Writing Erotica

“Any tips for developing the time/habit/discipline to write regularly?” … This is an age-old question for not only writers, but everyone seeking a creative life. There are dozens of books about famous writer’s daily routines, and this is a frequent question asked of writers in interviews. And for good reason — modern daily life is absolutely not set up to prioritize creative play or the spaciousness needed to create. So how do we do it? … Maybe most importantly, how do you do it? Here’s my best ideas and resources about this. — On Developing a Writing Habit

Reading and writing erotica can be an act of rebellion. … We were not taught about sex as a pleasurable act. We were not taught about being in our bodies as something exciting, personal, pleasurable, fun. We were not taught about masturbation, kink, queer sex, or any of the thousands of ways that bodies go together and explore. When we read (and write!) erotica, we take a little bit of that shame away. We claim our birthright of pleasure, as a being in this corporeal body. We stake our right to desire freely, to fantasize, to ponder what would feel amazing to us (or to our characters). — Write the Erotica You Want To See In the World

In the Writing Spicy class in spring 2022, I invited people to honor the names of the people who came before them, people who wrote or created content around queer kink, reclaiming sexuality, and more. It became a powerful list — no, more than a list: a powerful digital altar. It acknowledges our collective lineage, and how much work people have done in order to get us to a place where we can write and publish as freely as we can. — The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica

Erotica

CN: masturbation, zoom dates, some dirty talk including slurs (bitch, cunt, whore), D/s and power dynamics. All characters are over 18 and consenting adults. … I tried to forget you were there. Watching me. Or, you could be, any time you looked over from your work meeting to our Zoom window. I tried to just fuck myself and get off how I would if no one was watching. I flung my arm over my eyes, I let myself bite my upper arm. … I couldn’t entirely forget, ever, of course. I wanted you to see me, wanted to distract you, wanted your attention on me. (Fuck, how I crave that gaze of yours, that way you look at me as if I am the only thing that matters.) The sound was muted, but you know my noises well enough by now. You could fill in the moans and growls, the gasps and heavy breathing. — Switch (protected)

For International Ms Leather/Bootblack 2022, I organized some erotica reading recordings by some incredible talented kinky erotica readers. Here’s the video I put together, of my two stories. — Best Lesbian Erotica – Queer Kink Erotica Reading Video

D/s & Kink Theory

Have y’all come across the phrase “wholesome kink” lately, or at all? … I’ve noticed a rise in it, personally. And I’ve been thinking a lot about whether it’s the right phrase to describe some of the things I/we do, or want to do, or whether “wholesome” is just the wrong word, and that it is inherently an oxymoron to call any kind of kink “wholesome.” — Is Kink Ever “Wholesome”?

I have been in dynamics as a daddy with both a girl and a boy, and these are my thoughts about the fundamental differences of them. … Honestly, my main opinion and point is that they are not that different. They are different primarily because they are two dynamics with two different people, and each Daddy dynamic — each D/s dynamic in general — manifests differently, based on the D and s that are in that dynamic. — How Are Daddy/boy and Daddy/girl Different? (protected)

So you’re a nonbinary person — and you’re kinky! Fantastic. The kinky world of pleasure, sensation, trust, intimacy, and intensity is open to you. Often, there are a lot of expectations for what kind of kink men are into, and what kind of kink women are into (these are stereotypes, and often incorrect). In my experience, nonbinary people have an easier time deconstructing the expectations of the binary gender roles and diving in to really discover what it is they particularly like. You don’t have to subscribe to any of the gender role expectations of what kind of kink men and women “should” enjoy — and this gives you a leg up. You get to make your own treasure map. You get to make your own path. — 9 Tips for Nonbinary Folks Navigating BDSM Community on Zipper Magazine

Smutty Things by Amazing Writers (Guest Posts)

CN: daddy/girl, age play, spanking, fingering, good girl. “I understand it was an accident,” she says, her eyes dancing with mock seriousness, “but you know you’re meant to be careful when you’re colouring in. What do you think will make you remember to be more careful next time?”

“I…” I bite my lip and look down at the pattern on my ankle socks, scuffing one foot over the other, my toes curling as I hesitantly finish my sentence. “I think I need to have my bottom spanked.” — Golden Hour, by Anna Sansom

CN: marriage proposal, transmasc/femme, top surgery, daddy/girl, age play, blow job, fingering, strap-on, fucking, crying, D/s, possession.

When they meet my eyes their expression has changed into something I have only ever seen once or twice in our relationship. It is a fierce desire that paints their face; a desire so strong that I know they have gone there in order to keep the overwhelming emotions at bay. When Cam gets that look, I know they need to go somewhere darker, somewhere kinkier, and my breath catches in my throat at the prospect. … I meet their eye and nod. Telling them whatever it is they need right now, I will give it to them. — All Of This, Guest Erotica by A. L. Brooks

CN: slut, slapping, consensual non-consent, degradation, crying after sex, unhealthy relationship, force, sadism. “Tell me you’re sorry,” I say. They could be apologizing for anything. For being a slut. For being a brat. For making me violent. For dragging me out here on a rainy weekday night, though really they never ask me to come, I bring myself here. Their sin is irrelevant because we are both just here for the punishment. … They don’t say it, and the omission is permission. I thrust again, harder, and their voice breaks as they cry out. — All Villain, All Bully, Guest Post by Kel Hardy

CN: sex, explicit daddy/boy language and roles, and sexual foot play. I am at your feet, of course. I’m not allowed a vibe, not yet, so I’m stroking with my fingers and I have a toy inside, filling me. I am watching dutifully but key sneaking glances up at you. … You are filling the couch with your bulk, big thighs spread powerfully. You palm the dick you are wearing while the full size vibrator underneath rumbles the dick you are not wearing. You push it tighter against your skin and then pull it up and away rhythmically. You lick your lips and settle back in to the leather cushions. … I feel the weight of your calf as you drape your bare foot across my strong bare shoulder. I turn my head to the side and give a tentative lick. You moan deeply and press your toes between my soft sweet lips. I let you in. — At Daddy’s Feet, Guest Post by rife (protected)

Personal Things

When I was 23, I wrote a poem called “The Right One,” and I performed it (a lot) for the next 8 years or so. I haven’t done it much lately, but I dusted it off for a few performances in 2022. Here’s a video of it, and the words. — The Right One

when we lived in the big brown house
with the sun-baked deck
too hot to walk out there barefoot
though I did it anyway

I thought I was miserable
but when I look back
I think I was happy

— Sun-Baked Deck (protected)

“There’s a common story that when relationships end, they have failed. But I strongly believe that isn’t the case.” This is the post where I talk about the end of my 11 year Owner/property, Daddy/boy, D/s relationship with rife. — Graduation (protected)

Workshops & Teaching

I ran a lot of online workshops in 2022! Most significantly, I ran Writing Spicy, the online erotica writing group, twice — and, holy shit, some incredible writing came out of that. I also ran D/s Playground, the online course rife and I began in 2014. It’s always such deep, incredible conversations about D/s and power exchange, about the realities of surrender and power, and about how to navigate all the external forces that knock us around. Writing Spicy continues to inspire me so much — each time I read through everyone’s final works, I feel like I really should step up my own erotica writing. They’re so good! (I have dreams of a Writing Spicy anthology, but that’s in the future.)

Thanks to everyone who read my work (& continues to), to all of you who have been working with me 1:1 or in writing groups or D/s groups. Special thanks to everyone who supports me on Patreon, too. Thank you.

Can’t wait to see what 2023 will bring!

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Sinclair’s 2023 Calendar

Here’s where I’ll be and what I’ll be teaching — online & in person — in 2023!

This page will be updated as things are added.

Last updated: September 23, 2023

September

September 14, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy (2h) through Bloom
September 18, 2023 | online | guest lecture for Writing the Erotic, online course by Sara Youngblood Gregory
September 24, 2023 | online | Solo Polyamory Day (my talk is at 12:30pm PT)
September 26, 2023 | online | The Vulnerable Dominant through Wicked Grounds

October

October 6, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy: Erotica Writing Group starts! & runs through November 15
October 12, 2023 | online | Sexual Politics of Kink through Bloom
October 18, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through SADE
October 26, 2023 | online | Protocol Game through Wicked Grounds

November

November 9, 2023 | online | Cock Confidence through Bloom
November 10-12, 2023 | in person | Leather Reign
November 18, 2023 | online | TBA
November 28, 2023 | online | Your Year In Kink through Wicked Grounds

December

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January

January 30, 2023 | online | Daddy4Daddy Erotica Reading

February

February 4-5, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Strap-On Embodiment with Dickfest (recorded)
February 17, 2023 | online | High Protocol with 7 Days of Domination (recorded)
February 28, 2023 | online | Daddy4Daddy Erotica Reading (private)

March

March 10, 2023 | in person | Queer Love: Listen To Your Skin erotic reading in Seattle through AWP
March 11, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange with Marcia B
March 22, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Strap-On Embodiment with the Exiles
March 26, 2023 | online | Best Lesbian Erotica at Listen To Your Skin
March 29, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

April

April 20-23, 2023 | in person | International Ms Leather / International Ms Bootblack Conference
April 26, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

May

May 23, 2023 | online | Writing Spicy (2 hour version) through Wicked Grounds | tickets | FL | FB | MU
May 31, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

June

June 27, 2023 | online | Make It Yours: Embodying Your Strap On through Wicked Grounds
June 28, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

July

July 5, 2023 | online | The Desire Body through EroSomatics
July 8, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through Black Thorn
July 8, 2023 | online | High Protocol for D/s through MAsT: Auckland
July 25, 2023 | online | The Sexual Politics of Kink through Wicked Grounds
July 26, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

August

August 3-6, 2023 | in person | Northwest Leather Celebration
August 10-13, 2023 | in person | Boundless
August 16-22, 2023 | online | The Kink Bundle!
August 17, 2023 | online | The Paradox of Polyamory & Power Exchange through Bloom
August 21, 2023 | online | Conversation with Arielle Greenberg about Superfreaks (free)
August 22, 2023 | online | The Art of Ownership through Wicked Grounds
August 23, 2023 | online | Paradox: Polyamory & D/s Discussion Group

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Upcoming (Online) Erotica Readings: Best Lesbian Erotica, Writing Spicy, & Daddy4Daddy

Smut Peddlers presents: Writing Spicy

Sunday, December 11, 2022, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET

hosted by Kel Hardy
through Glad Day Books, Toronto
online, free

featuring:
Leo Wilder
Miriam Ruby
L.A. Murphy
Orlando Silver
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Murúch Fír
Miro Bird
J. Bryce
and
Sinclair Sexsmith

To tune in on GDTV:
Just add us on ZOOM: https://zoom.us/my/gladday
Meeting ID: 619-763-5308
Password is: 1970
(you can also phone in and listen: 647 558 0588)

Fornicatio cum laude: iconic butch erotica writer and editor Sinclair Sexsmith is partnering with Smut Peddlers to present an evening of readings by students, the culmination of the queer kinkster author’s Writing Spicy workshop.

Writing Spicy is a five week class on constructing erotic stories. Part classroom, part writing group, writers explore the craft of short erotic stories, focusing on the craft of storytelling and how erotica is different than stories without erotic content.

This event is presented by the Smut Peddlers, Glad Day’s own wildly successful evening of erotica and sexy writing from young queer, trans and non-binary writers at the world’s oldest surviving LGBTQ bookstore.

Co-organizer and course leader Sinclair Sexsmith is joined by Smut Peddler co-producer (spicy writer supreme) and the evening’s host, Kel Hardy. Smut Peddlers couldn’t be more excited… maybe a little TOO excited… to partner with Sinclair for an evening of spicy readings.


Best Lesbian Erotica panel at Charis Books

Wednesday, December 14, 2022, 7:30-8:30pm ET / 4:30-5:30pm PT

Details on Charis’s website here.

This event takes place on Crowdcast. Register here!

Charis celebrates Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 7, edited by Sinclair Sexsmith. In addition to the editor, other panelists include: Asha Leong, Lilith Young, Fiona Zedde, and La Toya Hankins. Dive into these 19 varied stories and experience a first time after a gender confirming surgery, transport to another time for a sexy heist with a forbidden lover, or even have one last hoorah with some swingers on the night before everything changes. Keep reading—you may just discover something new about yourself, or see yourself reflected in these provocative stories.

About the panelists:

Sinclair Sexsmith (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at sugarbutch.net.

Asha Leong is healer, coach and trainer focused on helping queer, trans, people of color thrive. Asha has a deep passion for helping people heal, understand, create, and manifest their personal vision of sexual liberation. Asha is an ordained earth based healer with Awareness Insight Ministries, Inc., with over a decade of training in her craft. Asha specializes in horoscope readings, spiritual coaching, shamanic energy healing and teaching about sexual liberation. Asha founded the Sexual Liberation Collective which is an intentional collective of people who are passionate about healing and sexual liberation in 2012. Through her practice Dreaming Desires Asha help’s queer, trans, people of color heal from trauma, create relationships, life plan, name their desires, build queer family and manifest their personal vision of sexual liberation into the world. Asha is an erotic writer and is excited to be published in Best Lesiban Erotica 2023.

Jamaican-born Fiona Zedde currently lives and writes in Madrid, Spain. She is the author of several novellas and novels of lesBiQueer love and desire, including the Lambda Literary Award finalists, Bliss and Every Dark Desire. Her novel, Dangerous Pleasures, was the winner of an About.com Readers’ Choice Award for Best Lesbian Novel or Memoir. Find out more at www.FionaZedde.com.

Lilith Young is a queer autistic writer. She spends her days baking, writing, and wishing she could adopt every dog she meets. Growing up in the American deep south she hopes to write the stories she wished she could have read when she was coming out in college.

La Toya Hankins is the author of SBF Seeking and K-Rho: The Sweet Taste of Sisterhood as well as short stories including “Married to the Struggle,” “Heat Wave-Southport,” and “Ghosted.” Her work has been featured in anthologies Black From the Future and Lez Talk: A Collection of Black Lesbian Short Stories, published by BLF Press and she is a regular book reviewer for the Black Lesbian Literary Collective. She has written for two blogs, “Hot Tea and Ice” featured at www.wyettevans.com and “Pate and Caviar” featured on her website, www.latoyahankins.com. Hankins is a native of North Carolina and currently resides in Durham, NC.

More info:

This event is free and open to all people, especially to those who have no income or low income right now, but we encourage and appreciate a solidarity donation in support of the work of Charis Circle, our programming non-profit. Charis Circle’s mission is to foster sustainable feminist communities, work for social justice, and encourage the expression of diverse and marginalized voices.

Please contact us at info@chariscircle.org or 404-524-0304 if you would like ASL interpretation at this event. If you would like to watch the event with live AI captions, you may do so by watching it in Google Chrome and enabling captions: Instructions here. If you have other accessibility needs or if you are someone who has skills in making digital events more accessible please don’t hesitate to reach out to info@chariscircle.org. We are actively learning the best practices for this technology and we welcome your feedback as we begin this new way of connecting across distances.

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Best Lesbian Erotica at Drunken! Careening! Writers!

Thursday, December 15, 7pm ET

Online reading celebrating the release of Best Lesbian Erotica volume 7
Register here: https://bit.ly/BLEatDCW

We won’t be together in person this month, but we will be meeting online for our annual holiday tradition: a reading from BLE! DCW has featured readers from the BLE series for its release since 2004.

Featuring:
Cameron Night
SJ
Sonni de Soto
Stephani Maari Booker
Sinclair Sexsmith

About the readers:

CAMERON NIGHT is a queer butch writer based in New York City, where she works as an editor. She spends her free time writing queer love stories and playing softball.

SONNI de SOTO is an Asian geek of color who loves that cosplay and conventions allow you to step into a completely new world and explore new sides of yourself. de Soto has had the privilege of publishing romantic erotica novels and stories with The Sexy Librarian, Cleis Press, Sexy Little Pages, and many others. Find more from her at patreon.com/sonnidesotoallaccess and follow her at instagram.com/sonni_de_soto.

STEPHANI MAARI BOOKER dedicates her published erotica to the memory of her pen pal friend, the late writer Xan West. She has stories in Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year Volume 6, Owning It: Embracing Our Bodies, Sexuality, and Power (Rhiannon Rhys-Jones, Sienna Saint-Cyr & S.B. Roark, editors; SinCyr Publishing, 2018), Coming Together: Girl on Girl (Leigh Ellwood, editor; EroticAnthology.org, 2013), and Longing, Lust and Love: Black Lesbian Stories (Shonia L. Brown, editor; Nghosi Books, 2007). For more information about her work, go to athenapersephoni.com.

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at sugarbutch.net.


Spicy Showcase: Queer, Trans, & Nonbinary Erotica Reading

Sunday, December 18, 2022, 10am-12pm PT / 1-3pm ET

hosted by Sinclair Sexsmith
online through Zoom, free
Register here: https://bit.ly/spicyshowcase
Facebook event: https://fb.me/e/3ff0rOEOP

Featuring:
Titus Androgynous
Hannah Rose
Lilith Young
Faith Arrowsmith
z
Arden Sofia
Ursa A. Viridian
Grace
Lux Steinberg
and
Kiki DeLovely

About the feature:

Kiki DeLovely (http://kikidelovely.wordpress.com) is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, non-binary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world. She now makes her home on Occaneechi-Saponi land.


Daddy4Daddy Erotica Readings with Orlando Silver & Sinclair Sexsmith

30 December, 2022 & 30 January, 2023, 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

Come hear Orlando Silver and Sinclair Sexsmith read erotica!

We’ll be reading rough drafts, unpublished, and so far unheard works about daddy4daddy romance, sex, kink, and big feelings. Ask us questions ahead of time and we’ll choose some of our favorites to answer. Come see them both try to make each other blush.

This is in part a place to share our work, and in part a fundraiser to help us cover travel costs to see each other (and generate more material to share with YOU). Tickets are $20 ($50 if you come to all 3!), or by a sliding scale donation of any amount ($5? $100? $3,000? Fantastic).

Can’t wait to see you there.

In North America:

  • 30 November, 2022
  • 30 December, 2022
  • 30 January, 2023
  • 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

In Australia:

  • 1 December, 2022
  • 31 December, 2022
  • 31 January, 2023
  • 12-1pm AEDT

 

About the readers:

ORLANDO SILVER (they/he) is a queer enby hiding out in Sydney, Australia. They have published stories in Big Book of Orgasms 2 and Best Lesbian Erotica 6, and are the author of Soft Fruit. The key to their heart is to buy them good fiction or possibly coffee. You can find them on Instagram as http://www.instagram.com/say_please_baby

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at http://sugarbutch.net.

event

Daddy4Daddy Erotica Readings with Orlando Silver & Sinclair Sexsmith

Come hear Orlando Silver and Sinclair Sexsmith read erotica!

We’ll be reading rough drafts, unpublished, and so far unheard works about daddy4daddy romance, sex, kink, and big feelings. Ask us questions ahead of time and we’ll choose some of our favorites to answer. Come see them both try to make each other blush.

This is in part a place to share our work, and in part a fundraiser to help us cover travel costs to see each other (and generate more material to share with YOU). Tickets are $20 ($50 if you come to all 3!), or by a sliding scale donation of any amount ($5? $100? $3,000? Fantastic).

Can’t wait to see you there.

In North America:

  • 30 November, 2022
  • 30 December, 2022
  • 30 January, 2023
  • 5-6pm PT / 8-9pm ET

In Australia:

  • 1 December, 2022
  • 31 December, 2022
  • 31 January, 2023
  • 12-1pm AEDT

 

About the readers:

ORLANDO SILVER (they/he) is a queer enby hiding out in Sydney, Australia. They have published stories in Big Book of Orgasms 2 and Best Lesbian Erotica 6, and are the author of Soft Fruit. The key to their heart is to buy them good fiction or possibly coffee. You can find them on Instagram as http://www.instagram.com/say_please_baby

SINCLAIR SEXSMITH (they/them) is a queer butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the current editor of the Best Lesbian Erotica series. Find more of their work at http://sugarbutch.net.

miscellany

Elust #155 includes My Story “Switch”

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month.

Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

Want to be included in Elust #156? Send in a post anytime and I’ll add it to the next edition.

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Oz

Erotic Fiction

Going to the Ball

Bedroom Eyes 14

Sizzling Nibbles: Devilry and Debauchery

Switch

Quickies: I Jerked Off To My Mom’s Best Friend Masturbating

All the Mistress Money – Part 4

Events

Exxxotica Wrap-Up Part One

Product Reviews

Review of Je Joue Mimi Clitoral and External Vibrator – Lilac

The Slubb

Stardust by Kreature Adult Toys

Erotic Non Fiction

His Bitch

Tinsel In The Letterbox

Writing about Writing

Moon Feather Has Been Published!

Writing About the Smells and Sounds of Sex

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Cock Cage THESE 3 Types of Kinky Submissives!

Learning to Handle My Hand Fetish

Bathroom Pass

Sadists Twister: The Party Game For Pain Sluts

Sex Work

Fetish Porn shoot at Blue Door Dungeon

Bonny Glasgow Sissy Feminisation

miscellany

Bring a Friend to D/s Playground

D/s Playground rides again!

I started this online course in 2014 with rife, and since then it has evolved and been polished up many different ways. Very excited to run it LIVE again this summer, starting in July, and to dive deep into chatting about power dynamics with a community.

Some folks have asked if there’s a discount for couples, or triads.

The short answer is no, not exactly — but there is a discount code to bring a friend for $100 off!

The course is $400, and when one person signs up, they’ll get a discount code for $100 off that they can use for up to two more people. That means two people signing up will be $700 instead of $800, and three people signing up will be $1000, instead of $1200.

Here are some ways you could use this bring a friend discount code:

  • Talk a friend into attending with you, and be accountability buddies for the course together
  • Send it to your partner and do the course together
  • Share that you have a $100 off discount code to your kinky friends list on Facebook, and see if anybody wants to join in
  • Take the course with two of the people in your polycule
  • Reach out and post in some of the kink groups you’re in and see if anybody else wants to take the course — and perhaps you’ll even become friends through the experience!
  • Post about it on Lex and see if it gets you any interesting responses
  • Offer it to that hottie that you want to play with!

… I’m sure you can think of other people and other ways you could use this discount, too!

Registration for D/s Playground closes July 16th — make sure you sign up before then! Come join us for 8 weeks of sexy, fun, customizable experiments to take your D/s deeper.

miscellany

Elust #149 includes “Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?”

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month.

Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

Want to be included in Elust #150? Send in a post anytime and I’ll add it to the next edition.

Please subcribe to email updates to receive two emails per month from Elust. A reminder once a month on the 1st to send in submissions and a copy of the latest edition of Elust on the 15th of every month.

Featured Post by the Winner of Elust Contest for April, The Barefoot Sub.

Turning The Tables

Erotic Fiction

Safe Chapter 5

Moon Feather: Part 38: A Little Scandal

Mistress Widow

Riding Natasha

Strict Legislation

Sex Work

Voulez Vous Coucher Avec Moi, Ce Soir?

In Poland With Mr W and a Suitcase Full of Dildos

Erotic Non Fiction

Having Her Way with Me

Worship

The First Time I Had My Pussy Eaten

Interviews

Podopheleus interviews Oz Bigdownunder

On The Whorizon Interviews Hunny Daniels

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

Sex and Polyamory

This…

Permission to come!

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?

Product Reviews

A Witch And Their Wands: Favorite Wand Vibrators

Bubblefunny Bubble Flower Beauty

Types of Dildo Bases ⁠— and 6 things you could do with them

kink

Is Kink (Ever) Wholesome?

Have y’all come across the phrase “wholesome kink” lately, or at all?

I’ve noticed a rise in it, personally. And I’ve been thinking a lot about whether it’s the right phrase to describe some of the things I/we do, or want to do, or whether “wholesome” is just the wrong word, and that it is inherently an oxymoron to call any kind of kink “wholesome.”

Let’s start with the dictionary.

Part of the problem is in the definition of “wholesome.” Most folks — in my circles, anyway — associate it with a 1950s cisheteronormativity that enforces white supremacy culture and racial capitalism. And, often with some flavor of Christianity, and top-down power structures that dictate what is “good” and “moral” and right, and what isn’t.

The actual dictionary definition of wholesome is “conducive to or suggestive of good health and physical well-being.”

This definition I can work with. The stereotypes around it, or the particular groups who mostly use the word “wholesome” and the connotations that it therefore picks up along the way, are harder to get around. And perhaps my question to you all is, can we do it? Can we reclaim “wholesome” from the suburban, Christian, nuclear family conservatives as kinksters, as queers, as trans and nonbinary folks? Can we, too, use wholesome, and intend it to mean something that goes along with our radical values of liberation and freedom and care for each other?

I don’t know, really. I mean — I think we can. I really like the idea of “wholesome kink” in general. But when I use this phrase with folks, sometimes I have seen big resistance to it.

What I mean by “wholesome kink” specifically

There are so many different kinds of kink — and I don’t necessarily mean the actual physical acts, like flogging, bondage, wax play. I mean, the feeling and tone behind the activities. Flogging could be done in a completely menacing way, or tender and playful, or boring and so neutral it feels devoid of any feeling. (I often think of Mollena Williams-Haas’s video Impact when I think about this — watch it if you haven’t already, it’s pretty short, a little more than 6 minutes.) Some kinds of kink are more tender and sweet, with a tone of nourishment, play, and kindness. Those are the ones that I’m thinking of when I think of “wholesome kink.”

Of course, there are mean, “dark,” even violent kinks, too, and there’s nothing wrong with liking those. Those are legit and fantastic in all kinds of ways. Personally, I tend to play there more than I play in wholesome kink, in my private life, but I also value the wholesome connections that I cultivate, the ones that are just very clearly about being “conducive to or suggestive of good health and physical well-being.” Maybe it’s a cathartic, sensual beating or sweet, slow, connected sex. I need those, just as much as I need the riskier scenes where I push edges, humiliate, devalue, or guide someone through a struggle.

When I think of “wholesome,” I also think of TV shows like The Good Place and Ted Lasso and Pushing Daisies. I don’t know if there’s a particular name for this genre now, but they strike me as somehow child-like (not child-ish), with their bold, bright colors, saturation, costumes, and sometimes over-the-top optimism, and yet they are balanced with very real, very deep human experiences of pain, loss, confusion, death.

I’m sure there are many other examples of media like this, but it doesn’t tend to be my genre really, so there is probably much that I’ve missed.

I’m very curious about what y’all think of using “wholesome” for something like kink, particularly when it seems like kink has been stereotyped as the most unwholesome thing, as a practice, by those outside of our communities. But, for those of us within kink, doesn’t it make sense to think about the areas of this community that really are wholesome? And separating that from the areas that are a little more intentionally about playing with the shadow side of the psyche, “dark” emotions, or dangerous experiences.

I’m open to using other words, if this word is just the wrong fit. But what are those options? Nothing quite captures things the way “wholesome” does, for me.

What about you?

guest posts

All Villain, All Bully, Guest Post by Kel Hardy

Content: slut, slapping, consensual non-consent, degradation, crying after sex, unhealthy relationship, force, sadism

If they knew what they wanted, it would make this so much easier. But then again, maybe the only reason I am buzzing their buzzer at 3:15am on a Wednesday is because this isn’t easy. When they let me in and I stumble up the stairs, I have no way of knowing which way this night will go. Maybe they’ll sit me on the couch and feed me snacks and talk my ear off until I’m sober enough to understand this is a bad idea. Maybe they’ll be sullen tonight, quiet, put a movie on or a record until I fall asleep and they nudge me awake with their foot, telling me it’s time to get out. Maybe they’ll have someone else there, and they let me up just so I can hear them through the door. It’s never happened, but I could see them doing something just like that.

Or maybe it will be one of those nights they answer in a silky robe, cigarette held in hand because they know the cherry pucker of their lips on the end drives me mad, that the taste of tobacco and tar on their tongue is the closest I have ever come to addiction. Maybe it’s a night they preen and pose, strutting around so their robe gapes open over their pretty boy flat chest and their brand-new body hair, daring me to stare, daring me to be ogle, until they finally lean forward to spit in my face.

“What, I thought you liked sluts?”

And that makes me all villain, all bully, all mean, grabbing them by their hair and dragging them down, down. They gasp and whine their way onto the floor, on to their knees. I make them kneel on bathroom tile right where the lines of grout cross, and when they wince I slap them, hard, making their cheek bloom red. They just look up at me again, eyes defiant, and whine even louder, their bright red mouth gaping filthily, so far from the cherry pucker they seduced me with. I unclasp my belt, undo my fly, and shove my cock into their taunting mouth. The sound of them choking, their arms flailing, their eyes watering – I smile down at them with immense satisfaction.

I do like sluts, very much so, but only like this.

Only bent over the bed with their robe stripped away, facing the full length mirror across the room. They’re a pervert, they like to watch, and I like to make it hard for them to. I wear my biggest cock, the one that stretches them too tight, the one that makes them bleed if I don’t lube it right. And they tell me no but I ignore it, because they don’t mean it and they’ve told me so. I grab their skinny boy hips and their pretty round ass and I shove it in all the way to the base so they scream in a way that could concern the neighbours.

“Tell me you’re sorry,” I say.

They could be apologizing for anything. For being a slut. For being a brat. For making me violent. For dragging me out here on a rainy weekday night, though really they never ask me to come, I bring myself here. Their sin is irrelevant because we are both just here for the punishment.

They don’t say it, and the omission is permission. I thrust again, harder, and their voice breaks as they cry out.

“No, stop,” they say.

“Say you’re sorry,” I reply.

They don’t, so I sink my nails into their hips.

“Aren’t you going to say you’re fucking sorry?” I demand, thrusting as I do. I pause on the last thrust, dick pulled almost all the way out, watching their face in the mirror. They open their eyes briefly, look at me, and shake their head no.

Every time I think they’ve found the darkest part of me, they reach in deeper.

Over and over I slam into them, relentlessly. I watch tears stream down their face as my dick pounds their hole, I am certain they’ll feel this all day tomorrow. I grab a fistful of their pretty black curls, make them arch back towards me.

“You deserve this,” I tell them. “Do you understand? You fucking deserve this.”

They’re sobbing with their whole body now, howls of ecstatic pain.

“Tell me what you are,” I say, testing if they can talk.

“Yours,” they gasp. “I’m your pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m your pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m a pathetic slut.”

“Again.”

“I’m—” their voice breaks, and then it all comes out in a rush. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

The apologies continue in a never ending stream as I pull out and release my grip on their hips. This is when they finally break, this is when they stop their defiance, their poses, their disregard. This is when they finally want me, need me, curling in my arms sobbing, apologizing, and it might not be for anything outside of this room, but I can pretend it is. I can take them in my arms and stroke their pretty messed up curls and kiss the tears from their cheeks. I can pretend the salt water on my lips is more than just catharsis, I can pretend this means something. Maybe these dark parts of yourself can only belong in the bedrooms of people you do not love. Or maybe this is love and we are both too scared to name it, too broken to hold it.

poetry

The Right One

When I was 23, I wrote a poem called “The Right One,” and I performed it (a lot) for the next 8 years or so. I haven’t done it much lately, but I dusted it off for a couple of the Writing Spicier class showcases — and I’m so glad I did!

Some folks said they had no idea I used to do performance poetry, and had never heard this piece, so it’s clearly time to revive it. Here’s a few ways to listen / watch / read it yourself, if you’d like to.

The Right One

so I know ya’ll aren’t just here for the poetry
That certainly isn’t the only thing that happens on this stage
And I’ve seen you out there
gauging us poets
auditioning us for our oral skills:
how fast I can tongue my staccato
how long I can keep the poem rhythm up
and hard
and driving,
pounding,
persistent
how much languid lapping detail
I can alternate with tight lipped teeth
and tricky consonants.

What?

You don’t care much for poetry?
Never really did it for you?
Well, maybe you just haven’t had the right
poet
yet:
one that distills truth down to such simple depths
that your heart softens and liquefies
your life on the outside falls away
and all you feel is the poem
the line
the phrase
the word
the syllable
the ta ta ta of the tongue against the teeth
or the pooling of the tongue
at the bottom of the mouth
in an mmmmmm.
Poets, we know about mouths
like that
And we know about hands
where to put them and when
when to press and when to cradle
and when to punch it.

And that audience, you’re tough –
you know how to read the signs
the rhythm, the grind
the accentuation of certain key phrases
and crescendos
if I’m not cradling the space
as I’m picking up the pace
if I’m not planted firm and stead
when I’m getting you all ready
you’re gonna know it
you’re gonna feel it
my lips, my breath
my words taking you up
and to the edge of your seat –
because I’ve got the writer’s way of looking at the world,
it won’t be boring or redundant,
impersonal
or unsatisfying
no.
I’ve got minute details to activate variation
on the patterns and the rhythms
I know you like.

you see, I’ve been on top
of this stage
a lot. and I know
what gets you hot.
I know what gets this place bursting,
what gets you leaning forward,
mouth watering,
watching my lips
my chest with my every breath
my hands when I lift and float
and I know you’ve seen my fingers –
writing gives us all that extra dexterity,
but you already knew that.
you’ve seen what writer’s hands can do,
where they can go,
what syntax they can bring,
what it’s like to have the ring
of a dismount in your head,
clinging and blazing,
like the denouement after climax
when your body tingles and frays for days.

and me?
it just takes some simple little phrase,
and I’m gone.
I’m yours.
I’m standing up here
under all these bright lights,
my every fault showing through,
my character an unwilling flaw in everything I do,
I’m opening to you
so you may catch
a shimmering glimpse of what happens inside,
in that moment of terror,
when I’m cracked open and seeping
from all my tender places
so that you might just see
what’s inside of me
is inside of you, too.

so bring
it
on.
watch me up here,
watching you on display,
I’m doing all the work
while you can just sit back and take it.
but I’m sure you know taking it in
takes just as much as dishing it out.
and me, I’m doing this just for you,
cause I know how much you want it, secretly,
to be rocked by some sweet piece up here,
just for you,
with my tongue against my teeth
my throat wet
my wrists strong and pulsing
just for you,
my feet planted firm
this mic as my simple instrument
just for you,
my body, my tone
my placement, my poem,
I’m putting it out there,
and you can decide
if you came here tonight
and found
the right one.

miscellany

Elust #147 includes “The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica”

Elust is the only place where the smartest and hottest sex bloggers are featured under one roof every month.

Whether you’re looking for sex journalism, erotic writing, relationship advice or kinky discussions, it’ll be here at Elust.

Want to be included in Elust #147? Send in a post anytime and I’ll add it to the next edition.

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Featured Post by the Winner of Elust Contest for February, Sir Thomas, The Cunning Linctus.

Limited Edition

Sex News, Opinion, Interviews, Politics & Humor

How Many People Use Vibrators? +11 Vibrator Statistics

Erotic Fiction

An Unconventional Valentine

Droit de Seigneur 29

Third Sun

Moon Feather: Part 26: Ask Pretty

Female Domination Mistress Swears She is Driven by Love!

Teaching the Alien BDSM

Mutual Satisfaction

Erotic Non-Fiction

Commissioned Painting of Goddess Severa by Dirk Hooper

Rainbow in the Dark

Dear Dolly – a Jolene Fanfic piece

Nyotaimori

Sex Work

Culture & Debauchery in London

Bathtime

Duo with Maîtresse Nuit

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

Let This Wolf Devour You, The sheep…

Dungeon Etiquette 101

“ESP ON THE BUTTOCKS” – first chapter of a book

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

The Lost Art of Phone Sex

Building a Mono-Poly Relationship, Maybe?

5 Ill-Advised Items I’ve Used as Sex Toys (& What I Should’ve Used Instead)

Books and Movies

The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica

Book Review- Neon Gods by Katee Robert (2021)

Writing about writing

Communicating With Other EROTICA Writers

guest posts

All Of This, Guest Erotica by A. L. Brooks

Content: marriage proposal, transmasc/femme, top surgery, daddy/girl, age play, blow job, fingering, strap-on, fucking, crying, D/s, possession. Characters are consenting adults.

Cam proposes to me in bright sunshine on a crisp spring day, down on one knee in our favorite nature reserve. When they suddenly kneel in front of me, I fear I will burst into tears before they get a word out.

“Baby, please make me the happiest person on the planet and agree to be my wife?”

My ‘yes’ is probably heard from a mile away. I didn’t know such happiness was possible.

As soon as I say ‘yes’ Cam is up on their feet, sweeping me into their arms, our tears mingling as we switch between kissing deeply and simply pressing our bodies together in as close a hug as we can manage.

“Let’s go back,” I whisper, emotion swamping me. “I need you on me. In me.”

Cam nods, their breathing ragged.

We jump into the car and Cam drives us quickly back to our hotel. Within the limitations of the front seat and Cam’s need to concentrate on the road, our hands are everywhere on each other, ramping up the tension as we drive.

It’s always like this. Hot, intense, making me ache for everything Cam can give me. Our physical relationship had originally taken time to get off the ground—my doing, mostly, after troubles in a previous relationship. Cam had been incredibly patient and understanding, but it also meant that when I was finally ready, it was the 4th of July and Christmas all rolled into one.

We had started off slow, nicely vanilla, then suddenly one weekend, when things got a little more forceful, it was as if a curtain lifted. Cam’s dominance and my submissiveness came to the fore, and we settled into our roles as if born to play them. Sometimes they are Cam, sometimes Sir, and sometimes just babe. All parts of Cam, however, are parts I desire, no matter how kinky or not.

When we arrive at the door to our hotel room Cam unlocks it with the keycard, but then steps aside to let me enter first. As I do, I stop dead in my tracks. The room is lit with only two small lamps but it’s more than enough illumination to see that there are red and white rose petals strewn everywhere. On the polished wood of the floor, on the bed, on the chaise that angles into the room from beneath the large picture window.

“When … when did you do this?” I gaze at Cam in wonder.

They quirk a smile. “Phoned the hotel just after we arrived at the reserve, while you were checking out that crappy gift shop.”

I laugh. “You were pretty sure I’d say yes, huh?”

“Just incredibly hopeful.” They blush.

“Oh my God,” I murmur, reaching for them. “You are amazing.”

We scramble to undress, throwing clothes into random corners, taking moments to touch skin that is revealed. A squeeze here, a kiss there, a caress that lingers.

Once we’re naked, Cam waits for a moment, watching me.

“What?” I ask, gently, for once not quite sure how to read their expression.

They sigh. “You will never know just how happy you have made me today.” Their voice cracks with emotion. “There literally aren’t words to explain it.”

A few tears escape their eyes. Cam likes to pretend they’re the non-emotional one in this relationship, but they definitely have their moments.

“Are you okay, baby?” I ask, stroking the side of their face.

They say nothing, and I hold them close while they continue to cry. The scars from their top surgery a few months back press into me, but they’ve already told me so many times they don’t hurt and that I shouldn’t hold back. So I don’t; I keep them close, my arms tight around them.

After a while they pull back. When they meet my eyes their expression has changed into something I have only ever seen once or twice in our relationship. It is a fierce desire that paints their face; a desire so strong that I know they have gone there in order to keep the overwhelming emotions at bay.

When Cam gets that look, I know they need to go somewhere darker, somewhere kinkier, and my breath catches in my throat at the prospect.

I meet their eye and nod. Telling them whatever it is they need right now, I will give it to them.

Cam exhales slowly. “I’m going to get you something to change into. You need to get changed while I am in the bathroom.”

They walk across the room to their deep, leather overnight bag. When they turn back to me, and I see what’s in their hands, I can’t help the quick inhale that sounds like a gasp.

I meet their eyes.

Cam is imploring me with their gaze, and I can’t say no, even as a part of me wonders just what it is about this particular kink we both can’t resist.

They walk quickly over to me and hand me the item before reaching back for their bag and striding off into the bathroom.

I am left in the middle of the room clutching the white fabric in my hand.

We have only done this once before. When it first happened, we had talked about it, agreed to it, even though both of us were uncomfortable about it.

But also unbelievably turned on by it.

It was my fault. I had read a couple of erotic short stories in a butch/femme anthology, and although I had struggled with how much I had reacted to them—never so wet in my life—I had bookmarked the pages for future masturbatory reference.

Cam had discovered my marked pages one day, and had sat themselves down to read both stories. I had retreated to another room while they did so, scared witless as to what their reaction would be.

When Cam found me, twenty minutes later, they said nothing. Instead, they reached for my hand and, after undoing the zip of their jeans, pushed my fingers into their shorts and into their extremely wet pussy.

I had looked up at them in a mixture of awe and relief, and they had smiled.

“It’s okay,” Cam had whispered, then given me a wry smile. “Well, it’s probably not okay, on a few levels, but it is okay, because we both think so. Yes?”

And I had nodded, so grateful that they understood.

Then Cam had turned up at my place the next weekend with the white article I currently hold in my hands, and we had enacted our own version of those short stories, and we had both come so hugely we had seen stars. We had both felt a modicum of shame afterwards, but a shared shame seemed less of a burden than one carried alone.

And now, clearly Cam wants a repeat. Has planned a repeat, and I don’t know how that makes me feel. Other than completely turned on again, and so I must go with my baser instinct, whatever this desire is, whatever its foundation.

The white cotton T-shirt is long enough to reach only just beneath my bare buttocks. On the front is a picture of a cartoon character, something someone considerably younger than I would find amusing. This is all part of the role.

I glance once at myself in the mirror above the desk. I look so much younger, and I shudder with something I don’t want to name or face up to.

I turn away from the mirror.

Part of me can’t quite believe this is how we are choosing to celebrate our engagement. The kinkiest, dirtiest thing we will probably ever share. And yet, there is a kind of poetry about that. This is by far the most emotional day we have shared, and it has clearly affected Cam in a monumental way. What better way to counteract that, to avoid it swamping them, than to flip to the complete opposite? Something so base, so naughty, so wrong, to offset everything that is so right about us?

And yet even this is right. We both want it; we will never deny that to each other.

Cam walks confidently back into the room. They’re wearing a plain white t-shirt over a pair of plaid pajama bottoms, the type with the open front slit for easy access.

I don’t look too closely, but the bulge of what awaits me is obvious. I shiver with the anticipation.

“You look very lovely, my sweet girl,” Cam says, as they stand a few feet away from me.

I slip so easily into my role, plastering an adoring look on my face while I make my posture as demure as possible.

“Thank you, Daddy,” I say, blushing.

“Oh, sweet girl.” Cam reaches out to stroke my jawline with one finger. “Daddy is so happy to be here with you right now. How about you come and sit with me awhile before you go to bed?”

Oh God, they’re playing this so well.

I swallow before responding. “Yes, Daddy, I’d like that.”

Cam walks to the chaise and eases down on to it. They perch languidly, surrounded by rose petals.

I can’t help my gaze being drawn to the bulge in their pajamas and my pussy gets wetter.

As I walk toward Cam, hesitantly, they smile encouragingly.

“Your hair looks lovely, my special girl,” they whisper. “Come and sit on Daddy’s lap and tell me all about how you made it look so pretty.”

I’m actually finding it hard to walk, my pussy is so swollen. I step towards them as gracefully as I can, then sit down across their lap. I wrap my arms around their shoulders, and wriggle my hips until my buttocks are sitting between their open thighs, just below the bulge of their cock.

“Oh, that feels lovely, doesn’t it, sweet girl?” Cam’s throaty voice is so convincing it makes me quiver.

I nod, pressing my face into their neck. “I like it a lot, Daddy.”

“Good girl,” Cam says, stroking my hair with one hand while the other rests on my hip. “I do like cuddling my special girl.”

“Mm,” I mumble into their neck, genuinely enjoying this cuddle, all kinkiness aside.

“So,” Cam continues, just as strongly in character. “Why did you make your hair so pretty?”

I raise my head to look at them. “For you, Daddy.” I hear the slight catch in my voice, but I’m also aware that this has an instant, gratifying effect on them.

They squeeze me a little tighter and bring me nearer, and I feel their cock press into the side of my thigh.

My pussy is gushing.

“Oh, sweet girl. Aren’t you just perfect for your Daddy.” Cam strokes my hair some more, and suddenly I am aware that their other hand is down on my thigh.

Their fingertips start stroking, ever so gently. My skin burns where they touch and my clit throbs.

“I want to be,” I say. “I want to be perfect for you, Daddy.”

Cam chuckles. “And you are, my good girl. You are perfect. Daddy loves you very much.”

“And I love you, Daddy.”

Their fingers are stroking a wider pattern now, causing the edge of the T-shirt to ride up.

I’m aching for them to get between my legs, but I know that this is their show and I must play to their timetable.

“Do you remember the last time you sat on my lap, sweet girl?”

I look at Cam and blush, like a good girl should. “I remember, Daddy.”

“Do you remember how you made Daddy very happy that day?”

“I do, Daddy.” I pause. “Do you want me to make you happy again, Daddy? Do you want to put your fingers…down there?”

Cam smiles. “Ah, sweet girl. You are always Daddy’s best girl, aren’t you?”

Their fingers have made their way between my thighs, but only halfway up, stroking the soft flesh there in small circles.

I am already squirming, aching for those fingers to finish their journey.

“But today, Daddy would like you to do something different to make him happy, okay?”

I stare at Cam, biting my bottom lip. “Okay, Daddy. I love making you happy. Tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it.” I hesitate, then plunge on. “I like it when your cock gets all big and you get happy.”

It’s the boldest thing I’ve said in the two times we’ve played this scenario. I hope I haven’t pushed too far too soon.

Cam groans and squeezes my thigh sharply, almost involuntarily. “Yes, I like it too when you make Daddy’s cock get big. I have a special way you can do that today, if you like?”

I nod enthusiastically.

“Good girl.” Cam motions me off their lap and throws a cushion on the floor at my feet. Suddenly I know what they want me to do and I’m in danger of coming before they’ve even touched me.

“This is for you, my sweet girl. You can kneel on it in front of me, and it will make sure your knees don’t get too sore as you make Daddy happy.”

I am almost panting with want. Oh God, how long is Cam going to string this out? They could fuck me right now and I would come instantly. But I know that isn’t what it’s about for them. It’s about the role, the patience, the drawing out of the pleasure.

Cam shuffles forward on the chaise, pulling me down to kneel in front of them.

I sit back on my haunches. “What do I do, Daddy?” I ask coyly, my voice only just above a whisper. “How do I make you happy this time?”

They smile and reach for one of my hands from where they sit clasped gently in my own lap. They tug and I move my hand hesitantly, trying not to be too eager, trying to be the demure good girl I am supposed to be.

“First,” Cam says, pulling my hand nearer to their crotch. “First you need to take Daddy’s cock out of his pajamas.”

I nod and reach forward, slipping my relatively small hand into the gap that’s opened in their pajama pants. The dildo is warm from Cam’s body heat and, from the feel of it, is one of our larger ones. I grasp it lightly with my fingers and tug.

“Yes, that’s it. Gentle now.” They lean back a little, breathing heavily. “Pull Daddy’s cock out now.”

I use my other hand to ease the pajama opening wider and slowly pull their cock free of its confines. It is indeed one of our larger ones. Black, smooth, over seven inches long and nearly two inches in girth at the base. Oh God, just the thought of that filling me…

“Like this, Daddy?” My voice is so husky it’s unrecognizable.

“Oh yes.” Cam’s eyes are half-lidded. “That’s perfect, my good girl.”

I pull it completely clear.

“Now, sweet girl. Daddy’s best girl.” Cam’s voice is even lower. “Can you lean forward and lick Daddy’s cock? Lick it like an ice cream?”

Oh fuck.

Oh fuck.

Cam saying those words, in that dirty tone, has me squeezing my thighs together to stop my orgasm. I may actually have to let myself come straight away to be able to get through this, but I know that would disappoint them, and that’s one thing I never want to do.

I bend at the waist, still grasping their cock in one hand. I can smell Cam once I’m closer. Their scent is intoxicating.

I slowly run my tongue up from the base of their cock to the tip.

They let out a tortured moan.

I lift my head and meet their eyes. “Like that, Daddy?”

Cam nods, their breathing uneven, and they place one hand gently on the back of my head.

“That’s perfect. Good girl.” They press their hand firmly into the back of my head, bringing my lips back to the tip of their cock. “Now, to make Daddy really happy, can you open your mouth, please? Open it as wide as you can?”

I nod, trying to control my breathing, steady the pulsing of my clit. I let them push my head down as I open my mouth wide, let them push their cock slowly into my mouth, almost to my throat.

“Close your mouth, sweet girl.” Cam stares down at me. “Close your mouth so my cock is inside.”

I comply, and they groan loudly. I love what this is doing to them.

To both of us.

Cam slowly starts fucking my mouth, using their hand to bring my head closer, to force their cock deeper into me, but always managing to steer clear of gagging me.

I’ve sucked them off on a number of occasions, usually kneeling submissively while Sir stands above me, and I have been adamant about not being deep-throated. Cam remembers that now, even in the throes of a play that has clearly consumed them, and I love them even more for that consideration.

“Oh yes.” Cam works their cock faster in and out of my mouth. “You like Daddy’s cock in your mouth, don’t you, sweet girl? You like making Daddy happy, don’t you?” Their voice is strained and breaking with their arousal.

I try to nod, but it’s not possible with the force of them fucking my mouth. It probably doesn’t matter though. Cam is lost, gone into their own world where I am merely their sweet plaything and it doesn’t matter one iota what I say, as long as I keep sucking their cock like the good girl that I am.

And so I do, reaching out with both hands to grab their hips, pulling them deeper into me, letting them fuck me so fast it’s actually hurting my jaw. But I’ll take it, because I will always take what they do to me. This is how much I love them, will always love them.

“Oh yes,” Cam growls, pumping hard. “Daddy loves fucking his sweet girl’s mouth. Daddy loves it when he comes in—” They break off with a strangled cry, their orgasm slamming into them, thrusting their hips upwards so that this time I do have to back off in case they choke me.

They relax their hold on the back of my head, giving me the room, still wonderfully aware of my needs amongst the thrashings of their own climax.

As it calms, they loosen their hold on my head completely and gently nudge my chin with the back of one hand, telling me I can sit back.

The dildo releases from my mouth with a wet pop.

Cam’s breathing is slowing and their eyes are closed.

In comparison, my breathing is getting heavier. I desperately want them fucking me. I want to be impaled on their big cock, but I don’t know if we are still in role, so I don’t want to screw this up by blurting out what I want and ruining it for them.

Cam opens their eyes after taking one last deep breath. They look at me and I see the shame start to appear, and I don’t want them to feel that. Not now. This was consensual. We both wanted it. Even if we never do this again, I won’t have them feeling shame for it today.

They open their mouth to speak and I am sure the first word will be ‘sorry’, so before they can form it with their lips I place my hand carefully across their mouth.

“Don’t be sad, Daddy,” I say, and Cam heaves in a ragged breath. “I liked it, Daddy. I liked it a lot,” I whisper, all demure again.

“Did you, sweet girl?” They almost sob. “Did you?”

And I know behind their broken words Cam is speaking, not Daddy, and they are so grateful for what I am saying, for removing their shame.

I nod vigorously. “I always like making you happy, Daddy. Always.”

“Oh, my sweet girl.” Cam pulls me close, up on my knees, pressing me against their chest as they wrap their arms around me and kiss all around my hairline. They rub their fingertips along my jawline, pushing one fingertip against my lips, which are swollen from sucking their cock so hard. I tremble at the touch. “And are you happy, sweet girl? Are you feeling okay?”

I offer a small shake of my head. “I…I don’t think so, Daddy,” I say, almost petulantly. “It’s wet down there, Daddy, and…and I want to do that nice thing we did last time, Daddy.”

Cam shudders. “What nice thing would you like to do, sweet girl?” Their voice is a jagged whisper full of longing and need.

“I want Daddy to put his cock in me. I want Daddy to fuck me.”

Their groan fills the room, and suddenly they’re hauling me up. “On your hands and knees, sweet girl. Let Daddy fill that sweet pussy of yours.”

I’m literally shaking with need as I climb onto the chaise and get into position, my knees wide, wet cunt thrust up in the air for their viewing pleasure.

“Oh, you are so ready, aren’t you?”

“Please, Daddy! Please put it in me!” God, who am I? Where does all this come from?

The next moment I don’t care about the origins of this dirty play because Cam is right behind me, their cock nudging at my cunt.

Then they push roughly forward, ramming their cock deep inside me.

I cry out, the pleasure-pain so fulfilling it’s enough to bring me to tears of pure joy.

“Okay, sweet girl? Does Daddy’s cock feel good inside you like this?” Cam thrusts, pumping in and out.

“Yes, Daddy. Oh God, Daddy, don’t stop!”

It is all I have been waiting for the past twenty minutes or so. I can’t get enough of that cock inside me. God knows I am open enough to take it all now, however fast and hard Cam wants to fuck me.

“Oh yes, good girl. That’s it, let Daddy fuck your wet pussy with his big cock.”

I thrust back as Cam shoves forward and the combined action sinks their cock so deeply into my cunt the harness presses tight against the skin of my ass.

“Oh yes!” Cam cries. “Oh yes, Daddy’s girl is so good. Fuck Daddy’s cock, sweet girl. Fuck Daddy’s big cock.”

They grab hold of my hips and we begin a brutal fucking, me working with them to keep their thrusts going as deep as possible. I am dripping with sweat, my arms and thighs burning from the energy I am expending but I am loving, absolutely loving every moment of this fuck. I’m zoning into a place where it is purely my cunt and their cock, and the exquisite sensations that are ripping through me.

When I come, I howl like an animal.

Cam cries out something indecipherable, then drapes their body over mine, pushing my head into the pillows, thrusting deep for one last time and then staying there buried deep inside me.

I feel the tears start, and I can’t stop them once they come.

Cam kisses all the parts of my skin they can reach before easing out of me. They gently push me down onto the chaise, then roll me over. I am boneless; they have to do all the work.

Then their mouth is on mine, kissing me so sweetly. “I love you,” they say. “Oh God, I fucking love you so much.”

I look up into their eyes and I see all of them.

Cam; Daddy; Sir; babe. They are all of this.

And I am theirs.

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Online (Free!) Erotica Readings Featuring Writing Spicy Students

Save the dates! Hope we can all attend and cheer each other on!

Smut Peddlers: Thursday, March 3, 2022, 5:30pm PT / 8:30pm ET

RSVP for the Facebook event here
Join on ZOOM: https://zoom.us/my/gladday
PW: 1970

Everyone remembers their first time, when they feel a sensual, intrigued gaze, that sense of vulnerability, the desire to please… Yeah, everyone remembers their first time reading at Smut Peddlers. The return of Glad Day’s own wildly successful evening of erotica and sexy writing from young queer, trans and non-binary writers at the world’s oldest surviving LGBTQ bookstore… but online once again because of Ms. Rona. This month the Smut Peddlers are doing something special; fan favourite Kel Hardy will be hosting students from Sinclair Sexsmith’s writing course who will be reading from their work. But we’ll have a few foxy, familiar faces as well!

Hosted by Kel Hardy
laura q
Rose Weaver
seeley quest
Clara Kiely
Rebecca Rose Vassy
Faith
Lux Steinberg
Leo Wilder
Seán Carson Kinsella

Readers for these next two will be announced ASAP! Meanwhile, please save the dates!

Spicy Showcase, Sunday, March 20, 2022, 4-6pm PT / 7-9pm ET

Hosted by Sinclair Sexsmith
Featuring Kiki DeLovely
And students from Writing Spicier
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Register here to attend the Spicy Showcase! After registering, you will receive a confirmation email containing information about joining the Zoom.

About our feature:
Kiki DeLovely (http://kikidelovely.wordpress.com) is a witchy, kinky, polyamorous, mixed, non-binary femme who moonlights as an erotica writer when she’s not weaving magic through energetic healing and spiritual coaching. Kiki strives toward erotica that reads as fine literature and connects us with our highest selves. Their work has appeared in dozens of publications and they have toured both nationally and internationally, living and traveling all over the world. She now makes her home on Occaneechi-Saponi land.

And also featuring:
Amanda Nowalk
Sarah St John
Lichen
Bell
Sunni Jacocks
Candice Brown
Shaya MacDonald
Sophia Kleist
Leo Nyne
Valluna Blue

Make sure you register for the Zoom here!

Listen to Your Skin, Sunday, March 27, 2022, 4pm PT / 7pm ET

Hosted by Stina French
Featuring Ash Orlando
And students from Writing Spicier
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This month’s Listen To Your Skin event on March 27th at 5p MST will feature Ash Orlando. We will also have short performances by the following writers from Sugarbutch/Sinclair Sexsmith’s “Writing Spicier,” a queer-centered, kink-positive, five-week erotic stories workshop: Titus Androgynous, O. Tilia, Shannon Page, Aiden Rondón, Kae, Fritz Kutchko, R. Magdalen, Geneviève, and Lyzz Stewart

We’ll begin with a brief (very spicy!) writing exercise. No open mic this month to make room for all our featurettes and the writing exercise! We will meet via Zoom.

About the featured writer:

Ash Orlando lives and works on Dharug and Gundungarra land in Western Sydney, Australia. They are a playwright, performer, poet and general troublemaker. They are most recently featured in Best Lesbian Erotica 6, Big Book of Orgasms 2, and Heckin’ Lewd: Trans and Non-binary Erotica. Ash’s anthology “Soft Fruit” will be in most online bookshops in March 2022, and you can see them flex their writing muscles at @say_please_baby on Instagram.

And also featuring:

Titus Androgynous
O. Tilia
Shannon Page
Aiden Rondón
Kae
Fritz Kutchko
R. Magdalen
Geneviève
Lyzz Stewart
Sonia Funkenbusch
Jennii Drew

BEFORE JOINING: Read our very important event guidelines. Our intent is to create a safe space to be open for all participants, and toward that aim, there are some themes/approaches we just aren’t interested in hearing. You may be booted from the Zoom meeting if you violate the guidelines of the event.

WANNA FEATURE? Please see this page. We commit to centering work by BIPOC and LGBTQIAP+ writers and performers. If you know of a writer/performer who has sexual themes in their work and who is in one of these categories, please contact sisterrainbowscream@gmail.com to nominate them/yourself as a future feature.

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The Lineage & Ancestry of Queer Kinky Erotica

In the Writing Spicy class this spring, I invited people to honor the names of the people who came before them, people who wrote or created content around queer kink, reclaiming sexuality, and more. I’d never done this before, but it became a powerful list — no, more than a list: a powerful digital altar. It acknowledges our collective lineage, and how much work people have done in order to get us to a place where we can write and publish as freely as we can.

This was the invitaiton:

Invitation to acknowledge all the radicals who came before us — queer, kinky, neurodivergent, people of color, disabled, fat, and other historically marginalized folks.

Almost none of the things I’m sharing in this course are completely made up by me — I come to the knowledge I have because I’ve read books, went to workshops, listened to elders, learned history, and studied about sexual, gender, and kink liberation.

Feel free to add the names of folks you have learned from, who have been inspiring to you, on this thread.

I started with a list of more than a dozen erotica authors whose work influenced me, some of my writing teachers, and other queer folks whose work made a difference.

People wrote all kinds of things, including things like “The small group of neurodivergent queer kin I loved, survived, and sheltered with while growing up.” and “Every nameless/anonymous/forgotten queer whose work I read on literotica late at night over a 56.6.k dial-up connection.” and “A handful of queer zines I could find back in the mid-1990’s that probably saved my life several times over.”

And of course, we generated an incredible list of names. (This isn’t the entire list, but a lot of it.) Not all these folks are explicitly queer, or kinky, but they have been an influence on us as we’ve created our kinky queer lives.

It feels like a prayer, when I read these names out loud.

I invite you not only to read through this list, but to think about who is on your own list of influences. Who has been your lineage, your ancestry? Maybe not the ones you’re related to through blood, but the ones you claim culturally, the ones who have helped you make sense of who you are and how you fit in the world.

Blessed are the in betweeners, the boundary pushers, those who make the paths.
Blessed are the porn makers, the erotic writers, the liberationists.
Blessed are our ancestors, by blood and by choice.

    Adrienne Marie Brown
    Alison Bechdel
    Amber Hollibough
    Annie Lennox
    Audre Lorde
    BD Swain
    bell hooks
    Beth Ditto
    Carol Queen
    Carrie Brownstein
    Casey Plett
    Cecilia Tan
    Davey Davis
    Diana Cage
    DL King
    Donna Dresch
    Dorothy Allison
    Fiona Zedde
    Daemonum X (FIST zine)
    Gayle Rubin
    Guy New York
    Hanne Blank
    Imogen Binnie
    Ivan Coyote
    Jack Stratton
    Jen Cross
    Jiz Lee
    Joan Nestle
    Karlyn Lotney
    Kathleen Warnock
    Kelli Dunham
    Kill Rock Stars
    Laura Antoniou
    Leah Lakshmi Piepszna-Samarasinha
    Lee Harrington
    Leslie Feinberg
    Louise Erdrich
    Marcia B
    Mark Doty
    Mary Oliver
    Midori
    Minnie Bruce Pratt
    Nancy Friday
    Octavia E. Butler
    Patrick Califia
    Princess Kali
    Rachel Kramer Bussel
    Raven Kaldera & Joshua Tenpenny
    Rita Mae Brown
    S. Bear Bergman
    Sacchi Green
    Shar Rednour
    Shine Houston
    Shirley Manson
    Simon Sheppard
    Sins Invalid
    Starhawk
    Susie Bright
    Tara Hardy
    Tobi Hill-Meyer
    Toni Amato
    Tristan Taormino
    Xan West

Add your own in the comments, if you wish.

If some of your influences are people who are relatively private, and might not want their name on a “sex blog,” feel free to abbreviate it, or just share a first name or initial.

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Erotica Writing Joy, Protocol Game, D/s, & Other Recent Media

Lots o’ stuff going on over here! Grateful for all the amazing folks who have had me on their podcast lately, who have written about my work, and who have tried out the Protocol Game! Love hearing about your adventures with all of it.

Here’s a small roundup of some of the recent happenings!

Kink Quest Podcast, Episode 13: The Protocol Game

We have been trying to play Sinclair Sexsmith’s Protocol Game for years now, and have just started to really make it work for us lately. In this episode, we talk about some of the experiments that went well, others that went… less well, and what it all means to us!

Listen to Episode 13 of the podcast here

You can purchase the Protocol Game cards in my shop!

How a story about spanking helped me find myself: For queer and trans readers, erotica can provide a roadmap for realizing our truest selves, By Andy Bandyopadhyay on Xtra

I’ve followed Sinclair Sexsmith’s blog, Sugarbutch, for many years. I love the combination of true stories, erotica and reflections on queer kink. So when they announced an erotica writing workshop, Writing Spicy, centring queer, trans and kink writing, I signed the fuck up.

I wish I’d done that sooner. […] Sharing that piece in class also helped me feel less alone. Transmasculine classmates reacted with instant recognition: the way you can belong somewhere but not belong, the isolation of feeling just outside the door, the need to see our own kink journeys in kink media.

Read Andy’s account of the Writing Spicy class on Xtra Magazine here

American Sex Podcast Episode 183 — Dominant & Submissive D/s Dynamics with Sinclair Sexsmith

On Ep 183 of American Sex Podcast, we talk with Sinclair Sexsmith about dominance & submission. While most are aware that Dom/sub play is common in kink, we also have a very narrow view of what it entails. D/s isn’t always cruel & authoritarian. We talk about the many ways people engage in D/s & how they find strength by surrendering to powerlessness, including:

  • The different types of D/s & selecting areas of control
  • Building healthy dynamics
  • “Subs hold all the power”
  • Balancing fantasy & reality
  • “Giving up” safe words
  • D/s as an “intimacy fetish”
  • Deconstructing power

Listen to Episode 183 here, or with your favorite podcast app

Review: Best Lesbian Erotica of the Year, Volume 6, from the Itinerant Librarian

I can say after reading this book that the editor succeeds in presenting a diverse, enticing, at times moving collection of experiences and erotic adventures. This is an anthology that pushes the boundaries of what erotica can be and can do, and it is reflective of the times we live in. Rather than being escapist, the stories take us away on various journeys while working within the current reality. Just because the times are hard now it does not mean we forget pleasure. On the contrary, the stories strongly show and hold on to pleasure, and they bring us readers pleasure as well plus a way to connect their experiences and ours in the act of reading.

Read the review over on the Itinerant Librarian blog

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Elust #146 includes “Write the Erotica You Want to See In the World”

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Erotic Fiction

The Baker’s Wife

Droit de Seigneur 27

Strangers on a Commute

Precious Juice

Erotic Non Fiction

CUCKADOODLEDO!

My New Strap On

Cuckold Husband in Chastity Buys His Wife a Pearl Necklace

Hands

My Bukkake Events are Back!

New Slave into Ballbusting and Small Dick Humiliation

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships

6 Sustainable Tips For an Eco-friendly Sex Life

What Type of Vibrator is Right For You?

The Power of a Kiss

Bookmarking: a strategy for prioritizing intimacy

Thoughts & Advice on Kink & Fetish

A Goddess to Tease You Into Her Trap

Body Talk

H is for Hair Down There and Everywhere, Still Don’t Care

The Clitoral ‘Erection’

Writing about writing

Episodic

Write the Erotica You Want to See In the World

Sex-Work

Advice For When Booking an Independent Escort

How To Be Anonymous in the Adult Industry 2022

erotica writing

On Developing A Writing Habit

“Any tips for developing the time/habit/discipline to write regularly?”

This is an age-old question for not only writers, but everyone seeking a creative life. There are dozens of books about famous writer’s daily routines, and this is a frequent question asked of writers in interviews. And for good reason — modern daily life is absolutely not set up to prioritize creative play or the spaciousness needed to create. So how do we do it?

Maybe most importantly, how do you do it?

Here’s my best ideas and resources about this.

Protect Your Writing Time Fiercely

Add writing time to your schedule. Maybe it’s at the same time every day, maybe it’s once a week, maybe it changes each day or each week — doesn’t matter; figure out what works for you and your schedule.

But this part is important: Put barbed wire around the writing time on your schedule.

There will always be dishes to do, chores to finish, errands to run, people to tend to, things to shop for online. You will never be done with those things. Do not let those things infringe on your writing time, for even a minute.

Putting writing time on your calendar is a promise to yourself. How are you with promises to yourself? Do you break them? How much do you trust yourself to hold the promises you make to yourself? You might have to change your relationship with your own self-trust, depending on how it has been so far, in order to make and keep a regular writing time.

Do the Things that Surround Writing

Read. Read things you think you should know about, read things different than what you write, read books in your genre. Listening to audiobooks counts as reading.

Go out into the world (without your phone!) and observe. Spend time alone with your thoughts, where your brain has space to breathe and isn’t taking in more input.

When was the last time you were bored? When was the last time you felt like your mind actually emptied all the overloaded information it carries, and was able to think deeper?

It takes a lot of intention to have that kind of spaciousness. It is much easier to be in the information overload, and much harder to carefully, cautiously curate the information that goes into your mind (more on that later). It is worth it to make the effort of that intention so that you can more easily write and create.

I think of the writing process in three parts: 1. Enough time and space to think, form ideas, make connections, and be inspired. 2. The actual writing-words-down part. 3. Editing.

Then, of course, there’s the submitting, publishing, etc., but that is more of the admin and business of writing than the creative generation process. Those, to me, take different parts of my brain, and different kinds of effort.

Point is, the quiet before writing is an essential part of my own writing process, and it helped to learn that, and to keep barbed wire around that quiet part, too.

Your mileage may vary here, and you should investigate your own tendencies and how your writing process works (ideally and in practice). Maybe you need a significant amount of quiet time before you ever put your pen down. Maybe you need trigger moments, Pavlovian things that you do exclusively when you sit down to write, so that you can start building that trick to yourself that it’s time to focus — like the same playlist, or a candle you always light, or a particular scent you always add to your essential oil diffuser. Experiment! Take note of your successes. Try things, and adapt.

Look Into the Behavioral Science of Habits & Discipline

I’ve long been influenced by the website Tiny Habits, which was built by a behavioral scientist and explores how we change our behavior, which is what builds new habits.

He says: “only 3 things will change your behavior in the long term. Option A: Have an epiphany; Option B: Change your environment; Option C: Take baby steps.” Unfortunately, you can’t really force yourself to have an epiphany, but you can absolutely change your environment and take baby steps. He’s got a lot of great tips for how to do that, whether the habit you want to add is flossing, writing, or finishing a novel.

The book Atomic Habits by James Clear is very similar to me — “atomic” meaning “at the atom level,” he really focuses on the teeny tiny changes that can make a big difference over time. I really liked this powerful interview with him & Brene Brown on her Dare to Lead podcast, which has many of the core concepts in his book.

One key thing I’ve learned, and try to remember, is to always start small when building new habits. Make it ridiculously easy, way too easy, because then you will do it, and you will be more inspired to do more. It proves to yourself that you will do the things you say you’ll do, which is another important step. You start becoming the person who keeps promises to yourself, even the really small ones.

Surround Yourself with Inspiration

What kind of media are you consuming every day? Who do you follow on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook?

The information and media you consume is part of your “diet,” part of what you input into your body every day.

How deliberate are you about what you take in?

Start curating your feeds, algorithms, and media more deliberately to move you toward a writer’s life. Unfollow accounts that make you feel bad (this is good for everything, regardless of building a writing habit). Follow other writers, writing life accounts, writing quotes, inspiration, things in your genre. Watch documentaries about writer’s lives. Listen to podcasts that interview writers.

You can encourage yourself to hold to your goals, show up for your routines, and keep writing on your mind by changing the kind of media you’re consuming.

Accountability Buddies

In If the Buddha Got Stuck by Charlotte Kasl, she writes about trying to finish some very particular task, but that she just couldn’t do it. So, she says, “When you’re acting like a baby, get a babysitter.” She invited somebody over to help her with the task, and was able to get it completed.

Sometimes we need accountability. I’ve seen a lot about this under the idea of “body doubling,” not in a sci-fi kind of way, but in a “I need a body next to mine in order to focus” kind of way.

If this would be helpful, consider hosting or joining a co-working session or co-writing session. I’ve seen folks hosting this kind of thing in some of the Facebook groups about writing I’m in, and in various Discord channels. So you might have to go back a step and join and interact with some writing community in order to get access to these kinds of events.

If nobody you know is available for this, you can search “write with me” on Youtube and find folks who have recorded their co-writing times, and you can body double a recording. Is it the same? No. But it still might work!

Write Every Day, or Don’t

All the advice everywhere says “write every day.” Yeah, sure, in an ideal world, maybe someone would write every day — getting into a daily rhythm can be really helpful. But some people’s rhythms work in 2- or 3-day cycles, not just one 24 hour period.

The advice to write every day also presupposes a lot of things. You need an abundance of free time — and not everybody has that. Plenty of people have an exhausting full-time job (or two or three), children or aging family to take care of, or crises to manage regularly.

You also need relatively stable mental and physical health. If you have a mental health crash, a psychiatric episode, or if your physical wellness tanks, you will not be actually capable of showing up at your desk and doing your work. Maybe it’s possible 5 days our of 10, or even for months at a time, but there can and will be interruptions with our health and wellness that will change influence our routines. And for people with chronic physical or mental illnesses, or who live with people with chronic illnesses to whom we are a significant caregiver, a daily writing routine just isn’t realistic.

Parenting also influences the daily writing routine. The poet Lucille Clifton wrote dozens of books and produced some of my favorite poetry that I’ve ever read. She has an entire book of haiku, and I was taught (though I can’t find the source now) that she wrote haiku because she was parenting small children for a while, and just did not have more than a few minutes at a time for her writing. So, her writing got shorter.

My friend Minna Dubin created her public art project Mom Lists similarly, as she was writing herself into her new writing voice and explorations after having kids.

So maybe you write every day, maybe you don’t. Maybe your “routine” isn’t a consistent schedule, but carving out a few hours here or there when you can. That’s okay. Do what you can. Lean in to the habits and parts that work for you. Keep moving.

Time Goals vs Word Count Goals

Often, when you read about the routines of the great thinkers and writers and philosophers, they talk about using the container of time to get their work done. “I’m at my desk from 11am until 4pm,” or “I always write pre-sunrise from 4-8am.”

I find pomodoro-style “sprints” are also really useful. I set a timer for twenty minutes, focus on ONE THING and one thing only in that twenty minutes, and go for as long as I can. When the timer goes off, I take a short break, goof off, and do another 20 minute sprint. There are great apps and timers for things like this, like this Pomodoro timer. A timer can help me focus quite a lot.

Because look, let’s be honest. Twitter is right there. Email is right there. Netflix and Youtube and texting the love of my life are all on my computer, right next to my writing app.

Sometimes I have the will power and motivation to just not look at it, but sometimes I don’t.

I’ve had to be realistic about that as I get more serious about writing productively and paying attention to my routines and habits. So I often use focus apps, like Freedom, which I can set up for a certain amount of time and it will block everything except what I give it access to, or it will block specific things. Maybe it’d be better if I could just have the willpower myself, but sometimes that’s just not realistic. It has helped.

There’s a lot of new science available about how people just aren’t built to do more than 4 hours of deep work every day. As you’re setting up time goals for yourself, take a look at those studies and articles — and then, decide for yourself what works best for you, regardless of the studies.

So, making a writing goal of a specific time is one way to do it. But you can also set yourself word count goals.

There are some great sites and apps you can use to track your word count, like 750 Words, which takes Julia Cameron’s core concept of “morning pages” from The Artist’s Way and app-ifies it, aiming for three pages (250 words per page) each day.

Nanowrimo, the site that hosts National Novel Writing Month each November, has some great tools, and they’re actually available year round, so you can set up your own version of Nanowrimo and word count goals.

Don’t Forget About Your Body

It’s easy to get caught up in intellectual, emotional, brainy work of creating, thinking, and philosophizing — but don’t forget to tend to your body, in whatever ways work for you.

Keeping your body limber and strong will help you write longer, sit at your desk more comfortably, and to keep moving your own experience through your physical body.

But it’s not just tending to your body so you will have as much health as you can — it’s also the honoring of your body as a source of creativity, as fuel, and as an essential part of the creative process.

The science of creativity has been paying more attention to the role the body plays recently. In an article from Psychology Today, Jeffery Davis writes: “We know now, I hope, that being creative consistently—from ideation to block-busting to execution to launch & ship—involves much more than sitting and thinking. The body is not merely a shell. … “The artist takes the body with her,” Maurice Merleau-Ponty noted a few decades ago. The rest of the body—movement, gesture, musculature, autonomic functions—shapes how thought happens.”

If you want even more on this, the book Writing From the Body has great inspiration and activities to try to get further in touch with the wisdom of the body.

Look to Other Author’s Routines

It can help to read about other’s routines. Of course, the routines that are widely available are usually from the very famous, classic, white cis hetero writers of the 19th and 20th centuries, and these folks also usually had plenty of money and time to write.

Some had wives (or servants!) available to them — you’ve probably heard that thing about how Henry David Thoreau, famous for taking up a small home at Walden Pond and lamenting on nature, was regularly visited by his mother who did his laundry and brought him food. This is debatable, but continues to make the point: writers often had help to run the admin of their lives, and their daily writing routines may or may not be accessible to those of us who are now, in 2022, in late-stage capitalism, with inflation on the rise and wages remaining the same.

Nonetheless, I continue to be inspired by writer’s routines and reflections on how they create. Here’s some good ones.

Most Importantly: Find What Works For You

That means experimenting with routines, goals, habits, techniques, tools, and everything you can think of — and then reflecting on what is working and what isn’t. Do more of what’s working; do less of what isn’t.


From Decenter the Teacher on Instagram

Eventually, you might write your own Commandments on how it works best for you.

Books & Resources

A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf gives us this essential concept: “A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction.”

The Creative Habit by Twyla Tharp — great summary here.

The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron — if you’ve never worked through this 13-week program, it is absolutely worth doing at least once. There are virtual groups and (at least, in pre-pandemic times) in person groups forming frequently. The book has everything you need to create a group yourself — maybe a few friends would like to join you.

Daily Rituals: How Artists Work, by Mason Currey

Flow: The Psychology Of Optimal Experience by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi

Atomic Habits: An Easy & Proven Way to Build Good Habits & Break Bad Ones by James Clear

Tiny Habits by BJ Fogg

Daily Routines archive on Marginalian (formerly Brain Pickings)

And even more book recommendations from Amazon, from my personal list of suggestions.

Please note: I’m linking extensively to Amazon here, primarily because they have an amazing database of book information. Amazon is a dangerous, has too much control over the publishing industry, and enables police surveillance, among many other things. I know Amazon makes things accessible to many people who might not have resources locally, who are disabled, or who are just unable to find alternatives. Totally get that, and no judgement — order from Amazon if you need to. (Read a How to Stop Shopping at Amazon article here.) If you can take the extra time to get these books from your local independent bookstores, or from places like bookshop.org, please do.

erotica writing

Some Core Writing Spicy Philosophies

As I’ve been inviting folks to attend the online erotica writing group, I’m hearing a lot of this:

“Ack, I can’t go to an erotica class, what if someone found out?”

“I’m not ready! I’m so behind on my reading, and I haven’t written erotica in years!”

“What if someone tells me my writing is not good?”

“What if someone tells me that the kink thing I write about is bad & wrong for reasons I’d never thought about?”

Let me tell you a little bit more about the philosophies behind the Writing Spicy groups.

1. Absolutely NO Kink or Sex Shaming

In Writing Spicy, you can write about any kink or sex that you want to write about. (We do have a list of guidelines for topics that we give content warnings for; more on that in a bit.)

This thought, though, has comforted me immensely throughout my erotica writing attempts: No matter how kinky, dirty, nasty, or “immoral” you might think your fantasies (or your character’s fantasies) are, there is always someone who wants something “more perverted” than you do. (This is very easy to prove with just a few clicks of the internet.)

People who have joined these writing groups so far have been so generous and supportive when it comes to sex, kink, and expressions of desire and erotics that are unconventional.

2. Separate the Writer from the Narrator

Because many erotica stories are written in first person, it’s easy to talk about a piece of erotic writing by somebody as something the author themself wants to experience or that they desire. But in Writing Spicy, we separate our writer selves from the writing just a little bit, and discuss the narrator as a character (even if the narrator is the author).

For example:
Instead of saying, “I liked how you were talking dirty throughout all of the sex.”
I say, “I liked how the narrator was talking dirty throughout all of the sex.”

This helps to depersonalize the feedback and separate the content from the writer themself. It also helps to get a little distance, so that if there is confusion, or strong emotional reactions, they don’t get pushed onto the writer, but rather stay with the narrator.

3. Feedback Focuses on What’s Working Well

Based in Pat Schneider’s Amherst Writing Workshop method, and Tara Hardy’s method at the Bent Queer Writing Institute, we focus on the following things in our feedback as a default:

  • What is working in the piece
  • What stays with you
  • Any questions you might have

I find that when we focus on what we’re doing well, we often crowd out parts that aren’t working quite as well. It also helps us build up our identities as writers and have more confidence in our abilities.

If writers in the course want feedback beyond those three main points, they are welcome to ask for the kind of feedback they want. But generally, we’ll stick to these as a guideline for our feedback.

4. We Cultivate Care

There’s a particular list of content that is required to have a warning at the beginning of it, and that includes: non-consent, force, rape, or other assaults; consensual non-consent; Master/slave language; Daddy/Mommy, other familial language, incest; self harm; drugs & alcohol; eating disorders; blood; knives; breath play; pedophelia; beastiality; throwing up; and face slapping. (This is also subject to change for each individual cohort, if anyone in the group needs to be warned before certain kinds of content.)

Ever read stories on AO3? They use tags extensively. Content warnings can kind of work like tags, where the major actions and occurrences in the story are tagged and shown in the heading of the story. I see more and more writers who are heavily influenced by the work on AO3 — and why not? There is some amazing work on there — and I think content warnings and tags are becoming much more normalized than they have been in the past.

By including content warnings, we are letting everyone in the class choose whether to read something that could throw off their mental state for a long time. Sometimes, we just have to choose to not take in information about a particular thing, because we know it will do some damage. I’m encouraging us all to be discerning and go easy on ourselves.

The past few years have been really hard, y’all. There’s so much suffering out there. So I just want to do my part to make things more easeful, where I can.

(Don’t worry — plenty of the writers like the dirty, dark, edgy stuff, including myself and Ash, who will be assisting with feedback.)

5. Come See Me In Office Hours

In addition to the workshop each week, I’ll also be hosting office hours on Zoom, and anybody who wants to can join me. I’ll answer questions, look at writing, talk craft theory, or do some writing sprints — whatever the folks who show up want. So if you need a little extra support, pep-talk, or if something specific comes up for you during the class, you can reach me to talk about it even further.

Got any more questions? Go ahead and email me, sinclair@sugarbutch.net, to ask.

I hope you’ll join me and everybody else for another round of this supportive writing group.