poetry

The Beautiful Permission

The grass under our feet (as much as
Ҭyour dimples) was responsible for offeringӬ
sacrifice, so we could slide smile, courtӬ
coy glances, and balance tenacity overӬӬ

roots, rocks, sloping curves. We circledӬ
each other, noticing, observing, that way
Ҭwe do. Negotiation peeled off slowly
Ҭfrom my heartbeat heist as a ripeӬӬ

cream moon cracked open dark. YouӬ
whispered, whimpered; my pen tore
Ҭthrough slick paper as soon as it could,
Ҭdesperate for the inky release. HowӬӬ

could I know your upturned mouth
Ҭand skin would split open in me
Ҭsuch grace, such monstrous want,Ӭ
such a taste for marrow? I keepӬӬ

my own hungers in check, for fearӬ
I will devour too much, open too wideӬ
overstep, explode—myself or others.”¨
What could happen, you asked. What

ҬӬwould you do? If only I had the beautifulӬ
permission, perhaps I would find out.
ҬPerhaps I will, when your heart is placed
Ҭunder mine, under a bursting sky, again.

Published by Sinclair Sexsmith

Sinclair Sexsmith (they/them) is a queer trans butch writer focusing on sexualities, genders, kink, and relationships. Their short story collection, Sweet & Rough: Queer Kink Erotica, was a 2016 finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and they are the editor of 5 editions of Best Lesbian Erotica. Their latest book is Your Year in Kink: A Workbook to Reflect, Plan, & Create Your Kink Life. They lead the online erotica writing group, Writing Spicy, annually.

3 thoughts on “The Beautiful Permission”

  1. rife says:

    I’ve always loved this one, Sir.

  2. yarrow says:

    this is so beautiful.

    and:
    I have so much writing I’ve never published here do you want to see it?

    yes! your poems are always such a treat.

  3. Claire says:

    This reminded me of a verse from the Bhagavad Gita: “Through sacrifice you can procreate, and it shall satisfy all your desires.”

    I second yarrow, your poetry is beautiful and appreciated. :)

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