Tachycardia

Posted on July 24, 2009 in Kristen, poetry | 16 Comments

this is how I want you:

slow. deliberate. measured. languorous. torpid

bordering on excruciating, with kisses that

keep you counting the millimeters between

our mouths (six, four, three), counting

the breaths it takes before my hands

move from waist to shoulders up your

back (five), counting the heartbeats elapsed

to wrap my fingers around your upper arms,

tighten my grip, and press you back against

the wall (124 with occasional tachycardia). you

remember what it feels like to be overtaken,

don’t you, to become supple in my arms, to

struggle until you can do nothing but give over,

become empty for me to fill you everywhere.

because I know that’s what you want, that’s

how you forget yourself, that’s how I forget

myself too, perfect moments of being wrapped

inside you, safe, enveloped, protected, a return

to some place quiet and sacred where the red

burgundy sooths all with muscle and strength.

I will make marks on my wrist so I can measure

how far inside you I can reach, today, tomorrow,

now I can feel the underside of your heart, the

cellar door of it, I will pen the walls with beauty

beauty beauty until it radiates out of your pores,

graffiti seeping from inside. I’ve felt your fingers

thrumming my own atria, those upper chambers

of my heart with their glass doors and misting

humidifiers and weeping plants, I think you know

what it is you cultivate in my chest when your

knees go weak, when you sink your eyes

away from mine and slide back to check if I am

still holding you. I am, I am, my arms never leave

that curve of your shoulders, your hip, the way

you crush against me when I open wide, making

room for every inch of your skin against mine. you

quicken my heartbeats, not something I am used to,

but this means I can be stronger, pump more blood,

stay up even later, fucking and loving till dawn.

16 Comments | Category: Kristen, poetry | Tags: desire, falling in love, heartbeats, love letter, poetry, relationships, ruler tattoo, running with a single word, seduction, ten-line stanzas, this is how I want you, why I write with a thesaurus

Comments

16 Responses to “Tachycardia”

Skully
July 24th, 2009 @ 6:18 am

DAMN IT Sinclair…LOL

I love this..an it is like wow you just wrote about how my girl makes me feel..

this is soooo cool I hope someday me and my girl can meet you and Kristen.

have a great weekend
Natt Nightly
July 24th, 2009 @ 6:22 am

Sir, this is a truly beautiful peace. One of my favorites of yours in a while, and even moreso because it's an honest love letter.

::bows in gassho::
violet
July 24th, 2009 @ 6:33 am

worlds in worlds.
Femme Gender
July 24th, 2009 @ 6:40 am

"…loving till dawn" what could possibly be finer? fimg x
green-eyed girl
July 24th, 2009 @ 7:11 am

This is so so beautiful. I'm very happy for you!
Mugsie
July 24th, 2009 @ 7:32 am

Disarming, beautiful, and sexy!
Empress Jeneya
July 24th, 2009 @ 7:49 am

You definitely know what to say to get her excited…
Caitlin
July 24th, 2009 @ 9:31 am

One of the most beautiful love poems I've ever read. Thank you.
Gray
July 24th, 2009 @ 9:44 am

Wow, that was a very sexy and beautiful poem.
e
July 24th, 2009 @ 12:04 pm

This is one of the best things you've written ~ maybe ever. Really, really good. Actually beautiful. I will re-read this one many times. Thank you!
MakingSpace
July 24th, 2009 @ 10:24 pm

Gorgeous. Thank you so much for this.
girl2grl
July 25th, 2009 @ 5:27 am

Wow, that sure made my heart race! Thank you for sharing.
ani
July 25th, 2009 @ 4:45 pm

Lovely writing. Full of life and waves of love.

Very moving.

It seems like so many of the blogs I read have turned into endless toy commercials. ( I guess the free swag is intoxicating) It is so good to read something that reveals the heart.

All the best,

Ani.
Di
July 25th, 2009 @ 10:20 pm

Wow. So personal and intimate, yet resonates with me and my lover/partner. Thank you for sharing this with the rest of us.
DeviantDyke
July 27th, 2009 @ 4:59 pm

This was so beautiful…..

So beautiful.

Thanks for sharing.