Let’s have some shots of joy, shall we?

DSC_1825I’m getting some new headshots done today by the talented Meg Allen, with the aim of reflecting me as a little bit more west coast and a little more joyous.

All the recent headshots of me, while technically beautiful, like this one by Kristy Boyce, which is one of the most gorgeous shots of me I’ve seen, have me looking so … miserable. The agony just seeps through and it’s depressing. I can’t use it for much. “I don’t mind earnest, or stern, or serious—I play all of those things a lot, and it kind of goes along with the bad-ass-top thing I am portraying,” I wrote to Meg this morning. “But these just look … sad.”

I keep thinking about this head shot of Sherman Alexie’s from a few (10?) years back—he’s open mouth laughing and it’s gorgeous. I remember being captivated by it when it was on the back of his book Ten Little Indians, and thinking how it was so unconventional, and also had so much deep joy.

alexieI don’t know if I can occupy some joy like that, but I’d love to try for some levity and some (deep dark, mischievous, shadowy, BDSM-style) playfulness, at least.

So that’s what’s on the agenda for today.

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Sinclair Sexsmith is a genderqueer kinky butch writer who teaches and performs, specializing in sexualities, genders, and relationships. They've written at sugarbutch.net since 2006, recognized numerous places as one of the Top Sex Blogs. Sinclair's gender theory and queer erotica is widely published in anthologies like Take Me There: Trans and Genderqueer Erotica, and online at Feministing, Autostraddle, AfterEllen, and more; they are the editor of Best Lesbian Erotica 2012 and Say Please: Lesbian BDSM Erotica, both published by Cleis Press. Sweet & Rough: Sixteen Stories of Queer Smut, Sinclair's first book of short erotic stories, was published in 2014. They use the pronouns they, them, theirs, themself, and live in Oakland, CA with their boy.

4 thoughts on “Let’s have some shots of joy, shall we?”

  1. Avery says:

    I’m sorry. I’ve been in the same boat. Recently. Time heals, but you knew that :)

    Might I also recommend my favorite local (SF) photographer, Mark Chester? He is ‘specially good at capturing personality and tenderness. Although he is known for his leather/fetish work, he also does a lot of fairly traditional portraits within the community. He has done marvelous portraits of my adult daughter and myself. He is curmudgeonly kind-hearted and will totally get what you’re looking for! Mark Chester – http://markichester.com/digital.html

  2. Tracy says:

    “All the recent headshots of me, while technically beautiful, like this one by Kristy Boyce, which is one of the most gorgeous shots of me I’ve seen, have me looking so … miserable.”

    Operative word being “recent”–> you’ve been through a wringer lately & I’d only find it off-putting if your headshot showed you giddy, actually. I’d say that particular shot shows someone who’s, “in the wars” as they like to say, here in AU. That beautiful face has a story to tell, & so, you will…

    Have patience, & heal.

  3. mel p says:

    Maybe try my mate Sarah Deragon at Portraits to the People?

    One of her favourite things is ‘not-so-corporate’ headshots. She’s in SFO.

  4. SD says:

    You’re so lucky to have Meg Allen doing your headshots. Meg is amazing. If you ever want another another round of photos, keep me mind. Thanks to Mel P. for the recommendation!

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